Busy little bee

A'salaamu alaikum ya'll. I am sorry I haven't posted in a bit but well with Ramadhan, my father's death (inna ilayhi wa inna lillahi rajioon), college starting this week, kids going back to school and all that entails PLUS the fact I was in the hospital again this weekend alhamdulillah... I just ain't had the time.

I'm looking at another 6+ week course of really strong iv antibiotics. Alhamdulillah. I would rather look forward to a 6+ weeks of good health but allahu alim. We have to accept the qadr (fate) that Allah gives us. Insha'allah I will feel better, in this life or the next.

Anyway my classes start this week and there is a little stress with the financial aid. I applied 3 months ago but they still do not have my awards in the system. Which is kinda ridiculous as all they need to do is an update I assume since it comes from the FAFSA website, all approved and ready to go.

Insha'allah it will all come together in the next couple of weeks. Of course, right now school is the LAST thing on my mind but you know, it has to be done anyway. I just really feel like I want to move. Blending families is hard and with Aaminah and I coming into a place already set it, its been hard to rearrange, change, and organize. Alhamdulillah I've done ALOT since January but some things can't really be fixed. We are pretty tight in here. We have 6 people in a 3 bedroom apt but 3 of them are girls so they are all crammed in together. Alhamdulillah I am not complaining but to be honest I am dreaming of a little more space.

The thing is, A works where we live so its super convenient plus I get to see him alot during the day. This couldn't happen if we take a place off of the complex. So it's really difficult to decide what to do. I just know these close quarters are getting kinda.... tight. :-) I pray Allah gives us the best for us in both worlds, ameen.

Alright this has been a bit of a disorganized post but that's really like my mind right now so it's appropriate. :-)

Ma salaama ya'll...

Go to sleep, go to sleeeeeeep!

A'salaamu alaikum ya'll. A four hour nap does not a sleepy girl make. Now Aaminah is wiiiiide awake and it's almost 11 pm. I didn't realize she had slept so long and I left to run an errand. A didn't realize either but guess who is up with her? lol Of course Mama.

I am also considering going back to finish my degree. Maybe I am the person who has been in school the longest without completing anything; what a recognition. lol I originally started university directly after high school but wasn't able to complete the semester. I was already sick then but didn't know it and I just couldn't focus. I mean my grades were awesome, all As but come on, they were easy classes. I had no drive, no ambition and it really wasn't like me.

Fast forward about 5 years. Zack was 3 and I felt he was old enough for me to attempt again. I was working full-time at TN school for the deaf and went to school on weekends. I did Anatomy and Physiology I and II plus some other small classes. I had a 3.8 GPA masha'Allah all while working full-time and being a mommy and wife. Then I got pregnant with Alex and put it on hold again.

Returned when he was two and completed a year but my kidneys had failed by then and I was on dialysis. Just got too sick, had too many surgeries, same old story. :-)

Transplant was 2002 and that same year I decided to fast-track (due to divorce) and just go for my LPN and later work on my RN. However 6 months into the program, you guessed it, I ended up missing too many hours and had to drop out.

So now my health is somewhat stable (if you dont think of my multiple infections and hospitalizations this past year) and I realllllly want to finish my degree. If I ever go overseas for an extended period I could help our family insha'Allah.

Please make dua that Allah makes this easy on us amin and I am able to start AND finally finish. Amin amin amin! :-)

Ma salaama!