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| Friday, June 21st, 2002 | |
| 9:09 am | last night so last night was a big night for me in a wierd sort of way..i ate sushi...it was ok...i was doing good until i ate something and started coming close to vomiting and my stomach got all fucked up after that and i had to stop...but i'm going to try agian...and keep trying...cause its all about learning and experiencing new things...thanks butch for going with me and not mocking my inability to eat fish :) then later went to the chamber...which was interesting to say the least...not bad not great but interesting...realized i'm a party kid a lot more than i thought...couldn't dance to the music which was sad...but its more controled than i'm used too...and the ones that weren't controled looked like shit...must say anna can tear the floor up...the shows were interesting to say the least and it was nice to see the place my friends go to all the time...will i go back? probably...but i think i realize that um yea i like color, i like fast beats, and i like parties...another thing was the way people danced...its different and not just moves whys...when you dance @ a party it seems free and a release...there...that's not the vibe i got from the dancing from the majority of the people...its not necessarily a bad thing...just not what i'm used to...like i said i'll probably go bad...give it a few more shots and see how the wheel weaves me there |
| Thursday, June 20th, 2002 | |
| 3:20 pm | feel my breath upon a mountain sits a man who stares at children playing games of life and love with little bugs who crawl up walls of buildings that were destroyed during the flood of 76 which was the year of laughter in the shine of hope on the mountain where the man sits and things of happy times and little kids who eat lots of candy bought at the store owned my mr. smith and his beautiful wife sally who won the pagent of 76 that was on top of the water tower which incidently was going under repairs and fell with the weight of all those people on it causing the dam to break for some reason after a heavy storm that was probably caused my the amount of rain that was evaporated the sunday before when it was 100 degrees outside and i saw a worm melt on the sidewalk while trying to look up little susie's dress not that little susie was little becaues she had a chest of 36 DD and those fuckers bounced like the little ball i had when i was a kid and ate candy from old sally and mr smith who also liked to look at little susie's breast because they were always poking our of her shirts which were made by this blind man that lived in the fire house which was closed because of the flood in 76 which caused 100 people to die and 100 people to be born because the town was trapped in school and the lights were off so they had lots of err fun Current Mood:  confused |
| 11:19 am | ouchie my arm hurts something fierce...and that's the second time today i've spelt hurts wrong...well its fixed now but it was wrong...do you ever wonder where thoughts come from? probably not...me either really...they just appear and that's all i care about :) i guess if they stopped appearing i would wonder, but not really because that would be a thought within itself...so should i care while i can think or wait until i can't...put it in a planner that one this date i'll look for where thoughts start, cause in theory that would not be a new thought but an old one so it would work wouldn't it? friend had first wet dream last night...go him!!!!!!! hehe wet dreams are funny...i want to have one, sometime, i've almost had a few just not a complete one :( i'll be in Boston in 5 days!!! I'm so fucking pumped about this trip...man oh man gonna see the family...gonna do the city...wonder if i'll be able to actually sneak away...i'm hoping i can meet some awsome bostonians and shit...hehe and i hope i have my accent back when i return...now that would be so fucking hot...i'd talk just to hear my voice and jerk off...*slurp myself* pregnant ladies are funny |
| Wednesday, June 19th, 2002 | |
| 5:11 pm | afternoon update i'm dirty and my nose is filled with dust i hate doing inventory of stupid computer shit...oh well...maybe come in tomorrow and finish it early or maybe friday early...i am NOT staying late this week/weekend...anyways...lifting couches is fun...wonder if i should get a job doing it...probably not...adam i totally understand every joke you make now...werd!!!!!!! RayEarth tonight maybe? call me bro! Jen: MOVE TO ATL and that's an ORDER!!! hehe peace kids |
| 9:14 am | hehe SMILE |
| Tuesday, June 18th, 2002 | |
| 4:43 pm | my god want to get out of here so bad...working on stupid spread sheet blah not fun...nobody online yet agian...pot that's what i want hehe then move some furniture and then 1247 :) hehe want to jump like a monkey!!! YIPPY |
| 10:15 am | am i a man??? I was going to write this long post about me being a man but then i decided nobody cares if i am a man or not besides me :) so instead i'mma gonna write about my ass...err not...lol how about lets talk about cookies...man cookies are great...i eat one almost everyday...old ladies like cookies...so do kids...little kids love cookies...give a little kid a cookie and they love you forever...man i was watching Full House the other day and the Dad and Uncles were worried they would get arrested for stealing bikes they thought belonged to michelle cause she lost her bike. and it was sooo fake but i was like "man i remember when i was little and though they could go to jail" hehe damn that was nice. i kind of still wanna believe Uncle Jessie, Uncle Joey, and Dad can go to jail for taking bikes and trying to return them...things seemed so much simpler then...and i wanna go to a carnival...and i want to go see a sympany...that would be fun...dress up...nice dinner before hand...some wine...go relax and listen to some classic music...*sigh* i used to do that when i was like 12 before i went to bed...listen to that groovy shit...shit...somethings should be frozen in time...wonder what my kids will be like...still want a lizard...breakfast is good...pop-crusty-tart...hehe we need to get stoned and do that :) Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Monday, June 17th, 2002 | |
| 5:12 pm | hehe 45 minutes off to lawerenceville for the evening....yippy go me *vomit* oh well @ least i'll see my aunt, maybe get some cash from her hehe yippy....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr wearing green and it makes me feel sexy...well not really...need new pants, maybe new eyes...can you buy eyes yet? Current Mood:  blank |
| 9:52 am | Congratulations Congratulations to Eddie Ray for making Pirate this weekend!!! |
| 9:18 am | Leapin Lizards Batman...The Joker's Escapred agian Feltching:the act of drinking sperm from someone's rear end after someone puts it there...kind of gross eh? anyways one week until I go to Boston!!! Excited here a little, get to see all my family and the little kids...i love little kids... speaking of little kids i had awsome dreams last night of sex :) not with little kids but err sex=reproduction=babies=little kids...hehe twisted logic but it works for me...anyways yea i won't go into the dream unless you ask cause its kind of rancid lol... kewl just found out my little cuz is wicked nice and athletic...that's awsome people think that of him...hehe and when i'm done with him he'll be wicked nice, athletic, and a charmer :) note to self: awareness does not mean understanding |
| Friday, June 14th, 2002 | |
| 9:52 am | FRIDAY HERE I COME!!!!!! man broke out in "rubber ducky" with terri today and piper gave me matches from a resturant that has lots of pirate stuff. hehe sweet...still gotta find my "A" for her though *shrug* my eye hurts...but drang sugar this morning so flying high!!!!! DRINK BEER |
| Thursday, June 13th, 2002 | |
| 12:33 pm | hmmmm Sometimes my job rocks...like today...we are testing new cookies...hehe M&M; cookies sweet :) |
| 10:07 am | frisky billy i hate being in frisky mode at work cuase i always get hardons whenever i have to leave my desk...damn being a boy |
| 8:01 am | oh happy day Last night i found my wheelchair :) sweet...and i had a dream about breakfast foods yummy...hehe went to bed early yippy...feel refreshed...still lackin sleep but feel much better...i got a fucking wheelchair now so exciting let the good times beging :) Current Mood:  excited |
| Wednesday, June 12th, 2002 | |
| 6:20 pm | tonight... hehe i'm so excited about tonight for some reason...i'mma gonna buy comics*yes* and do some writing*yes*...yet for some reason i'm excited as hell :) sweet...yippy.....boogers |
| 10:09 am | way to give billy a good start of day two ways to make my day start right... wake up next to someone sexy... my manager putting 3 boxes of dunkin donuts on my desk and tell me that she bought breakfast... today will be a good day! |
| 8:12 am | Stupid stupid stupid The movie was fun last night...I enjoyed myself, but old movies like that are awsome...plus the amount of people was enormous...hehe i love big crowds...they are awsome...kind of turns me on...errrr...sorry...anyways almost fell asleep sleep but i sat up and watched more...thanks butch, adam, and andrew for going with me...that was nice and all...afterwards i was beat and was leaving 1247 and i hit their mailbox...ouch...didn't even see it...:( but i put it back up...god i'm stupid sometimes...its not stupid i just don't notice...my mind wanders or something...grrrr...need to work on that...oh well shrug peace...7 hours of sleep...still tired...must sleep more |
| Tuesday, June 11th, 2002 | |
| 3:11 pm | Me Disclaimer:Ok gang this is a serious post about me. I said something early that made me think and I gotta write it down, now some of you are great friends to me so this will be an insight on my person, other's don't read it if you don't want to read about serious Billy. Ok so earlier today I made a joke about doing coke...that wasn't funny...some of you know this some of you don't...but i used to be into coke hard core...like the litte fags who are into tina i guess...there were other drugs @ the time too...i was a waste...it was bad...like i seriously cann't remember that part of my life...its a hole there...which is sad...luckily i had great people surrounding me pushing me back, but in the end they made me choose...they didn't force me into anything...they said simple, "we love you, we hate to see you hurting, help yourself or you won't be there with us anymore" so i left...i went away to clear my head...that's kind of become my motto now...things get stressfull you leave them and come back when you figured it out...not the best but it works...so i'm away from the summer and was almost 100% sober...fell off once...and almost fucked up another great friendship...then i came home...it was wierd...i can remember being nervous of seeing my old friends and facing them...luckily they didn't say anything and neither did i...what happened to me that summer a few pictures are around and with me only...which is wierd...so i still did drugs, but not as hardcore...makes you wonder if i really did learn anything right...not sure...anyways so i'm back home and on my little "road to recovery" i missed probably my first chance to have love...while i was away amy ended up getting another boyfriend who was named billy, and my opposite in everyway...sucks...but i guess you get what you deserve? so i was clean for about a year when my friend coke was offered to me agian...and like an idiot i did it...felt like shit for a week afterwards...like major shit...and i remember calling my best friend in the WHOLE world, kimi, and crying to her...telling her i was worthless, stupid, i couldn't apologizes enough for betraying her a second time...she forgave me cause, well she loves me and we transend all that bullshit...she was proud of me for realizing what i did was wrong, and told me it will be ok...but yea back to the point i was trying to make...the carefree lucky billy we all see now...lots of shit went into him...lots of hurt, pain, lose, love, but i keep the spirits up...cause good things will always come...its like my addiction...i know its an addiction and its always there no matter what i do, cause there are still nights i wake up and just want that high agian...my thoughts towards good will in others, myself, the fact that maybe my smile might in turn make others keeps me going...and when it gets bad...when its hard...i stand back...look at where i've been...where i'm going...and know that my path may not be clear and golden...but its sure going to be an adventure with lots of fun... so that's it...nothing really special...just felt like sharing a part of me...nothing interesting really either...but sometimes...you gotta write this shit down...hope that maybe it'll make more sense in words and not thoughts...and in a way it does...cause the sleepiness is gone now...that fleeting moment of weakness a think of the past...and the future...that remains to be seen :) |
| 2:02 pm | *yawn* 3/5 of the way done with work...slow...caught up...damnit...my movie wasn't what i thought it would be so i'm debating if its worth going...sleep is needed but the movie would be fun...grrr...i wonder if adam has green and we can do that before the movie...that would make it great...fucking stupid phone isn't back on yet...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr |
| 11:17 am | sugar my manager gave me sugar...sweet...i took one bite and literally felt the energy comeback...nice...how long will this last?? i've added it together and i've had 8 hours of sleep in the past 2 days and i'd have worked 20 hours :) and have been running around...sweet...when do i fall? Current Mood:  groggy |