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| Sunday, February 6th, 2005 |
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I am not sure how I am going to manage my work load this semester plus still be a mom. Need to manage my time better, but still leave some time to enjoy life. I figure I will spend an insane amount of time on Tuesday at the airport and on the plane so I should manage to read all my readings for one class, UNLESS they are showing a decent movie. The same thing with Saturday evening (airport and plane time). I am in the midst of five loads of laundry so I could leave my offspring with clean clothes for the week, plus I still have to run to Target and the mall to pick up a few items. (while i also read a book for one class, and finish off two more chapters for another) I sometimes stand back and reflect on myself and don't know how I can manage being me. Canceled all my weekend 'fun, free spirited mommy who still needs to be wild once in a while' plans and instead fitted in a play date, movies, and ballet class. Next weekend, its my weekend to have fun. Then back to the insanity. Did I mention I bought tickets to the March 11 Interpol show in Chicago? yay! I have seen them, or really heard them, live twice, but I am looking forward to see them at their own show in a small venue. |
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| Friday, February 4th, 2005 |
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| Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005 |
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Of course, less than one week before I get on a plane, there is a plane crash. Just what I needed to freak out. The thing is, before I became a parent I had no issues with flying. Now I keep thinking if something happens to me it would devastate them. I know how affected Cure Hater has been his entire life because of his fathers death. When my step-dad's niece died over Christmas break and left behind two small kids, Baby X became sad thinking about her parents dying and all, and we calmed her down by telling her that she would be taken care if something happened to Cure Hater or me. Went to the bookstore with the kids today. Bought some early reader books for Baby X to help her along. Did not buy Little C any books only because Cure Hater and I told her she needs to finish that library she has going in her room before she gets any new ones. She loves buying books, and I guarantee she has like 10 books that she has started but not finished. I did buy her a Harry Potter bookmark though. So much reading to do before I leave. I don't want to get behind on my work already. So far so good and I want to keep it that way. Tomorrow I meet with the head of our department to discuss a research idea I have and how I can go by exploring it. I am excited and scared. Excited because I can't way to (successfully) present my work or be published, but scared that I am not cut out for it. Only time will tell huh? |
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| Tuesday, February 1st, 2005 |
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Once in a while I am in the mood to light some candles, play some Glen Miller, smoke a cigarette, and drink a glass or five of wine, and just think. I have the music, the candles, and the thoughts. Feeling nostalgic, but not really sure over what. |
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| Sunday, January 30th, 2005 |
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Little C and I are addicted to Gilmore Girls, so I bought us the first season on DVD. We watched all of disk one today. We just started watching it this Fall so we have to catch up. I also missed ALL of Sex and the City when it was on TV, so some friends and I are watching the DVD's one by one. (Spent Friday night watching season one and I refuse to admit to them that I loved it!) I checked the status of my book order on amazon and they are supposedly in transit. I just hope I receive them on Monday and I have readings to do before Tuesday. I am flying to Puerto Rico on the 8th to see my father. Been away for too long and I just NEED to go. Really, how awful would I feel if he passed away and I haven't taken the time to see him. OR how awful would he feel if I passed away and he never made it over here to see me. I have to make sure that I don't fall behind on my readings while I am gone though, or I will surely pay for it. Kids will be with Cure Hater while I am gone. It will do him some good to be with them for five days straight, especially since he is probably moving back to the Chicago area very soon. I better get back to my Law & Order: CI. |
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| Tuesday, January 25th, 2005 |
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B.V: I like elephants. Baby X: I like elephants too, except when they kick you. My friend almost died laughing. (baby X is five years old) |
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| Sunday, January 23rd, 2005 |
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| wow, Johnny Carson passed away this weekend. | ||
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| Saturday, January 22nd, 2005 |
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I have not left my house since Thursday afternoon. I somehow managed to hurt my back and have been unable to do much. Plans for tonight with friends must be canceled (although I feel a bit better), but I can't risk hurting my back again. My little sister asked for help for a paper she is working on (she attends college in Texas) and I sent her a long email with my ideas. I looked up her class to see what the course expectations are and realized my response was way too much. I am sure she is reading the email and deleting it. But I was touched that she asked me for help. I am eight years older than her so as kids we never really bonded. Now we live 1100 miles away and see one another once or twice a year so its hard for us to get to know one another as adults. I am trying to get her to take a trip with me for her 21st birthday, just the two of us. Problem is she is married to a jerk. Maybe I can arrange for her to be kidnapped...hmmm see, this is when it would come in handy having connections in the mob. must run to the bank before they close... |
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| Tuesday, January 18th, 2005 |
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I've been listening to Bright Eyes' CD Fevers and Mirrors lately. Love it. I always feel like people don't quite understand how music is such a big part of my life. I can go on and on about a particular song or band and how it fits in my life. I guess it's always a conversation starter when I meet someone new or its something that automatically helps me bond with someone new. I had one class today, thats it. The rest of my classes are on Monday so I am done for the week. I could not deal with going to class in this weather anyway so its a good thing I am done till next week. We were spoiled with mild weather and now we must pay. I have been missing my family lately. I am thinking of surprising my mom with a plane ticket for a weekend trip up here or I am flying there in February. Maybe the cold weather has gotten me in this funk. Maybe I am just a big baby who misses her parents and siblings. |
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Where in the world did my winter break go? Why am I getting ready for class today!!! Went out last night with friends who I missed dearly (they were is Europe last semester studying). Had a lot of fun, but now its back to the business of school. |
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| Friday, January 14th, 2005 |
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I love my best pal T. He knew I was feeling blue just now. He called me as soon as he left the office, to just listen to my crazy stories, but really to distract me from me. His girlfriend called him while he was talking to me. My best pal told her he would call her back later so he could talk to me. I love my best pal T. And now, I am taking Little C and Baby X to see the Harlem GlobeTrotters. WHY WHY WHY did I decide to do such a thing!!! |
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| Wednesday, January 12th, 2005 |
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Has Serena on Law & Order always been a lesbian? Did I miss this the whole time she was on the show? I only ask because when she was fired tonight she asked if it was because she was a lesbian. Anyway. Been busy at work all week, just waiting for classes to start on the 18th. I did not get any recreational reading done my entire winter break (unless you count Cosmo). |
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| Saturday, January 8th, 2005 |
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The kids went out of town for the weekend so I am all alone. :-/ If I plan on having a meal today, I should be showering, and go to the store. But instead I am debating taking a nap. When did I become 75 years old! My friend and I are making plans to drive to Ohio next month to see Interpol. If for some reason I can't make it out of class on time to drive to the show without driving insanely fast from here, I found us some great deals to Texas to check out the Austin show. I know, I am insane. I am less than a year away from turning 30, and soon will be running out of opportunities or perhaps the desire to do insane acts such as this. I mean, I am also the girl who flew to California to see the Cure not too long ago, so its normal behavior for me. Maybe I am just trying to hold on to my youth. Screw that! Age is just a number! So I have kids and I will be thirty soon! I don't have to start behaving or dressing like the rest of the P.T.A! |
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| Friday, January 7th, 2005 |
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| "If there is at least one person in your life whom you consider a close friend, and whom you would not have met without the Internet, post this sentence in your journal." | ||
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| Thursday, January 6th, 2005 |
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| So, I am cleaning my room, and moving stuff around and such, and can't decide on something. On my wall, I have some toys. I have (all in their original boxes, never been opened) Max and the Goat Boy, and Bernard the Monster from Where the Wild Things Are, and also an old Curious George Clock and tin drum (also never been opened). Let's say you were dating some girl, or well, went out with some night with some woman my age, and she had this in her bedroom, will it turn you off? I mean, the rest of the stuff in my room are pictures and paintings, with the exception of a message board I have over my desk. Do you think I should take down the toys and put some black and white photos up in their place? | ||||
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| Wednesday, January 5th, 2005 |
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| I took a long nap today (from 9am-noon). I truly meant to get some laundry done, clean the house, take up tap dancing, and learn a new language today. But sleep was all I was able to fit into my busy schedule. It was not my fault. I blame the rain. Yes, blame it on the rain as Milli Vanilli use to day. | ||||||||
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| Tuesday, January 4th, 2005 |
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| when you are home alone, do you close the door to the bathroom when you are using it? | ||
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| Monday, January 3rd, 2005 |
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I am tempted to go to the store and get something to drink. Meaning, some alcoholic beverage to drink. Just feels like one of those nights. Play some music. Turn on some candles. drink a little drink. and dwell dwell dwell. Racey days Help me through the hopeless haze But my oh my Tragic eyes I can't even recognise myself behind So if the answer is no Can I change your mind |
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For some reason I have been up since 5:30 this morning. I fixed the lunches for the kids to take to school, showered, fed them, and off to school they went. I then sat at Kopi for an hour having my usual, and read. I didn't read some Politics of Education book. I did not read some 19th century novel for a dreaded class. I didn't read some journal article discussing post-structuralism. I READ THE NEWSPAPER!! A NEWSPAPER!! Like normal people do in the morning. and it felt good. |
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| Wednesday, December 29th, 2004 |
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We arrived back home at 1:30 this afternoon, seventeen hours after I left my mom's house. Stopped by a Texas state trooper last night for speeding, but was let go with a warning. That caused me to drive slowly the rest of the trip, otherwise I would have arrived earlier. Now begins the much dreaded unpacking process. Who knows when it will end! More later, after some sleep...Zzzzzzzzzz |
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