Nick went into the office today, and he has a dinner at Del Frisco's tonight. So it's just me, Lexi and a bunch of Susan Lucci infomercials until 10 p.m. or so. No bones about it- I'm jealous. I want to be drinking expensive red wine, eating double eagle steak and that delicious jalapeno mac and cheese, and making small talk and fake laughing at bad jokes.
Instead I'll be rummaging around in the 'fridge hoping those left over fajitas or that BBQ chicken I made is still viable.
I am also feeling really frustrated. We have this doctor we have been seeing about the baby thing, and plain and simple- he's just a jerk. He comes in for about three minutes at every appointment (no joke), talks way over our heads way too quickly, throws out scary terms and scenarios and then leaves us sitting in those cold, plastic chairs with our heads spinning. I'm pretty sure he doesn't have a wife, kids and possibly not even a heart. Because who treats people like that?
I have met two people who used this same doctor recently, and they share the exact same opinion. Unfortunately, he is the only doctor with his speciality our area and he's supposed to be really good at what he does, so we're kind of stuck. We had called about a concern we are having and really wanted to talk to him before our next appointment in March. After two days he finally had his nurse return our call, because "he is too busy." Thanks for not helping.
Nick and I handle all of this a lot differently. Nick works through things quietly on his own and really doesn't let much get to him. He just kind of rolls with things as they come and always sees the best case scenario. That's the attitude I would like to have. But I'm afraid that I'm just not wired that way. God basically has to tackle me and pin me down into submission- kicking, screaming, over analysing and talking things to death-before I am able to tap out and just accept things for what they are. After all of that I can finally get on board with being positive and hoping for the best.
So that's where I am today. Kicking and screaming amidst the pajama wearing. And situation bemoaning. And steak wanting. And blog stalking and Words With Friends playing and Facebook status checking. And also, puzzling over the amount of plastic surgery Susan Lucci must have had! Because no way the Malibu Pilates Chair and the Youthful Essence Microderm System she's promoting work that well!
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I'm sorry Chelsea that you are going through this. Sometimes it seems like if it's not one thing it's another. I wish I could offer grand words of wisdom to make you feel better, but unfortunately I'm none too wise. I just know that lately, when life gets me down, I've been turning to God and somehow everything seems to work itself out. So, I'll keep praying for you and that God will see you guys through.
Hang in there...
I am sorry to hear about that! My advice (not that you asked for any...) is to find a different doctor. Even if he is really far away, even if it is totally inconvenient it will be worth it.
You will never regret changing to someone you are more comfortable with, but you will regret staying with someone you don't like. Especially if things don't work out the way you want them to. You will always wonder if there was more that could have been done, but because he was a jerk, he didn't do. Just saying!
I really hope everything works out for you guys. Obviously, I haven't been thru half of what you are going thru/have been thru, but I DO know what it feels like to want to be (and in my case STAY) pregnant more than anything.
Chelsea, your words make me want to cry! I am so sorry that you are going through this... it just doesn't seem fair.
I would agree, there has to be another doctor somewhere, even if they are far away. I've been there with heartless doctors with my mom's cancer and subsequent surgeries, and it is SO unbelievably frustrating how rude some people are. Because we have seen SO many different weirdo doctors, I actually have begun to think that awkward people choose the medical profession for some strange reason.
I know that it isn't easy, but I know that one day you will be a mommy (and the BEST mommy at that)!
I have been and will continue to pray for you!
You have every right to have a "pity party" (for lack of better terms).
I cannot stand Doctors who are too busy and jerkish to their patients. Seriously not cool! Is there any other doctor with his specialty in the surrounding areas? I hate that y'all are dealing with him!
Susan Lucci had to have a lot of work done!
Hang tough,my dear. You've never been one to take things lightly and that's what I love about you. You fight until you make it right. You have a perserverance few can only imagine. The yin and yang of Nick and you is perfect. It's all part of the plan.
Glad you enjoyed your sushi. Nothing like finding solace in yourself. That's true peace.
Love you more than you'll ever know. MOM XXOO
I'm so sorry to hear about the jerky doctor. Hopefully you can find another, like Regina said, farther away. I don't know why some doctors get so cocky because they know they're good. Doctors should definitely have to take a course in bedside manner!
Hey. As you know I also have a story with infertility. I'm an open book so anything I can be of help with, please let me know. I could call my doctor here and ask who he recommends on that side of town too. I've many a blog post and emails about our experience. I'll have someone I like to call mom give you my email address if you want it.
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