I was having a conversation with Brandon tonight and thought I would post it... I can't say why it all started, but I can say that it ended nicely! I win!!!! No Brandon, I am the master! You'd better hope that your next girlfriend isn't reading this because she will have second thoughts about you... What are friends for? *HUGS*

Vicki says: oh be nice!
Brandon says: i am
Brandon says: im always nice
Brandon says: im a little angel
Vicki says: yeah and I am the tooth fairy
Brandon says: u are fuggin sweet
Brandon says: kool i didnt know yu were the tooth fairy
Vicki says: yup
Brandon says: koolness
Vicki says: why you think I always have money?
Brandon says: true
Brandon says: ok if u have all the money why did always get a dollar for my teeth i thik i should have gotten more
Brandon says: like 5 per tooth
Brandon says: i know im greedy but i diserve it i belive
Brandon says: lolol
Vicki says: fug that, you shouldnt have eaten all that junk
Brandon says: no i got a few knocked out when i fell off a skateboard those bastard diserved at least 20 a piece for all the pain invlved
Brandon says: but noo all i got was a damn dollar adn a fuckin hurt mouth
Brandon says: it sucked
Brandon says: i was hurt
Brandon says: adn lonely
Brandon says: and scared
Brandon says: and hurt
Brandon says: and i think i pooped my elsf
Brandon says: self*
Vicki says: eew
Brandon says: lmao
Brandon says: hahaha
Vicki says: I am so going to save this convo and post it in livejournal
Brandon says: lolol
Brandon says: i kinda figured u might
Brandon says: meanie
Brandon says: doodie head
Brandon says: now im sad
Brandon says: adn poopish
Vicki says: you shouldn't have told me that!
Brandon says: i know
Brandon says: im gona pay for this one day
Brandon says: why do i do this
Vicki says: oh yeah, you have no idea
Brandon says: i kinda figured
Brandon says: it cant be worse then that convo u ILLEGALLY recorded of me where i allegedly said i was gay
Brandon says: illeagally recorded
Vicki says: allegedly? I still have it, i will let you listen to it... You admitted that you were gay
Vicki says: you came out of the closet
Brandon says: I NEVER SAID THAT
Brandon says: I DO NOT LIKE COCK
Vicki says: hahahaha
Brandon says: I DO NOT LIEK IT ON A PLANE I DO NOT LIKE IT ON A TRAIN I DO NOT LIEK COCK AND BALLS I DO NOT LIKE THEM SAM I AM
Vicki says: since when??? you told me you were a pathetic loser that was gay
Brandon says: NEVER
Brandon says: i would not suck cock in the sea i would not suck cock with tea i do not like cock in hand i do not like them sam i am
Brandon says: i think ive offically lost what little mind i had left
Brandon says: HES GOIN ...... GOIN........
Brandon says: YES HIS MIND IS OUTA HERE

Current Mood: accomplished

Not too much going on... I have been sick for the past 3 weeks, went to the doctor, he didn't know what was wrong. He told me he had to wait on test results before he could even give me any pain medication. Oh well, guess I have no choice.


Other than that, not much else to report on...

Monday was my sisters Valentines Day Dance. She looked so beautiful. I am so proud of her! I used a roll and a half of film on her, so you can look forward to seeing lots of photos.

Ok, gotta go now,
Talk to you all later!

-"X"

Current Mood: sick

hahahaha ... insert your UPDATE. You sick and twisted perverts!

Anyway. That entry that just showed up from before, about the funeral and stuff, I had accidently put it to private status and didn't realize it, so I fixed it just for you, (insert name here).

So something weird is going on with me. I feel like donkey doo doo... I have a fever and feel like I could vomit at any moment. I am not sure. I need to make another appointment because I also found some things that shouldnt be on my body.... I won't go there too much because it is an extrememly private subject that I do not wish to discuss Oh well, just another hurdle to jump.

Not much else going on. I gotta go, time to pee and check on the eldest blond. She's been quite too long, wonder what shes up to...


Talk to you all later!

-"X"

Current Mood: sick

I am sitting here with a 2 year old that is wearing glasses that belong to Mr. Potatohead and is trying to stab my toes with plastic car keys. Ah, isn't life grand?

Ok, so the funeral was beautiful! There were many people there. Everyone had kind words to tell. I was kind of disappointed that I was the only one to stand up and share memories about my grandfather. All in all, the funeral home that was chosen was very credible and wonderful...

Had some issues with my mother, but gee, why doesn't that suprise me? She is horrible.
Anyway, gotta go.

ttyl
"X"

Current Mood: morose

So, I got out. I am so glad its over! I no longer have to worry about wether or not I will have heat when I wake up. I am so glad I got everything out in time! It is a major load off!

Okay, so I got a call from my mother yesterday saying that it was not good with my grandfather. I told her that I would try to get out there as fast as I could, but I would have to find a ride because the car (johns we just got back is still doing the same thing). So thankfully, mom and dad B gave me me a ride out there. I got there just in time too... Everything happened within minutes. He died while I was there, holding his hand talking to him. I was no where prepared for what I had to see. I had no idea what the human body does when a person dies. I am confident he is happy now. I firmly believe that his soul is in a different, more happier place. I am just glad I made it in time!! THANKS AGAIN MOM AND DAD!

Heather is taking it pretty badly. She saw it all as well. Last night she was mimicking the noises that Pap was making before he passed and she kept talking about him. She was very upset. How do you explain that to someone like that?? I feel so bad.


oh well time to run, gotta get an outfit for the funeral tomorrow morning.

later all

Current Mood: sad

I don't know if I will have enough time to get everything packed and out of here on time.... God I hope so. I can't take it here anymore. Just so you all know, I am moving. I am not giving the details out on here, but if you want them, feel free to ask. Also, I am going to have all my utilities shut off on the 12th, so make sure you get my cell phone number off of me so you can call. Maybe if you are really special, I will give you the number where I will be staying...

(To clarify: Yes John and I are still together, he is coming with me when I move also.)

I gave blood today. I am so proud of myself. Today was a good expirience because I had none of the side effects or sickness I have had previously. I think that it's because 1, I am older and 2, I didn't get my self all worked up and nervous this time. That was my thing in the past, I got myself so worked up that I made myself physically ill. Not this time though, the only dizziness I encountered was when I bent down to look at something at work... I was in the same postion for a few minutes and stood up too fast... I think another thing that helped was that I kept telling myself that I was doing it for my Pap. I also had good company, John and Christine were there too. (Oh and the new monkey I got from Bath and Body works last weekend. LOL)

Speaking of my grandfather, he is getting progressively worse... From what my mother tells me he is starting to hold her hand alot and keeps asking her to stay with him longer. She also told me that he is afraid to go to sleep at night because he doesn't want to die alone in his sleep. So, instead, he stays up all night doing crossword puzzles and just sleeps during the day when my mom is there. He is not looking good at all. I have some pictures from when I went up to see him, I will post them in my little album thing on here.

I spoke to my wacky sister last week. She is due on the 16th of June. That is right around her graduation day. Isn't it funny? Nine months pregnant at graduation. Oh well, maybe next time she will use protection... I love her, but man oh man, she is way too young.... KIDS TODAY!!!!

Well, I am going stir crazy because John wouldn't let me do any work around here. Apparently he thinks that I need to rest, relax and get a good nights sleep tonight. Doing that is not getting our belongings packed!!! LOL, screw this, I am going to bed. I want to get up at 9 am....

I love you all and miss you... I hope all is going well for you all...

-X

Current Mood: sleepy

Oh man everything is happening so fast. I feel like my life is spinning out of control.... I am drowning and I can not save myself... I don't know how I let everything get this out of control.... Been sleeping like crazy, but it doesn't seem like enough. I can't wait for it all to be over and done with.

Current Mood: depressed

I hope everyone had a great day and is having a great weekend! I know I certainly am... I got everything I could ever want or need- plus some.

My Holiday started out awesomely. The post office called me and told me that I had a package there from Gevalia. I was thrilled because I knew it was going to be my coffee pot. I got over there and got it right away, then came home and had to make some. OHHHHHHHHHH it is the best. I am not sure what makes it so great, if it's the new coffee maker, or the coffee itself. Maybe a combination of both... Any, I am really happy about that...

Then we went over to John's Mom's house for a Christmas Eve seafood dinner. I ate A LOT!!! It was all very wonderful. Got slightly tipsy, but I will not go there, I think Brandon knows the full extent. Thanks for letting me listen to that voice mail message, Bro. I am an idiot! LOL

This morning we went down and watched the girls unwrap their gifts. Boy was that a wonderful expirience! Children are amazing, especially those two... I recieved a HUGE makeup organizer from John and the girls. It has a TON of makeup and brushes. I really like it, I used it today, and will continue to make use of it. I think I was on the brink of truely NEEDING something like that. I also got this really awesome thing from Christine. It looks like a little makeup compact on the outside, but with a chimp wearing glasses... But when you open it, it has a contact lense holder and little tweezers with rubber nubbins on them. That will come in handy. I really like that too...
So, we came home and relaxed and then went back over to John's moms and had a great X-Mas day dinner. I ate way too much, again. (I couldn't help it, it was all soo goooooddd!!) From Christopher, I was given a gift card for Victorias Secret. (I can't wait to go spend that one!!!!!!) Then I was given an awesome pair of pink fleecey pajamas. I love them! They are way too comfy... I also got a Tommy Girl set with body lotion, shower gel and a bottle of perfume. I love that too! It smells so much better than CK U. I have a feeling that I will be wearing it ALL the time!

WhoooooO!!! I got home, relaxed for a bit, then went over to my surrogate family's house. Momma and Poppa (NaNa too) over did themselves. I got way too much!!! I was excited though because Brandon got me a Care Bear Cousin Playful Heart Monkey which is sooo cool... I let him sleep with the newest edition to my family (his sister the Cabbage Patch Kid). Her name was Esperanza Doretha and birthday is December 27th. I wasn't too sure about the name, so when I got home and filled out my official adoption papers online, I changed it to Chloe Esperanza Doretha. I didn't want to change it too much, so I just added to it...

Anyway, I loved everything, and I had a great holiday. The only thing that was sad was John looked at me funny when I made a little bed for Chloe out of a cardboard box. He just doesn't understand girls!!! Wait until he sees that I put her bed next to ours!!!

Well, I am going to go, I think my movie (Jersey Girl) is done downloading from Movie Link. Time to relax and watch it under John's new mink blanket (the fucking awesomest!).

I love you all! Have a great night and enjoy the rest of the weekend!!

P.S. I will update later on in the week because I have a TON more to write, but I am just not in the mood to type tonight... I am so excited about the changes that will soon be taking place in my life!!!

Current Mood: surprised

Arrrggghhh, woke up at 8:30 this morning with an extremely cold apartment. It was 58 degrees in here. Good God! I couldn't handle it, so I went back to bed until 9:30... Got up went downstairs to tell my lanlord, but she didn't answer the door. Oh well, I will keep trying, this is fucking ridiculous.............. Why do I even pay rent? Please remind me again.


So I went with my mom yesterday to see my terminally ill grandfather. He has lukemia. It is very sad to see him like that. He looks like an Ethiopian, so thin and frail but bloated... My mom thinks that he might not make it to February, and neither does he. It kinda depresses me because I never really got to know him much, but I guess that is life and death.

Other than that, things are going OKAY... I am about to explode because of a few things, but I won't go there... Not on here anyway. Ask me and I will be more than happy to tell you. Lets just say I am at wits end with a certain person.

Oh well. It is time for me to go clean up my refrigerator that I call an apartment. I shall talk to you all later...

Current Mood: frustrated

For those of you that haven't read or heard about this, check out this link, and maybe even watch the video for it. http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2004-12-14-baby-no-face_x.htm Just one thing, try to look past the physial stuff and see the inner beauty of this child. It is a truely sad thing, but I can say that I was very please to see that the parents of this child love her like no other.



Not much going on here... I am friggin exhausted... just got home from working my 9 hours. only 40 more hours to put in this week!!!!

I am outtie...


¿A todos mis amigos: Cómo usted es?

Current Mood: horny

I don't know if that is a real word or not, but I like it and I am going to use it, so there!  ( :-P)
  I hope everything is going well for everyone else.  It has been same ol' same ol' here in my life. 

I am back on overtime at work.  Oh yay for me.  Instead of getting home at 2:00 am, I now get home at 3.  which means less sleep and so on...  Oh well, at least my checks will be nicer...

I got my Christmas tree up.  I was so excited.  It is my first one on my own because I didn't get one last year.  I moved in to this place a mere 6 days before Christmas, so it wasn't really worth all the trouble of putting it up and then taking it down a week later.   Anyway, my year was made even more special by the man I love.  He helped me decorate the apartment a little.  It made me feel so very special because I know he dislikes the holdiays.  What made the best memories of the year was Emma.  She came over and spent the night Saturday night.  One of our projects was to make new decorations for the tree because all of mine were thrown out.  This will make it better next year when I go to use the decorations again.  I guess it is a sentimental thing. 

Anyway, I am going to bed.  I am exhausted, tonight was a very long night. 

Take care all!

"X"

Current Mood: loved

Time flies by me,
it is in the air,
blowing thru my hair,
By God, it is EVERYWHERE!

Yes, and it comes and goes so fast that I have trouble keeping track. Is it Friday or Saturday? The 6th or the 7th? I just don't know who I am and where I am at anymore.

Can't it just slow down once. I just need to catch my breath quick...

Current Mood: ditzy

Name: Brain of Victoria Gauthreaux
Age: 20
Hobbies: Farting (brain farts), Getting lost in games of Hide and Seek (losing my mind), and complicated situations.

Time and Date of Death: October 28th 2004 at approximately 2:15 a.m.

Cause of Death: Suicide... The Brain felt it could no longer go on, so it slid out the ear and jumped out the window!

... At least a dog somewhere below had a nice meal!


hmmmm, crude humor... I don't feel like posting an official entry...

later

Current Mood: sleepy

Damn, I hope she doesn't screw this up. He is in love with her and wants to have a future with her, but she is out messing around with other guys!

I think my "sisterly attempt to fix things" upset her. How do I tell her that I want what's best for her? How do I show her that the world around her (Except him and I) is corrupt?? How do I get her to realize that I have been there??? Damn I wish I was her age and had no rules and worries. Does she understand that this is a HUMAN LIFE we are talking about?

I am really worried about her. I love her, but can't get thru to her. I just want her to UNDERSTAND! Damn, I wish I could take her back to when I was changing her diapers. I miss the days of being care free....

Tomorrow night I am going to call my other sissy at break and talk to her. I know she has mental limitations and all, but she understands me. At least she can't tell me she's pregnant!

How am I not supposed to worry?? She has got my stomach in knots... I am physically ill.

Gonna go!

Current Mood: scared

My youngest sister is pregnant at 17. I am going to be an aunt. She is not even out of high school yet. She wanted to go to college next year. I love her, am only a little disappointed, but do I support her? Yes. She is my sister! She is my family. This may be the only opportunity that I will have to have any neices and nephews. I am certainly not getting any from my other sister.

I just hope she is responsible and smart about the whole thing.


I love ya sis!

In my eyes though, you will always be the little shit that I used to chase around the yard and beat on. (And in good times, the little sis that I would use as my side kick. Remember, we fed dirt and worms to Shawna!)

I hope she realizes that I don't hate her and that I am not angry with her. I didn't get much time to actually TELL her...

{The song is one that I will always associate with her}

Current Mood: worried

Hmmm, Not much happening here, guys. I have been just living life as usual. Very VERY busy.

John's car broke down again (I guess that's what you can call it) . This time we've been advised that it is a spark pack, which could cost anywhere from $150-200 and upwards. Thankfully, I befriended a mechanic at work who happens to work at a garage during the day and he is going to see if he has any used ones hanging around. I HOPE I HOPE I HOPE!!!!!
...And to think it all started the other Sunday when I went to get Heather.

Oh, Ash, I did NOT forget about you babe!!! Remember what I have ALWAYS told ya??? HANG IN THERE CHICKA!!!! When it is all done and over with, we will celebrate with SEVERAL bottles of Blue Maui and seven up. I have to admit though, it has been so long that I forget what it tastes like!!! How about you???
As for the little sin you commited recently: (I got your message. I was mobile) I AM SHOCKED!!!!! Just don't make a habit out of it. Those things can suck you in big time. Remember how bad I was? Thankfully I have quit. I am seriously hoping I get a few minutes so I can chat with ya online. If it doesn't work out that way, I promise to drop you an e-mail.

Man, this medicine that the doc put me on works pretty good. I ran out of it and got a migraine though :( It's ok, because I went over and got a refill for this month. I just hope it continues to work.
Okay, I am going to go now. Time to enjoy my whole whoppin 41 hrs until I have to go back to work.

What's it like to have Saturdays off???

Current Mood: weird

Okay, Okay, for a small update:

Two weeks ago I went to the Doctor because I had gotten a horrible migraine and I decided that getting them at least twice a week was not cool. So I went in and was put on a medication called Buitalbital that I was supposed to take three times a day on the days I got migraines. So... I thought that was working fairly well, I was on it for about a week. Then last Friday, I stayed home (from going down with John) and I felt really shitty. All the sudden my vision went screwy and I started feeling dizzy, sick to my stomach and I had this intense pain behind my right eye, so I decided to lie down for a few minutes and hoped it would go away. While doing that, my chest started getting really tight, my left arm fell asleep and my tongue went numb. I freaked out big time, ended up calling John, and then over to Mom's. They both pretty much told me to call the doctor. So, I did. They told me that I was probably having an allergic reaction to the medication and that I should go over right away. (Thankfully their office is only right accross the street!) So I went over and they took all my vitals and shit and made me sit in a room to wait for the doctor. While waiting, I ran to the bathroom 3 times because I felt sick. The fourth time was the worst, there was someone in the bathroom and that was the time I actually got sick. The nurses ushered me back to the room with a garbage can and made me sit. Thankfully the doctor was right there and gave me some green shit that smelled and tasted like rubbing alcohol and that helped my stomach alot. After that, I was give a new type of medication called RELPAX, which was supposed to be a once a day when I had a migraine thing.

...Was doing good too. I went a couple days without a headache. Then Wednesday came. I think I maybe slept too much or something because it only started as a little headache, but then I picked Emma up and went shopping and back to the house and it escalated. Eventually I ended up taking one of the new pills and when it kicked in, I felt worse. I had tightness in my chest the sensation that my skull was on fire, and just felt numb. Freaking out, I called the doctor, and they wanted me to make another trip in. So after going in, getting more of that green stuff and talking to the doctor, I am now scheduled for a CAT scan of my head on Monday morning. (OH YAY!) Oh, and he put me on yet another medication called Inderal. This one I am supposed to take twice a day for 15 days. He said it is to try to prevent the headaches. This is my second day of taking it, I hope it works!
Sooooo maybe we can find out what is causing all of these headaches and shit.
Anyway, I think that is it for now. I gotta go get ready for work. Only tonight and tomorrow and I am off until Monday. HA HA, wanted to make it sound like a long vacation- it is only 1 day off!

Later!
X

Current Mood: nervous

This month went by extremely quick!!!  I just can't believe it!  Not much going on here.  John almost has his car ready.  THANK GOD!!!  It gets to be a little hectic to keep having to borrow the van. 

Emma starts school on Wednesday.  John and I went shopping for her on Saturday night to get her some small things.  I love shopping for the girls!  They are the best.  I love them tons!!!!

  John, Christine, and Emma went to do some shopping Saturday morning, so I agreed to stay with at the house with Gen.  Of course, I was slightly tired, so I hoped it would go okay.  Little did I know...  it went wonderfully!  The kid was as sweet as pie!!!  Most of the time she cuddled with me on the sofa and watched tv while I napped.  Of course she kept waking me up by giving me kisses and saying "Oobie," but it was the greatest.  True love can come from no one, but that of a child.  They truely are beautiful creatures!

Anyway, gotta go.  Time to do some other updating on the net.  *WINK WINK, JOHN!!!***

-X

I guess I will have to do an update soon, huh? Not in the mood today. No sleep plus people equals aggravation. Yeah and I have to work tonight on top of it all. Dammit guys!

Where should I start? Well, last week flew by quick! So did this week though. I can't believe it is Wednesday already!!! You know, tomorrow is my 1 year anniversary with my baby! I am so excited. I still love him just as much too. (Actually more!!!)

Not much else to say. Got my new cell phone on Monday. Decided to use it for the business and emergencies only, so not very many people with have the phone number. Besides, I got the cheapest plan there was, and I only have 80 minutes a month. Anyway, it is pretty cool and I like it alot.

Work is going pretty good. Tonight was hell though. I couldn't wait to come home and sit my ass down. The best part is that we get to sleep in tomorrow. WAHHOO!!!

If I could only get over this shit goin on in my throat. It is getting progressively worse. I think if I am still bad by Friday, I will make the appointment at my dr's.

Gonna go now, exhausted.

-X

Current Mood: sick