So a couple of weeks ago I reserved my room for next year so that I wouldn’t have to bother being in a different dorm room/building and yesterday this guy showed up at my door and said that he had chosen to move into the room and then tried to pull his friend in and it didn’t work because I was already here so he asked if I would mind trying to move so that he can pull his friend in. In my head I was like ‘-.- why don’t you just move seeing as he’s your friend’ but since I’m not usually a horrible person I decided to see if I could move. Turns out housing said that since I’ve already retained my room then in order to move I’ll need someone to switch places with, which is silly seeing as there’s a bunch of doubles still available in this building. I’ll switch with his friend if his friend lives in a double in this building but I’m kind of doubting that that will be the case so now I’m like ‘well.. at least he’s cute :D’

Theism and Atheism

I am going to explain exactly why the following picture pisses me off:


This poster shows nothing but the staggering quantity of ignorance radiating from its creator(s). Which is not to say that it holds no bearing - I have to agree that the Big Bang Theory is not the greatest scientific theory ever created. Point being it is not the only possible atheistic belief. Claiming that all atheists believe that nothing exploded to create everything is like saying that every single person on this planet who believes in god is catholic. Does that claim come off as really fucking stupid to anyone other than me?

Any person who believes in one or more gods is lumped into this one gigantic category called Theism, and anyone who does not believe in a god is lumped into another category called Atheism. Just like Theism, Atheism has many different beliefs and theories, and is just as broad as Theism.

Don't get me wrong, I don't have a problem with people believing in one or more deities, however, I do have a problem with people trying to claim that I'm going to go to hell for not believing in a god, or more specifically, their god. If all religions claim that anyone who has a different religion than them is going to hell, then every single fucking person on this planet is going to hell.

Where you will be able to listen to Black Sabbath for all of eternity.

P.S.
Entropy is fake.

A Letter

I seem to be having familial problems. This is the letter that I composed to attempt to start healing the situation. I don't know what to do now. Apparently my father is under the impression that I hate him.

Dad,
You shouldn't think that I hate you. You're my father, of course I love you.

One time, you were talking to my brother about body hair. You said, and I quote, "and then there are the fucking fags that shave it." Don't try to say that you never said that, because it was that sentence more than anything that made me afraid to talk to you. Because, Dad, I guess I am a "fucking fag." It was that sentence that left me with the feeling that you would hate me if you found out. As for recent irritability... well, let's just say that if you loved someone, and then they were torn away from you, I bet you wouldn't exactly be a happy person either.

I wanted to say all of this to your face, but I don't think that I am strong enough. I have enough trouble just writing it down. If you can find it in your heart to still love me then maybe one day we can talk about it, but I just can't do it right now. I have been stressed and depressed and just want to be left alone to try to heal.

Love,
Jeremy

P.S. I really am sorry about the kick. I understand that you want to maintain some kind of relationship with me (at least, I hope you still do), but... can it please be one where I don't have to feel like you are going to do something at some point whenever we are in the same room? Please?

Privacy

Well, I'm not sure what to say.

I feel like my blog no longer contains the amount of anonymity necessary for me to post about personal matters. Rather than posting here, I've been keeping a journal on my iPod. Which raises the question, what is the point of this blog now? Honestly, I'm not sure there is one anymore. As bloggers that I have never even heard of before figure out who I am and try to add me on facebook (which is not okay by the way), I become less and less likely to post anything at all.

I'm going to keep the blog, but I probably will not be posting anymore.

Thanks for the support.

Personality

I haven't really been writing anything of substance here lately, I kind of lost interest in having a blog. I actually started to keep a journal on my iPod touch, which is a place I can write anything and nobody will see it. However, the most recent thing that I wrote (which was earlier today) I felt was something that I could put here as well...

Every personality test that I have ever taken pegs me as a loner. The type of person that is shy and withdrawn and hates crowds and people. In general though, I DO like to be around people. The problem is that I've been betrayed too many times, and now I find it almost impossible to completely trust anyone. I find it difficult to even justify speaking to a psychologist (I still have not spoken to one). The only reason I put it here, is because here I am anonymous. Although a few people have figured out who I am, and that might be one of the reasons that I don't post here much anymore.

I think that possibly one of the most accurate personality tests I've taken was the one on facebook (I believe it is this: facebook.com/mypersonality). I can share if it people want, it's posted publicly on my facebook page, but I don't intend to put it in this post (or link to my facebook page >_>)...

There's only one person that I currently trust completely, but unfortunately we aren't able to talk much recently...


Oh and I feel like I have to add, this heat wave in the northeast is killing me, what the hell is with over 95 degrees?! D:< Seriously, I couldn't sleep last night because it was so hot.

Oh and belated happy 4th of july for americans >_>

Unfortunately

I think I'm falling back into depression.

I haven't exactly been in the greatest state of mind recently, but I will work things out in my head.

Living alone is a lot more lonely than I anticipated...

I don't usually make sad posts... sorry :/

As far as work goes

Apparently this summer work involves learning graduate level nuclear reactor physics and DOS programming. So yeah I spent about 7 hours today working on a physics problem, I'm still trying to get this program to run. The VENTURE program that I had to order from the government has a 300 page user manual.

It's not exactly my idea of fun, but I'm getting paid to do it, and I do enjoy an intellectual challenge.

I am really not a fan of DOS programming though -_-