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Uh...I'm so tired. [28 Jan 2005|10:58pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | dont laugh at me - mark wills ] So today has been such a long day. HOWEVER, I paid all my bills, Yay, I'm such a good girl. AND I still have 200 dollars for two weeks. I rock so hard. :) So lately, I've been wicked into country. And anyone that has known me for any period of time, knows that I cant stand country ussually...however, lately its been all ive been listening to. Maybe because its about losing love, or not having love. Which is my life story. EVERYONE I know has someone, and I hate this time of the year. Valentines day, *gag* I think I just puked a little in my mouth just then. What does it take for a decent girl to find a decent guy around here? Apparent, have big boobs, and be under a size 10. So, I was suppose to have a date on saturday, however, not so much looking like it now. Rea hasnt gotten a hold of her friend Jamie, and well, if she hasnt gotten a hold of her, than Jamie hasnt gotten a hold of her cousin...So, i probably dont have a date. So, I guess I have open plans if anyone wants to do anything. I have sunday off to aswell!! Yay!! So, I'll be 21 in like less than 2 months. I'm so counting down, Im so retarded. I dont know exactly what I am going to be doing, But I guess Crystal is going out with me, but she probably...no isnt going to drink. Billie might go out, but she is leaving within a week after to go to mexico, while I'm stuck here in cold, freezing horrid Maine!! Thanks for the birthday gift, pal! :p Work has been going okay...kind of, I cant stand our new manager. Shes nice and all, but i cant stand being with her alone. She drives me absolutely insane. Shes just like Um...I dont know...Denise on crack on a friday night. (No offense denise...but sometimes you are just crazy busy, and busy work...but I like working with you, becuase I always know I'll have something to do.) Ive talked to Tina, and hopefully when the other girls speak up, we'll get somethign resolved, because we really do need a 4th manager. however, I could be the 4th manager, and Rea could be the head cashier. So Jen put up this awesome website that makes custom tee's...Haha, just had to promote them too...i am probably going to buy something. :) http://www.customglamgirl.com/ Anyway, I have to work at 8 a.m. Yuck! So, i'm off to bed. . . or just to surf around the net for a while... 1 secret | share with me a secret

Missing smokes. [16 Jan 2005|10:46pm] [ mood | pissed off ] So what the fuck, Billie and i go have fun at TJ's Pool Hall, and really, I always lock my car. Well tonight, I didnt...and all my smokes were stolen out of my car, I just bought 3 for 9.99 at J&S; last night, and tonight, when I got into my car to have a smoke when we were leaving, i noticed that my pack was missing, and i was kind of pissed that i lost it. Than, when I went to look for my other packs in my glove compartment and the other two were missing. Someone stole all 3 of my packs of smokes. WTF!!! WHO DOES THAT?! WHO FUCKING ASKS FOR THAT?! If I find you fuckers... I"M GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU....:( Smokes are expensive. I understand if you stole the brand new pack that I just opened, BUT WTH opening my glove compartment, YOu are fucking sick! You bastards! 3 secrets | share with me a secret

life too short [13 Jan 2005|01:16am] So this week has been so frigged up. A childhood friend/my neighbor who was a few years younger than me passed away monday in a car accident. I know that him and I never really got along, but I know that we (meaning my whole neighborhood, Jessica, Robbie, Joey, Christina, Ashley, Matt, Beth (his sister) and Joey) use to all hang out at Beth and Joeys house. Now, I havent spoken really hung out with them since I graduated from high school. Theres a lot that I want to say, but right now, I cant just say it, I just need to fully comprehend what just happened, and than, I'll put my thoughts in about it. 3 secrets | share with me a secret

fingers trace your every outline, paint a picture with my hands. [08 Jan 2005|02:07am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | sunday morning - maroon 5 ] So today was a rather waste of a day. I got up this morning to go and get my birth control shot, Depo. Not to mention that I skipped my last appointment because I FORGOT. Oopps. Well, anyway, I took a shower, and than I walked passed the answering machine to get dressed, and noticed it was blinking, so I sat on the couch in my towel, and I listen to the message. UGH! So now, my shot runs up the 13th, and I am finally getting my shot on the 12th. Anyway, so a couple of days ago, I was soo bummed out. I went shopping with crystal, and she bought some cards for jason, just because cards. *puke* We looked at the Valentines cards. Oh my, make me puke even more. I hate valentines. Not only because I'm sore about not having someone, and rubbing salt in the wound of a lonely heart. but, its one day of the year where people are suppose to show their affection. Why just one day? Why just make this one day that people are suppose to show their love and affection toward the one they are with. *gag* anyway, tomorrow i have to work at 5 until 9, not a long day, but on sunday we have inventory, and I have to work. 1-12. I have NEVER worked that shift before. I always work. 930-1 and than 5-12. Which I would rather do, but apparently now where I am the headcashier I dont get that choice. Damn FASHION BUG! So, I met this guy named Joel, well, I really didnt meet him. I met him online, and he use to live up the street from me, and now he has moved to waterville, but we've been talking for a while now, and he basically asked me for my number so I gave it to him, but hes called me like everday since i have given it to him. Its weird. I dont know, he works at Friendlys, and I went there last night and asked a guy that worked there about him, and they said he was a good guy. So, I dont know. Maybe he just doesnt talk to chicks that often, because hes calling quite a bit. Maybe, I shouldnt be so critical, maybe this could go somewhere. I thats what my fortune cookie said. "Now is the time to go for that love interest." Not that I would think that he is my love interest, but maybe he could be. Id ont know, hes interested. So maybe, I should just ...ugh, i dont know. So I hung out with Luke tonight, I notice that i liek him still, and I think about him quite a bit. Uhh, i so shouldnt considering tha this mother broke up with me. Why would someone like soemoen who did that? OH, i dont know, maybe because I'm a crack head. Hes just so cute, and he has a great personality, and he has a cute smile. *puke on me* I'm so lame. Plus, I so need to get laid. My life sucks. Your Husband Generator by Lady_Galadriel Name Your Husband Is You Met in a fish and chip shop You Have 0 children but 7 pets You Live USA In an attic You And Your Partner Are Best Known For your commitment Quiz created with MemeGen! share with me a secret

[05 Jan 2005|10:56pm] My sad life. I am horribly lonely. 5 secrets | share with me a secret

[04 Jan 2005|01:25am] In the year 2005 I resolve to: Becoming a mail-order bride. Get your resolution here share with me a secret

Augusta? Yeah, thats me. Way cool. [20 Dec 2004|04:03am] So tonight I went to Augusta with Jen, and Linda. Oh my god, I dont think Ive ever had that much fun at Wal-mart at 3 in the morning...EVER! We went to wal-mart twice last night. Once at like 11, than Dennys and than back to walmart until like 3 in the morning. Oh my god, it was soo much fun! My friends are so much fun! We met up with Nick and Robbie? I guess. Id otn really know his name, Im going to have to talk to ask Linda. We were being such a nusance, and they were so pissed off at us. We turned on ALL the Boo-bahs at the same time, and played with the kids toys for EVER. Not to mention, i cant remember the last time i used a etch-a-sketch...But, I so should invest in one. I am quite the etch-a-sketch artist. I can master the Penis. haha, i so should be in bed. but, I just had to say that I had the most fun, and its been months. 1 secret | share with me a secret

Weird dream, long day, express care, no work. Yay [17 Nov 2004|11:18pm] Okay last night, I had a dream about Scott Peterson. So, if thats not weird enough, it was like about me having a relationship with him...and he was the sweetest guy, but I was always looking behind me and like watching him and myself....like he was going to kill me if I wasnt paying attention..Okay that was my wierd dream. Okay so than yesturday I noticed that my left ankle was hurting me really bad...but I ignored it and went to work anyway. mind you I havent had a day off since the begining of October. So I went to work,and worked a 8.5 hr day. I got out of work, and my left foot was soo swollen that I couldn't see any spaces between my toes. Which was very painful. So i rubbed my feet, hoping that it would go away by this morning. Sadly it did not. After waking up from that really wierd dream, i couldnt walk at all on my left foot. So i wobbled down the stairs and into the bathroom...and unsure if i was going to get myself off the throne...i called my mother at work and told her my delimea, and she told me to put an acebandage on it. I told her that would not surfice, and I did need to seek help from a doctor. I went to the express care only for me to wait for hours for a semi-doctor...to tell me that I have Plantar Fasciitis...which is ussually a sport related injury. however, mine comes from being on my feet everyday for 9 hrs a day. Plantar fasciitis is that pain in the bottom of your foot that especially hurts first thing in the morning when you try to get out of bed and stand on it, or after sitting for awhile. It is caused by wounding the tough fascia connective tissue on the bottom of your foot. This band runs from your heel to the ball of your foot. It supports your arch and it transmits your weight across the bottom of the foot with each step you take. Causes: Excessive rolling of your foot and ankle with each step. This can be corrected by wearing motion control running shoes or orthotics. Which he said I had been doing, rolling my ankle so I wouldnt put any pressure on the wound. Anyway, so I get my first day off from work in almost a month and a half from hurting myself. however, I go back to work tomorrow...to work a 9 hr day, the same with friday, and saturday, I HAVE SUNDAY OFF!! YAYA! The first sunday in months...since my hanson concert...in August...and before that like a YEAR. Its like love, you always want more no share with me a secret

random stuff. [11 Nov 2004|10:24pm] I've started my christmas shopping. Well, I started a while ago. I started making Crystals gift about 2 weeks ago. I'm making her a scrapbook for christmas, with pictures of the kids. Its going to be really nice. And i'm going to give her a bunch of stuff that I used so she can make her own pages and such. Tonight I went to claires and got stuff for Dakota (crystals oldest daughter) Shes into Carebears, so I got her a bunch of Carebear stuff. Aww, I'm the bestest. I'm so foolish. Anyway... I made Billie Jo a picture. Its dragonflies. She LOVES dragonflies. Ill post a picture of it at some point. I have a few people I have to get things for...List being: Jason Jayson Crystal Billie Jo Jessica Kelly Mom Dad and Tonya. 1 secret | share with me a secret

[08 Nov 2004|11:04pm] Today was really tiring. I got out of bed really late because my alarm clock has broken and I cannot afford a new one at the moment. I feel kind of anxious, because I could be getting a promtion tomorrow, I have a huge interview, and I dont know what I should do to prepare myself. I'm so happy. I just found out that I have been accepted into Harvard. And Yale. I don't know which to choose... oh, why is life so hard sometimes? Last night I had to go and pay Joshua's bail. He's such a jerk. He got arrested for punching the Walmart clerk in the face for refusing to sell him beer. He's only 16! I want to tell the world I need to get laid. I am sharpening my knives before I go to work today, because I'm going to cut out Robert's heart and feed it to him for losing my mail. Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! I'm so ugly. Don't look at my photos pleeeeeze. I want to say thanks to simon and Abbey and Dave and the other Simon for helping me on Saturday. You guys are the best. By the way, if you happen to find my wallet, keys or underwear, could you SMS me? Adrian has my number. I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, which makes me different enough to be interesting, but the same as all the other cool people with bipolar disorder. You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you what your favourite sexual position is. I'm tired, and I'm heading to bed. That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful. Created with the Gregor's Semi-Automatic LiveJournal Updater™. Update your journal today! 1 secret | share with me a secret

I just say, just an old sweet song, keeps Georgia on my mind. [08 Nov 2004|10:23pm] Its been a long three weeks, but its adding up. Tomorrow is my HUGE HUGE interview with my District manager, tomorrow will make or break me. I either can get this job that I've been wanting for more than a year now. More responciblity, more freedom. More work, however. I am going to be responcible of TONS of more things and all the problems are going to come back to me. HOWEVER, I'll finally get a few days off. I will make more money. Although, I dont know how much more money Ill be making, and I'm kind of scared of that. If I only get a .20 cent raise than, I dont think I want that job. Its just not enough money. I want like a dollar raise. I should go to bed and get a full nights sleep, but I cant. I'm just too stressed. I know I could do the job. I mean, my goal as a headcashier for getting charges would be 10 charges a week, and last week I got 19. (Charges meaning, getting 19 people to sign up for a charge card.) Which is hard when the interest rate is 22.9 %. Meh, i'm going to go, because I dont know what else to say. 1 secret | share with me a secret

Today is a sad, sad day in America. [03 Nov 2004|08:45pm] From : John Kerry <democraticparty@democrats.org> Reply-To : dnc-002Yd00CjL@mailer.democrats.org Sent : Wednesday, November 3, 2004 3:52 PM To : "Lori Seekins" <almost_modest@hotmail.com> Subject : A sincere thank you | | | Inbox Dear Lori, Earlier today I spoke to President Bush, and offered him and Laura our congratulations on their victory. We had a good conversation, and we talked about the danger of division in our country and the need, the desperate need, for unity for finding the common ground, coming together. Today, I hope that we can begin the healing. In America, it is vital that every vote counts, and that every vote be counted. But the outcome should be decided by voters, not a protracted legal process. I would not give up this fight if there was a chance that we would prevail. But it is now clear that even when all the provisional ballots are counted, which they will be, there won't be enough outstanding votes for our campaign to be able to win Ohio. And therefore, we cannot win this election. It was a privilege and a gift to spend two years traveling this country, coming to know so many of you. I wish I could just wrap you in my arms and embrace each and every one of you individually all across this nation. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you. To all of you, my volunteers and online supporters, all across this country who gave so much of themselves, thank you. Thanks to William Field, a six-year-old who collected $680, a quarter and a dollar at a time selling bracelets during the summer to help change America. Thanks to Michael Benson from Florida who I spied in a rope line holding a container of money. It turned out he raided his piggy bank and wanted to contribute. And thanks to Alana Wexler, who at 11 years old started Kids for Kerry. I thank all of you, who took time to travel, time off from work, and their own vacation time to work in states far and wide. You braved the hot days of summer and the cold days of the fall and the winter to knock on doors because you were determined to open the doors of opportunity to all Americans. You worked your hearts out, and I say, don't lose faith. What you did made a difference, and building on itself, we will go on to make a difference another day. I promise you, that time will come -- the election will come when your work and your ballots will change the world, and it's worth fighting for. I'm proud of what we stood for in this campaign, and of what we accomplished. When we began, no one thought it was possible to even make this a close race, but we stood for real change, change that would make a real difference in the life of our nation, the lives of our families, and we defined that choice to America. I'll never forget the wonderful people who came to our rallies, who stood in our rope lines, who put their hopes in our hands, who invested in each and every one of us. I saw in them the truth that America is not only great, but it is good. So here -- with a grateful heart, I leave this campaign with a prayer that has even greater meaning to me now that I've come to know our vast country so much better and that prayer is very simple: God bless America. Sincerely, John Kerry 1 secret | share with me a secret

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Payton Alexis Goguen [23 Oct 2004|10:25am] So crystal finally had her baby yesturday morning at 12:15 AM. Payton Alexis was 7lbs 12 ounces.. She is 21 inches long. She is the greatest. She doesnt cry, she just sleeps all the time. However, she likes to over eat, because she spit up on me. But thats cool. I was the first one she spit up on. Awww...I love her. She is absolutely adorable, an I have pictures. I'll post them on here when I get the time. I promise this time, this isnt a lie. Becuase I still havent posted any florida pictures from April. Hahaha. . . maybe if I have time, I'll post those too. Hahah. Alright, Good bye, Crystals coming home today and I have to go watch the kids until they come home. Maybe the kids and I will go have a special lunch somewhere. Hmm...don't know. :) 1 secret | share with me a secret

[12 Oct 2004|10:53pm] So I kind of just got a promotion at work. However, not official....but it has been hinted, well, more than hinted it has been offered to me. I just need to talk to the district manager. I was asked already by the store manager to be the Head Cashier. . . Im going to take it, its a better position, more money, more responsibitly. . .oh, and more hours. guarantied hours. Nice. I'm kind of excited. Oh plus, im going to be moving out. Well thats still up in the air. Shouldnt be, because I already found a roommate, but the woman, I am going to rent her house from is still looking for aplace to live, and move to. So I dont know. i hope it all works out for her, so I can move in. Soon. I want the responciblity of having a place by myself. I mean, damn....I'm 20 years old. I want to move out. Plus its only 200 dollars a motnh everything included.... So, with a roommate it will be 100 bucks a month. Yeah, I'm all for it. Watching the game right now. GO SOX!! 1 secret | share with me a secret

[08 Oct 2004|01:04am] mainer2massageu: feeling adventurous this evening? ilessthan3yoo: how adventrous are we talking? mainer2massageu: nice warm oil massage ilessthan3yoo: no, not that adventurous mainer2massageu: tell me how adventruous then ilessthan3yoo: probably not adventrous enough to leave the house tonight. mainer2massageu: who said you had to leave ilessthan3yoo: sure,. come right over...my father would love it if a random guy came over...he'd love that as much as he'd love to pull out his shotgun. 3 secrets | share with me a secret

. . . .You are the wind beneath my wings. . . . [09 Sep 2004|11:23pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | If I saw you in heaven - eric clapton ] I dont know how to react. A girl I went to school with and was good friends with in Junior High passed away this week. Actually...3 days ago. And I know that I didnt talk to her much during high school. And I think the last time I saw her was at the begining of summer. At K-Mart of all places. Hahah, she was such a cool girl. I remember in Junior High, like 7th gradeish. We hung out and did all kinds of reports for school and one time in english we were doing a report on Anne Frank and a guy from our class (Peter) was our partner, and we basically told him not to read the book, and we would do all the work, and he had nothing to worry about....Needless to say we did all the worok, and he did nothing...ahah he failed. We were so mean. And when I was "involved with" Ozzie from canada, she would print out all the emails and such. I remember when her and i would hang out at her grandparents house. Her grandparents were the sweetest, and they did everything for her. They were the greatest! She was such a nice girl. And you never want to think that someone you knew, that you had a relationship with would ever get hurt. Excerp from her obituary. WINSLOW - Kara L. Michaud, 20, died unexpectedly Monday, Sept. 6, 2004, at her residence. She was born in Waterville on April 25th, 1984, the daughter of Tim Michaud, and Lori Ware. Kara was educated in Jay, Livermore, and Winslow schools and she enjoyed playing field hockey, track, and trying out for the wrestling team. She served briefly in the Army and loved to go camping with family and friends. Long list of family names, that I will leave out for privacy. To Kara, you are the wind beneath my wings, love mom. Kara, I have loved you from your first breath, and I will love you until my last breath, dad. I hope youre happy where you are Kara...I hope you dont feel anymore pain, you are a beautiful person and I hope you are safe now. Rest In Peace sweetie. 1 secret | share with me a secret

My favorite AIM away message. [05 Sep 2004|01:47am] Oh, how my life sucks. Loud obnoxious teens outside screaming obscenities such as "c.u.n.t", I call the cops to tell them about such obnoxious teens and NOT to bother me because I have to work in the morning. Where is the first place they park,and knock on the door. My house. How convient. Now the hoodlems know who called...Thank you my loyal police officer WHO can NOT follow directions. Now i have to work in 8 hrs, and HOPE that my car is able to run in the morning because the hoodlems NEXT door, WHO wouldnt have known that i called the cops until you smartly knocked on my door, MIGHT damage my car. Thank you very much. Now, with that 7 hrs and 40 minutes left of actual sleep time I will try to get, I will be alone. Yes, alone. Can my life get any better? I suggest it can not! 649-4952 1 secret | share with me a secret

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