Divine Intervention

Somewhere between last Sunday and Thursday, I lost my big to-do list. The one that included everything I had hoped to accomplish before I started working. I had successfully crossed off a small handful of tasks and had started working on a few more. I knew that a good amount of my goals would remain untouched and it was starting to stress me out. But really, it was a pretty ambitious list that didn't stand a chance once we all started getting sick.

I honestly felt lost for a few days. I knew there were a ton of things that I should or could be doing but couldn't focus my energy on a single task because my list was missing. So I just sat and read my book or cleaned up my place. I met friends for 3 hours for "coffee." Went shopping and enjoyed spur of the moment lunches.

And now that my first day of work is tomorrow, I know that I couldn't have spent my last few free days in a better way. No matter how hard you try to make yourself a completely clean slate to start from, it will never happen once there are kids in the picture. When you finally take care of paying that disputed doctor bill or finish a project, there is another one right around the corner. And I'm kind of at peace with that now. Sure, our lives will be hectic and I'll feel frazzled from time to time, but that's ok.

So today we are going to carve pumpkins and roast some seeds. I made my weekly menu and bought the groceries, so we'll cook this afternoon. I'll clean and I'll pick out my outfit for tomorrow. Then we'll watch Mad Men (is it seriously the finale already?!) and go to sleep early. I feel ready and I am so excited. Crossing off everything on that massive list couldn't have been a better ending to my time off than this day.