Never change...   
11:08am 03/06/2004
 
mood: tired
music: "Superstarr Pt. 2" - K-OS


If I were to see a girl wearing this shirt, I would have no choice but to marry her.
 
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Teabagging   
01:17pm 02/06/2004
 
mood: mellow
music: "Memories" - Eisely
Congratulations to all the high-schoolers that graduate/d this week, particularily the ones from Archbishop Ryan. You feel like you just escaped a burning building, don't you?

I saw Soul Plane yesterday. It was okay, nothing special. But then again, I didn't expect it to be. The best part was that the white family's last name was Honkey (Tom Arnold is the father and his first name's Elvis!) and they just got back from a vacation at Crackerland. Fucking brilliant.

In the Spring semester I think I'm going to take piano lessons, mainly for the purpose of entertaining people. If there's ever a piano at a party, or anywhere, BAM, I'm taking control of the night. Do not try to resist the urge to sing along. I'll play "Goodbye Yellow Brick Road" and bring you to your knees.

I wish getting a job didn't require looking.

Listen to me, I'm a lazy asshole.
 
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Rocking indeed   
12:30am 01/06/2004
 
mood: bored
music: "Moment's Notice" - John Coltrane
Life's not a bitch, life is a beautiful woman
You only call her a bitch cos she won't let you hit that pussy

- Aesop Rock

My uncle was watching the NCAA Women's Softball World Series. "Look at these girls, Steve! Incredible teams. I like the girl teams better because they have a better team spirit than the boys. They're not about being big shots. And, and that pitcher, that pitcher, she can throw that ball almost 70 miles an hour, that's like throwing a regular hardball 90 miles an hour!"

To see my 70-year-old uncle this excited about something always makes me smile.

Hung out with Doug, JP, Rich, Julie and her friend Ella last night. Doug and I were planning to get some boozahol action at Steph's but we decided to do a favor for JP instead. We're good people like that.

I could be wrong, but I think I'm good at bass guitar. You guys should be in a band with me. But only if you are a sexy girl who plays guitar in the Philly area or a muscle-bound dude with a shaved head who plays drums in the Philly area.

Yes, this will be a good band.
 
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I grew up here   
01:02pm 30/05/2004
 
mood: tired
music: "News From Nowhere" - Seachange
The gap that grows between our lives, the gap our parents never had...

Last night consisted of me, JP, Doug, Raftery, Meg, and Julie. There was also Dice, Carri and a very drunk Angelo. Of course Raftery entertained us all with his yarns. I am absolutely out of money. Does anyone know of anyplace that's hiring?

I got my haircut. Refer to my new usericon. Speaking of usericons, I got a Spiderland one, too. It kicks your ass.

I forgot to talk about my grades:

Literature & Film: A
American Lit 2: A
Intro. Phys. Geography: C
Modern U.S. History: B
Spanish 1: B

I simply locked shit down in my English classes. I was opinionated and damn sexy. Although I have to admit I am fairly surprised by the A in Lit & Film. I barely paid attention and only went to the class so I could see Mallory and this sexy girl named Kristen. Kristen was one of those girls that was all fine and cool and you totally wished they played guitar (maybe she does). I only started talking to her during the second half of the semester which sucks. And Mallory is just an awesome and sweet girl who I'd give up the world for, plain and simple. I want to hang out with her more next year, no doubt. I thank those two fine ladies for my perfect attendance. I notice that whenever I have perfect attendance in a class, it's because of at least one girl.

American Lit 2 was my favorite class. I met a lot of people and annoyed the hell out of a lot of them. But I made a lot of friends, too. Even people who rubbed me the wrong way at first turned out to be awesome people (Like Josh, remember that History major guy? He's actually really cool). Peter was an awesome professor and I'm upset that he won't be back in the Fall. We did some good reading, too. David Mamet kills motherfuckers.

I'm also surprised that I got a C in Geography. I completely guessed randomly on all three exams and I barely showed up for classes. I think this calls for a celebration.

I want some 40s.
 
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A few rumblings   
03:00am 29/05/2004
 
mood: awake
music: "Last Things Last" - Rachel's
What's up with Lollapalooza's lineup being so fucking cool? The Pixies (at NY at least), Modest Mouse, BRMC, Thrills, Elbow, Morrissey, Sonic Youth, PJ Harvey, Broken Social Scene, The Von Bondies, The Walkmen, Dangermouse, Flaming Lips, Wilco, and TV on the Radio?! Lollapalooza was supposed to have burnt out years ago, dammit!

I didn't leave the house today, and I loved it. I postponed my haircut, played video games and listened to music all afternoon. I started Slaughter House Five and it fucking rocks.

I've decided that I want to write a play. I have no idea what I'm going to write about, however. But I've been listening to a few bands lately (Guided By Voices, Dismemberment Plan, Spiritualized, The Flaming Lips, etc.) and I want to base characters around their music. I'm sure this idea has been run into the ground and I don't even know it, but I see actors and actresses in my head, one is Guided By Voices, one is Spiritualized, another is Pavement, and they're all talking to each other. Could someone in the mindset of "Cop Shoot Cop..." get along with someone who thinks like "Echoes Myron?" God, I'm pretentious. But forgive an honest stroke of confidence when I say that I think I can make this work out.

And last but not least, Charles brought back this blast from the past:



Dee took this picture while hanging out with me and Lizzy back in the Fall of 2002 and somehow Charles got his hands on it. Look how hott I was back then! Physically I like the 17-year-old me more than the me now. Nicer hair, clearer skin... I wish I was single back then, I would have been entangled in sexy freshman hoes!
 
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What constitutes Spiritualized tablets?   
08:11pm 27/05/2004
 
mood: sleepy
music: "I Think I'm In Love" - Spiritualized
Spiritualized is becoming one of my favorite bands. Their music makes me want to take on a new persona. I fantasize with the notion of being wreckless. I think Spiritualized does such a good job of romanticizing substance abuse, especially the pain and heartbreak involved. Sure, J. Spaceman does/did a lot of drugs, but look how fucking cool he is! The only time I'm drink and drug free/Is when I don't have to pay for what I need. Coolest fucking lyric ever!

As you can probably tell, things have been pretty uneventful. I have to get in touch with Gina still so we can do some crimes, and maybe I'll call some KU buds up. I want to get in touch with Caroline eventually, but I never know what her schedule is, and I usually end up leaving an incredibly stupid message or waking up/pissing off her mother. So that will have to wait a while.

I'm getting a haircut tommorrow. My usericon is a nice portrayal of what it looks like now. I want a nice cut. I want girls to be like "OMG he looks like the bassist of Franz Ferdinand I wanna fuck him and take a piece of his scalp let's rip off his $350 pants!" I also want to start wearing nicer clothes. How fucking awesome would it be if I wore nothing but non-emo sweaters and suits?

You know what else would be nice? If I were to actually save enough money to buy an acoustic guitar and a four-track recorder, take a trip to the beach, and record me some music. I'd go alone, too. Now that'd be a good vacation.
 
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Era   
11:45pm 25/05/2004
 
mood: discontent
music: "Suddenly Everything Has Changed" - The Flaming Lips
My Hewlett Packard has been officially taken out of active use. Over the past three years I grew up with that 1 GHz beast. So many great downloads, saved IM conversations, and memories. This LJ was created through that computer! But this is not a time for mourning. That computer had a great run, and despite the many problems we had later in its career, I still love it dearly. Cheers!

But now, my eMachines is the wave of the future. Whoosh!

I wanted this entry to actually be about something, but alas I'm just not in the mood. But allow me to incite bouts of jealousy within you by telling you this:

I ORDERED MY PIXIES TICKETS.

That is all.
 
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Back home   
02:17pm 21/05/2004
 
mood: drained
music: "The World At Large" - Modest Mouse
I got myself a DSL connection.

I will have a more substantial update in good time, but a few notes:

- I'm home
- I'm pissed because I can't find my disposable camera that had many potentially awesome pictures on it (including Anri)
- I miss everyone from school
- I'm starting to get bummed out from living at home

As good as it is to see all of my friends at home, I can't say that I'm happy being here. I really do miss school. At home, there's less to do, less to drink, and less girl friends. Of course I do have to get settled again, and I have a ton more people to get back in touch with. Dammit, I'm such a bitch lately.

I do have a few goals, though. I'm looking for a job, of course, and this is gonna be the summer that I finally get my liscence. No more getting my ass carted around by everybody else.

Me and Gina are gonna hang out soon, which pleases me greatly. Can't wait.

I promise I'll have more to say next time.
 
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Peace   
04:36pm 07/05/2004
 
mood: accomplished
music: "No God Only Religion" - Spiritualized
We said goodbye. We have a picture together (we're holding a ball and corkscrew, no less), and I have her e-mail address.

Now I can have a good summer.
 
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If you've gotta sleep, you've gotta sleep   
02:13pm 07/05/2004
 
mood: tired
music: "Cool Waves" - Spiritualized
Another school year gone. I was planning to do some retrospection on the last year, but then I realized that my last real entry was retrospection. But ah, fuck it. After this I'm only going to have two more end-of-the-school-year retrospections, so I better use them wisely.

This year was definitely more crazy than freshman year. Sure, I may have lost my virginity freshman year and for the first time I befriended people that were completely different from me, but sophomore year was just... nuts. I was single. I started drinking. I got into some amazing music. I had my old music stolen.

I did find myself a love interest, which is always good. Although in the last week, I can't tell if she's just busy or doesn't want to talk to me whatsoever. It's probably the former. I asked her last week if she would like to see The Dreamers and she said yes, but then this whole week she was busy. I asked her to come down to hang out for a little bit last night, she promised she would, but she was held up in packing. I should stop being a dick. Everyone's so busy right now trying to get home and I'm complaining about them not spending time with me.

If I were someone else looking at me stumble for Anri, I'd laugh. I'm making myself look like an absolute fool. Anyone in their right mind wouldn't keep getting their ass kicked. But I guess that's not what love is about.

First semester was a train wreck. Three of my roommates get kicked out, one leaves for a semester to sort out some personal shit (by the way, Tone and Charles are coming back next semester!), and my grades take a dive. I promised myself that I'd do better in the Spring. And I think I did. I think that's also because I didn't have Charles as a roommate. Don't get me wrong, Charles is my man and I love him to death, but he's certainly a distraction. Shit, I think just not having a roommate in general was helpful. But kind of lonely.

I drank alone last night and listened to Ladies and Gentlemen We Are Floating in Space. I know I know, I shouldn't drink alone. When "Broken Heart" came on I started to cry. I found myself in a similar situation around this same time last year: Sad and alone. Only now I'm drunk. Thankfully some people I didn't know came over and that lifted my spirits a lot.

I did end up enjoying myself this semester. I'm gonna miss a lot of my buds that are graduating, but I'm sure I'll stay in touch with a lot of them. What the Fall is going to bring I can't tell you, but with Tone as my roommate and me as a DR, shit may have to be kicked.

I realize that I'm running all over the place in this entry. I'm really frustrated and burnt out and I just want to go home. I'm really in a good mood, but I'm just tired and cranky.

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It'll be a small while before I get an internet connection at home. I'll update then. See ya!

Tommorrow, at 9 AM, I blow this popstand.

Cool waves wash over me
Cool water running free
Lay your sweet hand on me
Becuase I love you,
Love you,
Love you

- Spiritualized
 
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