Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in Jill Hang's LiveJournal:

Friday, November 9th, 2001
11:37 pm	*PreTtY BuMmEd* ahhhh i havent been writing in my journal cus ive been pretty bummed out! i havent talked to kris in a while thats why ive been pretty bummed out! he moved out cus of his frenz..they took over! gosh i wish id be able to talk to kris again....he made me feel so great about myself and everything else about me. i miss him a lot. im so happy for carrie......she hooked up with sergio her roommate how cute? hehe! not much has been going on really...ive been feeling FAT thats about it......gosh ant lee is here! she came up to visit and i dunno i dont really like her cus shes soooo BLUNT....she can be nice at times but i dunno...anyways we're havin a party tomorrow.....how fuN? means i gotta wake up early and shit! im talkin to la online rite now..checkin to see what we're gonna do when she comes down....probably go shoppin and stuff..watch a movie....i dunno im gettin real bored here..i saw legally blonde tonite....its a good movie..well sorry i havent been writing.....ill write more i promise..gonna go talk to la now bye Current Mood: crushed Current Music: *Distance* Evan And Jaron (Comment on this)
11:37 pm	*PreTtY BuMmEd* ahhhh i havent been writing in my journal cus ive been pretty bummed out! i havent talked to kris in a while thats why ive been pretty bummed out! he moved out cus of his frenz..they took over! gosh i wish id be able to talk to kris again....he made me feel so great about myself and everything else about me. i miss him a lot. im so happy for carrie......she hooked up with sergio her roommate how cute? hehe! not much has been going on really...ive been feeling FAT thats about it......gosh ant lee is here! she came up to visit and i dunno i dont really like her cus shes soooo BLUNT....she can be nice at times but i dunno...anyways we're havin a party tomorrow.....how fuN? means i gotta wake up early and shit! im talkin to la online rite now..checkin to see what we're gonna do when she comes down....probably go shoppin and stuff..watch a movie....i dunno im gettin real bored here..i saw legally blonde tonite....its a good movie..well sorry i havent been writing.....ill write more i promise..gonna go talk to la now bye Current Mood: crushed Current Music: *Distance* Evan And Jaron (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 6th, 2001
9:38 pm	*ooooh where oooooh where is my kris* Godddd......where has kris beeeen.....i miss talkin to him soooo much! we havent talked for 2 days :( kinda sad.....i called him but his roommate danielle said that he moved out :( i need to talk to him......cus now i know what i feel for him or atleast i think i do......i need to talk to him! he probably forgot about me! man i need to talk to him!!!!! gooooooshhh! his roommate is such a bitch....its all of her and her friends that made him move out....he was doin fine livin alone til their sorry asses came around....god! i hope we'll talk again soon! i miss him a lot! wait til carrie hears about this......not about me liking kris..but about kris moving out....shes gonna freak! haha......im gonna go talk to matt now....he thinks im in love....how weird?? i dunno if i love kris.....i mean we're friends.....thats not suppose to happen....but he does make me real happy! god i jus need to talk to him.......!!!! im feelin down and i know he can cheer me up cus he can do that all the time!!!!!! :( Current Mood: sad Current Music: *drowning* bsb (Comment on this)
11:30 am	*MOndayS EnTrY* ...........RESPONSIBILITY!!! YaaaaaaaaaaY im writing for yesterdays entry because i couldnt log onto this site. anyways i had a great time yesterday i suppose. i had tons of things to do........i just realized all my responsibilities at home and stuff....wow kind of hard to believe but i have a bunch of things that i have to be responsibile for....i dunno not much to say about yesterday. i met this kid matt online........he was tellin me that hes 17 yrs old but has a 3 yr olds mind.....i didnt know what he was talkin about........then i talked to his sister melanie..she told me that he wears diapers...........and that he still spills and stuff....so then later on that night i talked to melissa matt's mom.....she told me that he has a form of simple autism. i feel bad for this kid. his mom is looking for a nanny 500 bucks a week plus room and board........seems like easy stuff to do! his mom really likes me but i talked to lala about this situation and she told me that i shouldnt do it because my prescence is needed more than the money..i suppose shes right. hmm i think im gradually forgetting about kris...........its ok carrie can have him. i havent talked to kris in a while so its all good.....i have no feelings nor remorse...i feel fine...gotta worry bout school first.....one more month to go and my grades are already dropping :( well i should get going..will promise to write tonights entry~ Current Mood: calm Current Music: *none at computer lab* (Comment on this)
Monday, November 5th, 2001
12:21 pm	*oh no what did i do?* gosh i hate myself!!!!!!!!! i cant believe i told kris that i didnt want to tell him that i like him anymore and i told him that he should give carrie a chance..........! god! now hes all confused and i dont even know if he wants to talk to me anymore..he asked me if he should stop liking me.........! hell no i dont want that!!!!! man that was the dumbest thing that i could do and i did it! i just wish that i would of never said anything to him..now it feels kinda weird talkin to him :*( man i am so dumb!! i hope kris would come online :( carries not online either..well i should go and talk to justin about his party! Current Mood: angry Current Music: *NONE* (Comment on this)
12:18 am	*Saturday -N- SundaY* Hmmm..i spent saturday and sunday up in st. paul. i had fun i suppose. lala and i went to the theaters at Har-Mar..we went to see jet li's movie "THE ONE." Most of the time we werent even paying attention to the movie..we kept making fun of the asian guys in there cus we know they're gonna be jet li wannabes and all..then there were two gay guys sittin in front of us so we kept makin jokes about them..haha and lala dared me to kick their seats cus they're gonna like the vibration so i kicked one of the guys chair and lala was all tellin me that she knows he likes it cus he was all actin weird..haha and they started talkin a lot after jet li spread his legs..haha..oh man we had fun at the theaters..then i dunno we went home and chilled there...we stayed up pretty late..torrie is bad she went to st cloud with some girl! bad..anyways sunday i didnt do shit..la and i woke up at like 10 or so then we watched the movie "hell gate." it was pretty boring then we watched "joy ride" On the comp..i only saw the beginning because i had to go home so i got my stuff ready and left home. i got home at like 630. i was talkin to lala and carrie online..carrie couldnt shut up about how much she likes kris..i like him and all but i dont let her know that i like him so in a way im encouraging her to like him more..i told kris on the phone about it and he thinks shes obsessive and he tells me that hes only talked to her 3 times..hehe and the most is like 1 hour..i dunno shes weird but im stickin by her cus shes a good friend and all..kris is suppose to come online in a lil bit...but i dunno if imma wait that long..i already told him on the phone that if we dont talk then ill talk to him tomorrow so yea its all good. aww he sounds so cute! he sounds like a nigga wannabe like eminem..hehe! anyways im not gonna fight with carrie..thank god kris isnt mad at me anymore cus of our argument on thursday nite. carrie misses kris a lot..she wont shut up about him..haha..anyways it dont bug me its kinda interesting to Know that she likes him that much..oh well kris is online so imma go talk to him..yaaaaay! Current Mood: dorky Current Music: *differences* ginuwine (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 3rd, 2001
10:32 am	*Friday's Entry* Its saturday and i forgot to write in my fridays entry cus i didnt get a chance to use the computer. yesterday was ok. i got pizza for everyone..i ate like 2 slices and that was all..paaj packed the rest for their lunch. mom and us went to st. paul. pretty boring drive. hmm..when we got to st. paul lala smacked me cus i got new docs..hehe..its all good cus she didnt mean it in a bad way. she wants me to go and get her a pair and bring it up next time i come up again. so yeah i will. hmm i didnt talk to kris at all..talked to carrie though. she was tellin me that she likes him and stuff..and i dunno i found myself tryin to hook her up with kris. its like i like kris but i dont want to hurt him so its like hes better off without me so yeah...ill just put away all my feelings for him and just and see what happens between him and carrie. i think hes still mad at me cus we got into an argument about something josh had said...i was tellin kris the truth but he couldnt believe me. and i didnt know what to do because in the past Nicole couldnt trust me and it really hurts knowin that someone you care for/ love/ or likes cant trust you...people are always doubtin me thats why it hurts so much when kris was tellin me he couldnt believe what i was saying..i dunno i got real sad and tears started to fall from my eyes...after a lil bit i started cryin heavily..i dont really know why i was cryin, probably jus cus i was thinkin bout what went down with me and nicole and now its gonna happen to kris and me..so it gets sad..anyways imma go eat now...will try writing tonite or tomorrow for saturdays entry! Current Mood: confused Current Music: *no music at the time* (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 1st, 2001
11:02 pm	***InTeReStInG*** Wow, Kris is soooo understanding!!!! hehe i love talkin to him..i couldnt take it anymore..i didnt want to lie anymore so i told kris the truth..i told him that "NICK" was really a girl...and we had a fling or some shit..hes so cool...he doesnt think that im a freak or anything all he said was "thats good that you re-act to your feelings" and told me that i didnt have to talk about it anymore because it doesnt matter to him..anyways all these guys r always pmin me when i go to chat..they all say im cute..hehe! losers! i called kris today and we talked for like 10 minz..he sounds so cute..hehe and kept sayin that he wanted to marry me and all that sweet stuff on the phone..hehe..anyways hes online now but his msg says that he stepped out so i guess ill stay online til he gets back..well imma go talk to lala now..later Current Mood: anxious Current Music: *Dont Need You 2 Tell Me Im Pretty* Samantha Mumba (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 31st, 2001
11:16 pm	*****awwww thanks kris******* Gosh Kris......!!!! he is sooooooooooooo GOOOOOOD With words :) i was pretty upset about the whole nicky thing but kris is cheering me up..hes so sweet. i wish he was here in minnesota! hes so sweet! i actually wanna be with him..but then again NOT! because imma be wastin money on him and i dont want to go through that again! krisgee99: shit ..if you were here I would date you in a heart beat hehe how sweet :) hes so cool..i was tellin him bout what happened..but i was referring nicky as a guy so yeah..i cant tell him "oh yea i had a lezbian fling" i cant stop thinkin bout him cus hes sooooooooo coooool! hes obsessed with lookin at my pic hehe...gosh! i like him A LOT! i mean he makes me feel so good about myself..which is good! imma go talk to kris now so later journal..i wrote way 2 much shit tonite... Current Mood: happy Current Music: *family affair* mary j BLigE (Comment on this)
10:00 pm	**LAST CONVERSATION.....GOODBYE** GOD READ WHAT THE BITCH HAD 2 SAY TONITE..WHY DA FUCK COULDNT SHE JUS LEAVE ME ALONE?? SeXiKiSsEs888: ok mother fucka qUiK24sILvA: WHAT? SeXiKiSsEs888: that is it qUiK24sILvA: wtf u talkin bout?? SeXiKiSsEs888: this is the truth aight? qUiK24sILvA: what truth???? qUiK24sILvA: go ahead though SeXiKiSsEs888: i have been going out with this kid named brandon ever since october 1st... qUiK24sILvA: good im happy for u SeXiKiSsEs888: and u can stop talking to my friends SeXiKiSsEs888: and me SeXiKiSsEs888: forever qUiK24sILvA: wtf i know that qUiK24sILvA: i pmed meegan by accident damn SeXiKiSsEs888: i dont wanna be part of ur life ever again EVER EVER EVER AGAIN qUiK24sILvA: i thought she was someone else SeXiKiSsEs888: no u didnt SeXiKiSsEs888: i heard it ALL SeXiKiSsEs888: so dont even gimme that BS qUiK24sILvA: uh yea the first time it was a mistake SeXiKiSsEs888: sure fucker qUiK24sILvA: WHATEVER NICOLE SeXiKiSsEs888: leave my friends the FUCK ALONE SeXiKiSsEs888: u fuckin hear me qUiK24sILvA: I HEAR YA qUiK24sILvA: DAMN qUiK24sILvA: GOSH Y U BE ALL PISSY N SHIT qUiK24sILvA: I DONT NEED THIS SHIT qUiK24sILvA: IM GLAD U MOVED ON WITH UR LIFE AND SO DID I SeXiKiSsEs888: fine u fuckin bitch then leave them and ME ALONE FOREVER qUiK24sILvA: THINK IM JEALOUS?? NO SeXiKiSsEs888: i like brandon a lot and u aint fuckin this up for me SeXiKiSsEs888: u cant SeXiKiSsEs888: no matter what u do qUiK24sILvA: WHO EVER SAID I WAS GONNA FUCK IT UP? qUiK24sILvA: IM GLAD U MOVED ON SeXiKiSsEs888: STOP TALKING TO HER qUiK24sILvA: I WILL AND I AM DAMN SeXiKiSsEs888: and everyone thats associated withs me qUiK24sILvA: I JUS CAME ONLINE ONCE TODAY AND I TALKED TO HER BY ACCIDENT SeXiKiSsEs888: no u arent...cuz i know ur gonna be fuckin around like this SeXiKiSsEs888: and i dont go for this shit qUiK24sILvA: I AINT FUCKIN ROUND qUiK24sILvA: LOOK qUiK24sILvA: I DONT WANT U IN MY LIFE qUiK24sILvA: DUH THATS WHY I STOPPED TALKIN TO U SeXiKiSsEs888: u better stop fukin around or else i fuckin swear qUiK24sILvA: I AINT FUCKIN ROUND NO MORE SeXiKiSsEs888: FINE..then leave it that way qUiK24sILvA: DUH!!!! qUiK24sILvA: THINK IM DUMB TO BOTHER U? SeXiKiSsEs888: i better NEVER hear it again from her.....or ANYONE ELSE qUiK24sILvA: LOOK I DONT NEED THIS SHIT K? SeXiKiSsEs888: no no no SeXiKiSsEs888: listen up SeXiKiSsEs888: so i make it VERY CLEAR SeXiKiSsEs888: CRYSTAL qUiK24sILvA: ITS CLEAR SeXiKiSsEs888: stop telling her lies becuz she doesnt know shit about u that i do qUiK24sILvA: LOOK Y DA FUCK DID U IM ME? SeXiKiSsEs888: BECUZ U FUCKIN AROUND WITH MY FRIENDS qUiK24sILvA: HOW WAS I FUCKIN ROUND? SeXiKiSsEs888: and my life qUiK24sILvA: I AINT FUCKIN WITH UR LIFE SeXiKiSsEs888: so fuckin leave SeXiKiSsEs888: i FUCKIN HATE U SeXiKiSsEs888: so fuck off qUiK24sILvA: THANKS SeXiKiSsEs888: forever SeXiKiSsEs888: do u hear me qUiK24sILvA: I WILL qUiK24sILvA: GOODBYE SeXiKiSsEs888: god dammit SeXiKiSsEs888: fuckin BYE qUiK24sILvA: YEA SeXiKiSsEs888: FOREVER THIS TIME BYE qUiK24sILvA: IT WAS FOREVER THE LAST TIME DUMBASS SeXiKiSsEs888: i dont EVER wanna hear from u again OR my friends SeXiKiSsEs888: YES I KNOW qUiK24sILvA: I WONT FUCKIN TALK TO HER NO MORE AIGHT qUiK24sILvA: I GOT A LIFE BITCH qUiK24sILvA: WHOS THE ONE THATS ALWAYS ONLINE SeXiKiSsEs888: no u fuckin dont SeXiKiSsEs888: but i suggest u get one qUiK24sILvA: I AINT ALWAYS ONLINE SeXiKiSsEs888: yes u r qUiK24sILvA: I GOT ONLINE ONCE TODAY!!!!!!! SeXiKiSsEs888: either am i qUiK24sILvA: BIG FUCKIN DEAL SeXiKiSsEs888: god u fuckin disgust me SeXiKiSsEs888: get the fuck outta my life qUiK24sILvA: BITCH U DISGUST ME EVEN MORE U FUCKIN WHITE TRASH UiK24sILvA: DO U THINK I EVER WANTED U???? SeXiKiSsEs888: so fuckin leave qUiK24sILvA: U FUCKIN LEAVE BITCH qUiK24sILvA: IF U GOT A LIFE GO ON AND LEAVE SeXiKiSsEs888: hell no cuz i never wanted u qUiK24sILvA: PROVE IT BITCH SeXiKiSsEs888: no im not goin nowhere qUiK24sILvA: FUCK U qUiK24sILvA: JUS LEAVE ME AIGHT SeXiKiSsEs888: leave u? lol were we ever togther? hahahahaha i was playin u the wholeeee fuckin time so just U can leave thank yopu goodbye qUiK24sILvA: U THINK I WAS BEIN ALL SERIOUS WITH U? SeXiKiSsEs888: yup believe it cuz its true SeXiKiSsEs888: u werent and i know that SeXiKiSsEs888: thats y i was playin u all along qUiK24sILvA: GOOD qUiK24sILvA: LIKE I GIVE A FUCK? SeXiKiSsEs888: and u stupid fucker was stupid enough to believe i loved u SeXiKiSsEs888: hahahaha qUiK24sILvA: I NEVER LOVED U TOO SeXiKiSsEs888: bye qUiK24sILvA: U FUCKIN HO qUiK24sILvA: UR A FUCKIN BITCH U KNOW THAT? SeXiKiSsEs888: well so r u sweetie lol qUiK24sILvA: if u say so SeXiKiSsEs888: i was dating u to use u qUiK24sILvA: use me? SeXiKiSsEs888: yup qUiK24sILvA: look im not bein mean to u aight SeXiKiSsEs888: yes u r qUiK24sILvA: and how did u use me? qUiK24sILvA: im not qUiK24sILvA: i dont care if u used me cus their wasnt much shit to "use" SeXiKiSsEs888: ok then qUiK24sILvA: and i dont understand how u used me qUiK24sILvA: explain?? SeXiKiSsEs888: i just did and u dont need to know about it cuz i fuckin hate u and u can go fuck urself god..makin up lies and shit qUiK24sILvA: WHY U BEIN SUCH A BITCH SeXiKiSsEs888: cuz its the TRUTH SeXiKiSsEs888: i hate u and played u and used u and everything....i didnt fuckin care like one minute EVER SeXiKiSsEs888: i know u did but thats ok qUiK24sILvA: HAHAHA RIGHT SeXiKiSsEs888: yup damn right qUiK24sILvA: HOW DID U PLAY ME?? qUiK24sILvA: SURE NOTHING MATTERED TO U SeXiKiSsEs888: other random people...and then brandon and i finalyl found someone i care about a lot SeXiKiSsEs888: and i can SEE Them with my own eyes SeXiKiSsEs888: and touch them qUiK24sILvA: AND UR POINT IS?? UiK24sILvA: GOOD SO WE'RE EVEN BITCH SeXiKiSsEs888: no i always win qUiK24sILvA: NICKY THE LIL BITCH SeXiKiSsEs888: yup thats me qUiK24sILvA: GOOD GO AHEAD TELL URSELF U WON SeXiKiSsEs888: so fuckin get it right qUiK24sILvA: DAMN UR A REAL BITCH SeXiKiSsEs888: get it straight qUiK24sILvA: I CANT BELIEVE I WASTED MY TIME ON U qUiK24sILvA: HAHAAHAHA SeXiKiSsEs888: i hate u and forever will qUiK24sILvA: GOOOOOOD! SeXiKiSsEs888: lol i cant believe u wasted ur time on me either! cuz i know i didnt SeXiKiSsEs888: cuz i never cared qUiK24sILvA: I JUS LIE TO BITCHES LIKE U SeXiKiSsEs888: yup it sure is SeXiKiSsEs888: yup i know SeXiKiSsEs888: and i lie to fucked up ppl like u SeXiKiSsEs888: and take advantage of them SeXiKiSsEs888: cuz thats me qUiK24sILvA: AND WHAT DID U LIE ABOUT? SeXiKiSsEs888: and thats what im all about SeXiKiSsEs888: EVERYTHING qUiK24sILvA: HOW DID U TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME??? qUiK24sILvA: UR SAYIN SHIT THAT DONT MAKE SENSE qUiK24sILvA: DAMN UR ASS IS DESPERATE qUiK24sILvA: HAHAHHA qUiK24sILvA: GOODBYE BITCH qUiK24sILvA: UR ASS SHOULD OF NEVER PMED ME qUiK24sILvA: LEAVE BITCH qUiK24sILvA: LIL GIRL SeXiKiSsEs888: BYEEEEEEEE damn what a lil bitch huH??? GOOD NOW IM FUCKIN NEVER TALKIN TO HER EVER AGAIN! MAN SHES A FUCKIN BITCH..SHE CHANGED ALL MY PASSWORDS..ITS NOT LIKE I NEED THEM ANYMORE..FUCKN BITCH ACT LIKE SHE WANTS ME AND SHIT BUT SHE JUS HATES ME CUS I LIED..WHAT A BITCH..IF I DIDNT MATTER THAN SHE WOULDNT BE WASTING HER TIME ON CHANGIN MY SHIT..I SUPPOSE HER ASS IS STILL IN LOVE WITH ME..FUCKIN LESBIAN..DAMN FUCK SHIT..WILL WRITE LATER GONNA MESS WITH HER SHIT NOW..ITS ALL ON NOW..BITCH FUCKED WITH ME IMMA FUCK WITH HER TOO..FUCK HER DAMMMIT! Current Mood: awake Current Music: **heres to the night** eve 6 (Comment on this)
9:23 pm	*SADNESS* aww im feelin a lil down tonite...we went trick o treatin for a lil bit then we came back home at 9. im feelin down cus kris isnt online..also i logged on to my aol sn..and i saw Meegan online..i didnt know it was her cus i thought it was my friend Rachel. Meegan was all tellin me that Nicole has been dating Brandon for about 3 weeks now. wow! i admit i was kinda hurt and shocked when meegan told me that. meegan promised me that she wouldnt tell Nicole that we talked. i dunno and jus look at her yahoo profile...damn! Yahoo! ID: seductive_angel888 Real Name: Nicole Location: Michigan Age: Marital Status: Long-term Relationship Gender: Female Occupation: StUdEnT Hobbies: Dancing *hip-hop* Partying with friends...shopping...concerts! and talking to my baby :) I like you a lot BraNdoN ;) Latest News: life sucked but hey u gotta get over it, you make me feel so much better sweetie :) when i'm talking to you the whole world stops and I get lost in your eyes and the warmth of your arms around me Favorite Quote "I wrote your name in the sand and the waves washed it away, I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay" uhm im confused by her "favorite quote" whats dat suppose to mean and who is she refferring it to?? hmm! oh well..its all been over with now..she got on with her life so its only fair that i get on with mine. i dunno why i still care about her. at times i wonder why i do and i cant think of anything positive. gosh hate to admit it but i actually do miss her. damn! im not gonna talk to her though. i already know the truth so yeah imma jus leave it like that and talk to meegan tomorrow cus she might tell me more stuff...anyways i just wish i could really get over her. ive been doin a good job up until meegan talked to me tonite. damn! gossssh! dammn i wish kris would come online.. :*( i feel like cryin but then again i wont because why should i waste my tears on something that was never REAL. I wish her the best of luck! anyways im gettin all sad so imma jus go..write again later if i can.!! Current Mood: sad Current Music: *this is how u remind me* by Nickel back (Comment on this)
3:36 pm	*aawww Kris* aww kris is the sweetest person that i have ever talked to online..hehe..i like him a lot..im writing in my journal now because i dont think i will have tonite..so im talkin to kris right now and he just said: krisgee99: this is wierd cute_polo_gurl: what is weird and why? krisgee99: me krisgee99: well.... krisgee99: I have never liked someone over the net cute_polo_gurl: well...?? cute_polo_gurl: o i c krisgee99: and I like you krisgee99: and I love seeing you cause your so cute! krisgee99: you have a nice body too cute_polo_gurl: hehe thanks cute_polo_gurl: i like u 2 krisgee99: your welcome krisgee99: why didnt U tell me that you had such a nice body to begin with? cute_polo_gurl: hehe what?? krisgee99: your body krisgee99: its nice cute_polo_gurl: thanks hes so cute, sweet, nice, and honest :) hes really cool and all but i dont think ill ever get with him cus long distance relationships dont work :*( oh well we can always be friends :) gonna take calvin and the kids trick o treatin tonite..hehe.. gosh kris! hehe..alright ill stop talkin bout him..lala thinks that kris and i act all sappy..hehe..aww how sweet.. krisgee99: hello? krisgee99: oh cute_polo_gurl: i got disconnected sorry krisgee99: then you didnt see what I said? cute_polo_gurl: nope sorry krisgee99: I asked you if you wanted to get married krisgee99: but I was kidding awww soooooo sweet! hehe imma go talk to him now ill write in my journal again tonite if i can :) krisgee99: hehe cute_polo_gurl: hehe krisgee99: I just like you a hole lot cute_polo_gurl: aww same here Current Mood: giddy Current Music: purest of pain *son by 4* (Comment on this)
11:38 am	*For Yesterdays EntrY* AHHHH IM GETTIN SO DAMN LAZZY WITH THIS JOURNAL THING..HEHE! well lets see yesterday nite i worked on some reaction papers and i sorted out some of my stuff. i cleaned my room and re-arranged everything. it looks pretty tight. hmmm then afterwards i chatted with kris for a while. gosh hes so nice and cute :) he makes me smile a lot..hehe yesterday nite he wanted to see me on cam so i let him. he was all tellin me that i should smile more often because I look way much cuter like that..hehe..so yeah i kept smiling cus of the things he said and i dunno i jus really like him and he told me that he likes me too..hehe! aww hes so sweet...this is what he just IMed me..well our lil conversation that ill put up here...krisgee99: you have a pretty nice body ya know that? krisgee99: ;) cute_polo_gurl: thanks krisgee99: your very welcome hes so sweet! anyways enough about him..gosh this josh guy bugs the shit out of me..hehe. hes cute and all and i know thats his real pic cus i saw him on cam. hes just so self-centered...he thinks im hot and all but when i dont reply to him asap he gets all mad at me and shit...what the fuck huh? hehe...anyways from my observations i like kris more than josh. Carrie aka heavenly is kris and my friend..and she gets jealous when kris sweet talks to me hehe.. i dunno i guess shes jus really jealous that kris likes me and not her..he told me he likes her as a friend but he likes me more than her..so yeah..hehe! but im not gonna fight with her cus shes cool and all...and plus we're all jus friends..kris and i wont get together...so its all good :) gosh randy b is so gay..he keeps flriting with me calling me "short army girl" and keeps askin perveted questions "do u have sex with ur combat boots on?" what a freak! hehe but hes pretty cool as a friend..a lil nasty for a 16 year old. anyways imma bounce and talk to kris now so later... Current Mood: happy Current Music: *in the end* LinKin Park (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 30th, 2001
1:34 am	***wonderful day**** god im gettin lazy with this..anyways i should write this out then go to bed its gettn late..i met a lot of wonderful people online. all the guys think im HOT,SEXY, CUTE..ahha...this kid josh is obsessed with me..too bad hes in cali. hes so dumb i just met him and hes already pissin me off.... and hmm Kris is my new best pal..hes so cool..very open and nice. we can joke around a lot and stuff..hes a cutie but too bad we can jus be friends cus i dont wanan get into any relationships right now..im kinda not in the mood for one. omg i have a date on saturday but how do i tell him i dont want to go anymore?? Id be caught dead seen with him..i really wanted to see that movie too, but i can always go with lala and them peeps..hes nice and all but hes uggggggly and he looks like hes 35 or somethin when he says hes 19. omg this guys is so dumb "tcountry424: if you were in florida id ask you out" haha..god stop with all the pm's...damn! well imma get goin anyways so yeah..god i ahve class tomorrow at 9 oh no! ahhh! i cant write anymore cus im gettin real tired..and i dunno i should go to bed..nite! Current Mood: tired Current Music: *diffferences* GenuWine or some shit (Comment on this)
Monday, October 29th, 2001
10:11 am	***AHHHH SUNDAY*** Whoopsie..I forgot that I had to write in my journal last nite so I spent the night at Dad's place. hehe. I needed time away from the computer so that I could study for my Spanish. No luck I went there and watched Tv til 2 am..hehe. I just need to get the verb change down then Ill be fine..gosh i have Spanish class in a lil bit...omg im gonna fail this test..oh well..hehe. I guess I'll do fine. Her tests are pretty easy anyways. Hmm well yesterday I went and did laundry with mom..there were some Asian guys at Food N Fuel and they kept whistling at me..and then they came into the laundry mat and they saw mom and they left..hehe...i dont know if they were cute because I didn't really care. I spent the rest of the day watching dvds. The movie "BLOW" was pretty good. Johnny Depp is in it...kinda sad how he got fucked over in the end..its based on a true story. My night was pretty awesome..everyone was being real nice to me. I had a lot of fun hanging out with my family. Randy B is so gay..hehe..he asked for my digits and he kept callin me "short army girl." God ive know that kid forever..hes changed a lot though. which is kinda good i think. he's not as geeky anymore and hes pretty popular now..haha..anyways his ass is suppose to call me sometime this week so that we can go partying in minneota. Ahhh well i better get going now cus i Have class.... will write tonite :) omg this real cute guy from eagan minnesota wrote me..hehe..i hope something gets started between us. he's 18 and he's like 5'11 with blond hair and blue eyes..he sounds so cool! and he thinks i sound nice :) hehe...well gotta run for sure now so bye bye journal! Current Mood: excited Current Music: *none im at the comp lab at ssu* (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 27th, 2001
11:04 pm	*My Boring Saturday* wow, today was boring. i got up a little bit late today. as soon as I got up I was told that I had to go and help haul hay..eww! it was pretty fun though. i got home at like 300 pm. suckie! After that mom and i went shopping and didn't get home til like 7 pm. We had fun i guess..hehe. Tonight was pretty boring! Andy is sleeping over. I hate him. He's so annoying and perverted! anyways enough about him. I didn't do much tonight. I just stayed in my room because I didn't want to be near Andy. I chatted online with some cool guys. Justin is from North Dakota. He thinks that he may know Mandi. Hehe coolness! Anyways the internet has been pretty dumb with me. I get disconnected like every frickin time! god i hate that. wow this is pretty amazing. There's like still something inside me that tells me that I should talk to HER, but I am telling myself that I shouldn't and I haven't so thats good. I never thought that I could like not talk to her at all anymore, but Im doing it and im feeling good! God I cant wait til LaLa and them all come down next weekend. Can't wait to see Cute Brianna..hehe! I am getting lazy with writing my journal because I don't really have much to say and when I do say things I tend to write too much..hehe! I am kind of tired, but then again I dont want to go to sleep because If i go to sleep now then I won't have any time to get online tomorrow because I have to study for my spanish test and I have to clean my room..suckie! I should probably start writing my book summary for Correctional Systems. I can't wait to graduate from College!!!! GRR! hehe. oh well that takes time and the more I concentrate in school the faster Ill get out of there. I feel so weird being at home with no one to talk to. I never felt weird before but now that I have my life back I get lonely and I want to talk to my sister..hehe. I called Lala up early. Torrie is so annoying..haha..shes a weirdo..acts like a kiddo..haha! I just wish that Torrie would step out of her daze. I know Lala has and I have so yeah its her turn. YESSSS im so happy for Lala and Rob. They got back togehter. I feel bad for Rob because He got fired! hopefully he'll get a new job soon because I want to meet some hot ass starz..hehe. I decorated my room with tons of posters..I need to get some more! hehe. I was talkin to this guy online and he was all talkin to me about racing. He thought he knew it all etc..so I told him what kind of cars my brothers got then he was all quiet. Hehe! but he seems pretty cool. ugly lookin though but i told him he was cute because I didn't want to be rude. ahh Im gonna end this entry because I want to work on my webpage and also I want to see who's on msn. Will soon write again :) Current Mood: bored Current Music: *no music cus everyone is sleeping* (Comment on this)
12:00 am	*BORED* hmmm..today was a cool day. I spent my day updating my webpage. I finally finished writing what I was writing yesterday. It took a lot of work but oh well it was well worth it. Im gonna finish my webpage whenever I get the chance to do so. I hate getting disconnected!! I got kinda pissed off earlier because I was afraid that I wasn't going to be able to write in my journal before it hit midnight. Well Here I am writing in my journal :) hehe. I am pretty bored tonight. Nothing to do! gRR! I don't have much to say tonight. gosh Andy Coulter is so annoying. He came over earlier tonight and he was all in a pissy mood. Acted like I did something to him. He was all giving me an attitude..haha loser! I found out why he was in a pissy mood. He was in a pissy mood because his dad wouldn't let him sleep over here..hahaha! Gosh ASIAN WANNABE!!! im chattin on yahoo right now and all they guys are being annoying. hehe! I think im gonna go to bed soon. I feel bad for Lala and Rob's situation. hmmm...I think she should give him another chance. Grr I really want to go to California. I hope all goes well. Ahh i just got disconnected. HOW RETARDED?? I will end this entry as soon as I get back online. Man I hate when I get disconnected. It takes forever to get back online! Yaay Im back on. I have to end this entry before I get disconnected again. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: ~I WaNna Be A BaLLER~ (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 25th, 2001
11:49 pm	* No GoodByes* As an advice my sister LaLa told me "NO GOODBYES." I stuck with NO GOODBYES for atleast a full day, but then I couldn't leave it like that..because I knew that deep inside I would always have that feeling of wanting to talk to HER if I didn't say goodbye..So today I had to tell HER goodbye. I broke my rule of not talking to HER just so that I can say goodbye. I came to an understanding that saying goodbye to HER was the best thing that I can do for now. I thought about my life and I separated the good from the bad. That was when I decided to make a personal homepage. I finished the first part of the homepage and I started working on the second part of the homepage. I wrote atleast 10 paragraphs about how i let myself F*ck up my life without knowing what I was doing to myself, but somehow I couldn't save it because my computer was messing up real bad. I lost all that information. I got so frustrated. Then I thought "what the heck, I can re-write it all over again." My next goal is to re-write the whole 2nd part of the homepage that I started earlier today. I know it will take some time, but I can do it because it was something that I lived through. I've "wasted" my time on many other things and I believe that writing a personal page about my life is not considered as a WASTE! I had a lot of things going through my mind and I didn't know how to cope so I wrote down everything that I was thinking about and that was when I realized that I should get an online journal so that I can express myself. I believe that an online journal can help me avoid chatting online. I would want to keep up with it and then I'd have no time to chat. My night was pretty awesome. I spent my night at the Romeo -N- Juliet play at SOuthwest State University's Theater. The people there were giving me a hard time about not having my student id with me, but eventually they let me in for free. I never really enjoyed watching dramatic plays. Romeo -N- JUliet is the only play that I would ever watch. The first time I read about the play I thought it was boring, but then when I rented the movie I thought it was very cool. I've never really attended a ROmeo -N- Juliet play before. This was my first time seeing it live on stage. I thought that the actors/actresses did a good job. Kind of amazing how these people go to the same school as I do. That play was very sad and I thought some things out. The play helped me relax. I thought of ME AND HER as ROMEO N JULIET for we cannot be together....but the whole death thing doesnt really fit in OUR category...but i guess in some ways it does. I am over her, but I still get thoughts running through my mind at times. Wow, I still cant believe that those people actually did a good job with the play settings etc. Sarah French was the Montagues mother..hehe...she looked ugggggly as ever..hehe!!!!! WEll SOrry this is short.....gonna chat with my sis for a lil bit before i head to bed..Cant wait to write about tomorrows exciting day..hehe! Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: Something LIke YOu *nsync* (2 Comments |Comment on this)