I have officially been back to a paying job for two weeks now. It has been a very difficult transition for me, one that I wish I didn't have to make, but unfortunately I do. Most the feelings I have around this event can be summed up in one word: GUILT.
I feel guilty about leaving my son, about the fact that he eats more breast milk than I can pump at work and eventually I will have to supplement his diet with formula.
I find myself holding BW so tight in the mornings and not wanting to put him down. Then my heart races as I leave work trying to fight the traffic to get home to my little one as soon as possible. Once I get home I don't want to put my baby down and then I feel guilty for not getting anything done around the house or taking care of myself physically. I feel guilty when I hear what my little man did during that day and I wasn't there to witness it.
HOW DO MOTHERS OUT THERE DO IT?
I know so many mothers whose husbands are in school and they stay home, how do you do it?
For those mothers out there working out of the home, how do you come to grips with leaving your young baby? Do these feelings of guilt ever stop? Does it ever get easier?
I love being a mother more than anything! It has been the most amazing experience of my life; I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful baby and supportive and amazing husband. I do feel lucky to have such a wonderful daycare situation worked out, where my good friend Eunice watches BW at my house 2 days a week, his daddy watches him 2 days a week and I get to work from home 1 day a week. I feel so blessed to have a workplace that is so supportive of me being a mother. I also feel lucky to have a job at this time when so many people are out there searching for work. I am grateful that I have skills to work, to support my family while my husband prepares to support us doing what he loves to do.
I don't want this post to be a "Debbie Downer" I just wanted to let ya'll know that this stage in life is hard for me. Even though it is hard, it is also wonderful and the most important thing is to count my many many blessings.
I feel guilty about leaving my son, about the fact that he eats more breast milk than I can pump at work and eventually I will have to supplement his diet with formula.
I find myself holding BW so tight in the mornings and not wanting to put him down. Then my heart races as I leave work trying to fight the traffic to get home to my little one as soon as possible. Once I get home I don't want to put my baby down and then I feel guilty for not getting anything done around the house or taking care of myself physically. I feel guilty when I hear what my little man did during that day and I wasn't there to witness it.
HOW DO MOTHERS OUT THERE DO IT?
I know so many mothers whose husbands are in school and they stay home, how do you do it?
For those mothers out there working out of the home, how do you come to grips with leaving your young baby? Do these feelings of guilt ever stop? Does it ever get easier?
I love being a mother more than anything! It has been the most amazing experience of my life; I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful baby and supportive and amazing husband. I do feel lucky to have such a wonderful daycare situation worked out, where my good friend Eunice watches BW at my house 2 days a week, his daddy watches him 2 days a week and I get to work from home 1 day a week. I feel so blessed to have a workplace that is so supportive of me being a mother. I also feel lucky to have a job at this time when so many people are out there searching for work. I am grateful that I have skills to work, to support my family while my husband prepares to support us doing what he loves to do.
I don't want this post to be a "Debbie Downer" I just wanted to let ya'll know that this stage in life is hard for me. Even though it is hard, it is also wonderful and the most important thing is to count my many many blessings.
My favorite thing to do with my little boys is to take a Sunday nap. Berke sleeps best when he is laying on his mommy, his naps go from 40 minutes to 2 hours. Like mother, like son, we love our Sunday naps.
Berkeley is getting so big, can you believe he is 3 months already? He gets so big and changes so much each day. It is fun to watch him discover his hands, smile and coo more and dress him up in all of his fun outfits.
My little hipster
Newsie, "get your papes!"Can you see why it is so hard to leave this guy?
Any advice on how to cope is welcome!
Berkeley is cooing and interacting more and more each day. We love his sweet smile that he gives away so often. He loves his swing and Baby Einstein Underwater Adventure play mat. He continues to sleep well at night and is a very happy and adorable baby.
William "Bill" Thiese 5/14/1921 ~ 2/22/2009 "Pop" Bill, loving father, grandfather, great-grandfather, brother and friend passed away peacefully surrounded by his loving family February 22, 2009. Bill was born May 14, 1921 in Butte, Montana to Hobart and Pricilla Carveth Thiese and moved to Salt Lake City as a young boy. He graduated from South High School where he enjoyed and participated in all sports. He especially enjoyed golf outings with family and friends. He married Dorothy Elaine Wallis on September 25, 1941. Bill worked in automobile and truck sales for many years. He is survived by daughters, Dianne (Mike) Taft, Jodie (Ken) Godfrey, Suzi (Rick) Smith, six grand children, nine great-grandchildren, two great-great-grandsons, brother Tink Thiese and five nephews. Preceded in death by parents, wife Dorothy and sister Mary Davis. The family wishes to extend their thanks to the staff at Canyon Creek Assisted Living for their thoughtful and loving care. A viewing will be held at Wasatch Lawn Mortuary Chapel, 3401 Highland Drive from 6 to 8 p.m. Thursday, February 26 and from 12 to 1 p.m. Friday, February 27 prior to graveside services. 
