Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
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2:23 pm - 1 more thing to give me nightmares
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This is the second time Jay has called me from work to tell me about someone who shares a story about a baby they know or a baby in their family who is being raped by a father or mothers boyfriend and given std's as a result. I wish he wouldn't tell me about it. It's hard to believe there are men who are that sick. Those poor babies. I seriously believe that anyone who does this should be put to death right away. No prison, just immediate death. Who wants scum like that walking around... gah
current mood: sad/angry
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7:05 am
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I feel like I'm about 15 seconds away from calling over the landlord, grabbing him by his long yellow scraggly beard and smashing in his hideous redneck face. It seems every fucking week the damn hot water heater stops working. My Dad has fixed it for us I think 3 times now. Now I go to wash off a spoon and guess what! Once again no friggen hot water. I'm really sick of this stupid house. Yesterday I spent the day throwing a phone book at spiders. I'm glad they are going to bulldoze the house because it's not fit for anyone to live in. I think every landlord in Richmond is a slumlord. My first one would walk in my bedroom while I was sleeping, my second one tried to say I had been living there after I moved and tried to sue me for months I wasn't even there, my third would not fix anything even though the bathroom wall was about to collapse, didn't even fix the heat until after 1 year, and now this guy. I want to move right now but my Mom's house won't be done for about 8 weeks or so. I can't wait to be in her old house. I know for a fact my stepdad will fix ANYTHING before it even needs it. Can't wait.
Of course if I did call the landlord all he would say is "Have you cut the grass? Have you cut the grass?" It's winter you moron.
current mood: enraged
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Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
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6:19 pm
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Sisters of Mercy was played on Passions today. WHAT?!? That is what I call bizarre. I never thought I'd hear them on my soaps.
current mood: shocked
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Sunday, February 27th, 2005
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3:43 pm
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Does anyone really think it's sexy when someone posts webcam pics of themselves sucking lollipops? You know what would be really hot? A loaded gun! Don't forget to pull the trigger!
current mood: annoyed
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Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
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1:00 pm - mmmmm finger so tasty
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I lovey lovey love my little man!
current mood: loved
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Friday, February 11th, 2005
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11:06 pm - pink peep poop
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Today Jay bought me a $3 peep making machine. Here is what it's supposed to look like...

Here is my ( Peep adventure )
current mood: cold current music: Lights of Euphoria- The Night (Futurezone Club Mix)
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Thursday, February 10th, 2005
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11:38 pm
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I hate how they put Jay on the night shift again. Every damn noise I hear makes my eyes peel open. Why do I have to be so paranoid... rawr!!! I just want to sleep.
current mood: nervous current music: Black Tape for a Blue Girl- Knock Three Times
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12:20 pm
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I got a new tattoo yesterday. On my arm now sits one of Giger's Birthmachine baby bullets. It's so cute and the guy that now does my work did an amazing job. When it's not all slimey from ointment I'll share a picture. I've always been scared to get Giger's work because after searching around and looking at other peoples it never looks good enough. This guy is a great artist. I got to sit there for a few hours staring at a Samhain poster. A little known secret I have is I was obsessed with every thing Glenn Danzig when I was 11 up until about 16. So I sat there feeling embarrassed. He played some new Danzig which I was so glad to hear after what I think he said was Cradle of Filth or something. Ouch. I have to admit I thought it sounded absolutely hilarious. Don't know how people take that music serious. At least it wasn't rap! But the guitars... oh god and the voice! YIKES! Sound like angry satanic gnomes. So funny. Didn't really bother me though cause it was a good experience plus he's a nice guy and we share the same beliefs.
current mood: accomplished current music: none- napping baby
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Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
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11:34 pm - grrr growl hiss rawr snarl!
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I hate Walmart. It really takes me an entire day to feel normal again after shopping there. You gotta love the cashiers. Not one has ever told me how much I owe. They just stand their sucking their teeth and rolling their eyes. Don't say hello or anything. I was looking at the coffee filters and what was on the shelf? Someone left their hair on the shelf... How nasty is that? I hate the ghetto trash here. I did run into my old boss's wife so that was cool. I really need to visit more. I don't know if there will be anywhere to get coffee where I'm going. I'm still trying to get used to this idea. I swore I'd never live anywhere near Prince George again. Please please don't let me run into anyone I knew in highschool!! I can't get DSL or Broadband!!! We have to get dial-up. So sad! After today though, I'm damn ready to live deep in the woods away from people. As long as I can order music I'll be okay. I just got some new cd's. I have only bought 1 in about a year so it's great to have some new music! I'm so behind. From what I've heard the last few times I went to a club I'm not missing much but a bunch of shit. Come on, I went to dance to Joy Division and when the lyrics started, it wasn't Joy Division but some chick singing "Get your groove on" to the music of Love Will Tear Us Apart. Didn't even have the basics like 242... just lots of white zombie, rammstein type shit... lame. I got the newest Die Form, Lights of Euphoria, Hocico, Peter Murphy and an old Nitzer Ebb I didn't have. I'm thinking of ordering the newest Black Tape for a Blue Girl, but I haven't made up my mind. I'm itching to get a new tattoo. I just don't have any time to design what I want. I think I'll go play the Urbs. I'm so tired but I can't sleep =(
current mood: zombified current music: Die Form- Amnestic Disorder
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Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
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5:13 pm
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Today I got a "prayer rug" in the mail. It's a piece of paper with the face of Jesus and it says to stare at it, then kneel on it and prey. Then I'm supposed to send it back and write on the back what I want this church to prey for for me. It's tempting to write in some really nasty stuff and send it back. My favorite testimonial is "The Lord has healed my throat..."
I think I'm getting tired of livejournal. I'm not seeing the point anymore. Just a relief from boredom for a few mins. Kinda starting to get on my nerves. Then again I'll be moving in a few months. I'll be living in the woods so I might have a renewed interest in it. We are moving onto my Mom's property so we can save money. Her house will be finished in a few months and then we will move into the one they have been staying in. I'm looking forward to it. Never thought I'd say that! It will be good for us though. Rent takes all our money so it's impossible to save. I hate the people there, but that would be anywhere. At least my brother will be my neighbor! I can't wait to have heat!!! We are so cold. The landlord here sold the house we live in and it's going to be knocked down for apartments. Jerk. I'm just glad things will be okay. And Derrik will have a giant yard with goats, my cats and a dog. Plus we will have our own pumpkin patch, garden and herb garden too. Not to mention something I've been dreaming about since I first moved out on my own... a dishwasher!!!! I will like it. Feeling safe and living in a house that is safer. This one has so many hazards that force me to keep Derrik confined to the livingroom or his room. I will just have to remember not to watch unsolved mystery type shows by myself because when I do live in isolation my imagination gets kinda weird. I'll live near my Dad too. I enjoy the country. I just have to visit Richmond a lot so I don't think the world is full of rednecks. Luckily 295 will keep Jay's job the same distance as it is from us now so I can stop on my way home for coffee or to take Baby D. to the park. I just feel bad for all the critters who are going to loose their home when they level this area. I live in a large yard next to a large patch of woods. Lots of cats live in the barn and tons of bunnies in the woods. I hope they find somewhere to go.
Yeah I'm getting tired of livejournal, this is as entertaining as I get.
current mood: good current music: Nitzer Ebb- Warsaw Ghetto
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Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
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4:48 pm - so very very very bored
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I can't believe this weather. I would like it to stay like this all winter. It's hard to believe I'm sitting here in a house with no heat in a t-shirt with the windows open in January. I only wish I had enough gas money to allow me and Derrik to go out and enjoy it. Plus I'm sick and tired of the construction across the street. It's hard to get Derrik to take a nap with so much noise. At least today they are not playing the mexican music... arg I hate that.
I was right about Pee-wee's Playhouse. Derrik loves it! We got both box sets over x-mas so it took a while but we watched each and every episode and we were in Paul Reubens heaven. It's kinda weird remembering the shows, it's like being reunited with an old friend.
My Grandmother who always buys me dolls I don't want did it again. She gave me a giant barbie head. I don't know what the hell to do with it. I feel so guilty for hating it. I'm an adult, what do I need a barbie swan lake styling head for? It's getting harder to hide my confusion. I know I had the most horrid fake smile when I opened it. At least it wasn't another one of those skanky Brats dolls. I feel so bad but then I look at it and think WHY!?! So, yeah, if anyone knows any little girls that would like it, please let me know.
current mood: bored current music: Front Line Assembly- Solitude of Confinement
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Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
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5:03 pm
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My super sweet bestest best friend gave me a gift card to Sephora, so I went and was shocked and disgusted that there were what had to be 7 or 8 year old girls wearing more makeup than I wear. Who the hell thinks it's okay to let their little girls walk around looking like miniature tramps? I expect to see their pictures on the news sometime soon. "Gee, I just don't understand why anyone would kidnap my little angel." I'm sure it's okay in their mind as I'm almost positive the kids already had cell phones so they can just call if some pervert takes them. It's obvious these people have money but they don't have any damn brains.
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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
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8:21 pm
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Saturday, December 18th, 2004
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12:33 am - damn you ebay
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I really have no self control sometimes. On the bright side I did just win a reproduction of a German WW2 M43 black wool cap for only $15. It even has some insignia. I don't expect anyone to be impressed or even happy for me. I'm excited and glad it was my size. I've been having a lot of bad hair days lately since our hot water heater is acting up. I wish I could afford to get Jay an entire SS officer uniform. He would look more than sexy to me. Ah well, in my dreams I guess.
current mood: cold
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Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
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5:14 pm
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I like making really whiny "I hate my life" posts and then deleting them. It's a lot like writing a letter and burning it. Just without the smoke and stinky smell.
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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8:37 pm
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I asked Jay to get me a Pepsi Edge and he brought me a Holiday Spice Pepsi.
GAG!!!! Who ever knew it was possible to sell vomit in a 20oz plastic bottle?
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7:50 pm - typing to warm my fingers...
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I'm getting sick of chasing possums off my porch. I really hate those things. Nasty.
We found out Derriks Great Great Grandfather was an SS officer. When he is old enough to hear his family history he will surely have some amazing tales from both sides. It's important to know who you are I think. There is so much emphasis on other cultures here that I want to make sure he learns his own and is proud. I want to learn more myself. I'm truly fascinated. I still have tons to learn about my own background. My Grandad promises to sit down sometime and share more with me. The farthest back I know of is traced to King Charlemagne. I really want to hear more about that. I'm amazed at how many people don't know who that is. Derrik will know at least. I wonder if he will pull the same line I did with my parents when I was small. "How dare you speak to royal blood like this!" Mom- "Yeah, you're royal all right, a royal pain in the butt." hehe. I hope he does, it would be cute.
current mood: cold
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Thursday, December 9th, 2004
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7:40 pm
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I'd really like for one day to go by where something doesn't piss me off. I'm really really trying! I feel like someone stamped "sucker" on my forehead.
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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6:53 pm
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I lost my drivers license. The beautiful thing about renewing it online is that when the new one expires when I'm 30, it will still have a picture of me at 19 yrs old because they don't take a new picture. I wonder how long they let you continue to renew a license before forcing you to update the picture. Not that anyone would notice. A man came to the door last month and asked if my parents were home. I used to get irritated, but now I'm like "tee hee thanks!"
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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8:03 pm - baby of stompy doom
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Think noise isn't music? Tell that to Derrik who is now dancing to Converter. My son rocks! He makes me so proud ♥ He's just so little and to watch him rockin out to my music is so cute. I have a mirror in my car that is much like a rear view mirror that is tilted so I can see him. I noticed him dancing in the car seat today to funker vogt. I really wanted to pull over and squeeze him!
current mood: silly current music: Converter- Error
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