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October 4th, 2003

11:09 am - Gotta go in a few...I gotta go and play in Morgantown Its off to play for the day. Too bad its freaking raining. I hate driving in the rain but I'm sure that I'll do okay at it. I have to drive down as soon as I get to Morgantown to Thinkin Ink to see Jamie get his tattoo with my mom and sister. Then go back to Lowes and get a new bathroom set for my mom. Then I'm off to the mall to go do some shopping. I just thought I would share that lol. But I'm going to get my skanky butt in the shower. I told Andy I need a POWER SHOWER!!!! Current Mood: dirty Current Music: "Dirty" by Christina

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October 3rd, 2003

12:59 pm - Message from the ship... Hmmm its going in the yards soon but it'll go back out on a tour not to long from now...maybe by then I'll be out and at schoool. A 3rd class Petty Officer emailed me about it and he seemed to be pretty nice. He gave me his number cause he'll be out this weekend and told me to call him if I have any questions. So I thought that was pretty nice, I was happy to get it all worked out and have someone now to show me and Becky around when we get there. Anyways, I'm talking with David about whats going on now between me and well...we all know who. Its good to be able to talk to someone about it that wont jump to anything and automaticly hate me or Jamie for whats going on. Because I know how some people are...they'll just take sides for the hell of it...and I don't want that. Like I said, I may still be in love with someone...but does it really matter? If I can't be good enough...then I guess it doesn't. Whatever now, I'm leaving Friday. I talked to Becky about it, and we're figuring out how we're going to get everything done. I'm not too nervous now, I wont be till I get up on that ship and I see all those aircrafts moving around...then I will be scared. I can't wait to be able to change my job...only a year. And hopefully soon I can be E3 and get more money. Something that I need soon since I need car pretty soon so I don't have to bum around with Becky all the time lol. I'm just kidding, I love Becky but I don't want to bother her. I think that I'll go get somethings together in my room. Its a mess right now. Not that anyone is going to be in there, but still...its really bad. I just dump my seabag stuff out there to find certain things...so yea...back to the room I guess. I'm out for now. If you all wanna talk to me, you know where to reach me at. Current Mood: sad Current Music: "Last Kiss" Pearl Jam

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08:27 am - Does it even matter what I think anymore??? So here I am its almost 9am and I can't get back to sleep. I took my sister up to the bus so I could say hi to my old bus driver Mark. He told me to come in and see him sometime, but I doubt that I'll get the chance too. I felt like sucha skank going up there since I just crawled out of bed put on some more clothes and went up there. I'm not sure whats going on now...I'm too confused and I'm taking my own guess as to think at where my "relationship" is at this point. Reading someone's entry I think does love really matter? Is it all that two people really need to stay together? No, I don't think it is, there is so much more. A person can push as much, and try to change herself but as soon as one thing changes, there is something else about her that isn't good enough. I can't help that I'm not perfect, or that I've changed. I changed a lot whenever I got out of bootcamp and school I guess, but thats the new me sorta say. I talked to my mom, and she tried to let me go and cry on her shoulder, which I couldn't do. Another thing thats changed, I don't want to let my emotions out, I was taught that its weak, and to be who I want to be in the military I have to be hard core. Tears can only be shown in private. Petty Officer Monnie told me "Whatever you do, don't break down ever." And its something that I've taken with me ever since. I remember that being the last thing she and I talked about. Tears just show weakness, which is something I can't show anymore. I've tried...God knows I've tried. God knows how I feel about a certain someone...but what else is there for me to do? I can't change everything about myself even though I've tried. I'm just tired of always being told my inperfections. If you love someone, why try and change so many things about them. Are you really in love with that person? Or are you in love with the idea of them? I donno...something my mom and I talked about. I love someone...and he knows who he is, but he seems to think that I don't love him since I can't change everything about myself. Did I give up? I donno...I know I'm hurt and that I need time to get over things and not think about certain stuff. It hurts to be told that your basicly not good enough. This is my "holiday" away from the Navy, but I still carry the Navy with me everywhere I go. Meaning, everything that was taught to me and how to act...is still with me. Its molded me in to someone else, and if someone can't give me a chance still without jumping to me wanting to be the old way, then in the end is our "relationship" really worth it? I haven't asked him once to change a thing about himself...and there isn't anything I would really want to change. Everything I can live with, thats part of being in love, excepting someone for all they are and can or will be. You can disagree with me or say whatever you want, but this is how I feel. This is my journal, and its always been my thoughts, and I'm not scared to show them in here. I have nothing to be ashamed of...I've tried my hardest in my relationship, I tried and change somethings about myself, but I can't change everything and I can't change everything about myself and drop all that I've been taught in the past 3 months. So question, is love the only thing needed to keep a relationship? If someone is unhappy and the other will try to change somethings about themself to make the other happy but doesn't change everything, are they still a bad bf or gf? If a person tries their hardest to be with someone, but can't due to reasons such as family...are they a bad bf or gf? I donno...but I know that I'm not perfect, but I try. Doesn't matter though...I maybe imperfect, but I still have feelings, and I still have emotions. And even though my relationship is basicly...from what I can tell from last night over I guess. I still love him...yes I still love you Jamie, even though I'm not the girlfriend you want anymore I guess. Current Mood: sad Current Music: mom's radio

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October 2nd, 2003

08:20 pm - bored and ummmmm nothing to do??? So here I am at the computer yet again bored. I could go back to sleep...but what would I do in the morning if I did that at night? LOL my mom asked me if I was pregant because I wanted to sleep all day after Amanda left. I was just soooo tired because I had slept for only 4 hours the past few nights because I had to go "work" and things like that. I have to go back again on Tuesday. Its all good though I don't mind too much. I'm kinda sad, I called Ross and he didn't call me back. I wanted to get some numbers off him but I think that I'll try and call him later. He might be on duty so I guess I can go back and try later. I really miss the people from my division and school...hoo rah 939!!! So blah de blah over here...I guess I can go play in my room and get things together for whenever I go to Virginia. My dad called my Uncle down there, who happens to be a Captain so I wont be to hard off I think. I have to wait till I get there to get a cell phone though. All the plans here really suck, so I guess I can go without for another week or so. But I really really really REALLY want a freaking tattoo! I could have gotten one yesterday but I had a little family dinner thing. I have to have one before I go to the ship or else everyone there is going to kick my ass and make me get one down there and I promised Jamie I would get one with him. I have to get one! I really really really really really want one now! Butterfly on back with stuff coming out of it or a flower on the hip...not too sure yet. OR those cherries that I obsessed about whenever I went with Rose, Fitchett and MatosRivera to get theirs...er...I want one now too!!!!! Well jeez...whats a girl to do whenever she's bored like this? My boyfriend isn't even online to talk with me. :'( He's busy though probably with homework and thats okay. I understand he's got stuff to do so its all good. I guess I'm going to bounce out and try to fix my journal...AGAIN because it likes to be a bitch to me and not work...damn you journal...fuck you in the ass too!!! Current Mood: bored Current Music: "In The End"...not in that mood just hear it playing

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October 1st, 2003

02:16 am - It likes to be half retarded! Yea...I have to fix livejournal again. I had a cute background with stars and it just goes up and fucks itself in the ass...mother fucking bitch lol. Anyways, I didn't get much done today. I went to Morgantown to work with Chief, met Petty Officer Goldsmith and ran around with Becky, Amanda, Papa, and Jamie later on. It was shitty but not in a really bad way. I didn't get a phone, I didn't get a tattoo, and I can't get a car. BUT I did get paid so now I have over $3000 in my bank account! WOOOOOO! But...yet again...I couldn't think of anything to buy...I'm a loser. Tomorrow I'm off to Kingwood to talk to the Challenge Acadamy or whatever it is. I just know that I have to haul ass up there sometime with a few hours of sleep then come back to my house so I can see Amanda then my family is having some kinda cook out thing. Oh yes, I'll be in till next week now. I'm staying for the career fair now. Petty Officer asked me to do it with him so I figured I would be nice. Hmmmmm I guess its back to fucking with this journal...damn this is being a bitch to me! Help my poor poor self! If any of you have any ideas on how to make this thing let me keep the background and change my comment thing...please let me know lol I hate ugly journals! Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: "A Dream Worth Keeping"

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September 30th, 2003

10:08 am - Well fine livejournal...be that way!! So I got the bitch working today. I figured I would kill sometime before I went and got ready to go in to Morgantown. I can't change my comments on here so that they are neat again! Jeez...I might even think about getting a paid account, but I don't know how much I'll be using this thing...blah to you too livejournal. Puck you too!! Yes...lol puck. So I'm going to go bounce out for now and get ready to go. I just wanted to let eveyone know that satou is all ready to for the new viewing...even though I can't change the damn comment names! Shit on that! Current Mood: busy Current Music: something in the background my mom is listening too

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01:38 am - Dicking around...yup...dicking around... Okay, I have a shitty looking journal right now. But I don't feel like giving it the total time and effort in to making it look perfect tonight. Which I really should do. Damn, I'm getting lazy. But...its not totally my fault...its the internet's! Because everytime I do it, the bastard has to fuck up and not let me do shit...ain't that a mutha fucka haha. Yea, I'm ghetto. Anyways, tomorrow I'm out to Morgantown for sure. I think that I'm going to shower at Jamie'sbarret013 Uncle's and just do whatever there. I have to go to the office but I don't think I'll be in uniform...he probably will yell at me but he can't be that mean to me...my daddy is his old chief haha. But anyways, yea I need to sleep before I go play tomorrow. I forgot how scary my house is at night by myself...yea I'm a chicken shit. But you all don't understand! My house is out in the middle of nowhere, its like one of those homes you see in like Friday the 13th movies. I'm scared now...and going upstairs scares me...ahhhhh I'm scaring myself now. I hate being scared of my own damn house. I was never scared in my dorm thingie lol. Ah fuck, I emailed Bixby, since Heatherheatherlayla thinks that he's sexy haha. Just to see what he was up too. I miss him, he's one of the guys that was like cool to hang out and just talk about stupid stuff with sometimes, even if he did kinda have a little thing for me...it didn't matter. I donno, I just managed to blow that off. I'm half expecting to see my friends from bootcamp and school walking around. I guess months of spending time with someone and seeing them everywhere will make you used to that though. At Buckwheat Festival Jamiebarret013 goes, "LOOK there is Peterson." and my dumbass actually looks to see where he is...omg, I'm a freak I know. *sigh* I miss everyone! Rose is going to come in for Christmas I think. :) That'll be a plus because I really miss her. I feel so bad knowing that she's still in Pensacola without Fitchett or me to hang out with. She's babysitting her roommate or getting hit on by the large mass of guys there. But I picked her up some Holloween undies and kittycat. I'm just a nice girlfriend like that haha. Damn, I need to get my ass to bed. I'm out for now, I'll talk to everyone some other time when I'm more alive and I'll fix this bitch of a journal some other day...yea right I'll do it in like 10 minutes lol. NIGHT!!!!! -----Seaman recruit no more----- Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: "Slow Ride" haha take it easy ;)

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September 4th, 2003

12:18 pm - AHHHHH adjfl;akjf;aoijf I'm freaking out of bootcamp on some weird computer thingie at an airport...yup life is good...email me now if you want I'm out of that damn base...it feels good to be out of HELL!!!! Current Mood: calm Current Music: damn airport

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June 19th, 2003

01:07 pm - Following the Andy and Amee trend hehe satou Magic Number 16 Job Most Hated Person - Ever Personality Rainy Day Temperament Best Not To Ask Sexual Straight Likely To Win A Place On The Bench (For The Reserves) Me - In A Word Subtle Colour Brought to you by MemeJack LOL...yes I am the most hated person ever, but thats okay I enjoy it all. So anyways, yesterday I spent the day in Morgantown, I got something for Jessica's birthday, and just went around and looked at a bunch of stuff. I saw Mary and the hair cut! :) Very cute, I would talk about it...but Andy can't know yet till he and Mary have some "private" time together haha. Its all good. :) Jamie and I called WVAQ and slapped each other because we both like it lol. It was funny, they played us both on the radio. I about always get on because I say a bunch of stupid things, and they put stupid things on the radio because they are stupid people lol. Yup yup they are...stupid DJs hehe. My tummy is all sore today...ick it hurts some. I have to figure out how to get to family planning or the clinic sometime today so I can get my bc pills...if I don't get them I'm in big big trouble when I get to bootcamp. With my luck my period will get all fucked up without them, then they might kick me out. So I don't know what I'll do. I'm going to try and go to the clinic sometime and hope and pray that Doc C doesn't sit around and talk about giving me a pap smear...I mean really now...I'll probably get one sometime in the next week! I don't even need the half year supply, just give me 3 more of the little packs and I'm good to go...oh dammit, I can't go on without my bc. Not for the sake of preventing pregancy, but it regulates my period and makes it not heavy...I NEED my bc! Must. Have. BC!!! *dies* I did my hair all cute today. Well it would probably look better if I have hair...lol...but I actually taught myself how to twist it...I'm just that damn good I tell you! My mom was all not happy today and she saw my hair and she was all like, "OMG who did your hair?" and I told her me and she goes, "I like it! Wow, I never knew you could do that!" Hahaha...yea the simple things that make my mom want to talk to me. Ohhh...just a few more days in this house...thank you God...I don't know how much more I can take. I gotta hide somethings before I run out of the house though! Like you know, the videos that Amanda and I have made, and the ones of people running down the road naked hehe. Yea...gotta hide those somehow...I figure I'll send them to someone who will protect them. I think I'll do that with a few things. I'm going to bounce out for now, find something to eat, watch a movie, and then walk to up to my Grandma's and try to get her to take me the clinic! Laters everyone! Current Mood: good Current Music: "Crazy In Love"

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June 17th, 2003

12:53 pm - Ohhh...the hair! I'm sending out a picture to some people of my new short...feeling dykie hair. OMG, I hate it so much...I want it all back, I can't wait till its all back and nice and long and I can play with it again and not feel all naked. My back feels fat with nothing back there to cover it. So anyways, I got a few things together for tomorrow, Jamie told me to call WVAQ and tell them to say that I'm having a yard sale with teen girl clothes so that way more people will know about it. I want to make a new cd...one with happy poppy, punky music. I don't understand how someone can say they only like one type of music. I like a little bit of everything, but does that make me a poser or whatever? Nooo...I just like a lot of different kinds of music. And I hate it whenever people say that your a loser or make fun of you for the kind of music you like...big deal, only stupid, ignorant people make fun of people for music. Find something else to make fun of them for lol...lol I LIKE HANSON! Yes, I like Hanson, Eminem, Linkin Park, Simple Plan, P Diddy, and all that other good stuff...I love it all! :) I'm bored...lalala...I'm chatting it up with Sam and Spammer, so you know...I gotta take advantage, because I never really get to talk to either of them that much. I'm not really online a lot to talk to anyone now that I think about it...I'm always busy doing something else. I'm on either late at night or sometimes in the afternoon. Busy busy me...busy as a bumblebee haha!!! Yea, I'm a spaz. I'm a whimp! I ran yesterday, and my legs, and stomach are all sore and ouchie kinda. Nothing I can't deal with..but its just a pain to have pain...you all know what I mean hehe. I'm going to bootcamp and I'm going to be like, "ouchies..." whenever I have to run. I ran the best I could though...I felt like I was going to piss/shit/puke myself. I was just like, "OMG...kill me now!!" I'm bored...gotta get back to the room, but I'm downloading some songs...I gotta keep myself entertained some how while I'm throwing shit around...under the bed I tell you...a lot of things have to go. I'll take care of them today! TODAY DAMMIT TODAY!!! I'm going to bounce out for now...I'll talk to everyone laters! Much love! :) Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Barbie Girl" haha

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June 16th, 2003

10:03 pm - Navy Day...wooooo *as Jenny Dumire calls it* I went up to the Navy Office today. I even drove my own ass up there...I was so proud haha I didn't wreck in Morgantown...thats a big whoopie for me! :) But anyways, I did my stupid PT test, I passed the sit ups and push ups. But I barely passed my running thing...omg I thought I was going to die, and now my legs are all sore, they will be okay though, I'm probably just out of shape. I got a shirt today for shoving Becky's ass in the Navy too. I got my E2, and if I get one more person in, I can make E3, now wouldn't that just be the shit? LOL...yes yes more money is always good when you're me. Oh yes...I CUT OFF ALL MY BEAUTIFUL LONG DARK HAIR!! :'( I miss it very muchly so... Umm...yea I haven't been updating much, I just haven't really found the time or felt like it that much. There is so much going on now, and there just doesn't seem to be enough time to get it all in...craziness. Anyways, I'm going to play online and chat, laters everyone! Current Mood: awake Current Music: ummmm I donno but my foot itches!

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June 12th, 2003

11:37 am - OHHHHHHHHHH 10 DAYS!!! So here I am, with 10 days left here. I'm getting scared, nervous and excited. But Monday I have to to take a PT test and be able to run 1.5 miles in 16 and a half minutes. Hopefully I can pull that out. But then there are FUCKING 67 PUSH UPS!!! I can probably do the 100 sit ups. I'm going to be practicing some in a little bit. Its just...blah I hate this it sucks! But if I past these test I can get my E2, either that or I can put someone else's ass in the Navy...oh God that would be nice! :) So blah de blah over here, I gotta finish up my thank yous from graduation sometime. I'll probably do that today then get out on the running and all that good stuff. I have to find my watch though so I can time myself. Hmmmmmmmmmmm.......nothing to do. I need to get my ass to walmart. I think that I might steal daddy's car and go up whenever he gets back from work because I really need to get my pictures back. I'm going to bounce out for now, get some work done. Laters! Current Mood: distressed Current Music: "Tell Me I Was Dreaming"

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June 11th, 2003

10:32 pm - Tell me I was dreaming... Okay, I just got back from hanging with Jamie and all that and we listend to "Tell Me I Was Dreaming" so its stuck in my head...meaning its time for a new song to download. Anyways, I got in to talk to Chief Little some. He signed off on all things but 3 and I have to come in on Monday to finish them up. I found out that another boy is going in with Becky and me at the same time from Preston, so that'll be pretty cool I think. I have to do my PT test, which I'm not happy about...omg do I hate those things! But whatever, I just want to get it out of the way before I have to die whenever they put me to work. I saw Andy and Jamie play softball today. It was fun watching them. Then we all went to Little C's to see Mary and eat pizza. I got this yummy ice cream cone and put it on Andy's face lol it was funny! :) Hmmmm then I fell asleep on Jamie's lap while he was driving...I was VERY tired. I ended up crying in the car thinking about how much I'm going to miss him. But I felt a lot better whenever he would make me laugh and just do silly things to make me feel better. I love him so much, and I'm so glad that he knows what to do to make me smile and forget my problems and fears for the moment. Well, I'm going to finish up my talks with Heather and a few other people then get on some work, laters everyone. Current Mood: content Current Music: "Girl For All Seasons"

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June 10th, 2003

11:08 pm - Hell...HELL...he's going to HELL!!!! Okay, my dumbfuck recruter pissed me off! He called my house and Becky's wondering why we weren't at our DEP meeting. We were never told when to come in and we were never given a schdule! So I called his office and left him a nice message telling him that he WILL call my ass in to his office and get me my higher rank or else. I have 9 sections to worry about, so at 5:15 tomorrow I will leave my house and go in and play around till this retard called Chief Little gives me my higher rank...that bastard! Anyways, I saw Finding Nemo it was a pretty cute movie. But I have seen better. I really want to see the new Orlando Bloom movie, but its not out yet...at least not in Oakland, but sometime or another I will see it before I leave. I got all my stuff for bootcamp now, even though I'm about ready to tell Chief Little to shove it all up his ass! Whatever though...piss on him...grrrrr!!!! I ate at Denny's and had this snotty waitress, I would have rather had the one that can't speak proper English...dammit I hate some waitresses. LOL...I left her a $2 tip only because she was a snotty bitch...I normally leave nice tips unless I'm broke lol. Well...hmmm...I got my graduation card thank yous. And I need to work on them. There is so much to do, I was going to go get my film tomorrow from Wal Mart, but forget that now, since I wont be here, I'll be in freaking Morgantown and if that man knows whats good for him he WILL call me and tell me when my meeting is...and he WILL get me my higher rank that he promised me. Damn...don't listen to recruter's empty promises kids...thats my advice. I'm outies for now though, I'll talk to everyone else later on! Bye byes! Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: "Bloody Recruiter Valentine"

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10:45 am - Going to Oakland... I'm just finishing up breakfast, yum. And I want to talk to Jamie more, then I'll and get ready to go to Oakland. I'm taking my mom and sis to see a movie, and getting stuff for bootcamp. We'll probably eat somewhere too. Hopefully somewhere with a salad bar or something because lately I'm just not in the mood for meat. Well...I love Jamie! Just thought I would share that with everyone. I'm going to bounce out of here for now and do the dishes. Bye byes everyone! Current Mood: dirty Current Music: "Dirty" Christina

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June 9th, 2003

10:57 pm - Nothing to do today... Amanda was here yesterday, it was pretty fun. We went swimming and I'm doing a lot better I think. I can swim for a while, and I'm just doing all in all better than what I was doing. I'm quite proud of myself. We went to Dairy Queen, lol I swear those people will think I'm the biggest pigs since I went there 2 days in a row. We went to Oakland and got somethings, like Black Hawk Down for my mommy, tampons, hair stuff, and um...I don't remember what else lol. We went to eat breakfast at Dennys at like 11 at night too lol, it was a lot of fun. Today we had to baby sit my Grandparents house, which is okay because I got $20 from it hehe! :-D So I got like $60 today because I got 2 more cards from graduation. I'm pulling in the money...yays I need it since I leave soon. I have to rant on about Black Hawk Down now...lol. I liked it a lot better this time, I guess I understand it more than I did...since this time I did stay awake for it and I payed more attention. First off...I gotta show love to Josh Hartnett and Orlando Bloom...*wipes off drool* sorry...but nothing makes a good war movie like sexy men walking around all dirty and sweaty haha, we can minus the blood though...ick. But yea...wooo I liked it. Army men *rarrrrr* hehe. But I have to complain about something! The military has a shit fit if you have an inhaler and I saw this guy take his inhaler like twice in the movie! First off, you can't get in the Army or any military for that matter if you have an inhaler, and even if you could slip in with it, there is NO WAY IN HELL you could be a Ranger and go fight in wars with it. Stupid people lol, don't they know any better than that? I was just kinda annoyed with that. But anyways, tomorrow I'm going to take my mom and sis in to Oakland cause dad's not feeling well. We're going out to eat, get somethings at walmart, and seeing Finding Nemo. I've been wanting to see Finding Nemo so thats a big plus for me lol. I got my stuff from Navy Fed today. I had to call them and harrass them for my Direct Depost thingie. I have to order checks too, but I can do that tomorrow. But I only have $15 in it right now so its not like I can use them lol but still...I want them just for the sake of having them. Plus, I have like $600 now so I can play some with that. And I think I have $300 in my other bank so I just have to take it out and put it in my Navy account. I have 2 of them so I have to split it with savings and checking. I'm going to see Jamie on Wednesday...donno how I'll pull it off yet...but I WILL see Jamie. I know that me leaving is going to be hard on everyone, but I know its going to be harder on him than most. Now before everyone gets on my case for saying this, just think about it. Friends, don't take too much to stay in touch with, you write a letter once a month, and make a few calls and its all good. But in a relationship, you have to give a little more than that. It takes a lot to wait for someone and not see them for 12 weeks, I mean, two people have to really love each other to go though all that. And I just love him so much for not giving up on our relationship, it means just everything to me, knowing that he'll be back here waiting for me, as I will be waiting to be with him when my training is over. I know we'll make it work out somehow... Anyways, I guess I'm going to bounce out of here for now and talk to J Hall and surf the net a bit...laters everyone! Current Mood: pensive Current Music: "Weird" Hanson

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June 8th, 2003

10:58 am - A little too much drinkie drink last night??? Well...lol I went to Missy's party last night, it was great! LOL! I don't even know where to begin. There was just so much that happened...and some of which I can't remember that Jamie told me last night. Lets see...we walked around some and talked in our little groupie lol which was Missy, Jess, Jeremy, Jamie, and me. Yes peoples, Jamie and Jeremy got along well for the sake of Jess and me lol. We went to the pond, pet the horsey lol and um...hung around. We also drank a little from the keg and some lemonade stuff...yum...I liked it a lot better this time than at prom. But we all went and took a little walk around 9 cause everyone had to pee and I had to change my tampon! So I changed my tampon in the middle of a field and put it in wrong and had to push it up...yes yes I know you people wanna read this. But it was so funny, everyone was laughing so hard because I was freaking out cause I couldn't get it all the way in. I finally just let the damn thing alone and went back up. We had some more to drinkie drink, and went on a four wheeler ride...I got all drity and muddy! Then I had some more to drink lol, then I went home with Jamie and Jess. Now for some talks about the insane things people do whenever they are drunk...and I'm probably forgetting a few of them. First and the worse by far lol, I had to pee when we left, and I told Jamie to hurry up cause I had to pee, so he asks Jess and me if we want to pee at the school in the parking lot and we said yes. So I go pull down my pants to pee and I have that tampon in so it miss aims and gets on the bottom of my pants and I freak out. So they all laugh at me and I laugh so hard that I fall backwards and rolled in God knows what...in my nice pretty dance shirt. So Jamie tells Jess and me that there is a cop and we run in the car and tell him to go. But we're still freaking out because we have to pee! So we go to Subway, while telling him to take us to a bar at the sametime. We get to Subway and I go in the bathroom, and Jess goes in the men's bathroom lol. The lady looked at us like we were freaking stupid. So I go to pee and my tampon...I pee it out. So I go out the door with my pants half down but my undies on and tell Jamie to get me another tampon, and he does, but when he comes back its too small so I throw it at him and tell him, "I want a bigger one this is too small!" so he goes and gets it. I change its all good, and then I come out and start talking to the lady there lol. Jamie makes me sit down and I start chewing on this bench there! LOL! Then two boys from my Junior Science class came in, Roger and Justin lol. They look at me and try to ignore me, then we left and I was pressing myself to the window yelling to them. OMG, I feel so dumb now, but it was funny as hell I tell you! I have no idea what else I did but I know that Subway and the parking lot...omg...too much drinkie drink lol. But it was fun. So anyways, Amanda is coming up, I think that I might go and stop by the restuarant and see Jess at work then go to the pool. I don't know what me and the hoocher are doing. But anyways, I'm going to bounce out for now and go hang around with the dishes and wish for my calf pain to go away...my muscles are getting bigger from swimming! AHHHHH!! Bye byes everyone! Current Mood: amused Current Music: "I'm Glad" J Lo

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June 6th, 2003

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12:17 pm - The ALI factory... I feel so bad...I want to go out and do something with everyone today. I want to hang with Jess and Jordan, party with Becky, study for my Navy stuff, and of course go and hang out with Jamie. But there is only one of me, and that one of me promised Becky a day for her birthday. I feel bad. So I'm going to get myself cloned and give everyone their own speical Ali. How does that sound everyone? LOL...I might even make Andy his own Ali since he feels left out too...hehe. Andy and I sang "Under The Sea" wooooooo! :) I heard it yesterday with Andrea and thought of him lol. Just because he loves that movie so much hehe. So anyways, DADDY STOP READING MY LJ! ITS NOT FOR YOU TO READ YOUNG MAN! Yup yup kiddies, Daddy read my lj and found out I wanted a tattoo and freaking woke me up at 9 AM!!! Just to tell me he didn't want me to get one, duh, I knew that already dad lol. Daddy and Mommy aren't the tattoo freaks here lol. They are very "old fashioned". I don't think I'll get one now though, my mom did have a point, if I get it on my ankle I can wear the little cute Navy dresses lol. So I might just hold out till I get the one on my lower back...and its going to be a little big lol. Oh yes, my mom and I are talking on a normal level now. After like half a week lol. It'll be okay though... I'm going to bounce out for now and finish getting ready...maybe watch The Little Mermaid hehe. Laters everyone! Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Under The Sea"

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June 5th, 2003

02:34 pm - Just some fast updates before I bum around the house and annoy my dad! First and most importantly, I got my new checking account and savings account with Navy Federal today. My dad set it up and I got all my numbers and junk, HOPEFULLY the retards will send it out to me soon so I can take my slip with me too bootcamp. I still have to go and take all the money out of my old bank, I might switch it over or just have two banks like my parents do. Mommy and I talked a little itty bitty bit more. She's said like 5 things to me today lol, which was as much as she said to me in a total of 2 days lol. Plus I don't think she can hate me too much since I did try and clean her house today. She better let me out this weekend too. But lately her respone for anything is, "I don't care." or "Whatever." I'm getting a tattoo with Becky on Friday. Scary huh? I don't know exactly what I want, and I'm just a bit scared. Ah, yea...I donno. Plus the damn things are so expensive lol and I'm cheap. I don't know what I'll do. We're trying to talk Jenn in to getting one with us. Right now I'm going towards this little butterfly. Just for this little inch and a half tattoo will cost me like $60! Isn't that just a rip? Oh well though...I don't know, I'm scared lol. Amanda is coming over on Sunday. She is always working and she called me at noon and I was all up for her coming over. Thats whenever I asked my mom and she said, "I don't care." lol...yea she better not care or else I will just leave the house. But I have to go and kiss ass just to stay at Becky's probably tommorrow. I'll clean the house or something. I need to get out and do stuff! But daddy wont let me have the car! Isn't that just so mean? I think I earned to have the car but he said that he had a headache...yea...it pissed me off. I wanna cash some checks! If I don't do it then I can't get my freaking tattoo!! Dammit it all! Oh well, I'm half thinking about waiting till I come back from bootcamp to get it...along with my bellybutton done. Soo...17 days and its bye bye Ali and Becky. Yea, I know you all will miss me bunches lol. I would miss me too...haha I'm just kidding. You know what I relized? I must be pretty fucking loud...like REALLY REALLY loud. I did this survey in my email and EVERYONE who sent it back said I was their loudest friend...I said Jordan was mine lol. He ranks up there pretty well I think. I'm going to bounce out for now and talk to Tiffany for a little bit then work on doing something to keep myself busy. Maybe I'll go and actually get to Oakland...dammit I need money!!! Current Mood: calm Current Music: some stupid radio thing my parents are listening too

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June 4th, 2003

05:50 pm - I'm getting so bad at this lol... So its been a long week, I've had graduation, graduation party, Alpine, Morgantown, and bumming around the house...so much. Jeez...where to start..?? Graduation, we were all soooo lucky, it was a beautiful day I think. Its been a long time since its been that nice for graduation so I thought we were so lucky. I cried a lot, and so did a bunch of people I know. Jess and Jordan made me signs that say, "Go Ali/We <3 You!" I was so happy, I felt all special. I didn't fall or anything, so that was a plus, I thought I was going to in those huge heels I wore. The ceremony was so great. All the speakers did a good job. Robyn said something like, "Preston High is a place for sex...sucess..." everyone laughed. It was so funny. During practice for graduation I cried a little whenever Jess and Jenn were sreaming for me. Tiffany told me that J Hall cried whenever she read the newspaper and saw what I willed her and she cried when I was walking. I felt so awful, I'm going to miss her and everyone else so much. My graduation party. I got so mad at my family...yet again. They wanted the party at noon, but then it was a half hour late because the Filipina women of the house had to run around and make themselves look pretty...I was soo embarrassed. I was happy with who all came though. Close family friends, and my good friends. I ended up with around $600 too so thats always a plus hehe. Jess, Jamie and me took off to Alpine later on. We didn't get in time for swimming but we did the next day. We all went around and watched movies, and went to Oakland. There was so much that went on, mostly all of us just hanging around talking it was a lot of fun, I hope we can all do it again sometime. Monday I was in Morgantown, dad's workers come up and talk to me...girls...if you want hit on...go to Lowes and just walk around for 5 minutes and some guy will walk up and start to talk to you lol. I got a VC Andrews book YAYS! I'm on Chapter 5 of it now I think...its pretty good...I just love these books. :) Someday I'm going to have all of them!!! :D So anyways, my mom is still mad at me, in all seriousness...no lie this is all she's said to me since yesterday, "give Andrea a bath" "whatever" "do the dishes" "water" "get off the computer its 3" yup yup...thats all she's said to me..but thats fine I'll get over it. You know what I don't understand...boys that I dated back in Junior High telling me they "want" me...and he actually said, "If you wouldn't have broken up with me when you were 12 years old we would have lasted forever." I couldn't help but laugh. I mean for reals now people...I'm 18 now...like I would be with someone that long...sooner or later something would happen, even more so being that young. Jeez lol. I'm not going to be someone's little play toy...I have a boyfriend and why would I want to mess that up for a one night stand with someone that doesn't really care about me and I don't care about either...boys can be so dumb sometimes. But yup there is my update for now...I'm going to bounce out and talk and then probably do the dishes and read more of "Wicked Forest". Laters everyone! Current Mood: amused Current Music: the tv in the background...some weird bubbly commerical

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May 28th, 2003

10:49 pm - And now...for your viewing pleasure...:) The 100 reasons why I love my Jamie!!! 100: He gives that fake smile and you can just melt in to a puddle on the floor. 99: The lower back...I donno what it is...I love it...its just so built. 98: How weird is this but I love his size I love that he's just so much more taller than I am and we look so different. 97: He's not racest! He's openminded and excepts people for who they are...not the skin color. 96: Wants the best for me...and doesn't just think about himself. 95: Kisses the nape of my neck...its just soo sweet. 94: I can't help but say it...he's got a big dick and if I say it we all know its true...hehehe... 93: Whispers cute little things to me when people are around about how he loves me. 92: Holds my hand while he's driving and complains if I don't hold it lol. 91: I'm moody..and he deals with it, thats love I tell you! 90: Puts up with my mom! That takes work! 89: Talks with my dad...even about stupid stuff. 88: My Grandparents love him...that makes me love him, because I love my Grandparents and they have a hard time with people I date sometimes...lol. 87: Not ashamed to tell his friends about me...he's proud of me and I am of him. 86: Skips his games to come and spend time with me. 85: If I pout about anything he gives in...it makes me feel bad but it shows that he loves me and doesn't want me to pout lol. 84: Tells me whenever someone does something wrong that I should know about...its called big trust...VERY important. 83: I know he will be faithful to me. 82: He goes to church with me, I may not like my church that much but I love God and he does too...we have faith. 81: He trust me to do the right thing with myself, and wants me to not hurt myself. 80: Lets me get away with breaking plans for the last minute and doesn't hate me for it. 79: Sensitive...hard to find that in a guy... 78: The way that he looks at me, he looks at me and I can tell that he loves me so much. 77: He's willing to take the chance on him and me whenever I leave for the Navy. 76: Has been with me for almost 10 months and hasn't left me yet. 75: Doesn't force me to do anything that I don't want to do...understands that I don't like certain things. 74: The oh so sexy way that he bites down on his lip whenever he wants to kiss me. 73: The smile he gives me...the real one...whenever he wants something. 72: He lets me have more defined leg muscles than he does and doesn't complain about it...lol too much. 71: No one has ever been so kind to me, as in said the things that he has...no one has ever said the things that he has before. 70: The smell of Jamie...yup yup I love it, thats why I sleep with Jamie wifebeaters. 69: He does this well...lol...if you don't get it...nevermind. 68: No one has ever treated me the way he does, he treats me lik a princess...he even calls me it. 67: I don't care what he says...but he can dance...he grinds...something I love to do as we all know. :) 66: Writes wonderful little poems about me and him and our first date. 65: Does the dishes with me when we're at my house lol...its the little things that matter sometimes people. 64: It maybe gone now, but that eyebrow ring...roar lol...I liked it. 63: He's got the most gentle touch...goes back to his hands *sigh*...gotta love those hands. 62: Gets along with most of my friends...well now we can say about all of them. 61: Wears girl clothes and is a good sport about it lol. 60: He calms me down from the big anger fits I have. 59: He rocks me to sleep, or rubs me...its too sweet and its relaxing. 58: Doesn't complain about my Hanson posters hehe. 57: He can be serious and mature whenever the time comes for it. 56: Also he's fun to be with, I can be silly with him and kid around when the time is right... 55: Lets me sleep on him. 54: His voice...so smooth...I don't know how else to explain it...I love the sound of Jamie's voice...and for some reason even more so in the morning. 53: Would let me shove a dildo up his ass if I wanted too lmao! I can't help but say that one. 52: Goes to the silly little Civic Center dances with me lol. 51: Lol...he looks good wet in the shower...mmm...yum... 50: Even though I don't think so...he thinks I'm beautiful. 49: He does sweet things for me...like sing to me on a cd and give it to me for a present. :) 48: What can I say...he may not know it but the boy is a romantic...mmm...yup I love it. 47: Plays my silly games late at night...I mean games when we ask each other stupid questions lol. 46: Lets me put make up on him in public places. 45: Stays up till all hours of the night to talk to me about nothing. 44: Isn't scared to be commited to me. 43: Hands...Jamie has beautiful hands...they are so smooth and big and I just can't explain the, but they are beautiful. 42: Doesn't make fun of my singing...whenever it is I do sing lol. 41: Always stands by me...even when everyone else is gone. 40: Sticks up for me, even when no one else does... 39: Tells me he loves me all the time, even with his family around. 38: Not afaird to show me a little tears. 37: Supports me in most of what I do lol. 36: Always tries to make me feel good during...you know lol...its not all about him. 35: Brings me McDonalds food when I'm starving from practice 34: MMM...yes my boyfriend Jamie is sexy...yes very very sexy... 33: He likes to shop...how often does a girl get so lucky? 32: BOOBS! Yes those boobs...he has sexy muscle man boobs. 31: That ass...I normaly don't like the butts...but Jamie's got one fine ass! 30: Can always make me laugh with funny things like, "You love poop more than me!" 29: Plays with the bratty little sister I have even though she's annoying. 28: Watches me do my hair when I'm late without complaining. 27: Aggressive and passive when it comes to "things", its fun to be in charge sometimes for either peoples. 26: His intelligence...I love a guy with a brain. 25: Him and his clothing...yummy...I love the way that he dresses. 24: Forgives me for all the stupid things I do. 23: Will show up at practice just to see me for a few hours. 22: Meets me after my Navy meetings. 21: Comes to my dance shows even though he thinks that some of my dancer friends are bitches. 20: Fixes things around the house for me...like my tapes and vcr and computer... 19: He loves no one but me...yup yup me. 18: Skips school to take me to family planning so I don't bare our child sometime soon. 17: Can survive anything...even my awful pms trips. 16: Holds me when I cry. 15: Deals with me and my crazy friends all the time lol. 14: He thinks I'm perfect, even though we all know I'm not. 13: Puts up with me and my shit all the time. 12: He sings songs that make me want to cry and fall in love with him all over again. 11: He'll get online just to talk to me and tell me he loves me. 10: He's honest with me, even if its something I don't want to hear, he's always telling me the truth. 9: The cute little kisses he always surprises me with. 8: He spoils me with back rubs and massages even when he's too tired. 7: He'll make the effort to dance with me even when he doesn't want too. 6: He's like one of my best friends. 5: I can trust him with anything. 4: He's always tries and understands whatever I'm going through. 3: Arms that always wrap around me and keep me all warm and safe. 2: Those kissable lips...yum, so pouty and cute. And the NUMBER ONE reason I love Jamie is... 1: He's the most perfect boyfriend there ever!!! Current Mood: loved Current Music: "Live Your Dreams"

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10:23 am - Jeez...dumb livejournal...don't be a bitch to me lol I wrote this big long message and now I have to do it again because the computer in Business Computer Applications messed up. Damn computers lol. But to narrow it down, I lost two of my USED to be good friends that I loved. But I don't care because they stabbed me in the back and treated me like shit and thats fine. I had Navy day with Becky and it was fun, got to hang around with Jamie yesterday. And I did other things lol I forget, but I'm going to go play online now or something, find something to entertain myself with. Laters everyone! Current Mood: happy Current Music: ah I forget it now

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May 23rd, 2003

07:57 am - Going to sleep...yup yup sleep is good! I've been falling asleep on the bus more and more...and I wake up with my mouth hanging wide open...how wonderful...lol. I just wanna go back to bed, I went at 11 so I could talk to Jamie for a little bit...but but but...its never enough...I need more sleep dammit! Three more days of school and they are trying to give us work. I haven't done any of it...I think its a bunch of shit that we have to make up all of this! I mean they keep piling up on the work on us and expect it to get all done...its just a bunch of fucking shit! Give us a break already...if you keep giving us more and more we're just going to get fet up and not do any more of it! I have a meeting with Chief Little on Monday. I have to talk to Becky about it, she tried to call me but I wasn't home...so I have to call her sometime tomorrow. I have no idea where she'll be and I hope that the 864 number thats laying on my desk is her's cause thats the one that I'll be calling...I need to label my numbers whenever I write them down. But anyways, its all good because I'll get some of my junk out of the way and maybe we'll get to pick out our ports. I already know I will get Virginia...but I just want to try and make it on a base and not be on a freaking ship...er...ships...blah. Oh well though...they can't put me on one forever...and hopefully if I get my higher rank I can get off of those ships and start on the legal side of things. I've been doing a lot of research on the legal stuff now. I've looked at degrees and what all I will need to pass. I'm looking forward to that...but a paralegal doesn't normaly do secretary work...but if I can I'm going to try and do both. I think I could handle that...and its just something that I've always been in to...ah work...lol...it sucks...and it sucks even more when you're not 100% sure of what you want to do. I have a surprise for my journal later on...but I have to go and work so I'll fix it later...bye byes everyone! Current Mood: devious Current Music: oh I donno lol I can't recall the name

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May 22nd, 2003

08:20 am - OH yes...we are all sooo great! You know what I've heard soo many times in the past week? That the dancers think that they are better than everyone else. Yesterday at lunch we had Jenn sitting with us...she's NOT a dancer. And this girl...that sits by me in class...*yes the one I always complain about* said that the reason Jenn wanted to sit with us is because we think that we're better than everyone else and she can think that about herself too if she comes over with us. I think thats the biggest bunch of bullshit ever. "Oh yes, we think that we're just sooo great...we're only three dancers sitting together." I mean...whats the big deal...so she wanted to sit with us...I don't think it has anything to do with us thinking we're better than everyone else...cause we don't. We're not some click that everyone talks about. Then there are a few of our friends that are scared to come up and hang out and talk with us, even more so at dances because of the simple fact that we're dancers. I mean its not a big deal, we're not any different, we just like to dance and some of us are pretty good at it. Just because some of us are on a team doesn't mean we want to be apart from our friends. And some of the dancers aren't that great...there are a lot of girls I know that dance better than some of the girls on the team. I mean some of us are good...but some of us are not so good. Its not a big deal girls...we're not going to look down on someone just because they don't dance too well. We're not that shallow or whatever. We just want to get together and have a good time with our friends. I just don't want the dance team to be some click that everyone hates. Like the drama people...with a few exceptions like Lizz, Mary, AJ and a few others a lot of them are exremly bitchy. They look down on everyone. One of them wanted to get an attitude with us for walking down the hall near where try outs were being held...so I gave her lip back. It just pisses me off that they think that they are soo much more better than everyone else. We were just practicing and some of them are in the other room making fun of us...well that just makes me want to show up at one of their shows and scream out that they all suck...I mean for real...I think that the drama group has to be about the biggest click in this school...it comes pretty damn close to the preps. Anyways, enough of my bitching...and like I said...I am NOT talking about Lizz, Mary, or AJ...they are some of the few good drama peoples hehe. I'm going to bounce out for now...my snobby dancing body has to go and dance for the Junior High school brats today again. Bye byes everyone! Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Shout" omg...lol Rob at prom lmao

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May 21st, 2003

03:03 pm - Jeez...I'm so slow! No more staying after...well not a lot of staying after, I have a few things I still have to do for dance and what all. But now I will have more time to play and do other things instead of stay after school. I guess I'll talk about the dances though. In the morning yesterday, we danced for the 8th graders. And let me tell you...bunch of little brats they are! We were dancing and they were just so fucking rude! So then the came in to my Accounting II class and I was bitching about them in front of them. LOL...some of the looks were priceless though. I have now figured out a way to make myself dance HORRIBLE now. If someone sits and laughs while I'm dancing...I do really bad...those stupid kids were laughing at everyone...and its just so distracting! Last night though, as far as dancing goes, it went VERY well. No one messed up majorly, there were a few little screw ups but thats all. I didn't do anything too bad, I rushed a little bit on "Fighter" and I kinda got annoyed because someone told me I was earily on everything. And I was thinking, "I wasn't earily on everything...the jazz box yes, but I was on time, and everyone else delays the moves instead of going right in to them." Oh well though...its not a biggie really. Everyone went to Dairy Queen to eat and I didn't...I just had a lot on my mind and I started crying and I just didn't want to do anything. I was too tired so I took a nap while everyone else went out. I knew that some of them worried because they wre talking about me and all that...I don't care though. At least they care enough to ask about me and all that. Thats about all that happened dance wise though...dancing VERY VERY good though...:D Current Mood: happy Current Music: "Fighter"

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May 19th, 2003

10:24 pm - Gotta catch up... First off...there is prom...I haven't gotten to do my forever long entry about it yet lol so here it comes hehe. First I got up like...way to freaking early...around 7 and got ready to go to walmart. I had to straighten my hair and everything too so it took a while. My parents took me out to Denny's to eat and I saw Zack Bachtel there. Then we went to WalMart where we got a bunch of stuff. I got some make-up and junk for prom. I got a picture frame too for the big prom picture when it comes back. I came home and fixed the house a little bit and straightened my hair again. I talked to Jess, Jamie, and Brandi on the phone for a little bit too. At 1:30 I left and went to Jess's so her Aunt Cathy could fix our hair. She wasn't there yet so we hung around and watched some tv and talked. When she got there I showed her Amanda's picture and gave her an idea of what I wanted done with it. It took about an hour but it looked really cute I thought. I stayed longer and watched Jess get her hair done. The braid looked really cute and they were trying to get the gold beads in it. At around 4 I called my dad and told him to get me cause I was had to be back soon. When I got home Jamie was already there. So he got to see my do my nails...put on my make up...and all that good stuff. It took me forever and I felt bad because I had wanted to be ready when he got there and look all pretty for him...but I ddin't get my way with that. Oh well though...not much I can do about it. We both got ready though, and he came out of my room I just thought he looked so sexy in his tux. I don't know how to explain it...it just kinda reminded me of a model. We went downstairs and had a little 2 minute video and my parents took some pictures. We left and went up to Aurora School so I could show my Grandma how we looked and everything and so she could fix my skirt...since my body was too fat for it. At the school we got so many weird looks and some lady asked Jamie if she could be his date for the prom. I felt bad leaving him out there in the hall while I got my skirt fixed...but it was kinda funny...he just looked so good though. After we got out of there we headed up to BackBay to eat dinner with Jess, Trevor, and Missy. About an hour away from my house I scream out, "AHHHHH I forgot the tickets." out of nowhere. So we pull over and I call my dad and Jamie's mom and have them meet so that when we stopped by there we could get the tickets...omg I felt like sucha dumbass lol. It all got worked out though after like a ton of phone calls...lol. I felt awful though about it having to have both of our parents go out of the way. We got to BackBay and I called Missy's house to see if they had left. They were there and it was about 15 minutes till our reservations. So I was kinda annoyed but Jamie chilled me out with a little "drinkie drink" hehe. At 7 we went in and they had to have us wait because the other parties hadn't left yet. So we waited there for about a half hour. And in that time about 3 ladies came up and told me that I looked nice. I felt all specail hehe. We got the table and just got drinks and everyone came in like 10 minutes later, which wasn't too bad. BackBay was mega busy though, so we didn't get to order our food till late, and it didn't come till like 7:45. I got this Norfolk Sea Food Plater thing. The top of it was good...but when you get to the bottom and all the juices are mixed together...then its not soo good. We got some pictures taken together, like the girls, the guys, and the waitress there was really nice and she took some pictures too. We started on our way back around 8 something...omg it was awful. But it was so fun driving around. I flashed everyone in Trevor's truck haha. And Jess and I took pictures of each other when we were side by side in different vechiles lmao omg it was so fucking great lol. Jamie and I were going to throw this bottle in the truck but we didn't lol. We got to Jamie's house really late like around 9:15. His mom wasn't there so we didn't get to get any pictures taken. We just picked up my tickets and saw Jim. We hid the "drinkie drinks" and went up to prom. We got to prom around 9:30, I took a whole bunch of pictures with friends and saw tons of people there. When Jess and all them got up we went and got out pictures taken by Jan's. I bet the pictures come out bad because the man is a retard and just snaps the picture without like counting down or something...I'm going to be pissed if my pictures are bad and tell him off. I mean I payed $25 for those damn things and they turn out like crap. We all danced and saw Ms. Ryan. I took some pictures with her. It was fun whenever "Bootilious" came on and all the dancers did it. A lot of people clapped, but you know..the drama snobs had to be all like, "What the fuck are you doing..." omg they piss me off so much sometimes. But it was a lot of fun. There were a lot of times when people would do stuff and people would crowd around in a circle...it was so fun. Rob started a conga line and put me in the front of it lol. It was a big line too lol...hehe. Matt, Andy, and Jamie did the YMCA together hehe. And we all danced to "A Moment Like This" together. There was just so much dancing and picture taking. After prom we went back to Jamie's house and changed our clothes then came back to the school to meet up with Missy, Jess and Jeremy. We went in to Valley Point to meet up with Jennifer, her boyfriend Sam, and Dave who ended up being Missy's date. We ended up going to this old house where we all drank some and talked...it was sooooooo cold though. Jeremy ended up talking about stupid shit about my past with someone...so Jamie got mad and I was too actually. So we left before one of us killed him. LMAO I could actually see myself going back and doing to him what I did in guidance hehe. But oh well...we left and went parking...if you know what I mean. They all drove by and we followed them hehe. We saw them at the Quick Stop thingie so we said hi to them and then left again. I ended up falling asleep on the way home lol...bad Ali. Then we got to my house and the door was locked and we fell asleep on the couch together. Well...thats about the whole prom in a nutshell...I don't feel like it had to be too detailed hehe. I'm outies for now...I'm having a serious talk right now... Current Mood: scared Current Music: tv in background

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May 15th, 2003

08:50 am - I'm bored! We have to spend 2 hours in Accounting II and Ms. Sparh wants us to work for an hour and a half. So yea...we gotta figure out a way to put it off...I don't wanna work! I wanna sit around and talk and play on the computer. I'm debating if I want to go and hang out with Tim, Stacy, Heather and...Jeremy on Friday. I would love to see Tim again because this will be the last time I see him before I leave for bootcamp, and it'll be one of the few times I will get to see him because I leave for bootcamp in June and I'll be there for 9 weeks, then training for 3 weeks. And you know...by the time I get back he'll be in school. So I don't know when I'll get to see him again. And it all depends if I get the holidays off and if I can even get up here. I don't have a car so I don't see how my parents expect me to get home or anything...so I'll probably spend a lot of my time in my barracks alone. Damn not having a car. I broke my lips! Well they kinda got chapped or something and then they kinda broke at the edges. I got it last year at prom too err it sucks! So yea...I donno...I'm gonna go and read fanfiction with Jenn. Laters everyone! Current Mood: awake Current Music: "Lady Marmalade"

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May 13th, 2003

09:57 pm - Ah, my tummy hurts! :'( I went to my DEP meeting with Becky today. It was okay, Chief Little talked...A LOT. So yea...it was just going over stuff really. I have to go back in sometime so I can go and take some of the courses and see if my daddy can pull some strings and get me higher rank faster that way I can catch up with Becky and get more money. We ate at Wendy's and now my stomach is hurting like a fucking bitch. I can hardly move and I donno what all is causing it...ah it hurts! I hate it! I think that I'll be off to bed soon to take care of it though. And if it still hurts in the morning then I'm just going to stay home because it hurts a lot to even move a little bit. My sister is so cute lol. My mom is telling her to go to bed and she's like "Mama...don't you know I have a timer of when I have to go to bed?" lol...Yea she's a little brat but she's just too cute! :) I came home and she runs and jumps to me and hugs me and screams out, "ALI! I MISS YOU!" What am I going to do without my little Baby Fungus for months at a time lol. I love that little brat to death. I guess I'm going to post this, say goodnight to everyone then get to sleep. Laters everyone. Current Mood: sore Current Music: that runs hands threw fro song lol

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07:54 am - Wee I got the internet back! :) I'm in first period now, yesterday the internet didn't work so I got a lot of stuff done that I needed too. Now I'm on my last worksheet. All I have to do is make it all pretty then change some answers and then I'm done with this section. Yays! I have my DEP meeting today. I might try and talk Becky in to leaving school and hanging out at her house so we can sleep then going in from there. But I donno yet, I might want to go and help my group in dance do their stuff. Ah, I donno, lol sleep or dance? Both are so great hehe and soooo fun. I wore a cute outfit today for when I get to see Jamie. He's picking me up from the DEP meeting so I'll see him for a hour or so. Yays! I miss Jamie, and I hate that he doesn't have the computer so we can't talk at all really, its so depressing. I miss him bunches already. We figured out where we're all eating for prom. At BackBay, I've been there once but it was like a LONG time ago, so I don't remember what all they had or if I even liked it. There is a lot of stuff before that I hated that I like now. I don't want to stay home after prom! I have to think of something to do, but if all else fails then I can have a SHITTY little mini party at my house and that wouldn't be fun so yea...that goes out the window. Oh I donno, damn prom plans, I gotta go and find a party to go to like last year. LOL...I'll be doing more my Junior prom than my Senior prom...that just sucks lol I need to find a good party to go too. So now, hmmm...Jeremy has tried talking to me...not much but I don't know what else to think of it. He imed me and said sorry and all that but I donno if he really means it or whatever. He hasn't given me a reason for anything. And he wants me to go and pretend that it didn't happen? I can forgive him because its the right thing to do, but I don't know if I can be friends with him again. I mean, a friendship to me has to have a certain amount of trust and right now I have like no trust him at all, I'm sorry to say. And I guess the reason I took it so hard is because I've known Jeremy longer than I have about anyone else here at school and I just expected him not to be well...like that. I'm sad that we're not friends, but I don't want to give myself another chance for him to piss me off and hurt me like that again. I loved him like my brother, but I guess you learn a few things. Ah, I don't wanna talk about it or else it'll make me cry. Well now, my dance preformance is next week. So I want to see all your smiling faces cheering on the dance team hehe. I'm excited to do "Fighter" its really neat looking I think. Its got a lot of kickboxer moves in it, and I just love it, its so fun. I don't know if everyone will have it down though. Yesterday I guess my front row was upset because the backrow was being hard on them/us. And then my front row saw that they didn't know much of the dance and were mad about that. I don't think its the row as a whole, I think its just certain people looking out to see...well certain things. I just stayed out of it and didn't say much because I don't want a fight to start. Sarah and I were fighting before the Christmas dance and it was soo awful, I hate fighting with people whenever you have to work together as a group and do something. Ah, nothing to do now, I can't figure out how to make my lines go up and vertical haha. Oh I'm so dumb, but its all good. I guess I'll ask Mrs. Weltch in a little bit about them, after I'm done playing my journal. Not like I have anything else better to do around here today. I could finish up my Accounting II work. I swear if it weren't for Dee I would sooo fail that class, and if it weren't for me Becky would fail that class too lol. Yay for people we copy off of hehe. I wonder when we'll get our Core Test thingies back. I probably didn't do too well on it because a lot of the stuff for Accounting I didn't know because I had either forgotten it or it was something that we never went over. I don't mind if I don't get my Accounting one, but I would like to get the one for Business and Computers that way I can have to show off since I do want to go in to computers and all that stuff. I'm going to bounce out of here for now though and figure out how to do those lines and then print it off, then probably surf the internet a little longer till its time to go. Bye byes everyone! Current Mood: calm Current Music: ah I donno lol too tired to think of music

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