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January 18th, 2004
05:45 pm - she saw the road sign for las vegas and thought, what would happen if i just went?
New Year's Resolution #2: spend more time figuring out who i am and less time caring about who everyone else wants me to be. and to then go play 'hide and go fuck yourself' with all those people who put me in boxes
New Years Resolution #3: start being the change i want to see in the world and less time making excuses about how one person can't start anything good. figure out what that change is.
New Years Resolution #4: spend more time listening and less time waiting for my turn to speak.
things that make me happy today:
-finding an internet cafe in blacksburg with great coffee and wireless internet
-having slept in the same bed 2 nights in a row
-the prospect of seeing my family in 2 days
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Current Music: ...she's gonna step outside, uncover her eyes...
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January 15th, 2004
10:47 pm - maybe the sun will shine to take away the boredom...
i'm in chicago, but rachel isn't allowed to hate me because she already wasn't my friend for 3 minutes last night that i'm here without her. visiting family has been awesome. i know i should write more about seeing marc and kristy and their babies, and seeing matt, but i'll do it later when i'm less tired. this is pretty much just so you know i'm alive.
this trip is insane. i've been through 7 states already: wa, or, id, ut, wy, co, ne, ia, il. tomorrow is in, oh, wv(?), va. nebraska was fucking awesome - to see amy and hang out with her and have moselwine like we always did - cheers to being inebriated on her bedroom floor surrounded by pictures and wearing silly pajamas. all we needed were those annoying bugs. totally awesome. i got a black shirts hat now so i can support the huskers. pretty flat driving though. it was great to see family in colorado - the boys are awesome (big and small) and kristy is just about the cutest thing ever. my cousins rule! and now i'm hanging in chicago with my dad's cousin's family, which is also very cool - i love how when you're greek, there's no "removed" or "barely related" - family is totally just family. i'm going to bed soon so i'm rested for tomorrow's 12 hours to va tech. but i can't call it that anymore.
rachel is my goddess because i have all of her burned cds to listen to. but now i'm already tired of my music, and so am compiling a list to make a cd for colin because i feel like it.
gio emailed me - but i'm much to emotionally drained to reply. he said that he hated me at some point. that's really exhausting to hear that someone hated me. i think that word is used much to lightly. that and "love". so my new years resolution is to stop saying hate as a verb in reference to my taste for things. i don't really hate eminem. i dislike him. it's so belitting and makes it lose meaning for things like palistinians hating israelis. i'm also going to stop saying love except in reference to people that are really important to me. i don't really love my doc martens or my coldplay cd.
so that is my new years plan.
love to everyone - i'm going to bed and waiting for bob's call - *hangs head in shame*
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Current Music: ...i am no superman, i have no answers for you...
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January 8th, 2004
03:05 pm - stop #1: pacific lutheran university to visit alan
...except he's in a work meeting that he forgot about, so i'm chillin' in his room until he gets back. it smells like dorm hard core here, but dorm in the winter, when it never really gets a chance to air out. i didn't remember this when i was in the steves, but that would make sense, because that summer it was so hot it was all we could do to stand the windows being shut. it smells like scott-co in the winter here.
it's hard to say good-bye. i'm all emotional today. i went to my mom's to drop some stuff off for her, and jasper came up from the neighbors, and i cried because it reminded me of kansas and how much i miss him sometimes. and that really, i haven't let go of that. i'm not sure why it's so hard this time. maybe because this internship is kind of like europe, in that i know i'll come back changed, and i know i'll be spending a lot of time away from the fam. but now i also know that things will be different and not different when i get back - the more things change, the more they stay the same. but really, i guess it's also scary because it's a reminder that we're all growing up - alan's up here at plu, lisa graduates this june, chicago is getting nearer by the day... it's so weird. it's hard. i know that the people who really matter are still around - the friends that aren't meant to be friends have, by now, been weeded. sometimes i marvel at how far some of them have made it with me - lisa, since 2nd grade and all those moves, alan, since 7th grade and all those moves, rachel, how similar we found ourselves to be, colin and damien, and the insta-bonding with both of them... sometimes i miss the old people - i found this porceline figure of lady from "lady and the tramp" that tim gave me when we were dating - and i couldn't let it go, even though it's so knick knacky and we aren't even friends anymore.
*sigh* nostalgia
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Current Music: ...american woman, get away from me...
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09:59 am - here i go!
i leave for bellingham in a few! updates as they happen. i'll post as often as i can...
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January 7th, 2004
11:00 pm
Your element is Earth. I hate to say it but you are
down to earth. Stubborn and loyal. You tend to
want to nurture others and you are the one
person friends always come to for awnsers.
Without people like you others would be flying
over the edge because, whether you know it or
not you keep a steady beat to your life and
will end up where you want to in the end. There
is a sureness about you that is hard to match
that draws people to you. No matter what
happens the Earth keeps turning.
What's your element
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09:57 pm
i haven't heard from gio in forever. i hope he's doing okay. the longer i get from europe, the further i feel from that part of my life - from those people, from those times - from gio. it's not that i want him back, it's just that i hope he's doing well and is happy, as much as he can be. if i could go back and change things so that no one got hurt, i would, but then, there's so much i learned from this experience that i'm not sure i would change it.
no matter what he may think, i will always love him. you never say "yes" without meaning it. just somethings you don't quite realize what you need when the romanticism is offered...
Current Mood: sad
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09:48 pm
anyone who can tell me what movie my new user icon comes from is my superstar.
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09:13 pm - I guess that can for lunch the other day was one of the last...
Wait, isn't pasta Italian?
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Current Music: poor Nostrademos - the plague ate his family...
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January 6th, 2004
11:41 pm
I ::heart:: MythBusters on Discovery.
Rate my level of nerdiness. I give myself a 8.
Our power flickered out tonight. Here's to hoping we retain electricity.j
Kosta and i made cookies becuase Lauren requested them so that she could eat 5. BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: the new detectives chewing on cellophane
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06:38 pm
We have between 5.5 and 9 inches of snow around my house - Kosta the weatherman when out to check it...
Current Mood: jubilant
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January 5th, 2004
11:54 pm
It's snowing in Lacey, which means it will soon snow in Olympia, which means school may be cancelled again, which means Kosta and i may be doing some sibling bonding repainting the panels of heron that he scraped with the rocking chair. Drama at home tonight as that happened. Luckily we are all speaking again. Even Dad.
Things done today:
-hair cut
-talked to Joann about her new Lexus
-nailed it up with Mellen
-watched two episodes of QE4SG with Mellen - she's totally addicted now. Rachel called last night, but just to tell us that NBC was showing an episode. ME ran downstairs to tape it. Dad doesn't understand the obsession, but it isn't really a guy show, you know?
-packed with my new vacuumm bag thingy. Yay for fewer boxes while trying to cross the Canadian border in a few days
-talked to Colin
Things to do tomorrow:
-clean out under bed
-finish packing for Orlando and stop pretending it is so far away
Funny line of the day:
"My good friend...what's her name...oh yeah, Laura!" Sorry La. God i'm a flake today. It's the nails.
I'm gonna go see Grandad and Grandma - fun times! And they're already trying to arrange for all the siblings who live in the nearness of them to come visit as well - so maybe i'll get to meet Margie and David and baby John!
Current Music: ...i couldn't see, that you were there in front of me...
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January 4th, 2004
06:52 pm - A trip down memory lane...
So i was cleaning my room, and i found all these old letters from Ben, Wade, Wyatt, Jinx, Bob, Lisa... from when i was in high school and before! I can seriously document every address Lisa has ever had because i have all the old letters and envelopes. I found ones announcing her return to the states!
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10:33 am
Rachel can't come down because it's been snowing and the roads are all icy today. High in Olympia: 29 degrees.
:(
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January 2nd, 2004
10:47 pm - The basic breakdown of my evening, new years eve, 2003
On the 29th i recieved a last minute invite to Stephanie and Aaron's wedding, which decided to go to because hey, Aaron's a friend and i kind of know Stephanie, and Cathy and Adam were going to be there. I was sold. So i did some frantic Old Navy shopping for something to wear and headed up to Puyallup. Road construction aside, i got there in time (since weddings are always late anyway) and had a lovely time chatting with Cathy and Adam and Cathy's friend, who i forgot the name of. The wedding was beautiful - those two are too cute for words, and i got a chance to have some dinner and say congrats before sneaking out as they cut the cake. Two calls from Rachel, a call from Lisa, and a drunken message from Sam waiting on my cell phone on the truck (Reid had taken Celia to Richland). I totally track changed in my car and worked my way out of Puyallup, which took 40 minutes of being lost and 3 gas station attendents - the first two didn't know how i could get onto 512 from there. Please! Where are you living??? Whatever. Talked to Lisa as she was drunk and taking directions that i did finally get from the gas station attendent (coincedently, the same one who gave me directions to the theater for the wedding...). What cracks me up is that Lisa actually wrote the directions down!!! How cute is she when she's drunk??
11:45pm - Arrive at Emerald Queen in Fife and find Rachel, Patric, and Ryan. Later met up with Mike, Amanda, Heffer, and Kegger. Watch the fireworks, do some dancing, get molested by strange guys...the usual at a dance club like that.
1:24am - Leave the EQC and head out to my car. La calls. Ryan and i drive JJ over to Rachel's car, Sally, who we think might need a jump and fear might have bigger problems involving a part starting with an 'a' and ending with an 'leternator'. It starts, miraculously, and Patric, Ryan, Kegger, and Heffer pile into Sally as the very nervous Rachel rides with me. We get onto I-5 just trying to make it to Renton, where Patric lives, instead of Redmond, where Rach lives.
1:39am - Sally dies. Beyond all hope, dead on the side of the road. I pull up behind with the hazards. We are in Federal Way, but i don't really know that. It's freezing outside. Rach and Kegger call AAA for a tow truck. The men-folk stand outside like troopers while all us women sensibly pile into the slightly warmer cars.
2:03am - I call the state highway patrol because i don't know what's going on with the tow truck (Rach and Kegger were in Sally, i was in JJ, where it was warmer). I know the state highway patrol has the hook-up with the tow trucks as well. If they can find us. Convo went something like this:
trooper: 9-1-1, what are you reporting?
me: Is this the state highway patrol?
troop: Yes ma'am.
me: Great. I just wanted to report a stalled car on I-5 north. **at this point i feel totally retarded because really, what do i expect him to do???**
troop: Is it blocking traffic?
me: No, it's pulled over. I'm behind it.
trooper: Where are you exactly?
me: Um... I-5 north, somewhere between 18 and 405. **for all you non-western WA folks, this is about 20 miles of freeway**
trooper: Right. Do you see any mile markers or signs?
me: No.
trooper: Can you see the lights of the 18 interchange?
me: No.
trooper: What city are you in?
me: I don't know. **remembering something Patric said** I think we just passed 320th. **suddenly feel more helpful and that maybe this guy isn't totally annoyed at me**
trooper: Okay, what does the car look like?
You get the picture.
2:10ish: The men become sensible. Patric and Heffer go to Sally to sit with their women folk, and Ryan saunters up to my car. We chat, starting with the usual "...so...what's your major?" blah blah blah
2:20ish: Trooper pulls up. Talks to Ryan and me, talks to Rachel. Totally nice guy, wishes he could be more help, but Rach wants to wait it out for AAA, which has said it could be 15 to 60 minutes.
2:45ish: Second trooper pulls up, the over-acheiver kind that takes down and runs Rachel's plates and asks me if i was involved in the accident as well.
3:15ish: Tow arrives just as Ryan and i start discussing whether or not cinema affects people's perception of real time. Totally an interesting topic but we got cut off. Pffft. We begin the drive to Redmond, but i now have Ryan and Heffer in the back of the truck, and Patric in the front. It's fogging like crazy inside and i'm dead tired...
4ish: Arrive in Redmond at Rachel's place. Ryan takes off in his Audi, Heffer and Kegger go back to Issaquah. Patric needs to be taken home. To Renton. At 4. We pile into Monica's car and take him home...
5:04am: BED!
How fun was that???
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07:36 pm
Ah, New Years. Story as i have time. I have to reconstruct it with the cell phone calls that i have saved to my phone.
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December 31st, 2003
07:08 pm - On why i love Lisa...
...she just called me to ask what she should wear tonight. Obviously she has forgotten that i have zero sense of fashion. I'm worried about looking bad at this wedding in an hour...
Gotta go get ready. Happy New Years! Don't be surprised if some of you get slightly drunk phone calls - i'm going to the Emerald Queen, baby!!
Weird to think it's 2004 already in Europe.
4 hours and 52 minutes to go.
P.S. I love when our friends come over and dad jokes with them, and they don't 'get' dad's sense of humor. He just told Arjuna and Matthew that he was sorry they weren't having any fun with the GameCube, to which Matthew replied, "We ARE having fun." Cute. No sense of sarcasm yet.
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12:47 pm
Happy New Years Eve everyone! Enjoy your last hours of 2003 - 11 hours and 13 minutes left!
Whatever you do tonight, be safe about it - you all know what i mean...
Kisses to everyone!
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December 30th, 2003
10:27 pm - HOLIDAY BOWL CHAMPS!!!
Our 3rd 10 win season in a row! This is Cougar history!! I'M PART OF COUGAR HISTORY!!!
God, this is great!!
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: ...fight fight fight for washington state...
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December 29th, 2003
03:52 pm
Hey Erin! Welcome to my livejournal! Wooty woot woot!
And hey, i've been defriended by Rob. Now i'm back to the land of people who don't feel sorry for themselves in their lives of being a gay man in his 20s in today's world.
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01:55 pm - boredome reigns
1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? married off 4 of my friends, got engaged, got disengaged, traveled 7 countries with colin, went to north africa, picked reid up at the airport, had a car at college
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i did okay
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? nope
4. Did anyone close to you die? nope
5. What countries did you visit? ireland, england, belgium, holland, france, (stop over in switzerland), italy, austria, germany, spain, morocco, greece, mexico
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? a stronger sense of self
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? july 18, for lots of reasons, august 16th, because it's when kansas died
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? learning who my false friends were and that i can live without them
9. What was your biggest failure? if you're close to me, you know already
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? um, a long cold from thanksgiving to christmas
11. What was the best thing you bought? reid's book about the history of airline safety cards
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? giulio, just in general because he's 'good' all the time, rachel for making me laugh all the time and always being there for a good cry and trips to jack in the box, lisa for always being the most amazing, least judgemental friend i could ever ask for
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? colin's, for a brief time
14. Where did most of your money go? travel expenses
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? how long can you stand reading this? seeing st. patrick's cathedral and drinking guiness in dublin, seeing mathieu in ottignies, seeing the eiffel tower and the arc de triumph, walking inside the sacre couer, being in the colusseum and the forum, visiting with giulio and giovanni in rome, going topless in greece, seeing all those things in vienna that i fell in love with when i was 13, getting engaged, making the amazing friends i did in england and germany, being home, going to cathy's wedding, being back at wazzu and getting my cougar tattoo with rachel, seeing reid again, being accepted to the wdw internship
16. What song will always remind you of 2003? "superman" - dave matthews band, "tiny dancer", "your song" and "crocodile rock" - elton john, "bitter" - 9 days, "it's my life" - jon bon jovi, anything by frank sinatra, anything by maroon five (thanks la!), "where is the love?" - black eyed peas, "ich kenne nichts" - xavier naidoo
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? ugh, fatter
iii. richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? exploring while i was in trier
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? sleeping while i was in trier
20. How will you be spending Christmas? it's already come and gone, but i was at home with my family
22. Did you fall in love in 2003? yes
23. How many one-night stands? two - yikes!
24. What was your favorite TV program? qe4sg and trading spaces
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? i don't really hate anyone
26. What was the best book you read "why do people hate america?"
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? xavier naidoo, 10 minutes down
28. What did you want and get? a sense of personal peace
29. What did you want and not get? nothing worth mentioning here
30. What was your favorite film of this year? "elf", hands down
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? went to kubi kulum with a bunch of people who got me really drunk, then went to munich and salzburg to be with the fam and nadl
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? people not being dicks to me when i got back and wasn't who they wanted me to be
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? i have no concept of fashion
34. What kept you sane? rachel
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? colin firth
36. What political issue stirred you the most? the general stupidity of our emperor
37. Who did you miss? shall we start with the basement of merrifield and work our way up? damien, maria, mathieu, pauline, giulio, giovanni, roberto, lucy, louise, colin, jochen, tobie, duncan, jean, amy, liz, laura, andrew, hue, lisa (always)
Who was the best new person you met? that's an unfair question this year
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003
1. never settle. for anything. ever.
2. real friends are hard to find. keep those ones and let the rest of them take care of themselves.
3. the less you expect of people, the more suprised you'll be
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year "you carry your blues behind your eyes, don't flatter yourself, i will survive"
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