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April 7th, 2005
09:40 pm - Personal: physical emotions The sense of dread coiling in the pit of my stomach is damn near unbearable.
What the hell is going on out there?
What's going on in here, in me? Current Mood: nauseous/nervous/neurotic Current Music: where is my robot that erases everything beginning w/ "N"?
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April 4th, 2005
10:16 pm - Timewaster: i've got ... personality! I had a great weekend! The wedding was amazing and the afterparty for two was even better. I got to see my other hunny on Sunday and that was wonderful! And people have been giving me such great compliments. *blush* I feel so great!
( two results ) Current Mood: happy Current Music: Chaka Kahn - I feel for you ... I think I love you!
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April 1st, 2005
10:03 pm - Personal: so little sleep... What a frickin week... I'm exhausted and blah and pre-menstrual but I had a crazy week. Some parts wonderful and others not so much. I got my community service done and turned in, thank goodness.
My dad, bless his heart, got the wrong size transmission for my car. The part is going to take until Monday to come in and will cost $100 more than the first one. Yuck. And it will take a day or two on top of that to put the part in. But at least I'm looking at around 500-600 to fix my car rather than over 1000. Yay! Thank you so much to those who offered me rides.
My housemate capm_buttercup is the most fabulous housemate in the world! He put together my dining room table and set it out all pretty like, let me borrow his tiny, red, fast Madza Miata... mmmm... and he gets stuff done that he sets out to do (mostly, he says). I really couldn't have ended up anywhere better. I'm so happy at my house. I wish I had more time to spend there.
On Thursday, I got to see my friend from Minnesota for a few hours before he had to drive back. We had planned on longer but sometimes things don't quite work out the way they are planned and Heather freaks out for a minute then enjoys herself. Later that night, I went to see Sleeping Beauty at the Vortex theater with aethyrflux, harliquinmayhem, and chancie. I haven't been that entertained in forever! S had to go to work but the girls and I went to a party at CPHQ for a fabulous Ranger named Michael. Oh the wonderful people I'm lucky to meet. I'm so glad I'll be seeing them again soon. Yay!
Speaking of which I have a wedding to attend tomorrow. [Bad username in LJ tag] and I are riding together. Yay! And my hunny and I are gonna sleep under the stars in a sleeping bag made for two! What's better?
I should get back to work before my boss catches me... Current Mood: antici .... pation
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March 27th, 2005
04:19 pm - Personal: transportation This is probably the worst week my car could have chosen to break down... My schedule is as follows:
Mon: 10am - 4pm Next to New; 4pm - 2am Kinko's Tue: 10am - 4pm Next to New; 4pm - 2am Kinko's Wed: 12pm - 3pm ACC classes; 3pm - 1am Kinko's Thu: 10am - 4pm Next to New; 4pm - 2am Kinko's Fri: court, Jackson comes to town for the night (?).
My plan is to ask my housemate if I can borrow his other car. If he can't, would anyone volunteer to take me somewhere? Next to New is on Burnet Rd near North Loop; Kinko's is at Burnet and 183. ACC is at Rio Grande and 12th St. My house is at Lamar and 183.
I can take the bus from Next to New to Kinko's but getting to N2N at 10am and leaving Kinko's at 2am will be tricky. Getting to Kinko's at 3pm from school on Wednesday will be difficult as well.
My connection to the internet is often spotty so if you think of some solution or can be my chauffer for something (i'll give you gas money or lunch), call me at seven nine nine eight three six four. Thank you! Current Mood: worried/depressed
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05:15 am - Personal: i'm gonna end the day peacefully What's up with so many bad things happening to good people? Losing houses, significant others, cars, etc. I like telling and hearing about the good and the bad, to keep things in perspective...
So yeah, a bunch of crappy things happened to me today (still being saturday for me since i have yet to sleep). Cancelled parties, insufficient sleep, miscommunications in abundance, arguments, and my car. The worst of these being my car.
( gonads and strife; a happy ending )
Now I'm home and the sun is coming up...
I love the people in my life so much, I can't put it into words most times. You are more than friends to me, you are family. I value and appreciate each of you; you fill me with love even when I'm sad. You snap me back into the moment and remind me that everything's gonna be alright. This too shall pass... And when it does, I will carry the memory of you: the impression you've made on me, the changes i've undertaken, the steps up I took to reach you. Thank you. Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: Radiohead - Optimistic
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March 25th, 2005
08:44 pm - Personal: quickie update I'm seriously busy these days. I spontaneously remembered that I have 25 hours of mandated community service due on the 1st. Oops. So I'm working from 10am to 1am for the next few days at Next to New then Kinko's. And I have a major paper due monday and a presentation on wednesday for philosophy. I have no idea how I will get that done. Perhaps my prof will give me a little extra time... Well, it won't hurt to ask.
And in the midst of this chaos... I'm going to the Zombie Formal! And I invited half the damn staff at my Kinko's cause they are so awesome! I've been looking forward to this party cause I found out that my prom dress fits again!! WEEEEE!!! I'm going to to look sooo adorable! And dead! Yay!!!
I keep coming up with ideas for costumes and stuff for flipside. I'm getting more excited as the days fly by. yay!
*whistle sounds*
Time to get back to work! Current Mood: busy Current Music: Pink Floyd - Time
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March 16th, 2005
March 15th, 2005
11:17 pm - Personal: addict i'm hopelessly addicted to sugar.
shit. Current Mood: cheeeesecake
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02:00 am - Personal: I must be in heat... First, you need to see this if you haven't already.
And now, ( I have a crush on every... )
( so what did I do this weekend? (TMI warning) )
Yep, I'm really happiest when I'm socializing and maybe makin out with my favorite people. Life is great.
Oh yeah, so apparently being constantly randy makes the i.q. drop several points. I've been a total ditz for a few days now. *squeal* but zaphod! And Ju said something very on target... she said that this is prolly a sign that I'm more comfortable with myself. Damn I love that girl. Current Mood: i'm so arrowed Current Music: Tori Amos - Professional Widow
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March 14th, 2005
March 9th, 2005
04:30 am - Timewasters: how did it know? oh that's right. i'm predictable.
Take the quiz at dicepool.com You are a good old-fashioned six-sided cube, otherwise known as a d6. Others know you to be plain, predictable, conservative, average, ordinary, and downright boring. You prefer to describe yourself as dependable, honest, practical and trustworthy. People usually know what to expect from you, since you rarely hold any surprises. You hate to make decisions, and if forced to decide, you'll always fall back on how it was done in the past. You always order the same thing at your favorite restaurant, and your jokes, while funny, are never too offensive. It seems that you are well liked, but maybe that's simply because there's nothing to hate.
yep, i always knew i wasn't interesting. Current Mood: i think i'll go to bed now Current Music: I rediscovered Songs from the Big Chair
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02:44 am - Personal: does it have to be so difficult? ... how to make it better? I wanted to be with you alone And talk about the weather But traditions I can trace against the child in your face Won't escape my attention You keep your distance via the system of touch And gentle persuasion I'm lost in admiration, could I need you this much? Oh you're wasting my time You're just, just, just wasting time
Something happens and I'm head over heels I never find out till I'm head over heels Something happens and I'm head over heels Ah don't take my heart Don't break my heart Don't, don't, don't, throw it away (Throw it away) (Throw it away)
I made a fire and watching it burn Thought of your future With one foot in the past now just how long will it last? No no no, have you no ambition? My mother and my brothers used to breathing clean air And dreaming I'm a doctor It's hard to be man when there's a gun in your hand Oh I feel so...
Something happens and I'm head over heels I never find out till I'm head over heels Something happens and I'm head over heels Ah don't take my heart Don't break my heart Don't, don't, don't throw it away
And this is my four leaf clover I'm on the line, one open mind This is my four leaf clover
In my mind's eye: one little boy, one little man Funny how time flies... Current Mood: troubled Current Music: Tears for Fears - Head Over Heals
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March 7th, 2005
March 3rd, 2005
10:30 pm - Info: job opportunities and veggie burgers Hey, if y'all know any cool people who are in need of a job right away, my Kinko's is hiring like crazy! We lost four people off of second shift (2p-10p roughly) and we're about to lose another and two from 3rd shift (10p-6a). Yikes! So we need help bad! And the best part is that most of the people on these shifts are incredibly cool and fun. I like them, anyway! Apply at http://www.fedex.com/us/officeprint/careers/index.html?link=5 and look for Kinko's 0196 on Burnet Road.
aethyrflux and I are going to the Staples thing then The Color of Pommegranets on Saturday if anyone would like to come. Check out his journal for info or call one of us. I was also thinking about doing Body Choir at 8pm on Friday. Check with gosaru, she's got the skinny on that.
Oh yeah, Burger King has some tasty veggie burgers. I got a combo with onion rings and a chocolate shake for $4.32. Sweet!
Love to you all. Gotta get back to work! Current Mood: working
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March 2nd, 2005
03:02 pm - Timewaster: 10 things meme I had to think on this for a while; I wasn't sure what I had done that was unique. A few things on here I know at least one other person has done, but ya go with what ya got. Were I a better story-teller, I'd write a short version of the stories behind these, cause they're all pretty good, but I'm terrible at making events interesting. So without further ado...
10 things I've done that most of you haven't
1. I could count to 1000 at 3, solve algebraic equations at 7, and submitted a theory of the beginning of the universe at 14 (to my 8th grade science teacher who told me that one day I'd change the paradigm. I had no idea what that meant). 2. At age 8, I plotted, carried out, and was nearly successful at killing my sister, 2 years my junior. Now that's a funny story... 3. I touched a dead body when I was 9. 4. At 14, I designed and founded a religion and gained a following. Well, it was more of a philosophy... 5. I made out with 3 girls on my mom's bed at age 15. 6. From 14 to 16, I saw the Rocky Horror Picture Show over 300 times (still counting) and participated in the cast. 7. From 16 to 18, I lived on a family nudist camp with my parents. 8. I ran away with the carnival when I was 20 to work a children's game in New York City and incidentally, I got pictures of the Trade Towers. 9. Several times when I was 20, I brought pills hidden in my underwear across the border. hmm... maybe I should delete this one. 10. Last year, I drove through a lightning storm as it struck the ground all around my car.
Bonus: 11. Last summer, I got 9 traffic tickets in 4 states in less than three months and all are still unpaid. Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: Radiohead - Talk Show Host
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February 28th, 2005
02:50 am - fuuuck! what am i going to do with my life?!
what am i doing?
why can't i focus on my upcoming test?
fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck. Current Mood: unbelievably frustrated Current Music: screaming til i'm hoarse won't do any good.
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February 23rd, 2005
12:46 am - Personal: wanderlust fulguritus said: sometimes i wish i were out there, in the forestdesertwilds.
I had a wild bout of that longing today sitting outside the clinic waiting to be seen. aethyrflux was waiting with me to keep me company and I think the virus got into my brain...
"I hate the mundane things of life," I said, "like waiting to see a doctor, paying bills, getting insurance, buying shoes. I feel like it's all wasting my precious time."
"What would you rather be doing?" he asked.
"Reading, writing essays, traveling, walking around in nature, living off the grid, out of corporate computer databases. I'm sick of it. I want to live in a mud hut with a hole in the roof so I can have a fire inside. I want to see how other people live, people far removed from what I've ever known."
"That's what festivals are for," he said. "To pack up and go for a few days."
"Yeah, it doesn't have to be forever. I just want to do it before I forget and get caught up in the details. But I know that's how it will go. My life will get sucked away and I won't realize how fast the time passed. The devil is in the details and he wants my life."
This happens sometimes. I forget why I do these things... going to school, to work, paying bills, buying insurance. It's supposed to help me have a more comfortable life so I can do the things I want to. But more and more it seems that the things I need to do so that I can do what I want to do are taking the largest chunk of my time. So what am I supposed to do? Current Mood: restless and bedridden Current Music: Alice and Chains - Got me wrong
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February 22nd, 2005
11:44 pm - Info: M.I.A. / P.O.W. Yesh... I am missing in action from a bug I caught Friday. It's been holding me hostage for about 5 days now. I finally made it to a clinic today but they didn't have a flu test so there's no proof that that's what I have. However, they told me I had to just let it run its course. Suck.
The doctor also told me that people who catch it are contageous for several days before symptoms show.
Take care of yourselves... this shit really sucks. Current Mood: sick Current Music: Tom Petty - Mary Jane's Last Dance
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February 19th, 2005
04:37 pm - Personal: Thanks everyone... So I wanted to thank everyone who came to my party... It was really the best birthday (both days) I've ever had!
Certainly better than my 8th birthday when I was so sick that I yarked on the cake... And better than my 14th birthday when I invited half the academy and only 5 people showed up... Better than my 20th birthday when this horrible cow of a girl ate the "H" of Heather on my birthday cake. That's like stealing a personal effect!
So yeah, I had some anxiety about having a party but thank you all for making it wonderful. There was a point in the evening when everyone was talking and getting stuff on their own that I realized I could quit being hostess and just enjoy myself! That was awesome.
I love you all and see you at the next shindig! BTW, my polar opposite would be a mean, bossy, class president prep. Hey, that sounds an awful lot like one of the Heathers. Current Mood: allergies Current Music: I wanna thank you - ZZ Top
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February 18th, 2005
12:57 pm - Event: fyi Hey cutie! if you're coming to my party tonight, bring a lawn/camp chair to sit around a fire!
and there is NO smoking on the property. my housemate may make an exception for the backyard but just to be on the safe side...
thanks and see ya there! Current Mood: busy Current Music: Alice in Chains - Would?
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