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I don't know what you heard about me [09 Sep 2003|11:01pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Computer speakers = broken ]

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and let you in.
And you stood at the door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

Alright! So that describes my Saturday night extended into Sunday night. Jacob called and was coming over and he was apparently coming over with his friend Steve who Jennifer once knew and liked so I went and picked up Jennifer while they were on their way here and by the time Jennifer and I got back they were already here. So it was me, jenn, chele, jacob, freddy, steve, and his girlfriend. well we sat about and chatted. then we went to q-stix and then we came back. then steve and his girlfriend left so freddy and jacob :) spent the night. aaaaaaand we maaaade out. ahahahahaha. ahahaha. aha. anyways. and there was minimum pda as we all know how much i really don't like that. so either we'd go to my room to converse or we'd be behind a blanket or basically hidden. but there were a few times when it'd just be happening and someone would walk in and you know, they asked for it. sooooo let's see. he's 6 feet tall!! that's 9 inches taller than me! so we went swimming at like 4 in the morning. he's so tall that he can stand in the deep end all the way up like normal and i can't even touch with my tippy toes unless my head's underwater. so i was . . i guess connected to him and then i could be in the deep end. well it was really cold in there so we just stayed. . . connected? and eventually we all got out. when we arrived at the house, we all got in the shower. yes all 5 of us and then they all got out and i shaved my legs as it was so cold in the pool, yes you understand. hm. . . me and jacob slept on the bed together. awwwww i wish you all could see how cute me and jacob are together. i like die, just thinking of how cizute it is. sunday we just sorta chilled or whatever and eventually his ride came but that was sunday night. and i talked to him on the phone yesterday and he's going to spend the night again this saturday night. :) Okay. and the Sunday night i spent the night at Jennifers.

oh so Friday after school we gave my number to the ugly husband and told him to call saturday (because i'd originally planned to hang out with Jacob on Friday and then if ugly husband called hang out with him on Saturday but) he didn't call me which worked out well. but still.

Monday, yesterday at school was a good day. I was extremly tired. I was in the snack bar line and i saw my husband in the snackbar line on the other side of the window and i pointed to him and said to Nicole, there's my ugly husband and he saw me so I waved. and he waved back. and then after school i walked in to the gas station to get change for the phone and jennifer was standing outside and ugly husband and walked up and she'd asked him "why didn't you call your wife this saturday?" and he said "i was busy" i told her she should have said well that's okay because she was busy too making out with her boyfriend all saturday night and sunday. but alas, she didn't have that much time. anyways, we went over to jennifers. josh rubbed his face all over my glitter skirt and did the flamingo for me. i divorced him because i want to marry andrew 5 times more. Jennifer spent the night at my house. the end.

Tuesday (today): School was boring and very sleepy. Shannon and Kayla nearly got in a fight in the bathroom during theatre. They would have beaten each other if I'd not started to push them away from each other. It was insane. I was scared. Jesus that was scary. I had to go to US History AP and I can't wait til i'm transferred out of it. French was french. and Algebra was algebra. but after school as you can read below, my husband waved to me. and before school he gave me a piece of gum :)! He loves me even if he does think I'm too ugly for him to call. whatever, he's the ugly one.

and tomorrow is wednesday. hopefully i do well on the algebra test i'm going to take after school. hopefully ugly husband talks to me. he's such, as jennifer says, an introvert. jennifer would also like to think Placebo for extending her vocabulary.

well that's all for me kids. i need to get in bed. <333

xoxox
Leslie


CraftylikeMARtha: my ugly husband waved to me today :-)!
CraftylikeMARtha: I WAS LIKE OMG!!! OMG!!!
CraftylikeMARtha: it was hawt
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: aw yay
CraftylikeMARtha: so that's when i was walking my fine ass into the gas station to get some money out of the atm so while i was walking out, he was looking at a magazine and i go byyyyye ahahahahha! THANK THE JESUS I DIDN'T DO SOMETHING DUMB LIKE FALL ON MY ASS OR GO OUT THE WRONG DOOR!
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: lol
CraftylikeMARtha: i'm a P-I-M-P
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: you totally are dawg P-I-M-P Masta

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[03 Sep 2003|11:27pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Brand New -- Good To Know. . . ]

adamn lazzara
it would be good times in bed with me and adam
lazzara


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OOOOOH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!! I LOVE ADAM! AND HE LOOKS LIKE MY REALLY UGLY HUSBAND IN THAT PICTURE!!!! THIS AND JENNIFER SPENDING THE NIGHT HAS MADE MY DAY!!!!!

NOT ONLY THAT BUT NOVEMBER 1 I GET TO SEE TAKING BACK SUNDAY WITH JESSICA IN HOUSTON AND HOPEFULLY MAYBE IN AUSTIN ON OCTOBER 30!!! OMG I HOPE I GET TO GO TO BOTH I WILL HAVE AN ORGASM NON STOP FOR A YEAR!!!!!!!

xoxox
Leslie

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I LOVE JESSICA! [28 Aug 2003|11:42pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | Dashboard Confessional - FOR YOU TO NOTICE!!!! <-- HUH JESS? ]

Yay! So today was fun. School was great. Tomorrow. . . not going to be so great but whatever.

Mummy got a PT Cruiser! AND SHE LET ME DRIVE IT!!! YESSS. It's silver and its a 2003 and we're going to call it B.B. (Betty Bill. Betty becasue Cruisers are Boobers (betty boob) and Bill for Andy Bill my deceased uncle). NOW!

Chele picked me up and she was with Eli. We went and saw Jennifer and the skater boys. I got to drive and we dropped off Eli and we went by her apartment and then we went to HEB to get some water to cool off her car before we went by Jacob's and like, the car was in so much trouble. ANYWAYS. We ended up seeing Jacob! YAY! So last saturday's goal was to give him the thing i made. This saturdays goal. . . MAKE OUT WITH HIM! HZA HZA! HEeee!

SO JESSICA IS COMING SATURDAY!!! YAY!! WE ARE HAVING A PARTY IN HER HONOR!!!! IT'S GOING TO BE SO GREAT!!! Well I love Jessica. OKAY! DO YOU HEAR THAT? I CAN'T WAIT TILL I GET TO HUMP JESSICA'S BODY!!! YAY!

Chele and I planned this little action. I'm going to say "Oh I want to go get some cigarettes, can I take your car?" and Chele is going to say "Okay" and hand me the keys and I'm going to go to Jacob and say "Wanna come with me?" and he's going to say "Okay" and then I'm going to drive him to Comanche Hill and we're going to look at the stars atop Comanche Hill! AWWWW <3!

SO WHO IS SO EXCITED ABOUT ALL THE ABOVE?!!! I AM!!!!! JESSICA AND JACOB ALL IN ONE DAY?! WTF!!!?!!! YESSSS!! JESSICA'S MOM IS PUTTING HER ON BIRTH CONTROL BECAUSE SHE FOUND OUT HOW MUCH SEX SHE AND I HAVE HAD/ARE GOING TO HAVE!!!!!

PEACE!
Leslie

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[25 Aug 2003|10:44pm]
[ music | Brand New. . . Seventy Times 7 ]

i made this thing for jacob last night. have you seen the Guess? ad's with the girl wearing the bra where you can see her nipple and she's wearing a jacket and jeans and the boy is wearing. . . i dont know jeans and and a jacket and they're like, in the desert? okay well i used the picture where it cuts off at their neck and below their knees and they're like hugging and you can kinda tell they're kissing.i pasted that on green construction paper (that's his favorite color) and i cut out the words/character
Jacob
wanna get together ?
on the back of it, it's a full page magazine add for NOFX so if you look at that side you can't see the green construction paper so it just looks like yeah a magazine page. but turn it over and it's that picture with that question and the words For Jacob. . . . . . . . . . From Leslie on one side and at the top You are totally awesome and on the bottom I really like spending time with you.

omg. i'm glad emily and the other kids are alive. i'm glad jordan didn't get hurt during his crazy night.

i'm glad i get to see Jessica Saturday. omg I'm so glad. like i could cry i'm so glad.

i'm glad i've got the boyfriend Jacob.

i'm glad Jennifer got to spend the night Friday. We walked to Subway, ate, walked to Skate Jam, walked home. Chele picked us up. Saw Jacob. I drove around too. We went to McDonalds met up with Dennis. He came to my house which was not fun. So we told him we were leaving with Chele so he had to leave to. We drove off went to a gas station and then she dropped us off.

I'm glad that Saturday night I totally gave Jacob that thing and he was totally like Yes and later he was talking to Chele when she was dropping him off and he said i was pretty and etc etc. so Chele came back and spent the night.

then we woke up sunday, i was sick feeling. i am sick now. i didn't go to school today. i dont like school.

thanks.
Leslie

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[19 Aug 2003|09:09pm]
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: yeah hows school tell me all about it
CraftylikeMARtha: it's got its good and bad sides you know.
CraftylikeMARtha: Today, this girl told me i remind her of Drew Barrymore
CraftylikeMARtha: very fun
CraftylikeMARtha: the girl who beat my ass attends madison now
CraftylikeMARtha: i'm afraid to walk the halls alone. i'm afraid to walk anywhere now alone.
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: oh my
CraftylikeMARtha: 7th period came and i was freaking out inside so bad i was holding back tears and holding myself back from calling my mum to come get me
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: why
CraftylikeMARtha: because i don't want her to attack me again. i don't want to her to gang up on me with some other mexican bitches and stab me when i'm walking to theatre or something. or when i'm walking outside alone.
CraftylikeMARtha: i don't feel like i can handle it
CraftylikeMARtha: i can't walk around all year in extreme fear of running in to her. i can't go to school and fear for what she's going to do.
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: aw leslie shes not going to stab you
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: i know i know
CraftylikeMARtha: but we don't know for sure if she's not going to stab me.
CraftylikeMARtha: so i went to the office after chemistry. to find mr castenada
CraftylikeMARtha: at this point it was my lunch
CraftylikeMARtha: by the way
CraftylikeMARtha: he wasn't there. i left a note.
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: uh huh
CraftylikeMARtha: i went to the theatre room to see if i could stay and read my magazine until my lunch was over
CraftylikeMARtha: the doors were locked.
CraftylikeMARtha: i went to ms lamms room and asked if i could sit in the back of her class. she said teachers weren't allowed to let the kids do that. she told me to go the learning center or the library. i went the library it was closed
CraftylikeMARtha: i went to the learning center, on my way there i saw jennifer we chatted and such
CraftylikeMARtha: then i was sitting in the learning center and mr castenada walked
CraftylikeMARtha: in
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: uh huh
CraftylikeMARtha: (you pick up the books from the learning center so yeah)
CraftylikeMARtha: well anyways i went to talk to him
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: uh huh
CraftylikeMARtha: and i told him everything and how i was scared and blah blah blah
CraftylikeMARtha: he told me to find out her name and everything like that. and that i shouldn't have to be scared to go to school because it was a safe place
CraftylikeMARtha: and i told him, no it's not a safe place. i know it's not. and i told him how Marshall started getting beaten on by jacob and then jacobs friend all joined in and you know it was total beat down. i told him that that was not safe. and that that shows me i'm not protected there
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: :|
CraftylikeMARtha: i told him how all my friends want to beat her ass too for what she did and he said that i should tell them to back off because it would be like a "gang" thing or whatever. i told him that i didn't even know who she was for sure and i'm not telling anyone who she is anyways.
CraftylikeMARtha: so. . . it sucks and stuff. i don't like school for that reason and that reason only
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: im sorry
CraftylikeMARtha: it isn't your fault
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: well im sorry you have to go thro that
CraftylikeMARtha: i don't know what i should do jessica
CraftylikeMARtha: i didn't even pay attention to the first 30 minutes of the teacher talking in chemistry because my internal dialouge was rapidly flowing and i was having to concentrate on not crying
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: who do you have tho
CraftylikeMARtha: a lady. a young lady, 28
CraftylikeMARtha: red hair with blonde in the front
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: oh ok
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: so hows everything else tho
CraftylikeMARtha: good. chele and jacob picked me up from school.
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: thats good
CraftylikeMARtha: we bought cigarettes. we chilled at my house for a few minutes. we took jennifer her cigarettes. they dropped me off and jacob gave me a big hug. it was fun. chele's going to pick me up later. hopefully i'll get to see jacob then too
FeiStyGirLisHeRe: thats cool
CraftylikeMARtha: yeah.

besides that, my schedules a mess. they didn't even put me in french, they put me in some random ass class. i'm transfering out of tech theatre and getting in first semester pe second semester computer science preap and getting out of ap english and into regular english. other than that, my schedule is good. us history ap is going to be hard but i expected that. theatre was really fun. i know people in chemistry. i don't know anyone in algebra II. i don't know anyone in german II pre-ap. and that's all for now.

xoxox
Leslie

But if she starts shit with me, she'll finish it. And by that time it will be far too late. I realize that many people have my back and I appreciate that sooooo much. It's just that, when I'm alone, I feel like I can't handle it all. Like I'm just going to completely break down and . . . . disappear. But I don't disappear. No matter how hard i wish. i stay alive and i have to repeat to myself, "It's okay. It's okay. You're okay. You're okay." My anxiety is at an all time high. My breath gives out. My heart fills like it's going to stop. It's unbelievable. . . . i never thought I'd have to feel like this. I never thought i'd have to deal with these kinds of feelings. you see it on tv, the girl who is bullied and hates going to school, cries at night, cries at school, things like that. and even though she doesn't pick on me, those emotional cuts are still wide open and gushing out the pain and fear i have to go through every time i'm alone. every time i don't have someone there who will protect me. i'm going to poison my body every day i'm at school from holding back from crying. it's ridiculous, and it's fucked up. and i hate it. i hate it so much and i don't understand it at all. I don't know what to do. I feel so lost.

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uhm [12 Aug 2003|01:24am]
let's see. i haven't done a real update in a long time so how about i do one! YAY.

so i arrived here in san antonio august 2. the flights were nice. pretzels, not peanuts were served. i wish i were a flight attendant. the clouds were beautiful. i cried. i'm an emo pussay. dustin and wesley picked me up, bought me cigarettes, thank heaven for having your own pack. i flo flawed around for a bit. that night chelle picked me up. hm let's see. i drove her car. so on and so forth. we went to jims. we picked up mikey and went and saw tell at sonic. we went to planet k. we took mikey home. we went to James/Jacobs and when we walked in we felt like they wanted us to go away so Chelle just said oh well i was just coming by to say Hi and we left and drove around a bit more.

then sunday clara spent the night. we went to jims. we met mark and darryl from celebrate tuesday. we had to walk home. woo

thursday, Chelle and Jacob came and picked me up. We drove around, ended up at Tell's. I had to hide behind the car because Tell's mom came out. You'll never believe who else was in that house. I didn't know until like, yesterday but anyways. Jessica, Tell, and Jacob went to middle school together. Tell had an apparently big? crush on Jacob. Jacob asked me and chelle in the car why we didn't hang out whenever we'd went to james' that night and we told him we thought they didn't want us there and that it looked like they were giving us the go away look and he said "No it was come and chill" look or something vaguely like that." well after that we went to James'. Jacob went into his room and I sat on the couch with James and Jacob pulled chelle into the room and told her i was pretty. we chilled. Jacob drew k3wl stuff on my leg. chelle jacob james and i went to jims when it was daylight and then they dropped me off.

friday while i was on the phone with Jessica and Jennifer Chelle Jacob and James showed up at my door. I was like "OMG" because i hadn't yet bathed, i was in my pajamas since i hadn't waken up until late and i quickly got myself in order and things. i wasn't planning on going with them but they ended up smoking pot here and then we left together. we went to the lake at the waters. james is an asshole to ducks. jacob's a nice boy. we talked and watched tv and sat on the couch together and laughed and such. some classic rock song came on one of the commercials and he said he didn't like the redo of it and i didn't know it was like a "Classic Rock Song" so i said "oh well i'm not that cool but it's okay" and he said "no no you're cool." hee. at like 1:30pm she dropped me off at home i told her of an interest in jacob. i asked her to do investigations. she later told me he asked when he'd get to see me again. and that yeah he was liking me back.

saturday jennifer spent the night. we went to jim's which was boring. we went walking and got mistaken for hookers twice, not k3wl. when we got home we played on the computer, got kicked out of yahoo a ton. i showed her the beauty that is Brian Molko and Placebo. Then i karaoke'ed/peformed/recited (i know the karaoke part isn't right but it's too confusing for me this very second) Hedwig and the Angry Inch. Eventually we took her home. we had fun i'd say.

later last night, i talked to chelle. she picked me up. we were just going to hang out at her house and make collages and shit. we ended up outside James'/Jacobs window throwing rocks. James let us in. it was akward on James' part. they had no pot. james scares me. jacob was on the opposite side of the room of me and i'm stupid. we left. we drove around and ended up at lawrence's gas station. i locked her keys in the car (i was driving) while the car was on! i was like OMG OMG but lawrence helped us get the door unlocked with a thingy through the window. we gave this guy a ride home, he lived like 30 minutes away from the gas station but he'd walked like 30 something miles, he'd been walked since 7:30 it was like 4:15 and he had a gross broken toe. we had my box cutta out the whole time. after that we went to walmart. we were bored. we were driving down stahl road and we were passing this car wash (it was around 5:40 in the morning at this point) and (i was driving) we noticed a truck with people in it sitting there. she told me to turn around and we'd see what they were doing. they told us to follow them or whatever so i did. we went into this house where there was this woman and two guys. there were 3 guys in the truck. well we were all in the womans house or whatever and like, they start free basing speed and i'm like O.O omg! and chelle's like smoking pot with them and i'm just like i can't believe they're free basing speed in front of me and chelle and they don't even care. well eventually we left and went to my house. we dilly dallied on the computer. i left K 62 IM's to make it feel special while it slept/watched tv but i think it was sleeping. then i cleaned.

chelle won't be back until thursday. she's going to dallas with tom to see his grandpa. she told me she'd call right when she got back so that she could connect me and jacob. she told me she thinks i'm just what he needs right now. totally. his eyes are the color blue of like the night time sky. sooo pretty. pocahontas just crawled under the computer desk. she's weird. this is one hella long update. okay well that's all basically that's been going on. i really miss jessica and wish she'd be the one i'm hanging out with, DDR'ing, singing. . . taking back sunday. but alas, such is not the case. we can only hope that soon enough she'll come visit. you kids stay safe and have fun. clean homes are fun.

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Weeee [05 Aug 2003|04:24am]
Pictures. . .  )

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[21 Jul 2003|06:24pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday ]

You are Holly Golightly!
Congratulations darling! You're Holly Golightly
from Breakfast at Tiffanys. You love a good
party and you always look fabulous, but you're
really just looking for that one man who isn't
a rat.


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Emily's here. Which is fun. And I'm going to Arkansas with her tomorrow. I'm getting married to Taylor and then our honeymoon is going to be the Movielife concert. aaaaaaaand tonight Me, Jess, Emily, and Mikey are going to hang out. (I'm marrying Mikey too) I miss Mikey. Anyways. I need to go get ready. I did something today. Woah. The End.

xoxox
Leslie

When You're Feelin' Sad And Low
We(LESLIE) Will Take You Where You Gotta Go
Smiling Dancing Everything Is Free
All You Need Is Positivity

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The Covered Walls [08 Jul 2003|03:42pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]
[ music | Unwritten Law. . . Teenage Suicide ]

The fair skin, sunburned girl sits in a world of unexplainable beauty and ugliness that will never seem to stop seeping its way into her head. Surrounded by positivity that she glues and tacks and tapes all around her, a desperate negative force tears it all away. More glue, a little more tape, a few more tacks. Cover up the mess it left. The torn paper shows through the new. She tried so hard to not let that show. She's trying her absolute best to cover it up but it's still noticed from time to time by those who look closely. "It was just a picture I didn't like, but look at the one I placed over it. When you leave I'll take it down and try to remove the peice that remains behind it." A Few days later, she's asked again by the same person why it's still visible through the new picture. "I couldn't remove it. It's stuck, I don't think it'll ever go away." The person trys to take down the present one to help demolish that which is lying beneath it. "Please don't do that. Come along, we'll go do something else." She doesn't want to explain why there's a torn mess. Not yet.

Appearing fine, well
That's all a lie
Cause I am not alright

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[03 Jul 2003|03:47am]
Listen here. Tomorrow, around noon, i'm leaving. I'm going to Athens. As some of you know, Athens is going to be complete HELL for me. I will not get to smoke any cigarettes (kill me please), i may/may not have the internet so, and i'm going to have to be around Kristy and Family. Shit. I am however, going to get money (i better). And to see if Kristy would bleach my hair. I'm bleaching it so that when I get back, me and Jess will go see Legally Blonde II And I'll have blonde hair! Then I'm either doing the bottom or tips or something blue. I don't know.


TAKE MY DAMN POLL
How should I do my hair?
a. Blonde with blue on the tips.
b. Blonde with blue on the bottom (like hedwig had the black on the bottom)
c. Blonde with _________ (fill in the blank)

K gets to go to New York but she's choosing not to go to see Placebo. I'm jealous.

I'm taking with me to Athens, a lot of fun outfits and Emily's present that I'm still working on and it's still burning me. But it's going to be beautiful so it's all worth it.

Also, I hope when I get back I can talk to TAYLOR SINCE HE'S LEAVING :( :( :( but he'll have fun! So good stuff.

Okay guys. That's all. I'm going to try to get sleep. ::laughs:: yeah right. Okay see you then!

xoxox
Leslie

Updated at 6:49am )

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Yes I'm Positive [26 Jun 2003|12:24am]
[ mood | hopeful ]
[ music | Cursive . . The Great Decay ]

YOU KNOW WHAT?! THIS BAD DAY SHIT CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL. LET'S LOVE LIFE INSTEAD!

I saw Spider today! He is sooo funny looking. But I love it. His hair is always the same, but i love it. I love it when you can rely on people to bring you joy by just being who they always are. Which is like the next individual.

I saw Roland today! He's such a deer (as in the animal). I could just picture him layzing about a meadow eating pretty flowers and raising other young deers, teach them how to use their big pretty eyes to lure in young girls named Leslie.

I saw Jessica today! (saving the best visual person for last of course) Even if things are shitty, we'll go to HEB. We'll buy fucking cinammon rolls and all you guys can be jealous of our yummi's! Then, even if we're in the McDonalds drive thru and get a gay call and i don't react the appropriate way then we still now that tomorrow we can drive down fuckin Blanco, blast some of that damn emo music (which is every music to me because I don't care. Hanson? Oh that's emo. Spice Girls? More Emo than hanson.) as loud as it will go, and sing our hearts out to the people of the world. Because we mean it! YOU BASTARDS ARE YOU TRYING TO BEAT JESSICA IN THE CAR? TRYING TO RACE? She'll show you!

Mummy's almost done with my dress! It's going to be beautiful and I'm wearing it to Warped Tour. Yes and I'm also going to crowd surf with the dress on and some really sexy nickers on with bows on the ass like i used to wear as a bebe! If you don't like it? EAT ME.

Things happen in life and they make me grow stronger. Things have happened today that have made me extremly glad that I've wised up and now have a fantastic best friend who is nothing but a positive and good influence on me. I'm glad that I don't want to be around boys who have no life. Becuase that was what I wanted back then.. . for some retarded reason. ANYWAYS! I'm glad I'm where I am now.

Jessica got free ozzfest tickets. MARILYN MANSON! IN MY VAGINA? YES A LOT. I'm going to wear a dress there too! And crowd surf there as well! If anyone rips my dress? Thier life will be going with that fabric. And Korn is going to be there. SO COURTNEY! KORN. FOR YOU IN MY VAGINA.

Emily and Taylor and Courtney and I dont know who else got to see Thursday today in Arkansas. GOOD JOB GUYS. And as I hear, Emily and Taylor are hardcore emo kids tonight. THRASHING BODIES IN A THURSDAY MOSHPIT CAN MEAN NOTHING BUT THEY'RE ALL HAVING SEX WITH EACH OTHER MINUS PENETRATION.

Also the joy Paint Shop Pro has brought to my life has been endless. The Animation Shop has my Soul in its clikety click binary code hands.

That's all for now.
xoxox
Leslie

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It's hopeless but I have to try [25 Jun 2003|07:33pm]
[ mood | down ]
[ music | Bright Eyes.It's Cool We Can Still Be Friends ]

you know those days. . . where you just don't want to do anything. but you're down. so if you were to do anything, you'd want to just cry and smoke cigarettes and listen to the appropriate music? yeah. that's my day. i hate the world today. i hate a lot of the people in the world today. i hate a lot of things about the world today.

Things I Love Today (To stay positive through it all):
x.Everyone who reads this
x.Jessica
x.Emily
x.Taylor
x.Clinton
x.Jackie
x.Drew Kitty
x.Papa Smurf
x.The small amount of money I have
x.My cigarettes
x.The lighters in my purse
x.My purse
x.My Camera
x.The black and white film in that camera
x.Music
x.Animation Shop
x.the breathing machine
x.My eyebrows
x.The Computer
x.The Dress mummy is making me.

(2 times loved | love me for a little while)

River City High == Anybody, Anywhere [22 Jun 2003|04:13am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

There's something to be said for.
This attempt to get you to relate to me more.
If there's a time and a place to cry.
Franklin at 2 seems just about right.

I've wasted too much of your time.
Sitting under the closed sign.
I'll let this empty street speak for me.
Cause I feel just about this lonely.


Out here, there has to be someone who understands.
Who's searching just like me.
I hope I find someone who feels the way I do.
Can anyone hear me?


We could meet on the street.
And you could take me away.
Breathe some passion into my boring days.
Kick and idea to challenge my head.
Because right now I feel no better than dead.


There's something to be said for.
This attempt to get you to relate to me more.
If there's a time and a place to cry.
Franklin at 2 seems just about right.

My eyes are red and my brain is numb.
Can't you see where I'm coming from.
The answer? no.
I can tell by your eyes.
So I'm walking the streets alone tonight.

(love me for a little while)

jumping in and out of different subjects here [22 Jun 2003|04:05am]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday all day! ]

Today I worked. It was great. And I got a M&M; Blizzard after I got off which made it really good. Last night I had a really bad migraine and stuff. And, Jessica was supposed to spend the night but she had a headache/was down so she went home. I still love her. That's why she's spending the night tonight. That's right Jessica, you are. And we'll take pictures and bond! Jessica and her silly email address. Anyways. I really hope things will sort out between K and Anna. I really hope Emily gets to come soon and that that also sorts out well. I also really really want to go to Arkansas so I can hang out with LOML, TOML, and all of their/my friends. It'll be great. I also want to go to NY/go see Placebo/drive but who knows how that will turn out. I can't wait for tomorrow when Jackie and Clinton come spend the night times 2! And I can't wait until Jessica lives with me for a week. The End

xoxox
Leslie
PS. It is Sunday which signifies.. . . Jessica and I are . ... . TAKING BACK SUNDAY!!!! You're such a sucker for a sweet talker!!! SUCH A SUCKER!!! It's worse than you think!

(love me for a little while)

[20 Jun 2003|12:44pm]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | Bright Eyes==The Movement Of A Hand ]

I'm so sick! I was hoping it was Mono but Mum says it could be pneumonia and Jess says its an infection. Either way here I will list for you my symptoms (fruit baskets are optional as i will not just vomit them up):
*I can't breathe that good.
*When I do breathe, I can hear it, which means I can't go to sleep.
*I'm afraid that when I do go to sleep I won't wake up because I'll stop breathing.
*My nose was running out with a little blood.
*I'm coughing the most delightful things up.
*My eyes kinda hurt.
*And. . . . my back is sore.

That's all. I'm going to the doctors around 2. I'm missing work, i hope I don't get fired. And that's all I have to say for right now.

xoxox
Leslie

(love me for a little while)

i cried tonight in jessica's car listening to this song. thank you. [12 Jun 2003|11:59pm]
[ music | Taking Back Sunday == Your Own Disaster ]

Just think of this and me
as just a few of the many things
to lie around,
to clutter up your shelves
and I wish you weren't worth the wait
cause there are some things
that I'd like to say to you

And I don't think that you know
what you've been missing
cause I don't think that you know
what you've been missing

and I dare you to forget
the marks you left across my neck
from those nights when we were both found at our best
now I could make this obvious and you,
you could deny me
all in one breath
you could shrug me off your shoulders

And I don't think that you know
what you've been missing
cause I don't think that you know
what you've been missing
And I don't think that you know
said I don't think that you know
what you've been missing

hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
hey lush, have fun
hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
hey lush, have fun
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
[forget me, it's that simple]
it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
[forget me it's that simple]
(no I don't think that you know
what you've been missing)
hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
hey lush, have fun
[forget me it's that simple]
[just forget me it's that simple

(love me for a little while)

Weeee [09 Jun 2003|02:17pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Bright Eyes == Bowl Of Oranges ]

Yesterday was really positive. the positivity started as soon as the clock struck midnight. before i went to sleep for the day part of yesterday, tayla, jessica, and i all talked on the phone for a long time. we touched on many subjects. life, music, movies, actors, sex, etc etc. it was really fun. then jessica got off the phone and i played tayla the best song eva and its totally dedicated to him but i didn't tell him that at the time. then i went to sleep. when i awoke, i went to work from open to close and it went well. i did cash register, made sandwiches, cleaned, did the "are you gonna have a meal" part, and made things of lettuce. then jess picked me up and we went to diversions. Joey was working and he gave us like.. . .. over ten free games of DDR. yes yes you are all jealous. well he left and we still had 4 credits (two games) in the machine. we totally got 25 FREE tokens, we said we'd put our money in already and we'd played so much so could we just have 20 tokens to these people waiting in line and they gave us 25!! HAHAHA SUCKERS!!!

then, in that time frame, while at diversions, we went to mcdonalds and i got jess two hot apple pies, sonic and jess got a route 44 watermelon drpepper, and Dairy Queen were i got an abnormally big chocolate covered ice cream cone! over all, it was really fun but it gets betta.

i spend the night at jessica's house! yeah i did. and we stayed up late, went to the waters, drank and smoked, came back to her apt's and swang, came back home, ate, watched tv played on the computer, smoked a cigarette and went to bed.

this morning tiger viciously attacked my hand. i was scared. now jess asked if i wanted to go play ddr before we go turn in our books and take me to work. of course i do. so now i'm off to do the previously noted things.

have a super day.
xoxox
lesie

(love me for a little while)

[06 Jun 2003|01:11am]
[ music | Ca ]

LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Leslie Ann Fincher
-- Birth date: 3.19.1987
-- Birthplace: Tyler, TX
-- Current Location: San Antonio, TX
-- Eye Color: Blue
-- Hair Color: Red but soon enough, blue
-- Height: 5'3ish
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: pisces

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: African/European (sod off if you don't believe me, i'm "black")
-- The shoes you wore today: fake chucks from payless that are decorated so sexy you'll orgasm
-- Your weakness: uhm.... DDR? i dun know
-- Your fears: violence directed towards anyone. being alone in darkness.
-- Your perfect pizza: cheese
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: goal i will achieve is to be famous

LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: OMJ
-- Your thoughts first waking up: okay
-- Your best physical feature: ass i suppose. this is making me uncomfortable
-- Your bedtime: when i go to sleep
-- Your most missed memory: non stop positivity

LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: need one
-- Cuss: come and goes
-- Sing: like it
-- Take a shower everyday: need to
-- Have a crush: indeed
-- Do you think you've been in love: so i thought
-- Want to go to college: yes
-- Like(d) high school: yeah
-- Want to get married: maybe
-- Believe in yourself: at times, when i'm not being beaten. I CAN'T EVEN BE ALONE. EVER! NOT EVEN IN MY OWN HOME WITHOUT BEING SCARED!! WHAT THE HELL DID SHE DO TO ME?!
-- Get motion sickness: sometimes
-- Think you're attractive: yeah
-- Think you're a health freak: not in the least
-- Get along with your parent(s): usually
-- Like thunderstorms: i <3 them as long as they don't come along with tornados
-- Play an instrument: the spoons

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yeah
-- Smoked: no
-- Done a drug: no
-- Had Sex: no
-- Made Out: yes and that's all i want to do! sex isn't even fun! i just want to find someone to make out with for Virgin Mary's sake
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: I WORK AT THE MALL OMJ OMJ AT SUBWAY!!
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: actually No
-- Eaten sushi: never
-- Been on stage: uhm... YES! at school.
-- Been dumped: sorta in a way but not really
-- Gone skating: no

LAYER SEVEN:
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: uh... no
-- If so, was it mixed company: no
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes
-- Been caught "doing something": LOL LOL YESSS
-- Been called a tease: no
-- Gotten beaten up: :(
-- Shoplifted: yeah
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no

LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: i dont know
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 1 girl 1 boy
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: i don't know yet
-- How do you want to die: i dont know that either
-- Where you want to go to college: NYU
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: actress, photographer, fluent german speaker!

LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color? green
-- Best hair color? purple
-- Short or long hair: shaggy emo hair
-- Height: tall
-- Best weight: like an obese monster
-- Best articles of clothing: thrift store shirts
-- Best first date location: uhm... the woods
-- Best first kiss location: in the rain

LAYER TEN:
-- # of drugs taken illegally: lol.... over 5
-- # of people I could trust with my life: 4
-- # of CDs that I own: a lot
-- # of piercings: 7. but a lip soon
-- # of tattoos: 0 as of yet
-- # of scars on my body: i dont know
-- # of things in my past that I regret: And I'm not the boy I used to be
And I've more or less accepted
I've got no longer trying to change it
I still regret it
I regret it everyday - ballboy I Hate Scotland

(love me for a little while)

omg [04 Jun 2003|11:36pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]
[ music | NOTHING ]

Everything is my fault according to Mum. I told her about the evil Starbucks that almost made me have a mental breakdown and she replied with "well thats your fault not his because you didn't tell him". WTF HE SHOULD HAVE LOOKED AT MY GOD DAMN ORDER YOU STUPID BITCH CUNT!!!!!

The End

::cries:: and now my speakers aren't working.... and mum's asking favors of me even after everything is my fault...

(love me for a little while)

For Jessica [04 Jun 2003|12:58pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Glassjaw==Piano/Hurting and Shoving|Ani Difranco==32 Flavors ]

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | PEOPLE HITTING ME!
02 | Hurting everyone so I have noone
03 | becoming ugly
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | Jess
02 | Tayla
03 | Emily
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | Music
02 | Friends
03 | Money
-----------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | Not being able to suceed
02 | Letting people down
03 | Money
-----------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | Life
02 | how we're made up of like atoms and molecules and stuff.
03 | people
------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | peanut butter... i'm obese
02 | water... but i'm healthy
03 | fairie tarot cards
------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | listening to ani difranco
02 | talking to people
03 | laughing hysterically at the thought of jessica bobbing her head all alone slumped down in her huge computer chair
-----------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | laugh
02 | eat
03 | imagine
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | funny
02 | confusing
03 | different
-----------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | DDR - Heavy MODE TOTALLY!
02 | Find someone who cares enough to fuck me enough to love me (sorry... glassjaw playing/anger towards messing around(not sexingis time!) just to get bullshit in return)
03 | die without regrets
-----------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | TOTALLY!!!
02 | DDR/Dance Dance Revolution
03 | CAAAAAA
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | Dairy Queen Blizzards NOT McFLURRY's ::glares at Jessica and laughs::
02 | SUBWAY SANDWICHES
03 | nutri grain bars? i dun know
------------------------------------------------------------
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | how to make the perfect sandwich ::giggles:: i'm geh
02 | love
03 | life
--------------------------------------------------
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water
02 | diet pepsi when i'm desperate for something cold
03 | MD 20/20. No i'm just kidding
-----------------------------------------------------
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | Care Bears
02 | Alice In Wonderland
03 | Barney


also, today was a really good day at work. i go back tomorrow. me and jess had a lot of fun today as we always do. and my eyebrows are pretty. oh by the way, Jason cheated on his fat ass Krystal girlfriend with ben's main crush. figures, asshole. and eric is doing all kinds of shit that i don't know what to believe. why do i always end up in these horrible horrible things. why do i do this to myself. god damn me and the men i choose to involve myself with. (except Tayla because he's the best at sex and emotional support)

xoxox
Leslie

ps (Emily! Call me)
Leslie

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