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Tuesday, July 10th, 2001
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11:52 pm
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| Saturday, July 7th, 2001
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1:22 am - how the wind will laugh
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this distance is killing me
we never touch
except for a long distance
kiss goodbye
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| Wednesday, June 27th, 2001
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1:02 am
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tired but awake
carefull but careless
curious but scared
excited but apathetic
focused yet the frequency seems all wrong
best show on Nick at Night:
Good Times
(but it's not on right now)
"i will show you all"
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| Thursday, June 21st, 2001
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10:19 am
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motley crue tour of 2001
thanks to all the FPC's that didn't let me die last night
"all i hear was sirens and i knew it wasn't good" - nikki sixx
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| Saturday, June 16th, 2001
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12:14 am
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Angel wake me up
and see the colors that have
feigned to shine through
Luckily
my imagination
is
still able to
play tricks
i feel
caught off guard
the beauty
that is still
there
it's surreal
the constant feeling
of falling
I can still be a loose cannon
If i want to be
from now on
i only want you to ask me
yes or no questions
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| Sunday, June 10th, 2001
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5:03 pm - Motion
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Angel wake me up
angel wake me up
and see the colors
that have
feined to get through
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| Friday, June 8th, 2001
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6:57 pm
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ytemeaptatison
you too would to tired if you only knew
fein the topic of discussion for the
always underlining idea of the
conversation
never easy to underestimate the power of a loosing streak
"what once was lost is now found"
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| Thursday, June 7th, 2001
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12:28 am - i am sick
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*word from our sponsor*
"it's not the fuckin' end of the world!"
#back to the show already in progress#
remembering board games
from when i was a kid.
chutes and ladders was
always one of my
favorites
the day that I
became a man
was when i learned to balance
a check book
this taste of something old
still lingers in my
mouth like the words
to a slanting top 40's
radio
hit
the bottom
of the barrel the other day
key steps to rid your life of a mouse:
1)find the mouse
2)kill the mouse
*if mouse has become mice, repeat steps 1 and 2
until the desired amount of mice are present
remember: without conflict, you lead a dull life
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| Tuesday, June 5th, 2001
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1:27 am - if it got any familiar it'd be yesterday
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sat around with that ever so
familiar taste of
something old,
something that seems
vague and yet feels like
deja vu
of photographs that are all
thrown askew about the
cluttered floor
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| Sunday, June 3rd, 2001
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2:06 am
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topic of conversation
view point of the spiral
as i look onward and come to the
conclusion that i have no idea
what you're talking about
common implication of the word
with a slightly stressed tense
if i'm ok, euro-k
(glad to hear that)
*word from our sponsor*
times are changing, you're not
getting any younger, do you feel
the aches and pains of times clock
work hand? if so...... buy health. so cheap
you can't afford not too!
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| Thursday, May 31st, 2001
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12:35 am
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i fell down
thought kept me
up
i never
stopped thinking,
maybe i should have
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| Wednesday, May 23rd, 2001
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12:35 am - the fear of falling asleep behind the wheel
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it's amazing that some have not learned what comes natural to others. i wonder when common sense took a back seat and decided to open the flood gate (mouth). i'm thinking you should filter your thoughts. you'd think you'd have learned over time...i guess not
current mood: enlightened
current music: the hum of my computer
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| Monday, April 23rd, 2001
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4:43 pm - incline
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overslept, finished a paper, sent the new weezer album too all my friends becaues they couldn't wait until i got home, talked to my acting 2 teacher, Melanie, for along time, went to the library, wrote a song, realized that hillman is way too loud, came home and now i'm gonna try to study again. i'm just not in the mood right now, i'd rather play video games outside today. I'm bored, but whatever
current mood:  blank
current music: Snoop Dogg - Lay Low (thanks to Richard in the other room)
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| Saturday, April 21st, 2001
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7:17 pm - Now it feels like i'm returning almost everything i've bought
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I haven't updated in awhile. So what. tought shit if you're reading this! haha. Well some stuff has happened in the past week or so but I'm not about to reflect or explain what happened. Let's just say I had a very tiring week and it would have been nice not to deal with it. But whatever. i'm just gonna quote something right now that's all and then i'm gonna start typing a paper.
when it comes it's so so
disappointing let down and hanging around
crushed like a bug in the ground
let down and hanging around
amazing song and you get two points if you can name it.
current mood: apathetic
current music: not telling....
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| Tuesday, April 17th, 2001
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12:40 am - my friends could say that this was fun
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didn't really do anything today. i went to see chris on his lay over from San Diego but he didn't have the flight number prior to leaving and he may have stopped somewhere. sucked. i really wanted to see him. but i will in like 2 weeks, so thats cool. came home and fell asleep for a little bit. then i went to meet Jillian at the library for some serious calc time. after that i came home and talked to jenny for awhile. so way to spend an anniversary. I can't believe i have two stupid tests this week. one right after another, i mean how do you study for that? i mean you could schedule your time but calc gets priority because i suck at it right now. i'm getting it better than before but still it never feels like i'm doing enough, no matter how many office hours i go to or how long i study or if i go to the help desk. ain't that a pisser. i'll be really glad when this semester is over and done with and i'm home. but for right now i have a crappy two weeks left to pretty much JUST study. best years of my life my ass! whoever said that should be dragged out into the street and shot! "my friends could say that this was fun, while sickly staring out the window" -Reggie and the full effect
Today's random thoughts:
worst things finished
Reggie rocks
deep breath
implode
not helping
distance
sleep
current mood:  discontent
current music: Reggie and the Full Effect - thanks for staying
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| Monday, April 16th, 2001
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1:27 am - You've got your problems...
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i've been pretty buzzed and unfocused since i had a cup of coffee today. who knew that much sugar would make me weird? NOT I! Well, it's late and i'm going to bed after I just got off the phone and I feel pretty poopy. I went to Alyssa's today and she gave matt, jenny, and myself some really cool Easter Surprise. I was happy but now i'm feeling pretty miserable. I'm gonna go to sleep so that i can go to office hours tomorrow morning and then see Chris! Yeah Chris! Wooo Hoo! I've had a few thoughts/phrases running through my head and I'm sure once I get acouple down more will follow, so here I go:
Oh, isn't this familiar?
Tang
Are you talking?
Why can't I feel better about all of this?
So sick of being down sometimes.
Worth
Picture Frames that say a million words
Hasty Hang Ups
Sent away floating on a cloud
my Ska key chain (?)
I wish I had a hash pipe
Fine, it'll have to wait
Long way away
Seems like forever
Just let me finish this one week and i swear i'll be happy. even if i feel that happiness for one second i would be able to force a smile and not feel so down
HAHA, this sounds like a cry for help or something? Not! It's just my stupid stream of conscienceness.
Summer
Studio
Written word
I swear that's all I can see right now
Poopy feeling
I could go one forever with the crap in my head
New life experience
"I wanna go back, and I don't even know how i got off the track" - weezer
sleepy
current mood: Ho Hum :-(
current music: Weezer - Hash Pipe
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| Thursday, April 12th, 2001
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10:24 pm - I'm gonna look back on this and laugh
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Ok, i haven't written in awhile because well i've had a ton of school work.
Ok, today and Monday were really amazing! Best days I've had in awhile. It's looking like I'm gonna get a good grade in Logic! wooohooo. My speech went great! Our Grassroots theater show....well...went. I got into an instructional theatre workshop for musical theatre with a bunch of my friends. The instructor said I was a strong singer and I had great pitch or tone or something. I was like sweet.
Tuesday and Wednesday weren't so great. I overslept and missed my Calc office hours with Jillian which pissed me off. And I was just sluggish and tired both days despite the fact I got a lot of sleep.
We got kicked off the bill for the battle of the bands at club laga yesterday. It was pretty funny but we have another show that night anyway. So who cares? We still get to rock out with some of pittsburgh finest such as Io (3/4 of Ear to Ear). Which should be fun!
I just finished a very long day and I'm tired and i really have nothing to say.
current mood:  tired
current music: listening to the tv in the other room
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| Monday, April 9th, 2001
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2:33 am - "yeah, whatever" - JB
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i'm not tired at all but it's 2:31am and i need to get up for add/drop at 5:50am. i'm thinking about not sleeping because i have a test today at 10am and office hours to go to at 9am. I'm gonna be beat tonight. But i have food! Richard and i went shopping and picked up pretty much some bare essentials. Rich went a little (but not too) crazy with like Fruit Roll up type stuff. We didn't really buy anything that wasn't needed, and we didn't buy any soda or chips. We're trying to kick that shit. It was nice to him to be cool about my budget since we recorded Saturday. Saturday Glen Potential made the voyage to Sharon, PA to MUD HUT STUDIO. We recorded a 4 song demo which in my opinion is a pretty good 'demo'. I mean it's a demo, i wouldn't put this stuff out on a cd. We can build and do better but right now we have something to get us shows and play out. By the way, April 14th is battle of the bands. I need to push these tickets like crack rock! HARD AND FAST. Colin and i talked about the demo and decided that over the summer we're gonna buy a ton of home recording equipment and then when we record next fall again, do it ourself and get someone to sit in an sort of 'give creative query's". I think that'll work best because it's cheaper because I'm gonna be doing this with Colin for a long time and hopefully with Matt (i could do Goody's Stuff) and Jake for a long time too. It's rad being in this together because we're now getting to be like a well oiled machine. I would get really pissed if we stopped 'feeling the rock' or it got boring. This summer Colin and I plan to do some acoustic stuff and then play and record with Pete before he leaves for Stockholm. I wish he was coming out here somewhere but i know he wants to do this more than anything, and i respect that. Also shooting for a dream is honorable. I sound like a fuckin Shogun warrior, what the fuck?
Ok, jenny and i had a communication problem the other night and we missed each other. She went to the Stephan Foster and I went to the Studio. I was just disappointed because I really wanted her to meet some of my friends that I don't even see that much, ie Joe, Fred, Rossie. It seriously felt so good to talk and hang out with them before i departed to see what happened to Jenny. Quote of the evening: "she better be coked up in a gutter somewhere!" -Josh. I came back and could tell that she was upset and so was I but for some reason when i see someone else is hurting i put up a wall, and it takes alittle while before i warm up to that person. Sorry jenny. We had a very long and wonderful talk that I wouldn't have traded for a record contract. HAHA, well, if it was Giffin .......nevermind.......chance to tour with Weezer....... It was just good to have her here. She was very tired and fell asleep pretty quickly. I love to watch her sleep. Sounds creepy right? NO! Just the way her curley hair falls on either of our faces always amazes me. I love to wake up to her and her fro that i helped create. I hung her calendar present up over the top of my Tom Green calendar that joey gave me. JOEY! I love it because this week has a bunch of crazy stuff on it that she drew at like 3 or 4 in the morning. It's soo cool.
I'm reading Logic right now and kinda nervous about this test. I really need to do this because i have a couple things riding on it. OH and what the hecks with this weather? I love it, i wore shorts today (partly due to swalls and swass) but just because i could. My jeans really were frickin hot. But after studying and a game of mario party with Rich, i'm thinking that i should capitalize on this couple hour gap that i have to sleep. even though i'm not tired. But i have to be awake for Johnny Bravo at 11am tomorrow! i'm excited!
current mood: Just wondering
current music: Dashboard Confessional
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| Thursday, April 5th, 2001
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1:58 am - Everyday is long
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I had no idea that a day could be so long. You know when it feels like one single day has become several or multiple days and you have to check your watch to make sure time hasn't shifted or anything. I got up really early today and was really pretty awake after a cup of sugar with a little bit of coffee. Ew, gross! but it's the only way i can drink it. I hit my sugar low today in Calc when suddenly it flew like the whole room was moving away from me. Really not that great. I went to probably more office hours today than actual classes. I was getting help for Logic for about an hour and a half with Lindsay. She really questioned the fuck outta Jeremy which was cool but I wanted to do some problems. I sat down to work on one tonight and got stuck and was like "curses!".
GP rocked face today in an all out push fest. It was a blast to see Matt and Colin and even Jake, who plays drums and it's hard for a drummer to get into the rock, to feel the rock-aucity. New word, like it? But Colin was jumping off shit and I was really getting into it too. I think they scored a B+ for rock overall today, but if we push this and bump it up to an A this battle of the bands doesn't have a chance. It's all fun and they have the best job in the band; playing an instrument. They can get the audience so into the music it's crazy. Every show that I see a guitarist or bassist "rock out" is amazing, except for A Week in July, who's one guitarist was rocking but the suck my dick, and should be shot. How's that for a run on sentence? I talk to jenny on the phone for a while tonight and supposedly I'm supposed to get my 'BIG SURPRISE' tomorrow. This literally has taken her like a month and a half and I'm not lying when I say that I'm scared. Scared that it'll be something cool, i'm sure it will be, but i don't have anything for her. I mean, whatever this gift was for, Valentines I believe, we did the whole picnic thing. I liked it but I haven't really given her anything very material at all. Sorry, kinda sad to reflect upon. I mean, even if it's little it still matters. I'll have to look into something before we leave.
Well, I was sore for some reason this evening and didn't feel like doing much, I think that tomorrow i'm gonna wake up early and finish my logic and then in between classes finish my scene for perf. lab. So, that should be fun but that required sleep which i'm gonna get now.
current mood: exhausted
current music: American Beauty Soundtrack since I'm going to sleep
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| Tuesday, April 3rd, 2001
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1:16 am - Man, I'm awake?
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ok, today was nuts. I tried to go to sleep last night and it didn't happen at all. Really sucked because I really only got about an hour of sleep and then I woke up at 8 to go to Calc office hours. She didn't show up until like 9:20! Which sucked but Jillian showed up and kept me company. I then went to Logic and wasted an hour with Jeremy. I then came home after realizing that the magazine stores here suck because no one had a copy of CMJ new music which has a feature article on Weezer! Well, after that and some KFC I went to Calc and talked with Carissa who's mom had come down over the weekend. Funny story, Carissa's mom took Carissa out and got really really (like throw up) drunk! I'd laugh if I ever saw my mom that bad, but I'd also video tape it! Then I went to lunch with Jillian and Carissa. I gave Jillian the nickname JEW because it's her initials but it's just soo funny! We went to Primati's and they made me eat French fries.
I then came home and looked over my last shitty Logic tests and corrected some of it. Going to Calc Recitation is always a blast because JEW and I place bets on what he'll be wearing! I always loose, I suck! But then i went to a very long Office hour and a half with Jeremy. I'm feeling alittle better about this crap but it's still very tough. Finally, i got home and relaxed for like 45 minutes while trying to finish my crappy web page. It's really bad but it has the Hamburger Helper Hand on it, so it's cool for now! After a gut wrenching dinner with Alyssa, Matt and Jenny at C-side, i was able to finish my web page.
I heard about Alyssa's loose and I was really upset but just seeing how much happier she seemed today was amazing. I can't even begin to imagine. I guess my family is just really lucky.
So I made some rockin brownies and now i'm thinking of going to bed because i need some sleep tonight.
current mood: sleepy
current music: DVDA - These guys rock!
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