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Tuesday, December 10th, 2002
6:34 pm	Not one red M&M; Hiya. I dont believe that out of a whole big bag of M&Ms;, there wasn't not even one red one. Humph. Anyway. Im at work. I needed a break from school junk. Today was the LAST DAY of classes. I do not believe it. It is crazy. I'm talking like I'm two. Its just a crazy thought. Anyway, so yeah.. last one today. Handed in 2 more term papers, the other one was turned in yesterday, and now I'm done. Until finals. Then I'll shoot myself in the head. Umm.. let me recap. This past weekend was good. I'm having a hard time remembering things cause it was so weird. With the snowday Thursday and only one class Friday, I felt that Saturday should have been my Monday. ::confusion:: Anyway. And yeah, Thursday night and Friday night we had mega people over so its all a big mush in my head. Saturday night I stayed in to do work.. which I kinda did. Rich came up at like 2 in the morning - I was still doing work - cause he was sexiled. Sucks for him. Can't wait to do it to Cel (hahah!)... so we were up till like 4. Then I fought hardcore with Andrew on Saturday night and Sunday. Made me sick to my stomach. Sunday was a good day, though, cause Cindy came down from Cornell with some of her friends and I met them in the city. It was great. Good to see her and meet some of the people she hangs out with. After that me and Rich shopped a little and then we had dinner. Lotsa Rich this past weekend ; ) Umm.. I did more work Sunday night and stayed up mega late, omg.. why? ((YOU know why ::glares::)) but thats okay. Monday was a good day. Kicked ass on my last Psych quiz.. Made study dates. All good stuff. Then today was normal. I slept sooo late and then only had one class. Now I'm already studying. Lets talk about tests. I'm scared out of my mind for Anthropology. Like... literally skipping heartbeats. Psychology.. is very very touchy. I have an A average for half my grade, but seeing as how we never really had an EXAM, I could totally blow the final. I do not need a C in that class. Reformation.. that one I'm doin' okay in. I have a solid B+. I'd really LOVE an A on the final to bring me up to an A overall. Its great though cause this is the one I was most scared about : ) Italian is crazyness. I was all scared cause I fucked up one quiz, but she's dropping it ((!!!)) and she told us the format of the final today and I'm not so scared anymore. Definitely not gonna get less than an A-/B+ overall. Then finally we got Philosophy. I want to marry my professor. He is beautiful. lol. People saw him at Tinkers on Saturday night. Hah! Yeah. I got the A. He knows it and I know it. Hehe. Anyway. So yeah. I have a lotta shit planned for the next few days... I'm working both Saturday and Sunday. Nicole's party is Saturday night. Review session tomorrow... Planning to hit up the city one more time.. one more party in there.. and wait there was something else.. Oh yeah. Studying. Hah. I think I might actually go home too. Just for a day. Hm. I'll update more. I dont know when. But I will. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Shhh. Library style. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 6th, 2002
6:45 pm	Party time Hiya. I'm in a kinda good mood ::grins:: Let me start off by saying that I got my wish and we got over 5 inches of snow yesterday. Thanks to the Lord, we got a snow day and after 12:30, all our classes were cancelled. It was a beautiful beautiful day. And it was the first time I've seen snow at Fordham. But I'll go into that more later. Umm... I went home for Thanksgiving and that was good. I worked every single day, though.. and I didnt sleep at all. I went out every night and then got up again, usually after only 4-6 hours of sleep. All week. But it was good. I made some money, etc etc. And it was nice being home. OMG and eating good real food. My nana got an operation on her leg. All was good until her heart medication and pain medication mix caused her to get back in the hospital this week. Then the day she got out, my Dida went in ::sigh:: Anyway. Back at the school front... I was up really late Sunday night, the night I got back, cause I had done NOTHING during break. But that was alright. I spoke to some professors during the week, got some papers done. It was okay. Talked to that kid some more before class : ) He's majoring in this theology junk. So at least he knows what he's doing (unlike me). Umm. Then after this whole stressful Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.. Thursday it began to snow. And it was beautiful. And we're gonna have such a snowful winter ::Grins:: Yes. So then today was lots easier since I had all yesterday to do nothing with... and now we're partying tonight. I gotta go get ready. I'll post more after the weekend... Xo Current Mood: high Current Music: Telepopmusik - Breathe.. thanx Mike!! ; ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 25th, 2002
8:37 pm	..every night's a disco night I feel yuck. I didn't get enough sleep last night cause I was up reading till the morning. It turns out I didn't have a test on the reading in the end, and it sucks because I was so sleep deprived. This weekend was long.. eh. Wells, Friday night I went out to Saint John the Divine Catheral in lower Harlem to see a beautiful Spanish art exhibit. There were 2 El Greco's that were amazing. Its almost breathtaking to see something that someone created so long ago... that's so famous. I might faint if I go see the Sistine Chapel. So yeah, I went into the city with Pat, Andrew and Nicole. Things were rough with Christina because she's still very very confused about Pat. I can't help that, though. Anyway. There were some sculptures and things.. really well done. I'm really glad I went. And there was some bible and book written by Saint Teresa.. which was awesome because I just read her book "Interior Castle." Pat was awesome cause he knew all of it.. I think he went to a Catholic high school, so he put up with all my questions. Ya'll know how I get. And then after that we all ate and went to see Harry Potter. It was soooo very good. I loved it. Afterward we all walked down toward Columbia and hung out with some people there for a while. It was a good night. We all went back to Nicole's and I crashed there that night. Celia's birthday is today (Happy 20th!!) and her boyfriend was up for the weekend, so I told her she could have the room. Saturday I did some more work.. that night I stayed at another friend's room. No sleep the whole weekend. I finally got back here yesterday and did some work. Lots of it. I finished late last night and got up early to do more. Its alright, though. Tomorrow is my last day before Thanksgiving break. And I got back my Theology paper today and I got an A. I talked to that kid again before class started. He's a good one. He got an A too. Then, after everything I had to work all night til now. Sucks. No break. But today was nice cause it was a beautiful day outside and cause we all went to get lunch together and it was good. I got a lot of my work done tonight that I need to do before the end of the semester, so I was happy. Now I'm gonna go do nothing until tomorrow, cept maybe pack.. cause I have to pack a LOT. Haha. Laters. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Howie Day - Disco (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 19th, 2002
5:59 pm	Work sucks my ass Hiya. I've been meaning to update this thing for like.. a week, and I'm just getting around to it. I just read this article in my school paper about how November is a tough, bitch month. It sooo is. Sorry to all you folks with birthdays in November. Its just that.. the weather sucks, we haven't had a break in 4 months.. all the teachers are cramming everything in before Thanksgiving.. and yo! Thanksgiving break is a fuckin' tease, man, because you get 3 days (big deal) and then you're back here for one of the worst months of your life (because months in which you take finals are worse than the month of November). But whatevs. I just need to breathe. So one week ago exactly, it was raining. At Fordham, it is always raining. I hate it. Unless we're in a tornado-ridden lightening storm... rain has no use to me. I dont care if we're in a freakin drought. Anyway. So it was raining and that day I was walking to work and I was thinking of updating and I thought of titling it "..when the weather is like my mood" because I felt like shit that day. It was just ugly and depressing out (funny cause winter didn't even start yet..) and I didn't like it. I kept thinking of Dida back home who's so very old and so very near death. And I kept thinking about the rest of the grandparents and how I can hear a different tone in my Nana's voice. And how my dad's face looks so tired. I mean, I go home and I see the babies and they are so beautiful and getting so big.. but there's the reverse. There's the other side which is harder to see... hard when you stop going home. So I was really sad. It was a tough day. So I'm at work, fixing up this paper I had due on Wednesday. And work sucked, of couse. And as I was leaving, I saw this kid by the exit that I have a class with, same class, in fact, that the paper was due for. He was kinda standing in the awning of the library, kind of bracing himself for the rain because he didn't have an umbrella. And I was kinda feeling back because I did. So I walked past and said Hi. And he was so cute cause he's minature almost and he looked over his shoulder to make sure it was him I was talking to. And when he realized it was, he was like "Hi!!" lol. Funny. So we were talking small talk style.. and we started walking and I felt bad so we shared my umbrella and we talked about our papers. And about how the class sucks. And I'm glad I talked to him because he's really quiet and shy and probably not too popular. Jadan ::half smile:: Anyway. So that was good and then I got back to my dorm and chilled out. So the next day in class, he usually sits up in the first seat alone, he came and sat over by me : ) So that was nice. Sometimes it feels good to just be a friend for someone. People need that. Hells, I do all the time. This past weekend.. hmm. Thursday night I went out with Nicole and Andrew and we saw My Big Fat Greek Wedding... it was SOOO funny. I looooved it. Great movie, totally recommended. Then on Friday night me and Celia went to visit her genetics professor, but it was a scary man so I waited outside and made important phone calls... and then we went over to this bonfire thing that Fordham had. It was fun. Warm. Then we partied it up a little bit and got back to the dorms around 11. At midnight, the school was putting on a performance of the Rocky Horror Show and one of our friends was in it.. so we decided to check it out. So me, Ceal, Richx2 headed over and it was awwwwwesome. I loved that too. Seeing cute guys in tight underwear is never a bad thing :winks: Saturday morning we got up fairly early and got ready to go into the city for Cecilia's birthday. This year we're all picking one thing that we wanna do for our birthdays, and she wanted to have a tea party : ) So cute. So we got all dressed up and went down to the Four Seasons Hotel (in the rain) and we had tea. It was hella expensive, but sooo very very good. I loved it. I had mint chocolate tea and finger sandwiches and scones and all of it was so delish. After that a couple of us caught a cab and went to the Whittney where we saw some beautiful artwork. I felt very cultural ::smiles:: Sunday was a day to veg out cause I had a lotta work to do. I dont think I ever read as much as I read on Sunday. It was worth it. Monday, yesterday, sucked. The weater was nice for once ::thanks God:: Windy, but nice. I looked nice too! But I had a religion quiz that nearly gave me a heart attack.. even though I got a 100, yeah baby! Ohh yes! The reason yesterday sucked was because it was Registration! Wooo hooo. Sunday night Celia was up really really late doing work and I needed to get to sleep in order to be up at 6:45. Hah. Got to sleep at 3. Umm. So yeah, I registered.. took foreverrrr... but I got all the classes I wanted and its beautiful. The schedule sucks, mind you, I will get raped up the ass, but... I did get all the classes I wanted. So after 4 hrs of sleep and then 3 two hour classes and a work shift or 4.5 hours.. I was ready to kill somebody. And as of Saturday me and Cel haven't had the hottest relationship. It sucks. We're very on and off lately. We need a break from each other. Anyway. So I got back last night and showered and did nothing all night cause I physically couldn't. And then I got some sleep last night and now it's today. Umm. Today was okay. I got up early, for some reason.. chilled before class.. had a fast lunch, more class... chilled some more and now I'm at work. I have a load of work to do, but I needed to chill out. I was getting a headache. So thats about it, I guess. I should get back... Eventually I'll post my schedule for next semester in here so ya'll can see how craZy I really am. Hahah.. psych majors are nuts. Anyways. I'm out. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: ..silence... ::frown:: (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 11th, 2002
12:43 am	::glares:: ...you know what? I'm fuckin sick of caring so much about everyone else. I'm sick of staying up all night on the phone consoling other people and caring about everyone else and their lives. No one gives a shit about me. No one asks me anything. No one wants to see how I am. So fuck it. I cant do that forever. Sometimes I gotta care about me. Cause I need to make me okay because I never am. And no one even knows it. Current Mood: angry Current Music: NC (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 5th, 2002
11:53 pm	..had a nothern lad, well not exactly had.. im reading philosophy today or theology or one of those topics where you have to use your brain immensely... and they keep talking about people that have had astounding enlightments and i tried to think about a time when a light suddenly turned on for me. one time was last week. im sitting in italian and its getting hard. im almost fluent, baby. its exciting. but we're getting to things like simultaneous and unsimultaneous actions and poetry and subjunctive verbs that are in pluperfect tenses... and its hard. i cant do this shit in english. so im in intermediate II, right? at the end of last semester, the bitch prof i had was really difficult and she decided to go into the the next semesters stuff and it was ridiculous. but thats what we're doing now. im doing it again. and i was just as confused as last semester until all of a sudden everything just *FELL* into place. into place in my head. it clicked. i was like.. oh my god. it was glorious. that was my latest enlightening moment. i had one at the beginning of the semester too. but i cant remember any before that. hm. i went to talk to my dean today about declaring a psychology major and a philosophy minor. she didn't help at all. ::rolls eyes:: umm. yeah. but it looks good. im happy. happy with school. sad with home. ::tear:: im also tired. and confused by a lot of people. not always in a bad way, but in a.. i wish i knew what to feel way. its exhausting. but I feel something is wrong but I feel this cake just isn't done Don't say that you Don't I feel the west in you and I feel it falling apart too Don't say that you Don't . somewhere where the the orchids grow I can't find those church bells that played when you died played Gloria talkin' 'bout Hosanah . I am not asking you to believe in me boy I think you're confused I'm not Persephone foam can be dangerous with tape across my mouth these things you do I never asked you how Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: tori amos (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 1st, 2002
12:12 am	Ram Van Confessions... ..driver and three of us talking, laughing.. Lincoln Center ram van girl appears to pick up sign in sheet Girl: Pete, dont you wear glasses? Driver: *turning away from conversation* What? Uhh.. yeah, sometimes. Girl: ..you know I never see you around anymore. Driver: Well, you know where to find me. Girl: We should set up a date or something.. Driver: Yeah, how about on.. *stops* Yeah. We should. *hands paper to her closes car door* (To us:) Yeah. That's my bosses girl friend. lol (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 31st, 2002
11:24 pm	"..and every two seconds we were like.. 'Ohhh,' 'ahh!'" ::grins:: Hi!!!! Hahaha, it's been a great day. I'm excited. Tuesday and today have been absolutely beautiful. Lemmie start with Tuesday. I had work Tuesday night and I was sick of thinking of working but I had my hair pin straight (aka beautiful ::winks::) and I went in and worked my way down into the basement and figured I wouldnt see anyone the whole night. Haha, wrong. It was like, my night to see every guy I know. Woo hoo ; ) I sit behind this long wooden counter.. and then out in front of the counter there are two computer desks set up.. so I'll normally go out from behind the counter and go use a computer. So I'm sitting there looking at e-mails and Luke walks up behind me and gives me a hug and I was all like Aww cause I haven't seen him at all lately. He's doing good though. Playing soccer. Recovering from his injury. We talked for a while and he went to do some work. I went back to my desk and read some and he came back a little later and like.. lol, sprawled out on the desk, literally lying down across my desk, and we talked for like an hour. And then he gave me a kiss (aww..) and he left. So I'm sitting there reading and like, all into it too, and I look up and its Jim : ) And I'm like "Hi!" lol. It was funny. He was studying for Orgo, same thing Celia was studying for back at the dorms. He was all stressed out and said he needed a distraction.. so I'm all like, "What, I'm a distraction?" and he grinned and agreed. ::winks:: So we bsed a little and he stood around. Then went back to studying. I got bored after a while and pulled out my earphones and I had some hot dance music in there so I totally got dancing in my seat (which is awesome and normal for me) and I'm reading along, bouncing around.. and I look up and I see RA Tom walking towards me *grinning* and I laugh and pull off one earphone. I'm like Hiya. He goes all into how I looked great dancing around and how I looked so happy. And I'm laughing, telling him I need something to keep me awake. He's a cutie. So he goes to study... and I'm back to reading and I'm into it and bobbing around still.. and all of sudden someone's standing in front of me and I got SO startled.. and its Jim again saying g'bye. So I had my share of distractions, all welcome. Nice to see some of those guys. Anyway. Today was HaLLoWeeN! Officially one of my most favorite holidays. Almost as good as Christmas. So I got all into my black tight clothes today and I was a vampire.. hot fangs and all. I made my hair crAzy.. Up, but like.. straight pieces out in every direction. Hehe. Ohh... and I'm so happy to say that I got a 100 on both quizzes I took today. Go me. Anyway.. so after my last class.. and after a day fullll of candy, me, Nicole and Pat get on the subway to the Village for the parade. I had candy for breakfast this morning. hehe. Anyway. So yeah, it was beautiful riding the train with all these people that were dressed up. So much fun. The parade was awwwwwwesome! The costumes were so awesome. We got some food, then found this street that wasn't so crowded and actually got all the way up to the street! Hahah... Yeah, so I was there and having such a good time. There were such fun costumes. And I took all these pictures. Cute ones : ) Umm.. best costumes? One guy was dressed as Snow White's mirror mirror on the wall.. and we're like.. Wha..? And then we see the Queen and we're like..Hmm.. and then we see the King.. and this little minature Snow White! She was a baby! Like 5 or 6. It was the whole family dressed up.. so cute. Next best was this woman dressed as a big electrical socket. On one side of her it said "Turn me on" the other side said "Socket to me" lol. And we're like.. hmm.. and then 2 seconds later we see her guy.. a plug! LoL. So of course they put on a show and he 'plugs' himself into her.. lol.. and they start to glow! It was sooo funny. Then there some beautiful drag queens.. queens prettier than most girls. And there were a lot of normal ones.. Star Wars.. Disney.. there were some Anti-War demonstrators.. all good. It was such a good parade. It ended kinda early and we all got back and now I'm tired. It's been a long day. Tomorrow is Friday.. I need to read still. And then tomorrow night there's a huge university funded party Lollanobooza... no booze. Sucks.. but the partys hot.. we just gotta pregame a while beforehand. And people are gonna sneak shit in, I know it. It should be hot. Then Saturday I'm being fun and taking some girls out to Long Island with me! We're gonna hit up Roosevelt Field and do some shopping cause we deserve it. I cant wait. Thats about it. My mom might be sick. Pray. Current Mood: okay Current Music: Eminem - Hallie's Song (..quite good) (Comment on this)
Monday, October 28th, 2002
9:10 am	..i'm fragile.. please be careful When I was born, they looked at me and said what a good boy, what a smart boy, what a strong boy. And when you were born, they looked at you and said, what a good girl, what a what a smart girl, what a pretty girl. We've got these chains that hang around our necks, people want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath. Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same, when temptation calls, we just look away. This name is the hairshirt I wear, and this hairshirt is woven from your brown hair. This song is the cross that I bear, bear it with me, bear with me, bear with me, be with me tonight, I know that it isn't right, but be with me tonight. I go to school, I write exams, if I pass, if I fail, if I drop out, does anyone give a damn? And if they do, they'll soon forget 'cause it won't take much for me to show my life ain't over yet. I wake up scared, I wake up strange. I wake up wondering if anything in my life is ever going to change. I wake up scared, I wake up strange and everything around me stays the same. I couldn't tell you that I was wrong, chickened out, grabbed a pen and paper, sat down and I wrote this song. I couldn't tell you that you were right, so instead I looked in the mirror, watched TV, laid away all night. We've got these chains, hang 'round our necks, people want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath. Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same when temptation calls ... When I was born, they looked at me and said; What a good boy, what a smart boy, what a strong boy. And when you were born, they looked at you and said; what a good girl, what a smart girl, what a pretty girl, hey Current Mood: mellow Current Music: bnl (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 27th, 2002
2:46 pm	..I come and go ::smiles:: Hiya. So Webster Hall was *amazing* I had an awesome time. I ended up going with Pat, Christina, Celia, and Jim and it was hot. We prepartied it up in my room with some other people and then we got outta here. The entire hall knew where we were going -- so weird, but it was nice to be the center of attention ; ) So yeah, the club overall was nice.. I mean, real big.. which is awesome, but not as fancy as I thought it'd be. But still, the music was good, awesome crowd = great time. We looked so hot ; ) Umm. Then I went home the next day because my grandparents came from Croatia and I wanted to say Hiya. Chilled with the twins a little, got a paycheck from CVS which was nice.. And got back to school. This whole week was rough because I kept getting back midterm grades that were good.. but one that nearly killed me. I almost took a nose dive out my window because of it. But I talked to the professor, who is so very good, and things are better now. This past weekend was homecoming!! So exciting... Friday night we all went to the Pep Rally... it made me all homesick for Bethpage pep rallies which are so much better. Our football team is doing good or something, so we all need to get excited ; ) Cuz they're cute and all. But anway, after that we all partied it up a little and then there was a midnight breakfast at the caf. It was rainy and cold out and there was a warm, real good breakfast for all of us at midnight. Such a cute idea. It helped make my Friday better cause it was a shitty night. Oh yeah! Friday during the day was good... we all hit up New Jersey for smoothies at Jamba Juice -- a place I'd never been -- and it was *awesome*, Andrew drove so it was nice cause we didnt have to worry about subways and shit. He had a nice Mercedes at the school, too. So that was fun. Shopped a little, blah blah. But then came back to school to get myself into TWO fights. And thats what made me sour Friday night. Cept the breakfast made me better. And sick when I went to sleep cause it was too late to be eating so much... Saturday I got up early and we all went to the football game in the rain. It was sooo good. We totally won. I had such a good time. Last night was the homecoming dance, which I didnt go to cause I believe homecoming dances are supposed to be attended with a date... everyone went without dates, whatever. So I stayed in.. decorated the walls of my room.. did some work and chilled out. Got that extra hour of needed sleep : ) And now its Sunday. I've done like nothing all day. I should do work and I should straighten my hair. Aight, thats it. Xo. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Donna Lewis - I Love You, Always Forever ; ) thanx Rich (Comment on this)
Friday, October 18th, 2002
12:18 am	"..jenny, are you on crack?" Nooooooo.....! Hehe. Its been a while, things have been CrAzY. So much is going on and I've been so drained. Last week and this week have been midterms. I just took my last one today so now its time to party! I had Theology and Philosophy last week, as well as normal tests in Italian and Psychology.. then I was home for Columbus day weekend which was awwwwwwesome. I turned 19!!!!! Hehe. This is how the weekend went: I came home Friday afternoon, shortly after my Philosophy midterm. It was ugly out and it sucked. But I got home, and I was happy because it felt good to be back. Its weird when you're gone for a while. Little things change and it takes a while to place them. You know, a new picture frame is out.. a new bedspread is laid on my bed, my cars washed.. stuff like that. My brother was gonna have his first football game, but it was rained out.. so that sucked. Then I went to work at CVS at 5:30 cause I needed the cash. It was really good at work. It went by fast... I talked up a storm with a new girl there and our pharmacy was *insanely* busy because our store just bought out another drugstore in our town. The store was crazy busy overall. Dee likes me, so its nice cause I feel more important than just a checkout girl. I did damages and all. Worked till 10. Chris is such a good worker and so cute. He needs a raise. Ummm... and then I hung out that night real late with Robyn cause I wasnt gonna be able to see her the rest of the weekend. She didnt have off Monday and all. We caught "The Red Dragon" and it was sooo good. It was good to see her. I miss her a lot. So I got home really late and only to get up at 7:30 for work again on Saturday. It wasn't terrible either.. Kourt came in with a hangover so we drank like 3 pots of coffee together - it was sooo good. Justin was managing. Soph came in and I realized I wasnt supposed to be in until 11, as opposed to the 8:30 shift I got there during. So me and Kourt go to the pharmacists that are running around and we take orders and go to the bagel store and to the bank. And we took like.. an hour and a half and it was all paid and all beautiful : ) So I get home like 4 and my family is having this *huge* dinner at my house for me and Erik's birthday. It was really good. Drinking, eating.. everyone was over. I got some money, which was real sweet. So again, I go to sleep late to get up early on Sunday and work. Sunday dragged on, but it was my last working day and I knew I was going out that night cause it was my birthday at midnight. I ended at 3 and Erik was having friends over and he wanted all of us to go see a movie, so we went and saw Tuxedo.. which was not too terrible. Soph came too and it was good to hang with her. Then I rushed back in time for our store meeting from 6-8. That was fun too : ) So I go home, right, and I'm getting ready to go out with Soph and the girls and Im getting dressed and all of a sudden Cindy, who is supposed to be upstate at school, walks right into the room. My mouth drops, of course. It was amazing. She was home and she wanted to surprise me for my birthday : ) So sweet. She got me awesome gifts and everything. So she chilled with me till like... 11 and then Kristine came and picked me up with a car full of girls. We went out into Melville to this ridiculously scary haunted house. It was insane. The girls were so sweet, they paid for my ticket (which was freaking expensive) and god, the haunted house was ridiculous. As we walked in the lady tells us "Just remember, they're not allowed to touch you.." Fuck that. How many monsters and goblins rubbed up against me I'll never know. Some of the rooms were really really cool.. some were just outright scary. There was this one part where we were being followed by some nastiness and Kourts screaming "Dont touch me, dont touch me!" and the thing is repeating it all nasty sounding... ughhh. Then at the end this Jason guy ran after us with a chain saw and I was flipping out, omg. The second part of the thing was this HUGE corn field maze. It was awesome! I've never been in a corn field before. The whole time Im thinking "Signs Signs Signs.. omg omg omg" hehe. Anyway. After that whole party we all hit up Applebees and it was sooo good. We loved our waiter and at the end, cause it was late, we were the only ones left. The girls, secretly, ordered me a cake and everyone came over and sang.. so cute! I loved it. And they paid for me again... so awesome. So finally we're heading back and some kid is having friends at his house so we stop there, which was cool and I was officially 19 ::smiles:: so everyone is wishing me the wishes.. getting all my phone calls.. being crazy, etc. I got to sleep late and got up early for Monday, my real birthday : ) Hehe. So I run outta bed and go get my hair cut.. run on over to get lunch with Cindy which was nice. I miss her already. She's so awesome. Then I got my nails done and met up with my mom after she finished work and I bought some jeans. I get back home.. help Soph with some college applications and have a quick dinner before heading back to school. The whole day was spattered with random phone calls and messages for a happy birthday and I felt SO good and it was so perfect. I get back to school and there are a million people in my room and everythings decorated and there's a cake.. awwwww. So great. And I got gifts! I was so excited. People stayed over till about 1 AM and then I started studying for my Anthro. midterm that was at 9 that morning.. That was terrible. I pulled an all nighter and there went the fuckin week. But the test wasnt too bad. Then it was Wednesday.. then Thursday, today, and I had my Italian midterm and a Psych exam. But now they're all done, thank god. Tomorrow night a few of us are hitting up the city for a birthday party for me. I didnt do anything with my school peeps cause of midterms.. so now its time to party up. It sucks cause originally a lot of us were gonna go out.. but Drew broke his foot.. Mich's parents are here from Cali.. etc etc. Rich and his friends were gonna go but that fell thru, too. So that sucks. But I bought some liquor at the store tonight and the rest of us are gonna drink and go crazy. I'm sooooo excited. It'll be the end to a great birthday week : ) So tomorrow... I know my outfit.. going to Webster Hall. It should be hottt. I'll definitely write about all that afterwards. But other than that... I'm done : ) A week in the life of me ::sigh:: Current Mood: excited Current Music: Tori Amos --- one of my new and favvvvvorite CDs : ) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 1st, 2002
5:03 pm	omg im so tired Heya. Its been a while since I last updated, I heard, so Im doing it again. And I really wish I had the time to do it more often. Sometimes, though, sleep becomes a priority : ) Umm... lets starts from last week. No more stalking going on. Thank god. So Im starting to feel better. On Wednesday night, though, I had probably one of the worst nights of my life. Me and Celia, my roommate, are hysterical laughing at about midnight about how we're so lucky we haven't had a firedrill yet and how its great. She's making the foghorn noise and it was seriously piss-my-pants funny. Shortly after she fell asleep and I got into a fight online with one of my friends who was being stupid. I finally go to bed at 2 in the morning, all sad and tired, and what happens? The fire alarm goes off. Im just like... 'Of course..' So Celia and I get up and get dressed, seeing as how we like, sleep naked because its still warm and the ACs wont work.. and we go down with all the rest of Millennium, all 500 of us. So we're out there half hour and I find Rich and Jerry <--- so cute and Im waiting forever and apparently it was some jerkoff smoking in the lounge. Whatever. Hah, so wait, they expect us in our sleep to take the stairs up to the fifth floor? We wait for an elevator. I get in my bed, totally out of it now.. and I fall asleep, that is, until 5:45 when the second fire bell goes off. This time, though, me and Ceal were so out of it that we didn't wake up until we heard our RA pounding on the door... I was like.. wtf. So in my confusion I got tangled up in my sheets and literally *fell* out of my bed. Luckily I had thrown my extra pillows down there from getting up before so I didn't get hurt. Im just sitting there on the floor in the dark all confused. So Ceal picks me up and we get dressed again and go outside to see that we're like one of the last pairs to get out of the builing. And whats new? False alarm. So we go back up, pissed off.. and we walk into the room and there is this HUGE puddle of water in the middle of the floor. wtf? Somehow, either when I fell or when the RA came into our room, our Brita water filter pitcher *cracked* and the whole thing leaked everywhere. I cleaned that shit up and got back in bed at 6:15. Fucking shit, 7 AM we get another drill. By this time we're pissed, people are screaming.. we go outside and its raining! So we go back up after they realized it was another false alarm.. and of course, now its 8 AM and Celia has class so she doesnt go back to sleep and therefore, with music and lights on, I dont sleep either. That was my Wednesday night. Beautiful. Thursday was the premire(?) of Friends and ER. We had a Friends party in my room, woo hoo, and it was awwwwesmoe. Pizza and everything. Then I went over to Trace's to see ER which was ridiculous. Ummm... Friday I had class and it was an ugly day, but that night the girls still went out and we hit up the city for a while. I saw Sweet Home Alabama and it was cute! I liked it. After that we went to this Mexican place for drinks and icecream, sooo good, and it was a good time. We met some guy in the train on the way back, that was exciting. omg. Funny, though : ) Saturday morning me and Ceal slept really late cause we didnt get back until late the night before. We wake up to a knocking at the door at 1:30 PM. Its her mom and aunt. Woo hoo. So anyway, they wait for us to get dressed and we all pile up into her aunts convertible BMW (yeah baby!) and we go on down to the Village for lunch. It was really good. Pub called Finelli's. So we stuck around, went shopping.. nice day. Got back late at night. Next morning I find out that one of my friends also got arrested in the wee hours of the morning. Not saying who. Not saying why. Its just hard to stomach. Sunday I spent the day bullshitting and ended up with allll my work to do at 10 o'clock at night. I had an anxiety attack, Drew called me to keep me from committing suicide, and then I felt better. Got my work done and went to sleep at 3AM. Last night I was still stressed cause I still had a lot of work and cause a friend from home is in a dilemma, a friggen dilemma I wish *I* was in, and she was stuck in my head. I talked to my mom, finally, and she told me she had an awesome time in the Dominican. She says my brother's all sunburnt : ) Hehe. I got off with her and started this pain in the ass paper that I've been meaning to do and it just took forever. Didnt get to bed till 4 this morning. Good thing, though, Christina Aguillera has this new song out called "Dirty" and the video was shot last night and omg its so hot. *That* is the way to dance. Ohhhhh... yo, my birthday is in 2 weeks. We are so clubbing. Everyone is invited. Thats it for now. Laterzzz.. Current Mood: drained Current Music: ..none.. at work at the 'brary (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 25th, 2002
6:57 pm	Grrrrrr... Tonight is the Elton John & Billy Joel concert at Nassau Colliseum. I'm soooo upset because I wanna go see them. I looove Elton John. It makes me wanna cry. I know so many people that are going. :pout: Umm.. the last week was kinda tough because I found out that I sorta had a stalker. I didn't like it too much and after several confrontations and some ridiculous e-mails, security took care of the problem. So now Im thinking Im okay. Until one night a few weeks from now this guy comes back and puts a gun to my head or something. ::shrugs:: I went home this past weekend because I needed to get away from school. I was here for 3 weeks and it wasn't event that I missed home... I just needed to get outta here for a while. And I can breathe at home. And I guess because of the events of the previous week, I wanted to get away. So I went home on Friday and that night my family and I went out to dinner, which was nice. I went to see the twins, who totally got bigger, and me and Rich talked for a while. We're both so busy right now and it sucks because in 2 more months he's gonna start a real life and I think we're not gonna be as close as we used to be. So that was sad : ( And then on Saturday I worked for a few hours, it was entertaining. Me, Soph and Kourt all together. Parties in the backroom. I went tanning, got my nails done. Saturday night I went out with the girls. Had an awesome time. I saw The Banger Sisters and it was sooo good. Then everyone else ended up driving MY car around! Which was crazy, but fun, including Sophie!! who doesnt have a liscense. It was so late when we got home, omg. Then I was sick Sunday morning, but I had to get ready to come back to school anyway. And here I am. So far this week has been alright. I worked every day, but I've been procrastinating sooo much. No sleep at all. Yesterday morning, before class, I went into the city and had breakfast at my dad's spot. Now all I wanna do is sleeeep. No stalkers this week.. just a lot of quizzes, which went well, and thats it. Some cute boys around. Some good parties going down in my room, woo hoo! But thats it. lol. A lotta hanging out the windows, omg. I dunno whats going on this weekend. Im staying here again. My mom and my brothers are going to Dominica! for the weekend, ridiculous, eh? They're gonna come back all tan. Me = jealous. Its okay, though. She's taking me away for spring break. So yeah, this weekend is still up in the air. Alls I want is a lotta city. Oh, one more thing. Yeah, me and M still not chillin too much. He got a new job, wooo, so he's very busy. Good job too. In the city.. Speaking of which, everyone I know just got a job. M, Rich, Drew, John.. very exciting. Johns is prolly the best one, though, cause he gets to travel. And speaking of Drew, I've been talking to him a *lot* lately. Turns out unlimited night minutes really does mean that (omg I was so scared to open up my phone bill). I dunno, though ::sigh:: I'm kinda uptight. Wtf is new. Thats it. Xo. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: We Didnt Start The Fire - Billy Joel (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 12th, 2002
11:11 pm	im just mean. my eyes hurt a lot. i think its the ac in here. we cant turn it off and it dries my eyes out and all i wanna do is get in my bed and sleep forever because its so cold. school is going really really well. one of my classes started off good, and now its sucking my ass.. but ill go talk to the professor and it should be alright. i went to the gym, for lack of anything else to do, and i burnt off all the calories of the powerade that i drank while i worked out ::rolls her eyes:: yesterday was a sad kind of day. i was really scared the entire day, just anxious, i guess. waiting, almost. i went to mass for the first time since ive been home and it was so very good. the church was so packed. there was a double-file line of kids in the aisles. it was a sad ceremony. so many people died. i cried some. ::sighs:: god bless us all. this weekend is family weekend here at fu. it should be good. instead of going home, my folks are coming up here. were gonna go to arthur ave for dinner. and i need to go shopping too. i kinda do wanna go home, tho. i started to miss things. this week is gonna be my third one away. i wanna see all of my family and my friends. i miss my house. my car. i dunno. soon enough, i guess. anyway. thats all worth mentioning. cept that jack johnson is amazing. omg. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Jack Johnson - Bubbletoes (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 5th, 2002
7:30 pm	Hiya Sooo! Its been another long while since the last time I updated. The end of my summer was really good. A little awkward, but really good. I left CVS, for the time being, on the promises that I'll be working there again over Christmas break. Robyn went away and Cindy was gone and so me and Jess hung out a lot. Oh! Yeah, major event. I decided to go out with somebody after my friends started getting annoying by insisting me, and then I got stood up! But not really stood up. Just cancelled on. Which sucks ass. So instead I went out with other friends and drove really fast. And then I found out the next day that he *really* wanted to hang out and he's stupid for not having arranged things better. Sucks for him. Umm.. and then I went away to school!! I moved in on Sunday night, the 25th of August. After a crazy day of running around and packing, we all piled into my lil' beamer and got ourselves over to da Bronx. That night I was in the room alone, I moved in day early, but there were a lot of people around already. M from down the hall came over and then later on I went to Pat's room for a while. And then I came back up late that night and was unpacking.. just to keep myself away because I was scared to go to sleep alone. Especially in a new room (which is awesome!) in the dark. But, thankfully, my M called me and talked to me until right before I fell asleep : ) The next day was the real move-in day and I helped like.. 10 people move all their junk in. It was good. My roommate moved in then, with all her shit ::rolls her eyes:: But its okay. The room is bigger this year and it's awesome! I'm living in 'Millennium' Is that spelled wrong? Because I definitely don't know how to spell it. But anyway. 5th floor. Beautiful view of the Botanical Gardens, lol. Umm... yeah, so the room has its own bathroom(!), AC, heating.. beautiful. No lines for the shower.. its great. It feels like I live in a hotel or something. I looove it. My classes this semester.. Cultural Anthropology, Child and Infant Developmental Psychology, Refomation Texts for my theology, Philosophical Ethics and Intermediate Italian : ) Not too terrible. Im kinda scared about my theology cause a priest teaches it and he seems tough. But whatever, Im ready to kiss ass. Umm... So yeah, I went home last weekend for two reasons. Primarily, everyone was going home do to the fact that we had Monday off for Columbus day. So that was initial. Then, on Friday, I got food poisoning from the cafeteria. I cramped up ridiculously and I thought I was gonna die. Instead of going right to the nurse, I go to class where I had to bite my lip and make fists to distract me from letting out a scream. Um, yeah. So I went home and went to sleep. Felt better soon enough, cept my stomach muscles got all strained I guess. I still hurt when I lie down. So then the rest of the weekend I took it easy. Friday night I went out to say g'bye to Jess cause she was leaving for school the next day. Me, her and Mark hung out for a while and then I got outta there. I drove to Dunkin Donuts cause that's normal, and I bumped into Sophie and Kristine! What a surprise to see them there.. so then I went back to Soph's house for a while. It was nice. The next day I went out with Robyn because she was leaving for school on Sunday and so we talked for a while about her vacation.. about the *crazy* week she missed, and about how we both gotta be good-er this semester. Then I went tanning, got a package at the salon and everything. Its a beautiful place to be. I actually went again that weekend. That night I took Erik to the Witches Brew for the first time : ) Hehe, he loved it. He had a blast. I brought Kristine with me too, just for fun. She liked it too. Then I left Erik at the house, picked up Soph from work and went out again. We ended up in Farmingdale with nothing to do, so we hit up Starbucks and then left cause it was closing. Finally crashed back at Kristine's for a while. Then on Monday I left. Ohh.. and the best part, hah, I had no liscense the entire time. I didn't have my wallet (I left it at school in my haste) and Im still on probation. If I got stopped, omg, shit woulda hit the fan times ten. Now I'm back at school, Monday, lets say, and I get sick *again*. Enough of that shit. Never eating at the caf again. The rest of the week was better. I looove not having early classes anymore cause now I can actually sleep. And thats awesome because that means I don't have to run to class after rolling out of bed. I actually have time to get myself all dressed up nice : ) And plus, I'm not falling asleep in class, which is awesome. Umm.. Last night I went to the gym for the first time this year.. They got some new machines, I'm all excited : ) I think I might go again tonight. Sundays and Tuesdays is kickboxing.. Mondays is hip-hop.. this is all gonna be great. Tonight I have like, nothing to do, hence the long entry. I have only one Friday class and I have no work for it. So Im just gonna chill. Tomorrow me and Nic are gonna rock the Upper West side for a while. Then me, her and Celia are gonna hit up the Village. Should be fun. But anyway, enough of this. Im out. : P Current Mood: good Current Music: Shhh.. none.. roommates sleeping! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 21st, 2002
4:31 pm	..just got my nails done Its so hard to type with long nails ::sighs:: Anyway. Couple things on my mind lately. Sunday morning I worked the early shift and I was putting out newspapers and on page A2 there was this story about a girl and guy that were involved over the internet. Typical story, really, about how the two talked all the time... nine months of phone conversations that ran late into the night, etc. So then one day they decided to meet. The girls parents went outta town and he came over. He sat her down to play a game and he tied a blindfold over her eyes, and then... he proceded to stab her in the throat. And he did that a couple of times. And she fought back and then he beat her with a chair, and then a tv. And then, when he thought he was done, he set her house on fire with her inside. Yep. And she used to tell her friends that she was going to marry him in a field. Shit happens, I guess. Cindy left to school and Robyn is on a vacation with her father, so Im stuck here with not too many alternatives. I finished working at the pharmacy and Im supposed to be getting ready for school, which I am leaving for this weekend. Hmm. I hung out with B the other night and it was so so good to see him again. I saw him the day I got back, but I didn't know if I'd see him again before I left. But I did, and I drove in my car : ) and we had a good time. It was a little weird, I dunno. He just broke up with his girlfriend (literally, like 10 minutes before I picked him up) and then I dunno what the hell we were doing. We ended up in a park, which was awesome cause I looove playgrounds at night, and it would've been funner if the cops hadn't come and threatened to tow away my car : ( Weird night. Last night I went out with Jess and we scared ourselves driving down the dark winding road into Huntington. I told her about how a week ago I went to the mall alone and as I was walking to my car how a guy in a car was following me. Fun, eh? And then just when I thought he sped away to leave me alone, I saw him coming up the other side of the parking lot to stare at me again. Great fun. Shared stories and whatnot. I bought a massage book, sooo great. Then I was home late last night and one of my friends is on and not IMing me and I was pissed cause I was about to call him to go out, and then when he didn't answer his phone or IM, I was aggravated. So yeah, finally he answers and I find out that something is majorly wrong and he won't talk about it - which is weird because he tells me *everything* so whatever, I left him alone because thats what he wanted. But I was worried and I didn't sleep all night. Im still worried ::sighs:: Gotta go babysit. Excitement. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 16th, 2002
4:07 pm	..gotta get thru this.. If only I could get through this I get through this I gotta get through this I gotta get through this I gotta make it, make it, make it through I'm gotta get through this I gotta get through this I gotta take my, take my mind off you Give me just a second and I'll be all right Surely one more moment couldn't break my heart Give me 'til tomorrow then I'll be okay Just another day and then I'll hold you tight When your love is falling like the rain I close my eyes and it falls again When will I get the chance to SAY I LOVE YOU I pretend that you're already mine Then my heart ain't breaking every time I look into your eyes If only I could get through this If only I could get through this If only I could get through this God, gotta help me get through this I gotta get through this I gotta get through this I gotta make it, make it, make it through Said I'm gotta get through this I gotta get through this I gotta take my, take my mind off you Give me just a second and I'll be all right Surely one more moment couldn't break my heart Give me 'til tomorrow then I'll be okay Just another day and then I'll hold you tight When your love is falling like the rain I close my eyes and it falls again When will I get the chance to SAY I LOVE YOU I pretend that you're already mine Then my heart ain't breaking every time I look into your eyes If only I could get through this If only I could get through this If only I could get through this God, gotta help me get through this If only I could get through this God, gotta help me get through this If only I could get through this God, gotta help me get through this If only I could get through this... Ahhhhh.... Coco's baby. Summer memories rock : ) Current Mood: hot Current Music: ::singing:: (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 8th, 2002
11:08 am	Do you believe it?? Im actually updating from Croatia. Talk about weird. Im at the library right now, and I have a half hour to spare until I can catch a ferry back home to my island.. So I figured Id update. No one is online in New York because there.. its like 5 AM. So here I sit, bored, and kind of excited about coming home to New York. Ive been having such a great time here lately, the end is always the best, but all the stuff I have to do when I get home is making me nervous. So I have to start packing tonight, but I dunno how thats gonna happen cause Im supposed to get back to the mainland tonight to hit up a club that just opened, woo hoo. 3D its called, sounds like a blast. Then tomorrow I have to go hit up one last party and thats it : ( I hope I can have a few good times in NY before school friggen starts. Props to Chelle who was online when I was a while back at 4 AM! So yeah. Everybody pray that my flight is nice... and Ill be writing soon! Laters. And regards from overseas. (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 22nd, 2002
1:40 am	..goodbye for now They say that the chances of you getting in a car accident are a million more times as likely as you getting in a plane accident. However - do they take into consideration that there are a million less planes than cars?? I wonder about this. Tomorrow I will be leaving for Croatia. Like every summer, I'm excited, but emotional because I'm being torn away from something I want to fall into. I'm also terrified because I don't like flying. I'm soooo scared. I sincerely hope that everything will be alright. But anyway, I guess this will be the last time I'll be updating in a while... so I just wanted to tell everyone to have a great summer. I sure will ; ) Hehe. Love ya guys. Jenny. Current Mood: ..stomach is doing flip flops (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 20th, 2002
8:45 am	Woooooooo hoooooooo Nah jay su atwanei kwa, tie asu fahdah dah hay Nah jay su atwanei kwa, tie asu fahdah dah hay Tie asu fahdah dah hay, fahdah dah hay Tie asu fahdah dah hay, fahdah dah hay Nah jay su atwanei kwa, tie asu fahdah dah hay Nah jay su atwanei kwa, tie asu fahdah dah hay Tie asu fahdah dah hay, fahdah dah hay Tie asu fahdah dah hay, fahdah dah hay Coz e wah he, coz e wah he, mah ka simba Airay, da ka simba kanamah ka simba oh... Da kah simba, da kah simba Da ka simba kanamah ka simba ohhh You raise your head, beat the sun But your boys they lie so close to you Do you dare get up? And wake the two.. Oh Elias, I see you there, at work in the daytime do you think you could answer all the questions of the world In just one word, I think you could. If you die will i get word that you're gone Or will i hear it in passing conversation Will i stop short and, fall to the ground Distance is short when your hand carries what your eye found Hold my hand just one more time, to see if you're really gonna meet me Hold my hand just one more time, to see if you're really gonna meet me Honest and Manuel well you know, they're at school now Getting the chance that, their father's never seen See whats beyond, section 17 And in 10 years, when you look back at your boys well you know they've grown, way taller than the tallest sugar cane in the field If you die will i get word that you're gone Or will i hear it in passing conversation Will i stop short and, fall to the ground Distance is short when your hand carries what your eye found Hold my hand just one more time, to see if you're really gonna meet me Hold my hand just one more time Hold my hand just one more time Hold my hand just one more time, to see if you're really gonna meet meee. And I see your wife, she stands, stooped over by the fire outside And I see your boys, and when they look up, you know i think they've got their mother's eyes Cause she looks so proud, she looks so happy, she looks so proud, she looks so happy, yeaahhh If you die will i get word that you're gone Or will i hear it in passing conversation Will i stop short and, fall to the ground Distance is short when your hand carries what your eye found Hold my hand just one more time, to see if you're really gonna meet me Hold my hand just one more time, to see if you're really gonna meet me Hold my hand just one more tiiiime Aya, Aya, Ayaahah Hold my hand ,one more time Aya, Aya, Ayaahah Dayah ya ya, yah yah yah, yah yah yah Aya, Aya, Ayaahaha Hold my hand just one more time to see if you're really gonna meet me Current Mood: so good... Current Music: Dispatch, baby (Comment on this)