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You know what I haven't done in a long time? A bullet point post. Those are excellent for times like now when I don't have a singular topic that I really want to blog on, but I have MANY thoughts rolling around in the noggin'.
- I am still working on the novel, for all of you have been DYING OF CURIOSITY regarding this matter. I can't say that the progress is particularly fast, but I am still working at it. I find it interesting how much time I spend just thinking about the characters and where the story will go. Does anyone else who writes do this?
- On my way home tonight, I nearly had a car accident in the round about. It is a pretty low traffic area. There are only three lanes of traffic going into and out of the round about. (In other words the road T's out on one end.) If you unfamiliar with a roundabout, each car going into the roundabout has a yield sign. Ergo, if there is another vehicle in the roundabout, you wait until they have passed before entering. I was behind another car approaching from the bottom part of the T, if you can visualize that, and would ultimately be making a left turn. While I was in the roundabout, a minivan, who was approaching from the right side of the T, waited for the car in front me, and then decided to just come on out. I kept on going, but I really thought they were going to just plunge into my side.
- Do you think that they didn't understand Yield? Maybe they thought it meant you take turns. I am not sure, but it sure took my breath away.
- Still going to my tapping therapy approximately once a week. We are now really getting into what I would consider the really traumatic issues. I have learned a lot. For instance...
- Every bad thing that has happened to me relates back in some way to Boundaries. All of my life, my Boundaries have been Terrible. Some of the worst things that I have allowed to happen to me simply stem from a belief system of not wanting to hurt someone else's feelings... even if it has meant doing horrible damage to myself.
- I don't know how we can teach ourselves, and our kids better younger, that we have value, but this needs to happen. Yes, being kind to others is very important, but kindness to others at the expense of yourself isn't actually a kindness. It's a Boundary Issue. It's actually telling someone that you don't have any. And people who have Reverse Boundary Issues (they don't respect other people's boundaries) will be drawn to someone with Boundary Issues like a magnet. I know this to be true. It is the pattern that I lived repeatedly.
- In order to break a pattern, you have to see the pattern. That is freeing information right there.
- In addition to my not wanting to hurt anyone else's feelings, I have a Rescuer Complex. This is actually another Boundary Issue. The Rules of Life indicate that you will reap what you sow.... unless someone alters the natural order of things. That someone would be a Rescuer.
- Rescuers disallow people with other Boundary Issues from feeling the pains of their habits. For instance, if someone is bad with money, the only way they will get better is if they suffer from their poor budgeting. If they have a Rescuer in their life, that person will never feel the pain of their mismanagement. However, the Rescuer will. There is a Law and someone will feel the pain.
- Let's just say that 20+ years of Rescuing and being in close relationships with people who have Reverse Boundary Issues have taken their toll.
- The Rules of Life still apply and it says that everyone will always reap what they have sown. I am reaping what I have sown. I am reaping 20+ years of acceptance that other people's wants were more important than my needs, as well as all of that Rescuing. For my trouble, I got a ten year migraine and a host of autoimmune issues.
- So, what I know is this: the spirit rejects these things and transforms this bad thinking into illness.
- Conversely, I must believe as the thinking improves, the manifestations in the body will follow.
- Understanding Boundary Issues has given me a whole new perspective on my life. I can now see that things didn't "just happen" to me. I can also own my part in the things that did happen. Grasping that makes all the difference because getting that means not allowing those things to happen again.
- It feels like I was asleep for all of my life and I just woke up. I didn't know any of the Rules of Life and that was why it was so hard. Life will never be "easy" but it can make sense.
And that is pretty much the news in the Land of Robin. Please leave a comment and tell me what is going on in the Land of You!
