New Shoes

I am stepping into new shoes!
And I am really quite enjoying them :)
My life is changing and it is funny that I am happy and sad at the same time!
I love being a MOM
I loved having my babies
I dreamed of being a Mom my whole life!
And I was so blessed to have 5 beautiful healthy pregnancy's and babies!
I cherished having my little ones, and it seemed at the time that it would never end.
But...
My baby is four now! Four whole years have passed since I have had a baby!
How did it happen so fast! It just seems like yesterday she was born
And now she is FOUR!
I have been kinda sad that stage of my life is over! But by the same token
I AM LOVING HAVING MY BABY BE FOUR!
No more diapers, feedings, sleepless nights, finding a babysitter, cant get anything done! tied down and trapped for the most part!
I feel in a way that I lost my self in the service of having and raising my babies!
And I am starting to really like finding myself again!
Don't get me wrong having big kids is not all peaches and roses!
I have 3 boys in soccer right now! It is B-U-S-Y!
And I love it!
I have been so happy the past few days!
I was really sick for over 2 weeks with what I think may have been pneumonia!
I was so out of it! I cant remember being that sick ever except when we went to Hawaii 3 years ago!
I am so thankful to be feeling better!
We have been sick around here for the last 2-3 months! I am ready for it to end!
Brexan has been the sickest and has missed a lot of school!
Also my neck is doing awesome! I finally feel like I am better!
It has almost been two years of chronic pain! I have suffered and lost a lot of my life from the injuries I got from our wreck!
I am so thankful to be feeling better!
I love living life pain free!
I can make my hair stuff and be on the computer as long as I need too!
Life is good!
So back to the shoes!
I am definitely in a happy place with my life!
I love having more freedom, more help and less work on my plate!
I truly think that mothers of small children have the hardest job on the planet!
But also have the job that is priceless! What a gift it is to give life!
What a sacrifice it is to bring a child into the world! And I did it 5 times!
I was figuring it out today and I was pregnant almost 4 years of my life and nursed for almost 3 years of my life so I sacrificed my body for almost 7 years! And believe me I have the body to prove it :)
But I would do it all again to have the family I have!
I love my family!
They are my everything and more!
I would not change anything about my life!
I love my husband more than anything! He is the best thing that ever happened to me!
He has taught me unconditional love! He still makes my heart skip a beat!
We just celebrated our 15 year Anniversary!
I was so so sick! It was also Ava's Birthday! I barely remember it! But we went to dinner to Samari 21 on Friday to celebrate!
Eric is the best! He is the easiest person to be married to! He never complains or tries to change me! He is my best friend and truly is my better half! I hope to someday be his equal! He has been such a blessing to me! I thank my heavenly father for him daily! Through our trials our marriage has been made stronger!
Good news! He was accepted into pharmacy school! To USN! Yeah!
I am so beyond proud of him!
We will be moving to Las Vegas in May or June!
I can't wait for our new adventure! I am so happy that he is such a great student!
I will end as I am making a goal to go to bed by 11pm!
I am thankful for my life! I am so thankful for the new shoes I am stepping into!
I feel that I am reacquainting my self with myself! If that makes any sense! It is a bitter sweet! but I am choosing to focus on the sweet! And sweet it is!
Life is good!