K had her thyroid removed a few months back, and though she has recovered well physically, she has been feeling like something is missing, that she isn't 'whole' anymore. I've been giving distant Reiki & she has been working through things so that it's not such a burning issue all the time.
Every time I connect with K for healing, I see Thor with a bolt of lightening... I'm sure the lightening is important, a key to her healing, but so far I haven't been able to understand the message. It's about direct action, cutting through the crap, getting to the heart of the matter.... but I was still missing where to aim at. Until this morning when I had a very real experience of this visualisation...
See yourself walking across a barren hillside, the skiy is damp, grey & miserable … keep walking…walking away from everything behind you…. Away from home, family, friends, work… anyone & anything you’re involved with… keep walking, climbing upwards… as the landscape gets emptier & the wind gets wilder… you have to bend forward against the wind as it whips around you… keep going until you get to a high point where there is nothing else in sight apart from cold open moors… no trees, just hard scrubby, stony ground…. stop and turn slowly round… a full circle, seeing nothing but bleak emptiness… just cold greyness… all alone with the wind whipping around … straight through you…. watch the sky darken as rain starts to lash down… you’re as miserable as you can be as the rain turns to sleet & hail… stinging against your face & pounding into the stony barren ground….
[spend some time feeling this & pause at each following part to
really feel & sense what is going on]
Straighten your body …. Pull yourself up till you’re standing tall…. Plant your feet firmly & feel them growing down into the ground…. Hold your arms out low to your sides, palms up…. As your roots take a firmer grip into the earth…. Feel them stretching down & down to the warmth of the core… The wind & hail are still whipping around you but you can feel the warmth & energy slowly creeping up your roots into your feet… pumped by Gaia’s heartbeat… filling your feet… ankles… up to your legs…. and every part of your body...Feel the molten earth energy steadily surging upwards, and as it slowly moves up your body throw back your head to the skies & raise your arms, raising the energy around you… let it fill your body & mind … as you stand with your arms outstretched the wind increases & thunder clouds boil overhead…The cold & numbness leave your body but as the wind increases tempo you feel the warmth within you swirling round, rumbling inside you, also increasing… molten, volcanic energy surging around your body… it needs feeding…. Start throwing all those angry feelings into the volcano within you… anger, resentment, fear, bitterness…. Every emotion you have felt surrounding your operation… before, during & after…
For this next
bit, it’s important that you use feelings that YOU have/had/feel… not words I’m
putting into your mind… I’m just going through things that came to me, but
they’re not necessarily yours, so throw them out & draw on your feelings…
The worries & pain… the acceptance… the fears & tears, the pragmatic well it has to be’s… name them as you throw them in… every symptom… the thought of cancer… the relief it wasn’t… the anger it wasn’t & there was no need to lose a part of you… the feelings of loss, grief for what isn’t there… the bitterness… the defective gland, the thought you could have corrected it, should have been able to, the anger it didn’t do it’s job… the frustration of not ‘getting over it’… the frustration at the surgeon not understanding… of other people… certain people not understanding
Keep throwing things in til you can’t think of any more… stand there in the wind & rain with thunder rumbling around you as the volcano consumes your hurts… the clouds are almost as black as night now & a storm is raging… cast around for more hurts… the feelings connected to your family…anyone... past or present…. anger, resentment, sadness… all of it… throw them into the volcano… scream, shout, swear, curse…. All of them, throw anything… everything in… feel it raging as you you feed it, demanding more… it wants more… more hurt, more pain, more anger, more bitterness…. Always more… you drag things up desperately feeding the boiling furnace…You start to feel desperate as you clutch at more & more petty things to throw in… where’s Thor, why isn’t he helping…. Where’s Frigg, what use is she being… the thunder is getting louder… lightening is slashing through the skies… all around you…. Getting closer…. You’re on your knees now … exhausted, pitiful, wounded, cold, sniveling, pathetic…
[I think you
really have to act this bit out & feel the emotion running through you]
If you are uncomfortable with the idea of Thor & Frigg, they can be replaced by who or whatever is appropriate for you... or maybe you'd prefer to use the elements alone...
You look up… Thor is just standing… looking… not saying anything…. Frigg is sitting to one side of you looking really sad… you get mad now… at them… at yourself…. You’re begging, pleading for help… screaming at them to do something… Thor asks “what do you want”…. You say ‘”me… I want me back”“what? I can’t hear you”You shout “Me.. I want [your name] back”Stand up & shout it again… louder… and again... louder Thor raises his hand & throws… lightening and thunder explode simultaneously around you… through you…. The volcano erupts… all you see is flash of brightness…. Then silence… stillness… Just stand there a while before you open your eyes to see clouds receding…. Breathe deeply the scent of rain after a storm & feel a shaft of sunlight break through & hit your back… feel the warmth spreading through you as you look around… You’re still on the same wide-open hillside, but you notice sparkles of quartz in the stones… and little patches of tiny flowers growing here n there… and just over there… can you see it… a little sapling… it’s not very tall but it’s standing straight & proud, raindrops hanging off it’s little branches glistening in the sun…. maybe it’s a rowan or hawthorn, maybe a pine or birch, they often survive on a wild hillside… maybe it’s some other type that has managed to take root, but you’ll recognize it… gently draw back the roots that anchored you in one spot and wander over to have a closer look… Whatever tree it is, it’s a symbol of new growth… of resilience… strength. It’s the tree that will help you re-connect…
I'd be really interested to here how effective this is for any one that tries it. Or if you would like help in adapting this to your own needs you are welcome to contact me. Please leave a comment or email healing.whispers at yahoo.co.uk
