Showing posts with label overcome. Show all posts
Showing posts with label overcome. Show all posts

Friday, 5 September 2014

Missing Life skills: Why do I have a fear of Insects?

 

images I heard an interesting discussion on the radio today. The guy who talking is a Nature lover, but the problem he has is that he is absolutely terrified of spiders. He said that every time he sees a spider he actually freezes with fear and starts sweating.

He said that what he did to find the reason for this fear is go back to his childhood. When he was a kid he was playing around the lounge and fell asleep under a chair. He then had a nightmare of a spider coming down from the chair and sitting on his face. In the dream when this happened he went to fear and started sweating and since that day he was afraid of spiders.

This is the reason with most people. You will find that there is a memory from childhood where something happened with some sort of insect that was when the fear began. Allot of people don’t even know this and it could be a suppressed memory.

When I grew up I had a fear of moths. I knew it was a bit weird, but I had a big fear of moths. I could not be in the same room as a moth. I traced the fear back to a memory from childhood. I was in bed about to go to sleep and the room was dark, but I saw what looked like a massive moth flying around in my room. It only happened for a second – like seeing a shooting star – what seemed like a giant moth flying over the bed above my face. I totally freaked out and called my parents…well, more like screamed for them. They came in the room and turned on the light with worried and confused expressions asking me what. I told them what I saw, but I looked around the room and saw there was no giant moth.

I was so certain there was a giant moth, but clearly there wasn’t. Still, since that day I was very afraid of moths. I find this interesting, how a simple event in your early life no matter how small can affect your whole life. And the reason why it effected my life is because when the event happened I did not direct the situation, I was young and did not understand how these things work or how to direct myself.

So this is an example of how an event and how you react to that event can affect your life. This is why it is so important to learn how to become self-directed, so that when these events occur you can make sure it has no effect on who you are, right now we are not taught how to do these things and its an important life skill to have. To found out more go here

Tuesday, 19 March 2013

Day 148 Facing Something New

 

Facing something new - anything that I have not yet done and don't know how to do that brings in an experience of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see new challenges and new points that bring uncertainty as being bad and something to fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when facing uncertainty to go into fear that I would not know what to do and fail220px-Blank_Fork

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I would screw up in this task, because I have not done it before and thus don’t know if I am able to do it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there is no way that I will know if I will fail with something unless I have given it my all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not good enough when facing a new point

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have faced new points in the past where I was uncertain and regardless of that I pushed through and moved past it and learned that it was not so bad and learned new things

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I see myself as not good enough for this new task at hand and fear that I would fail – I set myself up to fail – where I would create a pattern and face this new task with the starting point of ‘’I am going to fail’’ and then create that failure, instead of facing the task head on and giving it my best

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself a chance when facing a new task – to embrace this new challenge and see it as an opportunity to learn something new about myself and this particular task.

I commit myself to stop seeing new challenges and new points as bad and something to fear, instead I see it as an opportunity to expand myself and learn something new about myself

I commit myself  stop going into fear of failure when facing a new task, instead I breathe and realize that I have faced many new points and uncertainty and regardless of it I pushed through and did it as saw it was not as bad as I made it out to be

I commit myself to stop the belief and idea that if I do not know how to do something it means I cannot and judge myself as not good enough for it. Instead I realize that I did not know how to do many things I do now – and I know now, because I taught myself how and learnt from others and it is like this with many points. Thus when faced with new points I simply do not know how to do it…..yet.

Thursday, 9 August 2012

Day 65 - Also Attracted to Broken Girls Part 2

 

Here follows the process of self change and taking self-responsibility for myself and my life regarding this blog :   I write here as the person/character i was when i was younger so i bring the past and the memories and experiences to here in the present moment and write it out

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the character of being attracted to broken girls and to live my life with this part of who i am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define those who are in pain as being  broken and lost and need savingbroken-woman-solitude-alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to specifically seek out those who are in pain so that I can put myself in a position where I can save them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be their savior by helping them to get over the point that is controlling their life and wanting to fix them so that i can feel better about myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i can only live life if i feel good and that if i do not feel good and feel like shit all the time i wont be able to continue living

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason i helped others was because of fear - the fear that if I continue to feel like shit i wont be able to continue this life and so I have to help others in order to feel good to be alive

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to ever realize that i created this character when my mother died and that i have based my life on that event

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in this savior character sacrifice my life and only focus on fixing them completely disregarding myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that what i am seeing within them is myself and that the only reason why i want to save them is so that they don't continue feel the pain I am feeling - and in that i am hiding myself and ignoring my own problems and not taking self responsibility by sorting myself out

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to assist and support myself - to never realize the possibility that i have the power to overcome this depression and to delete this character and become real - that i am the creator of my life and everything i experience and thus i have the power to get rid of the bullshit i created in my life

 

broken-wings-woman-sereneI commit myself to stop and delete the character of wanting to be with broken girls so that i can save them

I commit myself to stop and delete the savior character so that i can feel good about myself when helping others - because i see the selfishness of this - that i am not helping others for their sake, but that I an doing it to feel good which is a limitation and a condition: I will only help others if it makes me feel good - this is not not a selfless act - it is self interest

I commit myself to  realize that i am seeing myself in these girls and i am helping them because i want to help myself and so I commit myself to stop hiding myself and to look at the points in my life and to sort out my problems

I commit myself to stop and delete the depression that i created which is controlling my life, my actions, my words and thoughts .

I commit myself to become self directed by not allowing a feeling or my past to control my life - but to do something because it is what is best for not and not only myself

I commit myself to stop the fear of death

I commit myself to stop disregarding myself and hiding myself from myself - but to face my self

I commit myself to assist and support myself by becoming real - because only real people can make a real difference in this world

Sunday, 15 July 2012

Day 48 - How alcohol destroys life and why to stop it

 

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to seek for ways to make myself feel better in life because there is so much i don't like about it and with drinking alcohol I can suppress all the bad things in my life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i can drown alcoholism my sorrows by drinking it all away and in that make my life not seem so bad

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use alcohol as an excuse to not sort out my life and take self responsibility but to instead try and forget by drinking

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as i drink alcohol as a cure for all my problems - my life will never change - because i see my life as ok when i drink thus not giving myself a reason to change myself and deal with my problems

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to then in moment become overwhelmed  with sadness in my drunken state and then to try make that go away by drinking more - not realizing that by suppressing all my problems they accumulate and eventually come out and this is proof that i cannot drink away my problems

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself go when drinking alcohol and in this lose the ability to suppress myself any longer and become overwhelmed with anger and rage which i have been suppressing through out my life

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that drinking alcohol i loose my self directive and become possessed by  all my feelings, thoughts and emotions and all the backchat  - in this I become a very dangerous being that could harm another depending on my suppressions

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to punish myself by destroying my body and my life with drinking - believing that i don't deserve a life

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately throw my life away and gave away self responsibility so that i can have an excuse not to face myself and the choices i made  and to use alcohol as the perfect excuse to not change - and then to create the believe and choice that alcohol has power over me and i cant stop it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i do not have the power to stop drinking - not realizing that i am the one who DECIDED to drink and i gave my power away - i created this and in that i can DECIDE to not drink my life away and to commit myself to this choice

I commit myself to stop seeking ways outside myself to make myself feel better and to make my life seem better like drinking alcohol - but to instead look within myself and to sort out my problems

I commit myself to stop hiding and running away from my problems and to keep on suppressing them but to instead face myself and sort myself out

I commit myself to stop using alcohol as an excuse for not taking self responsibility for my life and the reason for why i cannot change

I commit myself to take self responsibility by looking at the choices i have made over the years  that shaped who i am today and what i allow and don't allow - and to change them accordingly

I commit myself to see that i am the creator and that i created this belief that alcohol has power over me and that is what i decided to be true - and as the creator i commit myself to stop this belief and to take my power back by choosing to stop alcohol and to let go of the hold that alcohol has on me realizing that it is not real

I commit myself to become self directive and to not allow anything outside myself to direct who I am 

I commit myself to stop punishing myself but to let go of the past so that i can move on with my life 

Tuesday, 10 July 2012

Journey to life Day 44 - The ''Depressed'' Character

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to become the depressed character when things don't go my way

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to within this cha24004 racter become ineffective in what im doing and cant seem to do anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to within this character become tides and want to sleep all the time and to see the world as not a place i want to be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to within this character see myself as the victim and believe that something was done unto me

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to use this character as an excuse for not doing all that needs to be done

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed to realize that i created this character - and then within that I made myself the victim

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed to realize that i have been using this character as an perfect excuse for not doing anything

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed to realize the true reason for this character which is me not wanting to do anything and take self responsibility - and it is me blaming the world which is actually all to do with me since i created this character

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to believe that this character is real and that it has power over me and that I have no choice but to give into thus character

I forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed to see that this character is not real and in that I have the power to delete this character

I commit myself to stop the depressed character

I commit myself to be self directed and to not allow anything outside myself to direct me and who I am

I commit myself to realize that i created this character as an excuse for not standing and thus I delete this character

I commit myself to not allow myself to become ineffective but to consistent

I commit myself to stop the tiredness when things gets too much - because i see its me facing resistance so I push through and overcome it

I commit myself to stop seeing myself as the victim but to instead see that i created this character and so take self responsibility and delete it

I commit myself to not allow any excuse for not taking self responsibility and to stand consistently

Tuesday, 22 May 2012

Journey to life day 16 - Fearing conflict


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to out of fear to avoid conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make sure that my actions never cause conflict with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself  to compromise myself by not speaking up when I see I need to because it would cause conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow fear of conflict to direct me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  fear conflict situations because I fear I won’t be able to direct myself or the situation effectively 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot handle conflict situations based on past experiences – not realizing that I have never actually directed myself to become effective

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a peaceful person that does not get angry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself because I fear conflict
I commit myself not to hide or run away from conflict

I commit myself to embrace conflict – because through conflict you create friction  and its through friction where points get moving

I commit myself to push myself through the fear and resistances to say what needs to be said and not to worry about if I will be effective or not. 

I commit myself to stop comprising myself by avoiding directing myself and others

I commit myself to stand strong when a point needs to be said and to follow through