Ellie & Fitz

We've spent 4 days as a family of 4 and it's been the sweetest and of course most exhausting days we've had. I have to almost laugh at the early days of Ellie's life. I felt so helpless and overwhelmed. While I feel that those were legitimate feelings, I had no idea what was in store with an added extra. I think a much bigger deal should be made over all proceeding children.

Ellie & Fitz were both the sweetest babies, but I can already see some major differences. Ellie had a hard time eating but was a champ sleeper from about day 4. She also came out independent. She was a hold me or not, I do not care kind of baby. Fitz is a champ eater, a so-so sleeper and demands to be held...always.

I've prayed since the day we found out he was on his way that he and Ellie would be best friends and a support for one another. So far, Ellie loves him. She always says, "I hold it" meaning him of course. She's even tried to help me out and nurse him once in a while. She's never short on hugs or kisses, and she always wants to make sure, "baby comin'?" I have high hopes for these two. Shes not been without her tantrums and outbursts but she hasn't very jealous and if anything helps just a tiny bit too much. Figuring out who to take to the bathroom with me is always a gamble. She really never leaves his side.

Mornings have been the hardest with two bums needing to be changed and two mouths needed to bed fed IMMEDIATELY, but once we get the first, oh hour or so, under our belts we're slowly figuring it out. Last night we were driving home, just the 3 of us and both kids were crying screaming and j.rue was calling trying to figure out the dinner situation. Fitz would only quite down if the radio was up and I was singing at the top of my lungs. Ellie only wanted to listen to 'Shake it Off' at a medium level, but of course once we got to that song, dad was calling. We were also driving home from Ogden, 35 minutes of pure bliss I tell you. We also attempted an outing while dad worked from home. It was ugly to say the least, but it gives me hope for humanity because everyone went out of their way to help me. Bless them.

Two funny stories: Yesterday, I was nursing Fitz and Ellie was coloring on the floor. Without saying a word she got up and walked over to us and licked Fitz's head. I laughed and asked her if his hair tasted good. She said "yep!" and went back to coloring. Silly little goose. Second, Ellie asked to "hold it" and I set her up with the boppy and the baby. She promptly tries to start feeding him to the best of her knowledge. It's so funny to watch her interpret life.

Early this morning, around 4 a.m., I was mentally going through my day reliving all of the frustrating and peaceful moments and began thinking about how I worry I won't remember them. I want to remember every single thing. Everything. I do tend to become a bit obsessive that early in the morning but blogging is the only way I feel like I can do that. I owe it to them, my tiny sweethearts.

A BABY AND A WEDDING

Last night I was lucky enough to go and visit one of my favorite people and her sweet baby in the hospital. Heidi and I have been friends since our freshman year of college. We ran wild together Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights and then managed to have many a sleepover in one of our twin beds. We have the same sometimes grouchy demeanor, love clothes, and are uncanny look-alikes to boot. If we have a quarter for every time someone asked us if we were sisters we'd be living the life of luxury. We even got the twin question a couple of times.

Anywho, she had her sweet baby boy, Holden, on Monday and I couldn't wait to get over to see both of them. Holden is the cutest, tiniest, sweetest baby ever and the feet! Oh! baby feet. You know? I might have tried to sneak him out of the hospital, but then I found out that they have sensors attached the their leg until they check out that would set off alarms if I tried to leave the wing, and I didn't feel like putting the hospital on lock down.

We decided that if I had a girl in the near future that a marriage would be arranged so that we could be for real related. Because, aren't arranged marriages the best marriages? Mothers know best. Now, I just need to get brave enough to get one of my own.

I love love love Heidi and can't wait to watch her become the awesome mommy I know she can be. I know this because she mothered me though my first year of college. Really.

After the baby visit I headed over to Jeremy's cousin, Cecilee's wedding reception. Unfortunately, she was so popular that night I couldn't sneak her into a picture. Just know that she looked beautiful, like all brand new brides do. Of course I did a lot of hanging out with my little buddy Brookie. I don't know what I would do without that sweet spunky baby. I really really don't.

We loved catching up with family we don't see too often and as you can see, Jeremy loved the food. Smoked salmon from Alaska, who wouldn't???

As for me, I'm just happy it's finally sweater weather. I love the time in between hot and freezing cold days -- you know where you can still wear a sweater but not scrape your windshield in the morning? Glorious.