My 2013 Goal

The other day I was reading Casey Weigand's blog. She is a beautiful mother to 3 beautiful kids 3 and under. It's a very inspiring blog! You should take a look. Anyway, I read a post written by her about wanting to be better. A better person. A better wife. A better mother. Then at the end of that post, she says something that really has already changed my life for the better.

"I am tired of playing the games of this world. I am not of this world, so I no longer should be impacted by it."

It sounds cliche that this already has changed me. But it has. It has allowed me the courage to follow her and be not of this world. Like she said, I really am not of this world. So why do I let it impact me so much? Why do I care what other people think? 
                               
                
For some reason I have always struggled with caring about what other people think. I think this stems back from getting married so young. At first I was strong because I knew it was right. So it didn't matter what other people said or thought. But as time went on, these comments wore on me. I started feeling stupid and hated the fact that I did something no one approved of. Well, no one OF THE WORLD approved of it. My heavenly father did approve of it. Anyway, ever since then I have been more self conscious about what the world thinks of my decisions. Stupid, I know...

But "I am tired of playing the games of this world". I am tired of wondering what others will think. I am tired of editing my thoughts and decisions before the world sees them.

I don't mean that I'm always fake and not really myself. I'm just usually only about 90% of myself, and hide things or thoughts that I am scared I will be judged by.

Not anymore. I am now always going to be myself 100% of the time. I am no longer scared of getting judged by those of the world. I truly no longer care.

It is freeing.

It gives me strength.

It is refreshing!

So here's to a new year of being in this world, but not OF it.

Cheers. :)

(besides.. If I didn't get married when I did, I wouldn't have this beauty with me. I wouldn't trade that for anything!)