I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be special and want to stand 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to be normal like everybody else
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be noticed by others and praised so that i can feel good about myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be a important person that other people can admire
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life would be so much easier if I was special and that it would be more exciting
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that me wanting to be special is me not accepting myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to believe that the only way for me to get ahead in life is to special - not realizing that this is a belief based on my perception as a child that life is a competition.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to instead of wanting to be special to accept myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the only way to survive in this world is to compete and thus i have to be special.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that nobody is special and that nobody is more than another.
I commit myself to realize that I do not need to compete to survive this life
I commit myself to realize that nobody can be more than another and that nobody is special.
I commit myself to stop wanting to be more than others or stand out more - I stop my ego.
I commit myself to instead of wanting to be admired by others to accept myself - because if I cannot accept myself I cannot change myself for I will always resent who I am
I commit myself to realize being special wont make life easier, but that I will have to face this world with who I am
