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| 02:18am 10/07/2004 | ||||
Last week I went to Kansas for the We Are Resisting conference, in which I had a great time. I met lots of good people, went to some really good workshops/discussions and ate some killer vegan food. And I saw some really good musicians. Ryan from Baltimore (I cannot remember his last name), is an amazing folk singer. I also made some really good close friends, and I think that was the best part of the trip. *Waves to Michelle and Tony* Bran might have a good job soon, and if that's the case I hopefully will be able to quit Hellmart and look for another job, or a part-time job. either way I'll have a lot more time to involve myself with the bookstore, which I'm really excited about. That's about it. Oh,a bout the topic. When we were driving through Missouri, there are "Adult Superstores" at every stop, and one we stopped at, had everything, also strip shows and the like. But the guy behind the counter was listening to Radio Disney, while selling porn. I found that to be amusing. |
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optimistic| Better time Spent | ||||
| 02:43am 25/06/2004 | ||||
Got rest of the books out of the old store this morning, which took me about an hour and a half. Just watched Dodgeball, really funny movie. Listening to the new Cure album. It's good, not great, but good. So far at least. Only a couple more weeks at Hell-Mart. Then I'll prolly be working for HEC. Enough rambling. Goodnight |
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rushed| Promoting My Wifes Community! | |||
| 11:20pm 17/06/2004 | |||
 Everyone should check it out! |
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| 05:40pm 05/06/2004 | |||
 http://www.cnn.com/2004/ALLPOLITICS/0 Tomorrow at 4pm, in front of the Abbey! |
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| 02:51am 06/05/2004 | ||||
Lets' see. Lots of good stuff has been going on. Moving downtown in 2 weeks. Met some really good people when I was down in Cincy. Lost a bunch of weight. Gonna start exercising soon. Ummm... Still not a Raw Vegan yet.. but goddamnit, once teh Famer's MArket's open, I am, or I'll be dead, which ever is first. Oh, Kiwi is the fruit of the day.. mmmmm Kiwi. Well, I've got to get up in 6 hours so i can find a job, I love you all. Goodnight. |
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sleepy| New Years | ||||
| 01:52am 01/01/2004 | ||||
I hate new years resolutions, but here are mine: Having a 100% Raw Vegan diet. This will be by the end of March. Hopefully all Organic food also. A Job. Our own place. Stop being the self-loathing lazy bastard that I have been since coming back from Miami. Quit sitting in front of the computer for hours on end and not accomplishing anything. Damnit, I should be a wiz with Debian GNU/Linux by now, but yet, i don't know shit. Get a nice bike. Save up for the laptop I want this summer. Go travelling. |
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relieved| Vacation | ||||
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I love you Bran :) |
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angry| Great Article | ||||
| 03:14pm 27/09/2003 | ||||
article by Audrey Van Buskirk Former Seattle Weekly editor Audrey Van Buskirk's article in the Stranger below about the new menstrual suppression pill "Seasonale" and the menstrual suppression movement reminds me of a friend of mine back where I used to live in Fort Collins, Colorado. She was born quite a sickly girl, but has grown up to be a healthy middle-aged woman, mainly by rejecting conventional medicine, and it's drugs and lab produced hormonal treatments. She takes in a vitamin regiment she claims helps her get through her menstrual cycles without suffering, and she is a big advocate for barrier birth control methods, especially the sponge, instead of pills. She shares her nutritional methods for coping with her menstrual cycle, and other health problems, with her girlfriends. She tells me most of her friends don't stick with the vitamins and invariably stick with taking all the pills they get at the doctor's office, which she suspects may very well be what is making their periods so painful. I'm in complete agreement with the drug and hormone free approach of my friend and her pro-menstruation position. It's a cost effective way for women to share health information among themselves, it doesn't help feed the financial interests of the pill pushers and pro-menstrual suppression advocates and researchers, like the University of Washington's Dr. Leslie Miller, would have nothing to do if our male dominated culture would come to accept and embrace the existence female reproductive biology. It also promotes positive attitudes of female biology among women themselves, many of whom needlessly loath their menstrual bleeding. Van Buskirk makes it very clear in her article that the menstrual suppression movement has nothing to do with medicine or helping ease women's suffering during menstruation, but general male loathing of female menstrual bleeding in our culture: "I once had a boyfriend who became furious if I left tampons out in plain view. I found his squeamishness annoying. At the same time, I realized one of my regular stories to drag out when asked to share "my most embarrassing moment" was this: I was at a play about a children's concentration camp. At the end, of course, the children were all dead and the audience was sniffling. As everyone somberly made their way to the exits, I rummaged in my bag for my keys, which had somehow become entangled with a tampon in my bag. When I pulled out the keys, the tampon came flying out with them and sailed across the auditorium, hitting an old man in the head. I'm still blushing." Here are some more examples of this from Van Buskirk: "I've had blood gush out onto my skirt during typing class, creating a stain so dark and enormous that a teacher stopped me in the hall and advised me to turn the skirt around so kids might think I had dumped a Coke in my lap. I've been told at yoga not to do headstands because I had my period; my sister went to a wedding where the bleeding women were asked to leave. My other sister wasn't allowed to board Kuwait Airways until she promised she wasn't bleeding." Van Buskirk needs to accept her reproductive biology. Her old boyfriend needs to accept the fact that if he wants to lay with a woman, then he should be up to dealing with the fact that she bleeds. Van Buskirk offers overly deductive reasoning about the nature of the human female in favor of her argument that menstrual suppression is, as the headline for her article states, "just as nature intended": "Giving birth is the primary biological goal of the female body and without modern contraceptives women would be having a lot more babies and a lot less bleeding. Women in 1900 had around 150 periods in a lifetime; women today have closer to 450." We're not talking about an animal with a seasonal mating ritual here. There is another powerful aspect of a woman's nature that separates her from the rest of the animal world. That would be her brain and her hands, and her ability to engage in pregnancy avoidance and, hence, menstruate more often, "just as nature intended." Women also had a lower life expectancy in 1900 than they do today. Reduced child bearing has been a good deal for women, as it, and medical interventions to reduce death rates during child birth, now makes it possible for women to outlive men on average in advanced industrial societies. So what's all the squeamishness about women menstruating more now and, hence, treating it as a sign of "disease," treatable with a pill? It's definitely not the health concern bleeding during childbirth is. The theme of the general "ickiness" of female bleeding and the need to "treat" it as a medical problem dominates Van Buskirk's article throughout: "...I've never had a doctor ask me if I wanted to stop bleeding..." and, "It seems that unless women happen to have endometriosis (which causes extremely painful periods), anemia, intense cramping, or PMS, doctors rarely offer women the option of not bleeding." So the menstrual suppression movement Van Buskirk is in favor of has nothing to do with pregnancy prevention and everything to do with suppressing a natural bodily function. Traditional birth control pills, while aiding pregnancy prevention, don't stop the bleeding. The Seasonale pill does suppress menstrual bleeding, so its boosters say, and is its primary selling point among its boosters. A little honesty about pregnancy prevention and menstrual bleeding should be added to the discourse as well. No male has ever become pregnant from menstrual bleeding during sexual intercourse, but a woman can get pregnant when a man discharges his semen into her. Yet millions of dollars aren't being spent on the manufacturing and marketing of a pill that will help a man achieve a semen-free orgasm and suppress non-orgasmic discharge of semen. Slinging semen is a way for the male to demonstrate his manhood. It's a kind of sacrament and a rite of passage when he loses his virginity with a woman. Of course, no discussion of female reproductive biology would be complete without bringing up demeaning psychiatric labels created specifically for women and blaming female reproductive biology for the problems of the world. It's what I like to call "Blame a Woman's Hormones Disorder," a.ka. "PMS." Van Buskirk interviewed 20 women on their attitudes toward their menstrual cycles for her article. One of them offered Van Buskirk this empowering observation: "One 39-year-old woman who's been prescribed Zoloft for premenstrual dysphoric disorder wrote, 'My period makes me so impatient, sensitive, bitchy, and irrational that I can honestly relate to the theory that a woman should never be president because she'll start a war or something if she's on her period. I guess only menopausal women or women on your tricky pill should be allowed to run for office.'" Van Buskirk chimes in, "It makes you wonder: What does Condoleezza Rice do?" This has to be the most ridiculous nonsense I have ever heard. The U.S. has become one of the most militaristic nations in history with men running show. Also, those people who have been trying to call attention to the harsh side-effects of psychiatric drugs would wonder if the feelings the woman above is expressing aren't being caused by the side-effects of the Zoloft she is taking. Van Buskirk offers more empowering observations from the Brazilian doctor who helped develop the Depo-Provera birth control shot, Dr. Elsimar Coutinho: "In Is Menstruation Obsolete? Dr. Coutinho offers plenty of reason to keep PMS-ing women away from the red button, drawing heavily on research done by the British doctor Katharina Dalton. She claims PMS costs U.S. industry eight percent of its total wage bill, that it makes surgeons clumsy, leads to mechanical accidents and crime sprees, and causes career-threatening hoarseness for singers and decreased taste sensitivity for cooks. If you ever wonder what the astronauts do, there's the story of Russian cosmonaut Valentina Tereshkova whose journey, reports Dr. Coutinho, "ended abruptly in 1973 when she had to be brought back to Earth after only three days because she began to menstruate excessively and there was no apparent way to control or stop the flow." Then in the next paragraph Van Buskirk appears to have caught on to the fact that the menstrual suppression movement and "PMS" are just a newer version of sexist attitudes towards women in the medical profession, under a very familiar garb of medical sounding jargon: "It's hard to know what to make of this. On one hand, I don't want to diminish the suffering of all these women I know, and I don't think they should be penalized for it either. But it reminds me of the common 19th-century diagnosis of hysteria, a host of "female" problems blamed on an overactive uterus, which led many women to get unnecessary hysterectomies for mental problems. As one friend of mine wrote, 'Is it PMS or am I just grumpy/sad for other reasons?'" However, Van Buskirk never connects the dots with her reason by coming to a pro-menstruation position rejecting the reasoning that sees menstrual bleeding as a medical problem treatable with a pill. Finally, Van Buskirk needs to pick up a copy of the Bible and read Genesis 3:16 again. In arguing against pro-menstruation women, she wonders, "Why do so many women feel like suffering is part of their essential makeup? They can't really feel responsible for Eve, can they?" God's punishment for Eve was to make child bearing, not menstruation, more painful for women ("To the woman he said, 'I will greatly multiply your pain in childbearing; in pain you shall bring forth children."). Van Buskirk is the one arguing that it's in a woman's nature to be engaged in child bearing, which, unlike increased menstrual bleeding brought about by pregnancy avoidance, is actually dangerous to a woman's health. The Old Testament has plenty to say about menstruation, mainly that it's a sign of filth in need of purification. One could rhetorically reply to Van Buskirk's question above by asking, "Why do so many women, like Van Buskirk, accept the Old Testament line on menstruation as a sign of filthiness in need of purification, or, in modern medical jargon, a sign of 'disease' in need of 'treatment'"? The movement in favor menstrual bleeding suppression is rooted in ancient cultural attitudes about female reproductive biology, not modern medicine. At it's core is general male loathing of female bleeding and the women who accept the disempowering ideology of menstrual bleeding suppression. I read Van Buskirk's article in the print edition of The Stranger. On one of the pages of the article are two advertisements featuring attractive female models. I got out a pen and scribble the words "Want to have sex with me? I bleed!" next to one of the models. Next to the other model I wrote the words, "Let's have sex, I'm bleeding.!" -Rick |
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| 09:15pm 23/09/2003 | ||||
and I saw a VF4:Evo machine at teh theater, but it was in an old MvC2 cab, and the monitor was brand new. Listened to teh new APC album like 30 times. What else... really wanted to steal te new 12" PowerBook from the apple store. Oh, we are moving to Portland in June. The Outsider Help me if you can It's just that this Is not the way I'm wired So could you please Help me understand why You've given in to all these Reckless dark desires, you're Lying to yourself again Suicidal imbecile Think about it, put it on the faultline What'll it take to get it through to you precious I'm over this Why you wanna throw it away like this? Such a mess, why would I wanna watch you Disconnect and self-destruct one bullet at a time What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die Medicated drama queen, Picture perfect numb belligerence Narcissistic drama queen, Craving fame and all its decadance Lying through your teeth again Suicidal imbecile Think about it, put it on the faultline What'll it take to get it through to you precious I'm over this Why you wanna throw it away like this? Such a mess, why would I wanna watch you Disconnect and self-destruct one bullet at a time What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die They were right about you They were right about you Lying to my face again Suicidal imbecile Think about it, put it on the faultline What'll it take to get it through to you precious I'm over this Why you wanna throw it away like this? Such a mess Over this Over this Disconnect and self-destruct, one bullet at a time What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die If you choose to pull the trigger, Should your drama prove sincere, Do it somewhere far away from here |
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productive| Today's news | ||||
| 07:46pm 08/09/2003 | ||||
Eric: No, did they say what the cause was? Me: Karma........ no, I dunno. :) I'm an evil bastard :) |
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amused| Nite | ||||
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| 02:52am 04/09/2003 | ||||
Why you never see bright colors on my back, And why does my appearance seem to have a somber tone. Well, there's a reason for the things that I have on. I wear the black for the poor and the beaten down, Livin' in the hopeless, hungry side of town, I wear it for the prisoner who has long paid for his crime, But is there because he's a victim of the times. I wear the black for those who never read, Or listened to the words that Jesus said, About the road to happiness through love and charity, Why, you'd think He's talking straight to you and me. Well, we're doin' mighty fine, I do suppose, In our streak of lightnin' cars and fancy clothes, But just so we're reminded of the ones who are held back, Up front there ought 'a be a Man In Black. I wear it for the sick and lonely old, For the reckless ones whose bad trip left them cold, I wear the black in mournin' for the lives that could have been, Each week we lose a hundred fine young men. And, I wear it for the thousands who have died, Believen' that the Lord was on their side, I wear it for another hundred thousand who have died, Believen' that we all were on their side. Well, there's things that never will be right I know, And things need changin' everywhere you go, But 'til we start to make a move to make a few things right, You'll never see me wear a suit of white. Ah, I'd love to wear a rainbow every day, And tell the world that everything's OK, But I'll try to carry off a little darkness on my back, 'Till things are brighter, I'm the Man In Black. |
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| 06:35pm 28/08/2003 | ||||
I now have Virtua Fighter 4: Evolution, THANK YOU SO MUCH ALI!! And thank you for the ass-beatings also. I'm off to play, more later. |
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| 02:40am 18/08/2003 | ||||
Well, this weekend was a great exprience. We learned a lot, got a feel of how things will be here, and had a lot of fun in the process. And Father Michael over at St. Mary's Catholic Church is a great guy. He really stuck his neck out for us. And on my birthday I'm gonna go help clean the church to repay him. Yes I'M going to a church to, on my own, to volunteer. That says something. I'm gonna go rest now, this weekend has been really hectic, and has taken it's toll on my body. Goodnight. |
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| 08:16pm 14/08/2003 | ||||
Try this trick and spin it, yeah Your head will collapse if there's nothing in it And you'll ask yourself Where is my mind? Where is my mind? Where is my mind? Way out in the water, see it swimming I was swimming in the Caribbean Animals were hiding behind the rock Except for little fish When they told me east is west trying to talk to me, coy koi Where is my mind? Where is my mind? Where is my mind? Way out in the water, see it swimming With your feet on the air and your head on the ground Try this trick and spin it, yeah Your head will collapse if there's nothing in it And you'll ask yourself Where is my mind? Where is my mind? Where is my mind? Way out in the water, see it swimming With your feet on the air and your head on the ground Try this trick and spin it, yeah Well, I drank some coffee last night and read a book for like 4 hours. Then I tried to go to sleep, but since I had teh caffine in me, I coudln't. So I decided to go for a walk, and ending up walking about 15 miles. And all the while I was singing the aforementioned song. It was neat seeing teh full moon and the rising sun in the same sky. It's also fun to sit outside a starbucks at 6 in the morning seeing all teh yuppies rush in. |
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| 05:33pm 13/08/2003 | ||||
Lets see... Big things going on this weekend. Everyone come out to the NGA protest this weekend. And in a couple of weeks the Nazi's are gonna be in town, so let's stick it to em. Or if your really brave, stick it IN them :) Getting VF4:Evo soon. Getting a new car, selling ours, and getting a bike. Been reading a LOT of books. And d/l a bunch of Anime again. a few months ago that's all I did, just sit and d/l and watch anime, and I got burnt out, but I'm getting back into it. Not gonna do that again :) Last night I d/l'ed all kinds of stuff from the Pixies, and i'm in love. I had never really listened to them before other then the couple of songs that used to be on the radio. And listening to the David Bowie cover of Cactus got me intrigued. Debaser has to be my favorite. |
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