considering my life has been complete and utter chaos the last 6 months, i finally feel like it is settling down, and im getting used to my "new" life. i went to real estate school a few months back and now, i have a really great job working for a real estate firm in ahwatukee. i have started to have clients and have been showing them homes and driving around...granted its like 100 miles a day! i truly love it, and im really excited to be in this industry. at first it was really hard adjusting from being a stay at home mom to working. i felt guilty for not being with my kids. but as time has gone on i have realized that they still love me just as much, im still their mom, and they are still happy kids. so i have been feeling better about being gone, and now have come to learn how to take advantage of the time that i have with them even more.
my kids have been gems. i have seen positive changes in both of my kids, i think from getting real quality time with me and with todd. todd and i have great individual relationships with both kids and have both made huge efforts to always be with the kids, which it think is a big reason they are doing so well.
about a month ago i moved in with my brother sean, his wife robin, and their 6 kids. it was hard at first realizing that once again i wouldnt have my own home, and it took some adjusting for me....a few breakdowns later i am at peace with it and i am really having a fun time. i am so lucky to have family that will sacrifice so much to take us in. they have been such a blessing in my life. the kids love it.... they are always playing with the other cousins.and i love it...i get to hang out with 2 teenage girls full time, talk about boys, share clothes, and have some young hip friends to hang out with :) its been good for all of us.
i think personally i am feeling stronger, more confident, and more at peace with my life. i have had to realize a lot of things about myself this last 6 months that were hard to confront, and at times i have felt feelings of despair and self-hate. its been a long road, and i am completely aware that it is no where finished, but i feel like i have grown and have learned so much about life, happiness, relationships, friends, and being self reliant.
still..... i got a lot of growing to do :)
2 comments:
this was honest. and i imagine things were harder than anyone can understand fully. good for you for taking the necessary steps to take care of your family, even though it's difficult. stay strong.
it's good to hear that you're doing better. Remember that we are theonly ones who can make us happy. What you have been through is another chapter in your life that you will learn and grow from. We will never have it perfect, no matter who we are.
Love you lots!
Whitney
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