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| Sunday, February 20th, 2005 |
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I miss you guys so much and I think Janie's post inspired me to tell you what I've been doing. First of all, I'M GOING TO HALLE!!! and I am soooo excited! I'll be there for 2 and 1/2 weeks and it is totally going to rock. I'm a really bad person, and have acted somewhat depressed because I didn't get what I wanted, and I'm sorry, I'll try to stop. I just can't stop thinking about how unfair it is that everyone else got what they wanted, and I know a million people going where I wanted to go, but they sent me to my third choice, and I don't know a single person going with me. I just need to remember that it's still going to rock, and I probably have a lot more interest in Martin Luther than the other people they would force to go there. And plus, I should be happy, because I'm giving other people the chance to go to really good programs, and I won't take up a spot and make someone get something they didn't want. So whoever you are who's going to Leipzig for me, bitte schön. Und viel spaß! Yeah, I'm leaving on Friday, and I have soooooooo much to do before then, and I absolutley cannot wait until the last minute, because there is no last minute. After a certain point this week, I just won't be able to do the things I need to do anymore. Oh please please please, Laurie, just do it tomorrow!!! I've been feeling really good about my German lately. It feels like I hit some point, where suddenly I speak really fast, and it really helps, because I can understand people soooo much better now. When someone talks who's not trying to speak slowly for me (like my parents and friends, despite how I tell them to speak faster), I'm starting to understand something where I can say, wow, I understand every word he said in that sentence, but I shouldn't have. Like today my hbrother asked me if I would care to play cards with them, and I totally surprised myself because I heard a word that was really fast and more like a vowel than a word. This whole language-speaking thing is so amazing, but let's not go into that, I only have 4 hours left today. I can't really say the same for my English. It sucks. I wish my English teacher would stop asking me questions. I DON'T KNOW, STOP ASKING! Plus, it really makes me nervous about learning other languages from non-native-speakers. But then looking at myself, I don't think I would be a good English teacher right now, either, so just think about those people who have lived in America for 20 years or something. They may suck at their native language, too. I really miss all my friends at home, but I don't think I'll ever be able to leave here. When I go home, I know that then I'll just miss everyone here, too. I'm NEVER going to be miss-free again. And, okay. I was wrong about something. Very wrong. I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry. I was stupid. They're great. Wonderful. I take back everything I ever said about the whole thing. I was wrong. Please don't throw sticks at me. TARA!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!! PLEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAASE DON'T GO! I don't think you know how much we love you, but in Saarland we've been talking about you for the last week and about how sad we are that you'll be leaving soon. Don't go. Ditch AFS, come live with us. If you are already gone, *tear* don't forget me. Someday I'll come to visit you, my bloody Aussie, with "the box" and everything. Then we can take Ping's bloody drunken test again, and drink until we fail. Even if that does end up working out like our planned trip to Wiesbaden in October, rememeber. Remember me, the irish pub, the band, and most importantly, the chocolate. Okay, maybe that's second to me. :D The new AFS students have arrived, and in Saarland we have one. But now I know someone from New Zealand!! WOOHOO, I get to add a country to my list! I was really surprised at first because she looks like she's 20, but I think she likes me, which is really awesome because I like it when I'm liked. :-) Okay, well I really can't tell you guys everything, because that may defeat the purpose of giving up lj in the first place, but I hope you enjoyed this anyway. Have a good week! |
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| Tuesday, February 8th, 2005 |
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Okay people. I'm off to go learn German. Wish me luck! Farewell and good night. |
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I have to go back to school tomorrow. Yuck. I was going to go ice skating today. I'm not. Lent has always been fun for me and that's why I do it, but I don't think it will be this year. I haven't practiced Theo in a really long time because we were seperated for the weekend. That's not good. School is going to be kind of good because I haven't seen my friends in 3 weeks. I miss them. Puh, maybe I'll go ice skating this weekend. I do have my reasons for what I'm doing this year, even if no one understands. I really do think (ah hem, hope) by easter it will have paid off. umm...I'm going to go practice. Happy fat tuesday! |
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I just hit my halfway point. I've been here for exactly half the time that I'm going to be here total. Isn't that weird? It's like, I'm going back so soon. Can it really have been 5 months? I kind of feel like a failure now because of everything that I just haven't done in the last 5 months. How could I have let time go by so fast without doing what I need to do? These next 5 months are going to be very different. Whether I like it or not, things are going to be different. First of all, I'm not going to be here half the time because I have so many trips and stuff planned. Well... it's not that I have a lot of trips planned, it's just that I have a couple of trips that are going to last for a really long time, so I'm not going to be here much. But at the same time, I really need to do more, like finding a viola teacher, an orchestra, a sport or a club or something, which I really really want to do. My host mom keeps saying that I don't have any time at all anymore, which I do not understand at all because I have way too much time! People aren't supposed to have free time, they're always supposed to be doing something and really busy without a second to spare. That's a lot more fun. Anyway, I'm still kind of like, whoa about this whole halfway point. I guess mainly that means that I will in fact go home some time. Before it was so far away, it seemed like it would never come and I would be here for my entire life...but now...now this whole "year" thing that they talk about doesn't seem as long as it used to. And now for a little mini-complaint. I'm on my host sister's computer right now, and my dad is sitting behind me on his, and he has a TON of advanced, computery stuff. He has like a million cameras and I'm scared that he's spying on me now, because I've seen a video of my mom outside when she didn't know she was being recorded. Wouldn't that freak you out? I, for one, don't like it. Anyhoo, that's not my complaint. Right now he's like testing a camera or something and he will not stop waving his hand really high in the air, just waving it back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. grrrr. |
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This was the coolest thing anyone has said to me since Berlitz (Sep/Oct), and I thought I just had to share it. Today around 9:00. (Translated for the non-german speakers (and because I'm lazy)) Tina was some random person I met in a bar tonight. Just so you know, I was actually with another exchange student from Hong Kong. This was after talking to tina for a couple of minutes Me: so what's your name? Tina: I'm tina. and you are...? Me: oh, I'm laurie Tina: doory? (she was really confused) me: yes (ok, it was really loud there, and I heard laurie....) Andrey, girl from Hong Kong: Lau rie. l-a-u-r-i-e, laurie. Tina: um... ok, so it's laurie? Me: exactly. Tina: what kind of name is that? me: what?! it's my name! what kind of name is tina! Tina: but...that's not a german name! me: noooo... I'm from america Tina: no way!! I thought you were from germany! And then later she said my german was really good and I was really happy. And she appologized for like an hour ("sorry. tout mir leid. sorry. tout mir leid.") for asking what kind of a name laurie was. I thought it was pretty funny, actually. This weekend was amazing. And long. Oh gosh, I thought it would never end. I guess that was because today counted as a part of the weekend, too. And thursday and friday. But I don't feel very good. I'm a hypocrit. I hate it. Everything I say I'm going to do I don't, and everything I say I am not going to do, I do. I just need to stop thinking. and saying stuff. No more thinking or talking for laurie. Well anyway, I hope everyone else had a good weekend in their own part of the world, where ever that may be. And whether the sun is setting, rising, or no where to be seen, have a happy Tuesday. Go try something new today. Who knows, it may be better than you expected. |
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| Saturday, February 5th, 2005 |
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I finally decided on what I'm going to give up for lent. Sorry. |
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| Friday, February 4th, 2005 |
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I really hate the name for the german spongebob squarepants, which is "spongebob schwammkopf". It's in both english and german, and it just repeats sponge in 2 different languages, which is so stupid, why can't they just leave it at spongebob squarepants? Then I started thinking.... wait, that doesn't work either. square - a plane rectangle with four equal sides and four right angles; a four-sided regular polygon We have all seen spongebob from the front, back, right, and left, and we very well know, his pants are, in fact, not square. SpongeBob SpongeHead? Maybe the germans had it right all along... |
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| Thursday, February 3rd, 2005 |
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random person: so what kind of job were you thinking about doing after college? me: ummm... one that applies to my major? rp: oh, what are you going to major in? me: I don't know rp: well, any ideas of where you'd like to go for college? me: hey, this is in a long time, I haven't really thought too much about this stuff. rp: a long time? aren't you going to graduate next year? me: umm, maybe... maybe in 2 years... rp: wait, are you a junior or a sophomore? me: I... I don't... really know. I wish I was one of those people who knew all of the answers. |
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| Tuesday, February 1st, 2005 |
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When I was walking home today, just 30 minutes ago, someone pulled over and rolled down her window right next to me. Well, first I thought it was someone I knew who was going to give me a ride, because who else would stop in the middle of a currently very crowded intersection? It turned out it was some lost woman, who was apparentally, very desperate. I felt really bad for her, but at the same time I was really really happy because I understood everything she said and I answered really quickly so there weren't tons of cars just waiting for us. It was cool.
Ok, time for Friends. Woohoo!!!! |
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| Monday, January 31st, 2005 |
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"Can understand the main points of clear standard input on familiar matters regularly encountered in work, school, leisure, etc. Can deal with most situations likely to arise whilst travelling in an area where the language is spoken. Can produce simple connected text on topics which are familiar or of personal interest. Can describe experiences and events, dreams, hopes & ambitions and briefly give reasons and explanations for opinions and plans." That's me.... "Can produce text on topics which are familiar or of personal interest." So true. I talk about the same things everyday. I've gotten really good at saying what I drempt about, or who's new clothes I like. |
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as I was eating today, I was just sitting there, minding my own business, when a bug came and landed on my plate. then he died. he just rolled over and died. :/ |
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| Thursday, January 27th, 2005 |
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I just did something that I've been putting off since the 5th of January!! Woohoo!! February? Word. I have never been so excited about January ending. What's funny is that I actually did this one thing I've been procrastinating about in the procrastination of something else that I really needed to do today, which I had a very short window of opportunity for, and chances are, I will not have that chance again for a while. But I did something that I've been putting off since the 5th of January, so no regrets. |
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I'm writing you to catch you up on places I've been You held this letter probably got excited, but there's nothing else inside it didn't have a camera by my side this time hopping I would see the world with both my eyes maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way with words Today skies are painted colors of a cowboy's cliche' And strange how clouds that look like mountains in the sky are next to mountains anyway Didn't have a camera by my side this time Hoping I would see the world with both my eyes Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way but let me say You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes it brought me back to life You'll be with me next time I go outside just no more 3x5's Guess you had to be there Guess you had to be with me Today I finally overcame tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way but let me say You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes it brought me back to life You'll be with me next time I go outside just no more 3x5's no more 3x5's |
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| Wednesday, January 26th, 2005 |
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AAARG! What's up people? Some cool stuff happened today. And then I realized that I've been lonely for the last 5 months for no particular reason. They were there the whole time. I am totally having the time of my life in my actual grade. It's amazing to always be with people younger than you, and then suddenly EVERYONE is actually your age, and it's just so awesome!!! I had english today. It drove me absolutley crazy. The teacher made us sit in a circle, so everyone could hear me. It was like an ask laurie question session. Sooo stupid. I hated it, because no one really cared or had any questions for me. They were just like, whatever, and I was like, wtf? And the teacher was like, go ahead Laurie, talk. *sigh* I miss my real english teacher. So she asked me what the differences are between German class here and English at home, and I made one little, tiny, itsy-bitsy, unimportant comment about having to memorize stuff, which I KNOW is true because I've been here for five months!!! So then she told me I was wrong (but was nicer about it, taking like 10 minutes), and she started asking people to explain to me what they do in German class here, and I said, 'no, I mean my class' and then she proceeded to tell me I was wrong, and talked about what the other class is doing right now, and I said, no! I mean my class, not this one! And then she said everything again, and it's like, hey lady, I understood you the first 2 times!!! And by the way, you're wrong. She had NO clue what I was talking about, and she would not shut up about it! grrr. Also, today I met someone. Someone...cool. Last night was awesome. I realized 2 really huge, big things that are totally going to change a lot. Ok, well one just has to do with my hair, so that may not be a life-changing event, but I think the other will be. But I have to talk to someone first before I do anything stupid. Well... I should talk to Akiko, too, so 2 people. Sorry I'm so vague. I hope someone knows what I've been talking about this entire time, but I doubt it. well... you can't please everyone. I'm gonna go watch Shrek 2 in English now because some idiot in America decided not to add German subtitles. |
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| Monday, January 24th, 2005 |
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( as stated above ) And the moral of this story is: don't be boring, or else someday someone will call you "Mr. Boringman." |
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| Sunday, January 23rd, 2005 |
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jklöfsdaeiofwuitewadf dfajk laf vvad jkdas v I am soooo mad.... can't complete sentances.... want to kill.... not really, but almost. I don't understand. They don't make sense!! I have no idea what I can do, I just don't understand my host family. My sister is really annoying, because she just doesn't care about anything. All she wants to do is sit at home and watch tv all day long. Besides that and being on the computer, I really don't think she does anything else. Wait, she did play a game with us once, but that was just because her mom made her (and she quit shortly after starting). AFS is going to Berlin this May, and host siblings are invited. See... I would have loved to do this in America. I always wanted to go with Akiko to her AFS weekends, and it was really annoying how I never got to. It seemed like they had so much fun, who would want to pass that up? It's true, too. Last February there was an AFS weekend in Boone, so I did get to go to everything, and I thought it was awesome! So I hope you'll understand when I say, Kristina's enthusiasm (or lack thereof) for going to Berlin, really surprises me. She would not give an answer about whether she wanted to go or not for a really long time, and then finally she just said no. Okay, well she must be busy... wait, no, that's not it. Then I guess she doesn't want to pay for it... wait, no, her parents were going to do that. Well then she's probably been to Berlin too many times... wait, wait, she's never been. Oh, I know why she's not going! Maybe it's because then she may have to actually talk to me, and that would be like doing something together, and *gasp* we could never do that! grrrrr... And everything is so frustrating, because my family speaks with the most dialect in the entire world, and I just don't understand their dialect, and when I do I don't want to, because then I'm not going to speak german well! When everyone else speaks to me, they speak something called..... what was it.... oh, GERMAN, but with my parents, it's like I came just to learn Saarlandisch, and after this year, instead of being able to talk to anyone in a German speaking country, nooooooooo, I'll be able to talk to people in or around the area of Saarland. Isn't it just wonderful how that's the smallest place in germany.... grrrrrrrrrr fjsdfakmlfsdmfsd And then, just to make matters worse, I'm totally pissed off at myself for not practicing as much as I should, and not having a teacher, and not having an orchestra, and being lazy and stupid and fat, and a bad friend, but let's not go into that today. On the brighter side, I love my host brother. He's so sweet and nice. I think he's the one person in this house who wants to do something with me, but his parents won't let him. As Kristina was sitting there, complaining about how we're going to berlin, Lukas was like, "I'll go, I'll go, I'll go, take me." The people who can do these things don't want to, but the one person who can't would love to. Life isn't fair. |
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| Friday, January 21st, 2005 |
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It's only taken me 5 months, but I FINALLY asked the orchestra people HOW I could join their orchestra. First I thought... well, I don't know what I thought. I didn't think it would be the easiest thing ever, but I didn't really expect to have any trouble getting in. Now... I'm terrified. I feel sooo out of my league, but the funny thing is, I have no reason to feel out of my league! I've never heard these people play before, and they may be exactly the orchestra I was expecting at first! But ahhh! what if they're amazing, and I'm all excited, and everyone's like, yeah, she'll be in this, but then suddenly they're like, no, you're just not good enough! AHHH!!! I would cry. Wow, I would cry for like the next week. I almost did that my freshman year of all-state! It was really funny. I really really really thought I was not going to get in, but then I was in HONORS (totally unexpected) and I was so shocked that I forgot to blink for like an hour, and then I was almost crying. Yeah, it was funny. But AHHHH I just have to be in this orchestra, but I'm so scared! What if they're all really really good? Or what if I wait and wait and wait for the next chance to audition, but then I go and they're all amazing, and they're like, "hey, who's that sucky american?" Or what if I finally have a chance to play again, but it's been so long that I've stopped practicing, and they're like, "hey, who's that sucky american who doesn't practice?!" *sigh* I miss ASO so much. :'( Tonight I went ice skating, and I rock. Seriously, by the end of the night I got soooooo so so so much better. I would never have imagined that I would be going like... fast. So yeah, I just wanted to say that I really had an awesome time, so don't think that because I'm about to complain that I didn't. That's just wrong. So... someone did something tonight. A friend of mine did something tonight that she knows I hate and am not planning on doing. I really don't mind, i mean, she can do whatever she wants, I'm not stopping her..... but.... have you ever had that feeling.... See, we're really close. We don't see each other very often, but when we do, we're like 2 pieces of tape who's sticky sides were stuck together. (hehe, don't you just love the way I write?) And... tonight, she put a stupid, heavily accented american right between us. The way she was acting was totally unlike her, and she knew, she knew, I hated it. Now... I'm confused. In some of our later conversations of the night, it was weird. I didn't want to join in with her, but she... she just... didn't care. It felt like he came and peeled off my adhesive layer (back to the tape). That wasn't the only surprise of the night, either. I actually ended up getting kind of bitchy to him. I was really rude. I hope I put him in his place. He honestly thinks he's better than me, I swear. Aaaaannndddd.... I ended up spending a lot of time with a guy, who 1 month ago, I really really didn't like. I realized maybe he's not so bad. And the best part was when he was trying to help the others to learn how to ice skate, who previously thought he was discriminating against them and hated Asians. I hope they've changed their minds about him. I hope I have too. I kind of like where we are, though, because at first I thought he was really hot and i really liked him, but then I hated him, but then I thought maybe he's not so bad. This is good, because I'm past the thinking he's really hot stage, and now he may just be a friend. But now that I think about it, there's always someone. There's always one person who she spends every second with, and clings to like they've been best friends forever. I just wish it was still me. Maybe... somehow... it will all go back to normal. If only I knew how. |
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| Wednesday, January 19th, 2005 |
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( woohoo! ) I'm going ice skating on friday! Yay!! So I'm going to tell a story really quickly (ok, so you're probably only going to get it if you speak german, but whatever...). Today I saw Robert, the other exchange student on the train. He has taken German in school for several years before he came, but he has a terrible accent. I've never really heard it though, because I always speak to him in english. He thinks we speak so much german that it's like his treat of the week to see another american. Oh, and he tells me this every week, too. Anyway, today I finally got to hear his german. haha... well at least it's supposed to be german. All I heard was "alles klar" but wow, it was soooo funny. Think of the American way of saying the name Clare. Then put a heavy emphasis on the a and r, and then add a little more american accent. Alright, maybe you're just going to have to take my word. It was bad. |
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| Tuesday, January 18th, 2005 |
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| Is it normal for houses that have more than one computer to have everything on every computer? umm... Say you saved something on one computer and then could get to it from any other computer, too. Yeah, that. Is that normal? | ||||||
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grateful.
calm.
full.
bored.
drained.
hopeful.
ditzy.
okay.
thirsty.
ecstatic.
gloomy.
nerdy.