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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
7:57 am	thinkin...i shouldnt of taken a morning class i'm always tired....and i know i'm always gonna be tempted to skip it and now i have to go to fuckin work afterwards i wish i could take that honeymoon vacation now this is what I get for having to pay house bills (WORSHIP ME)
Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
7:59 am	brians sick.....and theyre making him go in anyways...my poor baby i wish i could just take care of him all day..now i feel really bad (WORSHIP ME)
3:33 am	Ive been up since 3:30 or something and I cant get back to sleep..My stomach feels empty. I cant stop thinking about Brian and how much I love him...I wish I could do something really amazing for him...I'll have to think of something...hmmm (WORSHIP ME)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
4:18 am	i just want to crawl back into bed with my sweetie and cuddle all day long ...school blah (WORSHIP ME)
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
6:48 am	i hate first days i went..i was tired it was boring and then i came home and ate an english muffin with some strawberry jam and my stomach is killing me... i hope my internet classes go good so lets see what else brian and i went horseback riding last week and it was a lot of fun manda came over yesterday and gave me a facial and then phil and sam came over and we watched willow..one of the best movies ever... brian is sleeping and i wish i was too...who wants to work today... ...not me (3 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Friday, August 13th, 2004
7:23 pm	i wanna dance i totally want to have a slumber party i think all our boyfriends should go out for the night together..and we can have a slumber party and then they can just stop by later to try to crash it...cuz like i live here and stuff and its not like he's gonna sleep at someone elses house and im not gonna make him sleep at his house all alone cuz id kill him if he made me do that but i still really wanna slumber it up..... i hate wendys..i havent eaten fast food in forever and i finally do and it was fuckin horrible brian and i have tuesday and wednesday off and im soooo excited (3 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Thursday, August 12th, 2004
2:58 pm	Your just too use to my honey now i need a word i dont say it often i dont say it ever and i wish something totally amazing...totally spontaneous would happen to me.. something unexpected and probably not planned and i wish sometimes i could feel the same excitement and relief that radiates from me when i walk through the door... i wish my family wasnt how it is how they are they all hate eachother and nothing seems to stir me anymore im bored and dissapointed with my head ~things are getting desperate when all the boys cant be men...everybody knows i have friends...... if u want inside her world..boy u better make her rasSSberry swirl~ my head is constantly spinning and twisting with nauseation.. i am content and overjoyed and always wanting the entire world whiskey sour bitter on my tongue and pinching the insides of my cheeks..by the bone erotica in my glass romance on my plate thick flesh holding me out stuffy air holding me down at this moment i still want the world jasmine and lavender in my nose lilac in my lungs but i just bite my lip without drawing blood until i realise what im doing and then i wish i wouldve bit harder. Current Mood: idonthaveanywords Current Music: tori-honey..my new favorite (WORSHIP ME)
Friday, August 6th, 2004
9:15 am	meatloaf beat loaf. FUNNY-CUTE STUFF about almost married..living together life wednesday i had to work 11-7 and brian had the day off he brought me a smoothie and then picked me up when i came home the whole house was cleaned....(once u live together u realise how happy that can make u) then i was kinda upset cuz he dried 4 of my shirts that need to be hung..he feels all bad..i walk into the kitchen to get some excedrin and see a vase filled with purple flowers...a zales box and our fleetwood mac tickets....and im immediately happy and he still feels bad about my shirts and offers to take me shopping..which i dont even care about...cuz my fiance is just cute and thoughtful...cuz inside the zales box was a white gold chain for my other ring i like to wear round my neck since the other chain broke...then we decide to make meat loaf and mashed potatoes...and we never made meat loaf and it somehow came out soggy...but it was cute....its like 2 years ago he was worried about gathering 4 bucks for a pack of smokes and now he was dissapointed cuz his meatloaf didnt turn out right... now he's at work and i miss him sooooo much!!! yesterday was gretchens birthday and i bought her a cute outfit..and we hung out after she got off work..on my days off ive been hanging out with her for a few hours... i cant wait for fall and apple orchards i cant wait for christmas and tree trimming i cant wait for spring and wedding planning i cant wait for the rest of my life with brian and having all the same friends cuz i watched the last dawsons episode and cried through the whole thing... Current Mood: missing brian Current Music: saved by the bell in the background (4 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
6:21 am	potato pile on brian on ghosts: ive been taking pictures at this cemetery and i got some stuff in them which is cool..a few orbs and then some other foggy stuff...which i dont know yet what it is..brian and i spent like 70 bucks on a tape recorder to see whats up...im such a loser..i want all the equipment that pro paranormal investigators have. on being a manager so far:::im glad i dont close because blah i cant even stand it starting at 5 when the closers start to get there...its like the most stressful times of all times,..it seems like thats the times where i get all the complaints...i hate working with my sister cuz she's a fucking cunt at work... and i cant wait till like a year from now when i get my day off.i wish all my shifts were with kim or crystal... on being fat::::im trying to eat good...but does anyone besides me realise that healthy food doesnt even taste nearly as good as real food.. on hair and friends:::gretchen and kelley are coming over tonight and mandas gonna do our hairsss....im excited..i need a fancy scalp treatment and maybe a trim.. on love::::its good on family::: its like everyone in my family has trouble having any sort of a relationship with sarah and yet she thinks everyone else is the problem...i dont ever feel like im the little sister with her..cuz she seriously needs to grow up and stop making excuses for evvvvvvvverything in her life..its so fucking annoying... on internet::::i forget this exists until i come in my room if i jumped onh brian while he was sleeping..i wonder what he would do.. (8 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
11:40 am	i just got aim back giawitch2 heh im so lame so either message me or leave ur screen name cuz i dont remember anyyyyones (2 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Tuesday, July 20th, 2004
1:01 pm	GOOD NEWS went to get brian set up at macomb and i wanted to see what other classes i have to take and make sure theyre transferable....and i never new my grades from last semester..i knew they were good so i didnt worry exactly about what i got and my counselor informed me i have a 4.0 so yeahhhhhhh...4 classes too...so im very pleased with myself...specially after that psych class with drissman i have my tuition money...brian took me to lunch at bravos and now i have a terrible tummy ache....but were gonna finish out lord of the rings cuz we bought the trilogy yesterday.... so im very happy..brians going to college...im going to college and now i feel like were both getting somewhere in life...cuz cost of living is only going up and i dont wanna be poor and dumb. now for the bad thing brian and i were making a left hand turn..some bitch in a jaguar ran a red light and came soooo close to hitting us....she swerved at the last second as if she JUST realised there was a car in front of her....it woulda been my side of the car and i woulda been dead of paralyzed......very scary...brian was so mad at her..so was i..so he just held me for awhile when we got home cuz i was kinda in shock..it was like sooooo clooose. oh and im going to see chris issac with manda friday fer fun...yay p.s.i have a very bad bunny! (2 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
12:03 pm	Cant talk to a psycho like a normal human being so im just starting to get over this head cold, but it still sucks i keep getting dehydrated and my chest starts to hurt and then my head has these like nautious dizzy spells and i have to lay down..i have trouble with standing and car rides me and jackie had bmt all week...it was long and that made it kinda lame and riding in traffic sucks when i dont feel good, but jackie drove so that was good...but i think i got the highest grade in the class on my test, i was voted manager of the class the one day, and my team one two days in a row...no matter what i do..even if its bk i like to win and be like on the top...im a dork but now my dad wants me to try to get some free money even though i already have my money..and brian has to look into what he can get and we still have to register but whatever... then i went to look at my mail cuz i never even checked to see what my grades were in college and i still have no idea what i go, but i received a letter saying that i did make the deans list which is cool... and now my next two challenges...i made a list of shit i have to do so ill have like no summer and no time cuz im buying a ballys membership cuz everytime i see jackie i remember when i use to have to worry about my pants falling off me.... and brian and i are cleaning out the gun room and his room...buying a new bed and picking out a comforter,repainting the kitchen lots of new stuff so im gonna be busy because ive been soooo lazy..just sitting around getting fat and crying and whining about it like a little bitch kelley i want to make sure we have one more get together with like everyone before u go back to that damn college.. maybe we can get together with manda and do pedicures and hair and shit too....my schedule is allllllll over the fucking place, but we'll figure something out.. p.s. funny story for everyone but me i meet gretch for lunch at 12:15 at nautical deli....we leave bout 12:45..i knew brian would break bout 1 so i wanted to get home to bring him some snacks for his lunch and watch my soap....but i was parked in the worse parking space...gretchen says "u shouldnt of parked there./.i can barely get out of there"..i think whatever...so she leaves and i seriously couldnt get out cuz i drive the longest fucking car in the world...and i had an expensive car close behind me and two very close on the sides of me and everytime i tried to reverse and put my car in drive it would stall out and a car would pull up behind me waiting for my parking space..so id have to hurry up and pull back in and so i had to wait for one of the assholes who were parked next to me to leave just so i could get home..and i waited a half hour and got home just in time to kiss brian goodbye cuz his break was over.......i cant fucking wait to get a new car... (1 praise | WORSHIP ME)
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
8:42 am	so brian and i both have really bad head colds my weekend off was ruined by us being sick but it wasnt too bad cuz brian took me to see king arthur cuz i love them movies...fantasy movies are my favorite i love sword fights..and i love pagan romance and beauty heh anyways he also took me to dinner then we were gonna go to dodge park but i said no cuz i could barely stand for 2 minutes without getting dizzy now im watching sextuplets and quintuplets on tv p.s. brian and i bought two baby leapord geckos actually we paid for 1 and phil gave us the other for free since he works at the road show theyre reallllll cute theyre all different colors i love aminals (1 praise | WORSHIP ME)
Monday, July 5th, 2004
11:44 am	im really dizzy and trying to think of the next step to excitement i think i would like to wear my babydoll dress and go to canada this weekend and i want to go to a bar and makeout...but with brian and tonight i want to eat strawberries and watch disney movies or something like that im constantly feeling overheated...i hate that feeling.... metabolife does a number to my head i feel like babysitting a baby and i wish i had my dog here with me im so selfish in my head i totalllllly am i thjink im gonna go rebuy poe today damn (WORSHIP ME)
Monday, June 28th, 2004
2:59 pm	rellllleaaasse meee this weekend was pretty good saturday brian and i had our engagement party with our friends...it was a little bbq and it lasted till bout 2 or so...everyone we invited showed up and we had a really awesome time...i get so proud of my cooking tonight brians grillin up some steaks and im making mashed potatoes..corn on the cob,and rolls....and i got some pink stuFF left over...heh i have to close the next two nights at royal oak so i can get some practice in...blah but im working with gail and then i have to work like 9 full shifts with star so its cool...i like my boss's..theyre nicer than most people think i wanna go see that new loverrrr movie thats comin out..it looks good... the weather lately has been beautifulllll i laid outside on a sheet and wrote some and then read some and ate maraschino cherries and sipped on a cokeee and it was just marvelous i just want my sweetie to come home... (2 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Sunday, June 27th, 2004
8:05 am	stomach turning i want to float on water just for a little while i want to watch american beauty today i want to walk on glass today and forget everything else that i want i need more prozac i need my head to stop sometimes i want to cut songs down to certain lyrics and make that the whole song and i would never get sick of hearing those certain things over and over i feel crazy right now (WORSHIP ME)
Saturday, June 26th, 2004
7:26 am	happy birthday dear panda i had a terrible dream about brian and i...like he didnt want to be with me and then he did and then i tried to play it off like i didnt wanna be with him..but alls i wanted was to be with him....heh.....i love him so much...he's the best thing that ever happened to me yesterday was my pandas birthday....and she's another person i love soooooo much...we've been best friends since we were like 2.and i just want her to be happy, cuz she's sooo fucking beautiful and she has the biggest heart of anyone i know and she just has one of the best personalities...she's never fake or anything..never lies....and always makes stuff for me..manda i love you sooo much and despite some shitty occurances i hope you had a great birthday and realized how many people love you and wanted to celebrate your wonderful birth...and i hope you realize that means you deserve the world todays the engagement get together...im excited...its funny but i just wanna keep announcing to everyone how much i love my little sweetie. (1 praise | WORSHIP ME)
Monday, June 21st, 2004
1:19 pm	last week..manda and i went to royal oak and got shakes at the cutest cafe with this hot server...and then we went to incognito and bought really fun jewelry,got interviewed by fox 2,got some whities,went back to mine and brians house and she gave me a manicure and it was a reallly cute day....we always do the cutest little girl things.Saturday gretch and i took my dad to dinner at the Tin Fish and i had sushi for the first time, but i didnt like it...then we went out for ice cream and it was one of the better times with my dad in a long time...all the conversation was pleasant.me and brian bought him some cute daddy's day gifts too... sunday brian and i picked up his dads ashes and then visited brians dads old farm he use to live on and we walked around the property he hunted on and everything...its beaaaaauuuutiful land i love pretzels with jalepeno cheese. (2 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Sunday, June 20th, 2004
8:38 am	FIRST First best friend: MANDA PANDA MARIE TODD.....hahaha..and she still is First car: a woody station wagon and i love it First date: chris helton...jungle to jungle in 5 or 6th grade..hahaha First real kiss: lindsay ann First break-up: chris helton First screen name:giawitch First self purchased album:i bought the aladin soundtrack onm cassette tape..but then my first cd was bush First funeral: my neighbor.mrs.jj First pets: spook and i had some newts First piercing/tattoo: ears when i was like 4...and then my infinity tattoo on my back First credit card: um i guess kindergraden and i got all sssss First true love: brian First enemy: i dunno... First musician you remember hearing in your house: the drifters or something LAST Last cigarette: once in canada i had a clove with manda and michael Last car ride: last night on the way hom from the ice cream parlor with my dad and brian Last kiss: my little sweetikins Last good cry: probabl talking to manda on the phone last sunday Last library book checked out: hahaha something i never returned....shiiiiit Last movie seen: ummm 50 first dates Last beverage drank: propell..tropical citress Last food consumed: oatmeal Last crush: right before brian...it was mister norrus at my 19th b-day Last phone call: um brian yesterday when i took my dad out to dinner..brians a funny bunny. Last time showered: yesterday Last shoes worn: these dress sandals Last cd played: sarah mclaughlin Last item bought: propell water Last annoyance: i lost my book Last disappointment: being hungry Last time wanting to die: when my dad yelled at me...he's real mean Last time scolded:gretchen cuz i made her drive me back n forth cuz im absent minded Last shirt worn: purple of course Last website visited: this one and detroit restaurants Last word you said:dont worry sweetie i found my book Last song you sang: linkin park..lying from u..cuz im a dork What is in your cd player?: i think brian has opeth in there What color socks are you wearing?: im bare footed What Color of underwear are you wearing?: blue with green trim What's under your bed?: books n shit..all brians What time did you wake up today?: 10..i tired sooo hard to sleep FUTURE Where do you want to go? ireland,europe What is your career going to be?: psychologist Where are you going to live?: i dunno..with brian for now How many kids do you want?: 2-4 What kind of car(s): i tell brian that i would look good in a jaguar..heh..silver or black CURRENT Current mood: um indifferent Current music: linkin fucking park./.cuz im a LOSER Current taste: oat meal Current hair: knotted Current clothes: underwear and a short silky blue robe..i suddenly sound sexy but im not..hahaha Current annoyance(s): pins n needles in my foot Current longing: for brian to wake up and to eat to be thin Current desktop picture: a desert or some shit Current favorite artist: always tori..but i just bought sarah, and portishead Current book(s): diary of a schizophrenic girl Current color of toenails: unpainted Current hate: my weight and this zit on my chin My name is: andrea susan kornack//but soon to be smalenberg I may seem:bitchy and straight forward But I('m) really:self righteous and natural Sometimes I feel: gross In the morning I: want to cuddle up with brian I like to sleep: when i tired..but wake up early If I could be doing anything right now I would be: jumping on brian waking him up Money is: in my wallet and soon to disappear One thing I wish I had is: my before body and a dog One thing I have that I wish I didn't is: this zit All I need is: brian,pets,friends, and some family If I had one wish it would be: for me n brian to be together forever and die at the same time. Love is: everything i live for If an angel flew into my window at night I would: think i was dying0 If a demon crashed into my window I would: start chanting If I could see one person right now it would be: i dunno..id have a morning party and see everyone Something I want but I don't really need is: money Something I need but I don't really want is: money It makes me angry when: girls think its cute to act dumb,when people display their ignorance proudly (2 praises | WORSHIP ME)
Sunday, June 13th, 2004
12:31 pm	its been 2 months since brians dad died and i think sometimes it just starts to hit him and not a day goes by that that image isnt in my head and u have noooo idea i am the only person in the world he can truly rely on to be there for him im engaged now..its not a joke..i dont care if im young or if ive been with him less time than other people have been with their boyfriends...it doesnt mean i love him any less...in fact since we live together i think we've had more experience by now... me-ive grown just as dependant...he saves me from everything that i would constantly be under otherwise friends?im never rude purposly to my friends and i would never ever say anything bad behind their backs..NEVER....i hate feeling like im understanding to them and their positions...how many times have i pissed my mom off and had get togethers just to see all my friends and have a good time..its only been two months and me and brian are just starting to have people over once in awhile...were just STARTING to get use to life again.. and for them to just assume im seriously being a bitch hurts my feelings...i always brag about how much i love my friends....i just hope we dont end up like everyone else.... (6 praises | WORSHIP ME)