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[22 Mar 2002|11:33pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | weezer- the good life ] so today i dunno kinda boring like every other day this week why has my life become so repetitive, even when i do things I normally don't i feel as if I've done them over and over before. All my classes i feel so bored in I learn nothing, none of this information is new to me. Tonight was alright i tried to see blade 2 but that didn't work out to well. I need a fake ID so badly right about now. So I end up coming home and watching movies which is always an okay time. My room is almost done which is good its pretty nice I like it alot better than what it was before. Still trying to get my parents to buy me a new CD player and a DVD player but thats not working out too well. I dunno i guess everythings okay getting good grades staying outta trouble but i dunno i feel like i have nothing to work for, nothing to do thats worthwhile. take free enneagram test post comment

[18 Mar 2002|10:31pm] You're the 80's Man! No, you're not a cross-dresser. You're just the odd-shaped 80's lego man! You love the classic legos, and you're not into all these new-fangled expensive kits. Why settle for the new when the old is just as good, and far less expensive! Take the "What Lego character are you?" test! by ctbx Click here to take the quiz! 1 comment|post comment

[16 Mar 2002|05:15pm] I am 83% CANADIAN!!! (Take the Canadian-ness test) post comment

[14 Mar 2002|12:37am] my rooms gonna be painted today i want my room to be done so i can start sleeping in it again i need to find a new bed but i can' find one i like anyways i don't know what else to say so since its late and i'm tired I'll be heading to sleep post comment

[06 Mar 2002|03:40pm] [ mood | awake ] I haven’t written in awhile i dunno life is just so boring so uneventful that theres nothing to talk about i don't think thats true but really i just don't feel like writing in this journal i have nothing i want to say and have the world read post comment

[24 Feb 2002|01:58pm] Which Weezer Song are You? post comment

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[17 Feb 2002|10:39pm] Take the What animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz meow meow post comment

[01 Feb 2002|09:50pm] you know what i don't get about walmart? they won't sell cds with parental advisory labels, but they sell guns and bullets... post comment

[31 Jan 2002|10:59pm] in some senses i feel this tremendous relief. things are ok this way. they aren't wonderful. but i am getting by. today i was in this spec-fuckin-tacular mood. I got woken up at 9 by my brother , looked out my window and saw snow. Well i don't mind snow but not when i have to walk to school in it . So anyways I stayed in bed for awhile and than walked to school, little did i know my boots would give me blisters. I get to school and i go to pick some stuff up form my teachers, find out I did really bad on my math exam but at least I didn't fail math. Walk back home again and sit around reading cause i don't feel like getting up cause the blisters on my feet are killing. I also have this cough that i can't get rid of and my mom keeps blaming it on the fact that i don't eat meat so i don't get proper amounts of iron or some shit like that. umm what a lovely day. post comment

[24 Jan 2002|02:23pm] What FIGHT CLUB character are you? post comment

[13 Jan 2002|12:19am] Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight Looking kind of anxious in your cross armed stance Like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance And I claim I'm not excited with my life any more So I blame this town, this job, these friends The truth is it's myself And I'm trying to understand myself and pinpoint where i am By the time I get things figured out I've change the whole damn plan Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight Talking shit about a pretty sunset Blanketing opinions that i'll probably reget soon I've changed my mind so much I cant even trust it My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself 3 comments|post comment

[27 Dec 2001|11:29pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | Rio-Goldfinger ] Today was a good day,enjoyable. Me and Jonny went down to the AGO,looked at some pretty paintings.After a couple of hours of that we went shopping frist for books, that took him forever because he couldn't decide which book to buy. Than CD shopping where he went right to hip-hop, which made me laugh, so i went and found the get up kids and texas is the reason which made me even happier. I also got another incubus shirt which i don't really need but i liked it. than we went back to his house and watched a clockwork orange it was a good time long cold day but fun post comment

[22 Nov 2001|03:40pm] Unleash the Fiend! Spew late-night revelations! Drink Jolt and coffee! Terrorize mall-goers! Shave your pubic hair! Invoke your Dark Side! Vandalize everything! Stand in the middle of traffic and dance! Return favors twofold and return malice fivefold! Infest computers with viruses! Play Monopoly and cheat your ass off! Make prank phone calls! Leave your fly open or your skirt hiked! Show wonders to the dead! Start a radio station! Crack incest jokes at family reunions! Warp out on video games! Shove weird pictures through late-night book and video drops! Insert tiny propaganda bombs into publications and newsstands everywhere! Defy TV! Denounce everybody! See through everything! Place disturbing classified ads in newspapers! Promote heavy drug use! Bleed on everything! Send your teacher's or boss's name in to matchmaker publications! Let it all slide off your back! Pick up stray telepathic thoughts! Piss in small, enclosed public places! Sling dead things into mailboxes! Steal neighbors' pets and covertly deposit them in huge grocery stores -- in the freezers! Toss money at people! Alert people to their inherent beauty or ugliness! Put leaks in cups! Interrupt transmissions! Disappear for a few weeks! Paint targets on cars! Copyright everything you see, say, or do! Rant! Stare hatefully at completely normal and boring people! Compete with your teacher in class! Stomp in quiet hallways! Pretend that you're invisible! Doodle anti-Christian imagery! Streak! Revere the unpopular! Place weird ads in sex magazines! Cough up blood when you laugh! Penalize people with imaginary point systems! Absorb CPU radiation! Believe in demons! Put Gutenberg to shame! Leave fingernail and hair clippings everywhere you go! Tip the service generously but fuck with the management! Suddenly realize you're halfway down the page! Feed dogs gobs of peanut butter! Send letters to Hustler about bestiality! Play devil's advocate! Defy classification! Get yourself on TV! Shoot rubber bands! Storm into bars and demand tap water! Untangle phone cords! Wear prison clothes to school or work! Make a game out of your own pain and discomfort! Talk in your sleep! Express interest in everybody! Drink blood, spray piss! Write commentary in the margins of unpurchased magazines and books! Switch labels on boxes and computer discs! Call a phone sex line from your boss's phone and leave it off the hook! Start a church! Build a steeple! Lock the doors and shit on the people! Fake illiteracy! Cross-dress! Hang out in locker rooms and lingerie bars! LIE!!! Initiate breast feedings! Stuff your bra or your pants! Write several conflicting autobiographies! Wear elevator shoes and religious beauty marks! Play with mercury! Explore India Ink! KY Jelly is your friend! Write a contract denying ALL responsibility and have everybody you meet sign it! Tell sick jokes! Be politically incorrect! Pit conservatives and liberals against each other! Talk about ki**ing the President! Start an obsessive and obscure collection! Grow natural dreadlocks! Pick your nose on public transportation! Get your hands bloody! Place various objects on train tracks! Invent more origami! Try not to notice that everyone resents you! Make love to anything! Make war on everything! Try to put every external organ in your mouth! Be sleazy! Make up parables! Memorize mass murder facts! Develop a cramped and psychotic handwriting style! Explode fruit and vegetables! Stand on bridges and throw heavy things off! Make unintelligible phone calls to talk shows! Take surveys! Release the Kraken! Become a hermaphrodite! Cultivate acne! Look normal -- BE insane! Infiltrate cliques and then destroy them! Record all conversation, save all letters, take pictures of everyone! Peep & exhibit! Leave religious propaganda in porno shops! Take a deep breath! And... 1 comment|post comment

[08 Nov 2001|04:11am] so once again I get into this endless circle not wanting to but now i'm in to deep to get out but i can't help these feelings So I like another guy so we talk and chill and maybe get together but than it'll be over and i'll be a better person ,learned more about myself yeah i dunno its different this time he's different hes great and nothing like any other guy I've ever liked and i think thats what i need so stay tuned to see how thats all going post comment

[06 Nov 2001|10:35am] and in this moment I am happy 2 comments|post comment

[24 Oct 2001|10:40pm] Plan and scheme all you like, the essentials of life are still ruled by chance. Seemingly insignificant gestures, words and stumbles are fraught with consequence ,beautiful or horrifying, and always unexpected. That is what makes life life. If everything went the way we planed life would be perfect. Life will never be perfect you will never have a time in your life when everything is right . You may think everything is right but its not.Of course you may choose to over look the wrongs in your life. Try to live in a dream like state. Make everything seem perfect. Keep telling yourself that and someday you'll believe it. Yeah your in denial. People are out to improve their lifes not yours , no ones cheering for you. No one does anything anymore with out wanting something in return. Yeah i'm a pessimist, it comes from years of being opptimistic and having nothing go right. But i've been happy, yeah i have and it feels good. I try to help others. I try to be nice. Being nice doesn't get you anywhere , being nice gets you pushed around and stepped on. So from now on maybe i'll be a little less nice a little more honest and see how people like it. I dunno i feel bad being mean for no reason but i'll give it a try what have I got to lose post comment

[24 Oct 2001|05:44pm] The more the fruits of knowledge become accessible to men, the more widespread is the decline of religious belief.Civilization has little to fear from educated people and brain-workers. In them the replacement of religious motives for civilized behaviors by other, secular movies, would proceed unobtrusively. post comment

[24 Oct 2001|04:24pm] This morning i wake up at like 5:30 am i look out my window and its sorta foggy and misty A grey sorta rainy looking day It looked so pretty so surreal i loved it i put random on my cd player and the music of Simon and Garfunkel , dashboard and new incubus filled my room and i sat their watching the trees and the birds in the grey day it was amazing I wish i couldn't been like that forever, frozen in time just sitting, watching and listening I felt so at peace with everything nothing seemed important problems slipped away it didn't matter i had a math test the fight i had with my mom the night before didn't matter nothing at all mattered but that bird sitting in the tree outside my window i loved life for the first time in years and after that life does goes on but that one moment i was at peace with myself and i will always remember that feeling it will always be there in the back of my mind post comment

[22 Oct 2001|10:58pm] i'm happy i'm happy with my life i'm happy with most of the people in my life i'm becoming happier with who i am I like what i'm doing I enjoy life it feels good better than it has in years i have no one to tell me what to do and its great I got to stop looking at what wrong in my life because there is so much more right than wrong So I regret my past so i have some bad experiences thats in the past i need to look toward the future go to school do well get a good job only 1 year after this one tell I go away from what i know and move on, hopefully to bigger and better things 1 comment|post comment

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