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[05 Sep 2002|09:22pm] |
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studio today...hot shit. good times. laughs. talent comin out the ass. it's def. a different environment from what im used to. saw a kid i remember from stanj named drew leery, he's a sophomore here. that was kinda cool. im in the yellow group. good times. the mom from clarissa explains it all is my acting teacher. she said fuck a bunch of times. basically shattered my childhood visions of the darling family. but what are you gonna do? gotta be uptown at an ungodly hour tomorrow morning. not too excited about it. my shit should be gettin here tomorrow. bout time an shit.weekend is basically here. kinda excited about it. prolly gonna head uptown. we'll see. holler.
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| NYC to date |
[03 Sep 2002|03:07pm] |
skipped a bunch of orientation shit last week and only attended what i thought vital. had some drama w/registration and bursars all in one rainy shitty, get lost in the city day but i survived it and supposedly it's all better now. we'll see. went out damn near every night...suffered through the pummelling rains and chilly weather c/o el friggen nino to emerge w/a cold/cough/ who knows what that refuses to go away. but ill live. come out of drama orientation today to find that it's 80 friggen degrees out. i suppose there's something to be said for unpredictability but damn. finally opened up our dining hall downstairs. it's cozy. i dig it. met some folks in the building yesterday. seem like decent people. not quite what i expected of a college dormitory. but i don't hate it.
new lj segment...slang from around the nation/world
sick, pimp = cool, hot, sweet (chicago/midwest)
geeked = excited (chicago)
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| really quick |
[28 Aug 2002|06:19pm] |
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estoy en la escuela. todo esta pasando bien. me gusta la ciudad y las personas...mas o menos. met a mad cool chiquita named melissa...a little mexican smurfette. we cant stand eachother but we've spent the last two days together non stop. hit up the club 2 nights in a row...stayed out crazy late and had to wake up for orientation activities. off to the gym. holla.
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| cannot break the silence |
[19 Aug 2002|12:41pm] |
in RI w/the fam. chilled w/na and kayla and their "cousins" being crazy. good to see my sisters again. sat, my mom threw me a nice little surprise bbq. got some serious loot for my poor college student ass. which is always a good time. went to my aunts house yesterday w/doodoo for her surprise party. david stopped by w/him mom and little bro. haven't seen him in a good 2 years. doesn't look half bad but it's like we're family...kinda. basically we were best friends when we were kids. anyway, not really attracted to him so there' no use hashing out the wierdness of the possibility. tried to hit up the club w/raissa...that sure went all f'ed up. but whatever. and i lost my voice. so i sound like friggen phyllis diller.
leeser is gone. it's strange how differently all this has affected me because i was so far for so long. ohio ain't exactly a hemisphere away. so im a little more ok w/ it all. seems kinda insensitive though. my roommate emailed me. she's so damn perky. says things like "hope this finds you on a happy day" and "smiles" in her closing. what the hell?!
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| still in jersey |
[15 Aug 2002|06:00pm] |
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still havin a good time.
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| so..umm..im here |
[12 Aug 2002|11:52am] |
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in jersey, havin' a good time. stayin at britt's (for the most part). at kim's now. crashed here last night after the club. k now, goin to meet britt for lunch at work.
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| "what are you? some kind of machinist?" |
[07 Aug 2002|11:49pm] |
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well..the day is near. the folks threw me a lovely birthday/going away bbq today. some family friends and junk came but the only person acutally there for me was shay but she's basically the only person i actually wanted there so it's all gravy. hung out, chatted, stuffed our faces...had a nice time. did dishes till 11 pm. after husslin' everyone out the door and now im wide awake. i should call P. might call him from the airport..it's strange though. i feel like i got closure from that whole thing. all at once. eh who knows what would happen if i saw him again...anyway, i've got a lot of other stuff to think about right now. no use dwelling on the uncontrolable. im ready...i really am ready.
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| furthermore... |
[04 Aug 2002|10:00pm] |
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shay and i had to leave the bbq and head over to D&B; for dinner w/the work folks...or rather, shay had to peel me off of P's lips and drag me to dinner. ended up being ok though. woke up at the ass crack this morning..not sure why seeing as how i didn't get to sleep till damn near midnight (which is late for me folks)...went shopping w/mom for souvenir junk from like 11 to 4...that was friggen greuling...that shopping for other people business! phew..if i hadn't picked up a few odds and ends for myself..i don't even wanna imagine the end result. but it's over now. came home..lounged. hit up the beach w/ the fam round 6:30...im gonna miss jumpin in the ocean as the sun is setting w/out freezin my ass off. *sigh. well, just got in from dining a la CPK. stuffed...kinda drowsy. gonna go watch the boob till i nod off.
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| well ain't that some shit?! |
[04 Aug 2002|09:50pm] |
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he came...he actually came. and whatever anger i thought i had disspiated between our lips. it was an amazing afternoon i won't soon forget..and now it's over. i've resigned myself to the fact that every meaningful romantic relationship im ever involved in will occur just before i or the other party haul ass to the other side of the state/region/country/world. he said it was new for him...getting attatched to someone he's only met once, and talking on the phone for two months before seeing them again. i wish i could say the same...but i've done it w/a whole year inbetween w/out having spoken to the person once between meetings. what is it with me? is this some kind of cruel joke? a curse? no...i won't accept it. my heart can only take so much.
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| lazy hazy days of summer |
[31 Jul 2002|09:49pm] |
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basically spent the entire day beach bummin w/shay and some of her boys from HPU basketball team. grabbed some grub and headed to their apartment to chill for a minute before she dropped me off at home. had some laughs...especially w/their brazilian friend Leandro who has a thick accent and likes to tell long ass stories which rarely have much of a point. that's what's funny i suppose. good lookin guys, cool as hell..time flew and they invited us to go back later for some drinks and movies but i knew mama wasn't gonna have me headin out again. damnit! she be fuckin shit up all the damn time. it's all gravy though....ain't no thang, baby.
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| i bow my head in shame...and hide a big ass grin |
[30 Jul 2002|10:42pm] |
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went on a super shopping spree w/momma and isou-b. spent some serious plastic..and im not even sure how much. im scared to find out. but it was stuff i needed...kinda. ok, maybe i didn't need the hat...or the necklace...but i def. needed everything else. and im not even finished. we didn't even make it all the way to Macy's. took a breather and grubbed at the CPK, which is always sinfully delicious. had a mixed greens salad w/grilled chicken breast. mmm mmm good. next time, im goin for the pasta jambalaya. came home and took my lard ass straight to the gym. i've been pretty dedicated so im trying to stay on it. specially since those dressing room death lights are so forgiving. let's just say, i was feeling rather motivated.
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| as i shut off the lights at the smoothie shack one last time |
[29 Jul 2002|10:48pm] |
today was my last day of work. im not sure if ill miss it. doubt it. i spend plenty of time at the gym as it is. so anyway, i've got a little over a week to lounge, hang, beach bum...etc...oh, i got stood up..which is new for me. sommamabitch didn't stay home like i told him to and i know the exact bullshit excuse he's going to give me too...but whatever. it's prolly better this way. went out anyway..me, shay, and tito hit up the austin powers flick. def. good times all around. then we made the traditional mc'd's pit stop. cept this time way the hell out in mililani cuz tito wanted to joy ride. had some laughs, took some pics. i guess i got over the fact that it was like the 7th time in the last 2 weeks that my plans w/P fell through. and oddly enough, tito made an effort to make me feel better. and bit of a stumbling effort but effort nonetheless. it was sweet :) anyway, was sposedta hit up the beach w/them sunday but opted for a boat ride w/the fam in waikiki. ended up being absolutely amazing! incredible view, cool ass captain, bangin ass co captain, and met a kick ass chic named: SARA!! HAHA. we had a ball. laughin, sunbathing, cruisin..took some pics and a dip in the middle of the ocean when the cap. dropped anchor. it was incredible! glad i went.
later that night: mom wanted to be a skank and not let me go out. felt kinda bad cuz tito had some dude he wanted me to chill w/at the beach...said i would meet them later but la parental unit but up the barricade. speaking of which, by the way, still amuses me that she's holding on to that whole "power" deal. haha. she better start weaning herself soon or else it's gonna be serious withdrawal when i haul ass in approx a week and a half. eh. no struggle here. just lettin her have her last few moments.
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| "it's D...D...ummm, it's french" |
[24 Jul 2002|02:49pm] |
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my stuff is gone. had a strange moment last night when i was getting it all together...and im not certain, but i think a tiny wave of terror came over me. not sure why though. not much else to discuss since yesterday.
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| "i'm a pretty lady!!!" |
[23 Jul 2002|10:22pm] |
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met a cute boy at the gym today...island newbie lookin for a good time...wait, that came out wrong. eh..you get it. anyway, my shit gets shipped tomorrow. and damn do i feel devastatingly shallow these days. i've had nothing substantial to say for quite some time now. it's like the parts of my brain that function beyond basic motor skills and casual conversation have gone on hiatus. need... intellectual... stimulation...running...out of..oh and while we're on the subject of stimulation...wait, no. we'll just leave that alone ;)
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| back to same ole... |
[22 Jul 2002|10:25pm] |
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mima left today. wasn't too emotional about it seeing as how im'a see her in a few weeks. worked w/shay tonight. which is always a damn good time. and anthony showed up too. which was def. a nice treat. he's so sexy. anyway, had some laughs and now im home.
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| drum roll please... |
[21 Jul 2002|09:22pm] |
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forgot to share that i received los AP scores. had a good laugh cuz, once again, i managed to pull these things out of my ass. got a 4 on lit and a 2 on calc...which is good considering i hadn't a clue as to what i would earn on the former and was basically resigned to a 1 on the latter. im pleased. they're useless to me..but im pleased.
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| hear that? |
[19 Jul 2002|12:00pm] |
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silence...the most beautiful sound. i've discovered something in the last several days...if at all possible, women get more impossible as they get older...and they yap a whole lot more. not fun when you're tryin to catch some z's in the next room. and, i basically got eaten alive last night at the luau. good show though...figured out where all the good looking local boys are hiding. took lots o' photos. and they're all hula dancers...which, believe it or not, is unbelievably manly. hehe.
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| note to self |
[18 Jul 2002|01:15pm] |
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sign off of your email account when using a public computer, dumbass! there are dumb fucks in the world who think erasing your entire inbox and stored files is funny. let that be a lesson to you!
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| aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!! |
[17 Jul 2002|10:05pm] |
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the attack has ensued. let's just say..it's been a long few days. im living on the sofa but it's not all that bad...hell, i could sleep anywhere. oh! kell and leeser called me yesterday. i felt special. it's always good to talk to them...gets my spirits back up just when i need it. anyway, the house is quiet now and it's a beautiful thing, so i called P to share my quiet with him. hopefully i get to see him before i leave. which is coming up fairly quickly.............eh. i feel like such a heifer (is that one f or two?) anyway tis all i have to share. oh yea. i got another pair of shoes. it's an official, shallow disorder at this point people
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| so i uh... |
[11 Jul 2002|10:57pm] |
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worked from 8-10:30 am. was a bitch getting up but the shift went by quickly, obviously...and um. saw the ortho, all is well. went shopping...again. then went in for my facial. def. an envigorating experience. glad i pampered myself...or, err..paid someone else to do it. well worth it once in a while i suppose. then, hit up the gym and that's pretty much it. countdown to mima week/brown sugar pie explotion: 2 days. woohoo!
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